Part I
Stories
“No, Antone, I have told thee many times, no, thou shalt
not sell it until I am gone.”
“But I need money; what good is that old fiddle to thee?
The very crows laugh at thee when thou art trying to play.
Thy hand trembles so thou canst scarce hold the bow. Thou
shalt go with me to the Blue to cut wood to-morrow. See to
it thou art up early.”
“What, on the Sabbath, Antone, when it is so cold? I get
so very cold, my son, let us not go to-morrow.”
“Yes, to-morrow, thou lazy old man. Do not I cut wood
upon the Sabbath? Care I how cold it is? Wood thou shalt
cut, and haul it too, and as for the fiddle, I tell thee I will sell
it yet.” Antone pulled his ragged cap down over his low
heavy brow, and went out. The old man drew his stool up
nearer the fire, and sat stroking his violin with trembling fingers
and muttering, “Not while I live, not while I live.”
Five years ago they had come here, Peter Sadelack, and his
wife, and oldest son Antone, and countless smaller Sadelacks,
here to the dreariest part of south-western Nebraska, and had
taken up a homestead. Antone was the acknowledged master
of the premises, and people said he was a likely youth, and
would do well. That he was mean and untrustworthy every
one knew, but that made little difference. His corn was better
tended than any in the county, and his wheat always yielded
more than other men’s.
Of Peter no one knew much, nor had any one a good word
to say for him. He drank whenever he could get out of Antone’s
sight long enough to pawn his hat or coat for whiskey.
Indeed there were but two things he would not pawn, his
pipe and his violin. He was a lazy, absent minded old fellow,
who liked to fiddle better than to plow, though Antone surely
got work enough out of them all, for that matter. In the
house of which Antone was master there was no one, from
the little boy three years old, to the old man of sixty, who did
not earn his bread. Still people said that Peter was worthless,
and was a great drag on Antone, his son, who never drank,
and was a much better man than his father had ever been.
Peter did not care what people said. He did not like the country,
nor the people, least of all he liked the plowing. He was
very homesick for Bohemia. Long ago, only eight years ago
by the calendar, but it seemed eight centuries to Peter, he had
been a second violinist in the great theatre at Prague. He had
gone into the theatre very young, and had been there all his
life, until he had a stroke of paralysis, which made his arm so
weak that his bowing was uncertain. Then they told him he
could go. Those were great days at the theatre. He had plenty
to drink then, and wore a dress coat every evening, and there
were always parties after the play. He could play in those
days, ay, that he could! He could never read the notes well, so
he did not play first; but his touch, he had a touch indeed, so
Herr Mikilsdoff, who led the orchestra, had said. Sometimes
now Peter thought he could plow better if he could only bow
as he used to. He had seen all the lovely women in the world
there, all the great singers and the great players. He was in the
orchestra when Rachel played, and he heard Liszt play when
the Countess d’Agoult sat in the stage box and threw the master
white lilies. Once, a French woman came and played for
weeks, he did not remember her name now. He did not remember
her face very well either, for it changed so, it was
never twice the same. But the beauty of it, and the great hunger
men felt at the sight of it, that he remembered. Most of all
he remembered her voice. He did not know French, and
could not understand a word she said, but it seemed to him
that she must be talking the music of Chopin. And her voice,
he thought he should know that in the other world. The last
night she played a play in which a man touched her arm, and
she stabbed him. As Peter sat among the smoking gas jets
down below the footlights with his fiddle on his knee, and
looked up at her, he thought he would like to die too, if he
could touch her arm once, and have her stab him so. Peter
went home to his wife very drunk that night. Even in those
days he was a foolish fellow, who cared for nothing but music
and pretty faces.
It was all different now. He had nothing to drink and little
to eat, and here, there was nothing but sun, and grass, and
sky. He had forgotten almost everything, but some things he
remembered well enough. He loved his violin and the holy
Mary, and above all else he feared the Evil One, and his son
Antone.
The fire was low, and it grew cold. Still Peter sat by the fire
remembering. He dared not throw more cobs on the fire; Antone
would be angry. He did not want to cut wood tomorrow,
it would be Sunday, and he wanted to go to mass.
Antone might let him do that. He held his violin under his
wrinkled chin, his white hair fell over it, and he began to play
“Ave Maria.” His hand shook more than ever before, and at
last refused to work the bow at all. He sat stupefied for a
while, then arose, and taking his violin with him, stole out
into the old sod stable. He took Antone’s shot-gun down
from its peg, and loaded it by the moonlight which streamed
in through the door. He sat down on the dirt floor, and
leaned back against the dirt wall. He heard the wolves howling
in the distance, and the night wind screaming as it swept
over the snow. Near him he heard the regular breathing of
the horses in the dark. He put his crucifix above his heart, and
folding his hands said brokenly all the Latin he had ever
known, “Pater noster, qui in cælum est.” Then he raised his
head and sighed, “Not one kreutzer will Antone pay them to
pray for my soul, not one kreutzer, he is so careful of his
money, is Antone, he does not waste it in drink, he is a better
man than I, but hard sometimes. He works the girls too hard,
women were not made to work so. But he shall not sell thee,
my fiddle, I can play thee no more, but they shall not part us.
We have seen it all together, and we will forget it together,
the French woman and all.” He held his fiddle under his chin
a moment, where it had lain so often, then put it across his
knee and broke it through the middle. He pulled off his old
boot, held the gun between his knees with the muzzle against
his forehead, and pressed the trigger with his toe.
In the morning Antone found him stiff, frozen fast in a
pool of blood. They could not straighten him out enough to
fit a coffin, so they buried him in a pine box. Before the funeral
Antone carried to town the fiddle-bow which Peter had
forgotten to break. Antone was very thrifty, and a better man
than his father had been.
The Mahogany Tree, May 21, 1892
On the Divide ToC
Near Rattlesnake Creek, on the side of a little draw
stood Canute’s shanty. North, east, south, stretched the
level Nebraska plain of long rust-red grass that undulated
constantly in the wind. To the west the ground was broken
and rough, and a narrow strip of timber wound along the
turbid, muddy little stream that had scarcely ambition enough
to crawl over its black bottom. If it had not been for the few
stunted cottonwoods and elms that grew along its banks,
Canute would have shot himself years ago. The Norwegians
are a timber-loving people, and if there is even a turtle pond
with a few plum bushes around it they seem irresistibly drawn
toward it.
As to the shanty itself, Canute had built it without aid of
any kind, for when he first squatted along the banks of Rattlesnake
Creek there was not a human being within twenty
miles. It was built of logs split in halves, the chinks stopped
with mud and plaster. The roof was covered with earth and
was supported by one gigantic beam curved in the shape of a
round arch. It was almost impossible that any tree had ever
grown in that shape. The Norwegians used to say that Canute
had taken the log across his knee and bent it into the shape
he wished. There were two rooms, or rather there was one
room with a partition made of ash saplings interwoven and
bound together like big straw basket work. In one corner
there was a cook stove, rusted and broken. In the other a bed
made of unplaned planks and poles. It was fully eight feet
long, and upon it was a heap of dark bed clothing. There was
a chair and a bench of colossal proportions. There was an
ordinary kitchen cupboard with a few cracked dirty dishes in
it, and beside it on a tall box a tin wash-basin. Under the bed
was a pile of pint flasks, some broken, some whole, all empty.
On the wood box lay a pair of shoes of almost incredible
dimensions. On the wall hung a saddle, a gun, and some
ragged clothing, conspicuous among which was a suit of dark
cloth, apparently new, with a paper collar carefully wrapped
in a red silk handkerchief and pinned to the sleeve. Over the
door hung a wolf and a badger skin, and on the door itself a
brace of thirty or forty snake skins whose noisy tails rattled
ominously every time it opened. The strangest things in the
shanty were the wide window-sills. At first glance they looked
as though they had been ruthlessly hacked and mutilated with
a hatchet, but on closer inspection all the notches and holes
in the wood took form and shape. There seemed to be a series
of pictures. They were, in a rough way, artistic, but the
figures were heavy and labored, as though they had been cut
very slowly and with very awkward instruments. There were
men plowing with little horned imps sitting on their shoulders
and on their horses’ heads. There were men praying with
a skull hanging over their heads and little demons behind
them mocking their attitudes. There were men fighting with
big serpents, and skeletons dancing together. All about these
pictures were blooming vines and foliage such as never grew
in this world, and coiled among the branches of the vines
there was always the scaly body of a serpent, and behind every
flower there was a serpent’s head. It was a veritable Dance of
Death by one who had felt its sting. In the wood box lay
some boards, and every inch of them was cut up in the same
manner. Sometimes the work was very rude and careless, and
looked as though the hand of the workman had trembled. It
would sometimes have been hard to distinguish the men from
their evil geniuses but for one fact, the men were always grave
and were either toiling or praying, while the devils were always
smiling and dancing. Several of these boards had been
split for kindling and it was evident that the artist did not
value his work highly.
It was the first day of winter on the Divide. Canute stumbled
into his shanty carrying a basket of cobs, and after filling
the stove, sat down on a stool and crouched his seven foot
frame over the fire, staring drearily out of the window at the
wide gray sky. He knew by heart every individual clump of
bunch grass in the miles of red shaggy prairie that stretched
before his cabin. He knew it in all the deceitful loveliness of
its early summer, in all the bitter barrenness of its autumn.
He had seen it smitten by all the plagues of Egypt. He had
seen it parched by drought, and sogged by rain, beaten by
hail, and swept by fire, and in the grasshopper years he had
seen it eaten as bare and clean as bones that the vultures have
left. After the great fires he had seen it stretch for miles and
miles, black and smoking as the floor of hell.
He rose slowly and crossed the room, dragging his big feet
heavily as though they were burdens to him. He looked out
of the window into the hog corral and saw the pigs burying
themselves in the straw before the shed. The leaden gray
clouds were beginning to spill themselves, and the snowflakes
were settling down over the white leprous patches of
frozen earth where the hogs had gnawed even the sod away.
He shuddered and began to walk, tramping heavily with his
ungainly feet. He was the wreck of ten winters on the Divide
and he knew what they meant. Men fear the winters of the
Divide as a child fears night or as men in the North Seas fear
the still dark cold of the polar twilight.
His eyes fell upon his gun, and he took it down from the
wall and looked it over. He sat down on the edge of his bed
and held the barrel towards his face, letting his forehead rest
upon it, and laid his finger on the trigger. He was perfectly
calm, there was neither passion nor despair in his face, but
the thoughtful look of a man who is considering. Presently
he laid down the gun, and reaching into the cupboard, drew
out a pint bottle of raw white alcohol. Lifting it to his lips,
he drank greedily. He washed his face in the tin basin and
combed his rough hair and shaggy blond beard. Then he
stood in uncertainty before the suit of dark clothes that hung
on the wall. For the fiftieth time he took them in his hands
and tried to summon courage to put them on. He took the
paper collar that was pinned to the sleeve of the coat and
cautiously slipped it under his rough beard, looking with
timid expectancy into the cracked, splashed glass that hung
over the bench. With a short laugh he threw it down on the
bed, and pulling on his old black hat, he went out, striking
off across the level.
It was a physical necessity for him to get away from his
cabin once in a while. He had been there for ten years, digging
and plowing and sowing, and reaping what little the hail
and the hot winds and the frosts left him to reap. Insanity
and suicide are very common things on the Divide. They
come on like an epidemic in the hot wind season. Those
scorching dusty winds that blow up over the bluffs from
Kansas seem to dry up the blood in men’s veins as they do
the sap in the corn leaves. Whenever the yellow scorch
creeps down over the tender inside leaves about the ear, then
the coroners prepare for active duty; for the oil of the country
is burned out and it does not take long for the flame to
eat up the wick. It causes no great sensation there when a
Dane is found swinging to his own windmill tower, and
most of the Poles after they have become too careless and
discouraged to shave themselves keep their razors to cut
their throats with.
It may be that the next generation on the Divide will be
very happy, but the present one came too late in life. It is
useless for men that have cut hemlocks among the mountains
of Sweden for forty years to try to be happy in a country
as flat and gray and as naked as the sea. It is not easy for
men that have spent their youths fishing in the Northern
seas to be content with following a plow, and men that have
served in the Austrian army hate hard work and coarse
clothing and the loneliness of the plains, and long for
marches and excitement and tavern company and pretty barmaids.
After a man has passed his fortieth birthday it is not
easy for him to change the habits and conditions of his life.
Most men bring with them to the Divide only the dregs of
the lives that they have squandered in other lands and
among other peoples.
Canute Canuteson was as mad as any of them, but his
madness did not take the form of suicide or religion but of
alcohol. He had always taken liquor when he wanted it, as all
Norwegians do, but after his first year of solitary life he settled
down to it steadily. He exhausted whisky after a while,
and went to alcohol, because its effects were speedier and
surer. He was a big man with a terrible amount of resistant
force, and it took a great deal of alcohol even to move him.
After nine years of drinking, the quantities he could take
would seem fabulous to an ordinary drinking man. He never
let it interfere with his work, he generally drank at night and
on Sundays. Every night, as soon as his chores were done, he
began to drink. While he was able to sit up he would play on
his mouth harp or hack away at his window sills with his jack
knife. When the liquor went to his head he would lie down
on his bed and stare out of the window until he went to
sleep. He drank alone and in solitude not for pleasure or
good cheer, but to forget the awful loneliness and level of the
Divide. Milton made a sad blunder when he put mountains
in hell. Mountains postulate faith and aspiration. All mountain
peoples are religious. It was the cities of the plains that,
because of their utter lack of spirituality and the mad caprice
of their vice, were cursed of God.
Alcohol is perfectly consistent in its effects upon man.
Drunkenness is merely an exaggeration. A foolish man drunk
becomes maudlin; a bloody man, vicious; a coarse man,
vulgar. Canute was none of these, but he was morose and
gloomy, and liquor took him through all the hells of Dante.
As he lay on his giant’s bed all the horrors of this world and
every other were laid bare to his chilled senses. He was a man
who knew no joy, a man who toiled in silence and bitterness.
The skull and the serpent were always before him, the symbols
of eternal futileness and of eternal hate.
When the first Norwegians near enough to be called
neighbors came, Canute rejoiced, and planned to escape
from his bosom vice. But he was not a social man by nature
and had not the power of drawing out the social side of
other people. His new neighbors rather feared him because
of his great strength and size, his silence and his lowering
brows. Perhaps, too, they knew that he was mad, mad from
the eternal treachery of the plains, which every spring stretch
green and rustle with the promises of Eden, showing long
grassy lagoons full of clear water and cattle whose hoofs are
stained with wild roses. Before autumn the lagoons are dried
up, and the ground is burnt dry and hard until it blisters
and cracks open.
So instead of becoming a friend and neighbor to the men
that settled about him, Canute became a mystery and a terror.
They told awful stories of his size and strength and of the
alcohol he drank. They said that one night, when he went out
to see to his horses just before he went to bed, his steps were
unsteady and the rotten planks of the floor gave way and
threw him behind the feet of a fiery young stallion. His foot
was caught fast in the floor, and the nervous horse began
kicking frantically. When Canute felt the blood trickling down
in his eyes from a scalp wound in his head, he roused himself
from his kingly indifference, and with the quiet stoical courage
of a drunken man leaned forward and wound his arms
about the horse’s hind legs and held them against his breast
with crushing embrace. All through the darkness and cold of
the night he lay there, matching strength against strength.
When little Jim Peterson went over the next morning at four
o’clock to go with him to the Blue to cut wood, he found him
so, and the horse was on its fore knees, trembling and
whinnying with fear. This is the story the Norwegians tell of
him, and if it is true it is no wonder that they feared and
hated this Holder of the Heels of Horses.
One spring there moved to the next “eighty” a family that
made a great change in Canute’s life. Ole Yensen was too
drunk most of the time to be afraid of any one, and his wife
Mary was too garrulous to be afraid of any one who listened
to her talk, and Lena, their pretty daughter, was not afraid of
man nor devil. So it came about that Canute went over to
take his alcohol with Ole oftener than he took it alone. After
a while the report spread that he was going to marry Yensen’s
daughter, and the Norwegian girls began to tease Lena about
the great bear she was going to keep house for. No one could
quite see how the affair had come about, for Canute’s tactics
of courtship were somewhat peculiar. He apparently never
spoke to her at all: he would sit for hours with Mary chattering
on one side of him and Ole drinking on the other and
watch Lena at her work. She teased him, and threw flour in
his face and put vinegar in his coffee, but he took her rough
jokes with silent wonder, never even smiling. He took her to
church occasionally, but the most watchful and curious people
never saw him speak to her. He would sit staring at her
while she giggled and flirted with the other men.
Next spring Mary Lee went to town to work in a steam
laundry. She came home every Sunday, and always ran across
to Yensens to startle Lena with stories of ten cent theaters,
firemen’s dances, and all the other esthetic delights of metropolitan
life. In a few weeks Lena’s head was completely
turned, and she gave her father no rest until he let her go to
town to seek her fortune at the ironing board. From the time
she came home on her first visit she began to treat Canute
with contempt. She had bought a plush cloak and kid gloves,
had her clothes made by the dress-maker, and assumed airs
and graces that made the other women of the neighborhood
cordially detest her. She generally brought with her a young
man from town who waxed his mustache and wore a red
necktie, and she did not even introduce him to Canute.
The neighbors teased Canute a good deal until he
knocked one of them down. He gave no sign of suffering
from her neglect except that he drank more and avoided the
other Norwegians more carefully than ever. He lay around
in his den and no one knew what he felt or thought, but
little Jim Peterson, who had seen him glowering at Lena in
church one Sunday when she was there with the town man,
said that he would not give an acre of his wheat for Lena’s
life or the town chap’s either; and Jim’s wheat was so wondrously
worthless that the statement was an exceedingly
strong one.
Canute had bought a new suit of clothes that looked as
nearly like the town man’s as possible. They had cost him half
a millet crop; for tailors are not accustomed to fitting giants
and they charge for it. He had hung those clothes in his
shanty two months ago and had never put them on, partly
from fear of ridicule, partly from discouragement, and partly
because there was something in his own soul that revolted at
the littleness of the device.
Lena was at home just at this time. Work was slack in the
laundry and Mary had not been well, so Lena stayed at home,
glad enough to get an opportunity to torment Canute once
more.
She was washing in the side kitchen, singing loudly as she
worked. Mary was on her knees, blacking the stove and scolding
violently about the young man who was coming out from
town that night. The young man had committed the fatal
error of laughing at Mary’s ceaseless babble and had never
been forgiven.
“He is no good, and you will come to a bad end by running
with him! I do not see why a daughter of mine should
act so. I do not see why the Lord should visit such a punishment
upon me as to give me such a daughter. There are
plenty of good men you can marry.”
Lena tossed her head and answered curtly, “I don’t happen
to want to marry any man right away, and so long as Dick
dresses nice and has plenty of money to spend, there is no
harm in my going with him.”
“Money to spend? Yes, and that is all he does with it I’ll be
bound. You think it very fine now, but you will change your
tune when you have been married five years and see your children
running naked and your cupboard empty. Did Anne
Hermanson come to any good end by marrying a town man?”
“I don’t know anything about Anne Hermanson, but I
know any of the laundry girls would have Dick quick enough
if they could get him.”
“Yes, and a nice lot of store clothes huzzies you are too.
Now there is Canuteson who has an ‘eighty’ proved up and
fifty head of cattle and——”
“And hair that ain’t been cut since he was a baby, and a big
dirty beard, and he wears overalls on Sundays, and drinks like
a pig. Besides he will keep. I can have all the fun I want, and
when I am old and ugly like you he can have me and take care
of me. The Lord knows there ain’t nobody else going to
marry him.”
Canute drew his hand back from the latch as though it
were red hot. He was not the kind of a man to make a good
eavesdropper, and he wished he had knocked sooner. He
pulled himself together and struck the door like a battering
ram. Mary jumped and opened it with a screech.
“God! Canute, how you scared us! I thought it was crazy
Lou,—he has been tearing around the neighborhood trying
to convert folks. I am afraid as death of him. He ought to be
sent off, I think. He is just as liable as not to kill us all, or
burn the barn, or poison the dogs. He has been worrying
even the poor minister to death, and he laid up with the rheumatism,
too! Did you notice that he was too sick to preach
last Sunday? But don’t stand there in the cold,—come in.
Yensen isn’t here, but he just went over to Sorenson’s for the
mail; he won’t be gone long. Walk right in the other room
and sit down.”
Canute followed her, looking steadily in front of him and
not noticing Lena as he passed her. But Lena’s vanity would
not allow him to pass unmolested. She took the wet sheet
she was wringing out and cracked him across the face with it,
and ran giggling to the other side of the room. The blow
stung his cheeks and the soapy water flew in his eyes, and he
involuntarily began rubbing them with his hands. Lena giggled
with delight at his discomfiture, and the wrath in Canute’s
face grew blacker than ever. A big man humiliated is
vastly more undignified than a little one. He forgot the sting
of his face in the bitter consciousness that he had made a
fool of himself. He stumbled blindly into the living room,
knocking his head against the door jamb because he forgot
to stoop. He dropped into a chair behind the stove, thrusting
his big feet back helplessly on either side of him.
Ole was a long time in coming, and Canute sat there, still
and silent, with his hands clenched on his knees, and the skin
of his face seemed to have shriveled up into little wrinkles that
trembled when he lowered his brows. His life had been one
long lethargy of solitude and alcohol, but now he was awakening,
and it was as when the dumb stagnant heat of summer
breaks out into thunder.
When Ole came staggering in, heavy with liquor, Canute
rose at once.
“Yensen,” he said quietly, “I have come to see if you will let
me marry your daughter today.”
“Today!” gasped Ole.
“Yes, I will not wait until tomorrow. I am tired of living
alone.”
Ole braced his staggering knees against the bedstead, and
stammered eloquently: “Do you think I will marry my daughter
to a drunkard? a man who drinks raw alcohol? a man who
sleeps with rattle snakes? Get out of my house or I will kick
you out for your impudence.” And Ole began looking anxiously
for his feet.
Canute answered not a word, but he put on his hat and
went out into the kitchen. He went up to Lena and said without
looking at her, “Get your things on and come with me!”
The tones of his voice startled her, and she said angrily,
dropping the soap, “Are you drunk?”
“If you do not come with me, I will take you,—you had
better come,” said Canute quietly.
She lifted a sheet to strike him, but he caught her arm
roughly and wrenched the sheet from her. He turned to the
wall and took down a hood and shawl that hung there, and
began wrapping her up. Lena scratched and fought like a wild
thing. Ole stood in the door, cursing, and Mary howled and
screeched at the top of her voice. As for Canute, he lifted the
girl in his arms and went out of the house. She kicked and
struggled, but the helpless wailing of Mary and Ole soon died
away in the distance, and her face was held down tightly on
Canute’s shoulder so that she could not see whither he was
taking her. She was conscious only of the north wind whistling
in her ears, and of rapid steady motion and of a great
breast that heaved beneath her in quick, irregular breaths. The
harder she struggled the tighter those iron arms that had held
the heels of horses crushed about her, until she felt as if they
would crush the breath from her, and lay still with fear.
Canute was striding across the level fields at a pace at which
man never went before, drawing the stinging north wind into
his lungs in great gulps. He walked with his eyes half closed
and looking straight in front of him, only lowering them
when he bent his head to blow away the snow flakes that
settled on her hair. So it was that Canute took her to his
home, even as his bearded barbarian ancestors took the fair
frivolous women of the South in their hairy arms and bore
them down to their war ships. For ever and anon the soul
becomes weary of the conventions that are not of it, and
with a single stroke shatters the civilized lies with which it is
unable to cope, and the strong arm reaches out and takes by
force what it cannot win by cunning.
When Canute reached his shanty he placed the girl upon a
chair, where she sat sobbing. He stayed only a few minutes.
He filled the stove with wood and lit the lamp, drank a huge
swallow of alcohol and put the bottle in his pocket. He
paused a moment, staring heavily at the weeping girl, then he
went off and locked the door and disappeared in the gathering
gloom of the night.
Wrapped in flannels and soaked with turpentine, the little
Norwegian preacher sat reading his Bible, when he heard a
thundering knock at his door, and Canute entered, covered
with snow and with his beard frozen fast to his coat.
“Come in, Canute, you must be frozen,” said the little man,
shoving a chair towards his visitor.
Canute remained standing with his hat on and said quietly,
“I want you to come over to my house tonight to marry me
to Lena Yensen.”
“Have you got a license, Canute?”
“No, I don’t want a license. I want to be married.”
“But I can’t marry you without a license, man. It would
not be legal.”
A dangerous light came in the big Norwegian’s eye. “I
want you to come over to my house to marry me to Lena
Yensen.”
“No, I can’t, it would kill an ox to go out in a storm like
this, and my rheumatism is bad tonight.”
“Then if you will not go I must take you,” said Canute
with a sigh.
He took down the preacher’s bearskin coat and bade him
put it on while he hitched up his buggy. He went out and
closed the door softly after him. Presently he returned and
found the frightened minister crouching before the fire with
his coat lying beside him. Canute helped him put it on and
gently wrapped his head in his big muffler. Then he picked
him up and carried him out and placed him in his buggy. As
he tucked the buffalo robes around him he said: “Your horse
is old, he might flounder or lose his way in this storm. I will
lead him.”
The minister took the reins feebly in his hands and sat
shivering with the cold. Sometimes when there was a lull in
the wind, he could see the horse struggling through the snow
with the man plodding steadily beside him. Again the blowing
snow would hide them from him altogether. He had no
idea where they were or what direction they were going. He
felt as though he were being whirled away in the heart of the
storm, and he said all the prayers he knew. But at last the
long four miles were over, and Canute set him down in the
snow while he unlocked the door. He saw the bride sitting
by the fire with her eyes red and swollen as though she had
been weeping. Canute placed a huge chair for him, and said
roughly,—
“Warm yourself.”
Lena began to cry and moan afresh, begging the minister
to take her home. He looked helplessly at Canute. Canute
said simply,—
“If you are warm now, you can marry us.”
“My daughter, do you take this step of your own free will?”
asked the minister in a trembling voice.
“No sir, I don’t, and it is disgraceful he should force me
into it! I won’t marry him.”
“Then, Canute, I cannot marry you,” said the minister,
standing as straight as his rheumatic limbs would let him.
“Are you ready to marry us now, sir?” said Canute, laying
one iron hand on his stooped shoulder. The little preacher
was a good man, but like most men of weak body he was a
coward and had a horror of physical suffering, although he
had known so much of it. So with many qualms of conscience
he began to repeat the marriage service. Lena sat sullenly in
her chair, staring at the fire. Canute stood beside her, listening
with his head bent reverently and his hands folded on his
breast. When the little man had prayed and said amen, Canute
began bundling him up again.
“I will take you home, now,” he said as he carried him
out and placed him in his buggy, and started off with him
through the fury of the storm, floundering among the snow
drifts that brought even the giant himself to his knees.
After she was left alone, Lena soon ceased weeping. She
was not of a particularly sensitive temperament, and had little
pride beyond that of vanity. After the first bitter anger wore
itself out, she felt nothing more than a healthy sense of
humiliation and defeat. She had no inclination to run away,
for she was married now, and in her eyes that was final and
all rebellion was useless. She knew nothing about a license,
but she knew that a preacher married folks. She consoled herself
by thinking that she had always intended to marry Canute
some day, any way.
She grew tired of crying and looking into the fire, so she
got up and began to look about her. She had heard queer
tales about the inside of Canute’s shanty, and her curiosity
soon got the better of her rage. One of the first things she
noticed was the new black suit of clothes hanging on the wall.
She was dull, but it did not take a vain woman long to interpret
anything so decidedly flattering, and she was pleased in
spite of herself. As she looked through the cupboard, the
general air of neglect and discomfort made her pity the man
who lived there.
“Poor fellow, no wonder he wants to get married to get
somebody to wash up his dishes. Batchin’s pretty hard on a
man.”
It is easy to pity when once one’s vanity has been tickled.
She looked at the window sill and gave a little shudder and
wondered if the man were crazy. Then she sat down again and
sat a long time wondering what her Dick and Ole would do.
“It is queer Dick didn’t come right over after me. He
surely came, for he would have left town before the storm
began and he might just as well come right on as go back. If
he’d hurried he would have gotten here before the preacher
came. I suppose he was afraid to come, for he knew Canuteson
could pound him to jelly, the coward!” Her eyes flashed
angrily.
The weary hours wore on and Lena began to grow horribly
lonesome. It was an uncanny night and this was an uncanny
place to be in. She could hear the coyotes howling hungrily a
little way from the cabin, and more terrible still were all the
unknown noises of the storm. She remembered the tales they
told of the big log overhead and she was afraid of those snaky
things on the window sills. She remembered the man who
had been killed in the draw, and she wondered what she
would do if she saw crazy Lou’s white face glaring into the
window. The rattling of the door became unbearable, she
thought the latch must be loose and took the lamp to look at
it. Then for the first time she saw the ugly brown snake skins
whose death rattle sounded every time the wind jarred the
door.
“Canute, Canute!” she screamed in terror.
Outside the door she heard a heavy sound as of a big dog
getting up and shaking himself. The door opened and Canute
stood before her, white as a snow drift.
“What is it?” he asked kindly.
“I am cold,” she faltered.
He went out and got an armful of wood and a basket of
cobs and filled the stove. Then he went out and lay in the
snow before the door. Presently he heard her calling again.
“What is it?” he said, sitting up.
“I’m so lonesome, I’m afraid to stay in here all alone.”
“I will go over and get your mother.” And he got up.
“She won’t come.”
“I’ll bring her,” said Canute grimly.
“No, no. I don’t want her, she will scold all the time.”
“Well, I will bring your father.”
She spoke again and it seemed as though her mouth was
close up to the key-hole. She spoke lower than he had ever
heard her speak before, so low that he had to put his ear up to
the lock to hear her.
“I don’t want him either, Canute,—I’d rather have you.”
For a moment she heard no noise at all, then something
like a groan. With a cry of fear she opened the door, and saw
Canute stretched in the snow at her feet, his face in his hands,
sobbing on the door step.
Overland Monthly, January 1896
Eric Hermannson’s Soul ToC
I.
It was a great night at the Lone Star schoolhouse—a night
when the Spirit was present with power and when God
was very near to man. So it seemed to Asa Skinner, servant of
God and Free Gospeller. The schoolhouse was crowded with
the saved and sanctified, robust men and women, trembling
and quailing before the power of some mysterious psychic
force. Here and there among this cowering, sweating multitude
crouched some poor wretch who had felt the pangs of an
awakened conscience, but had not yet experienced that complete
divestment of reason, that frenzy born of a convulsion
of the mind, which, in the parlance of the Free Gospellers, is
termed “the Light.” On the floor, before the mourners’
bench, lay the unconscious figure of a man in whom outraged
nature had sought her last resort. This “trance” state is the
highest evidence of grace among the Free Gospellers, and indicates
a close walking with God.
Before the desk stood Asa Skinner, shouting of the mercy
and vengeance of God, and in his eyes shone a terrible earnestness,
an almost prophetic flame. Asa was a converted train
gambler who used to run between Omaha and Denver. He
was a man made for the extremes of life; from the most debauched
of men he had become the most ascetic. His was a
bestial face, a face that bore the stamp of Nature’s eternal
injustice. The forehead was low, projecting over the eyes, and
the sandy hair was plastered down over it and then brushed
back at an abrupt right angle. The chin was heavy, the nostrils
were low and wide, and the lower lip hung loosely except in
his moments of spasmodic earnestness, when it shut like a
steel trap. Yet about those coarse features there were deep,
rugged furrows, the scars of many a hand-to-hand struggle
with the weakness of the flesh, and about that drooping lip
were sharp, strenuous lines that had conquered it and taught
it to pray. Over those seamed cheeks there was a certain pallor,
a grayness caught from many a vigil. It was as though,
after Nature had done her worst with that face, some fine
chisel had gone over it, chastening and almost transfiguring it.
To-night, as his muscles twitched with emotion, and the perspiration
dropped from his hair and chin, there was a certain
convincing power in the man. For Asa Skinner was a man
possessed of a belief, of that sentiment of the sublime before
which all inequalities are leveled, that transport of conviction
which seems superior to all laws of condition, under which
debauchees have become martyrs; which made a tinker an artist
and a camel-driver the founder of an empire. This was with
Asa Skinner to-night, as he stood proclaiming the vengeance
of God.
It might have occurred to an impartial observer that Asa
Skinner’s God was indeed a vengeful God if he could reserve
vengeance for those of his creatures who were packed into the
Lone Star schoolhouse that night. Poor exiles of all nations;
men from the south and the north, peasants from almost every
country of Europe, most of them from the mountainous,
night-bound coast of Norway. Honest men for the most part,
but men with whom the world had dealt hardly; the failures
of all countries, men sobered by toil and saddened by exile,
who had been driven to fight for the dominion of an untoward
soil, to sow where others should gather, the advance-guard
of a mighty civilization to be.
Never had Asa Skinner spoken more earnestly than now.
He felt that the Lord had this night a special work for him to
do. To-night Eric Hermannson, the wildest lad on all the Divide,
sat in his audience with a fiddle on his knee, just as he
had dropped in on his way to play for some dance. The violin
is an object of particular abhorrence to the Free Gospellers.
Their antagonism to the church organ is bitter enough, but
the fiddle they regard as a very incarnation of evil desires,
singing forever of worldly pleasures and inseparably associated
with all forbidden things.
Eric Hermannson had long been the object of the prayers
of the revivalists. His mother had felt the power of the Spirit
weeks ago, and special prayer-meetings had been held at her
house for her son. But Eric had only gone his ways laughing,
the ways of youth, which are short enough at best, and none
too flowery on the Divide. He slipped away from the prayer-meetings
to meet the Campbell boys in Genereau’s saloon, or
hug the plump little French girls at Chevalier’s dances, and
sometimes, of a summer night, he even went across the dewy
cornfields and through the wild-plum thicket to play the fiddle
for Lena Hanson, whose name was a reproach through all
the Divide country, where the women are usually too plain
and too busy and too tired to depart from the ways of virtue.
On such occasions Lena, attired in a pink wrapper and silk
stockings and tiny pink slippers, would sing to him, accompanying
herself on a battered guitar. It gave him a delicious
sense of freedom and experience to be with a woman who, no
matter how, had lived in big cities and knew the ways of
town-folk, who had never worked in the fields and had kept
her hands white and soft, her throat fair and tender, who had
heard great singers in Denver and Salt Lake, and who knew
the strange language of flattery and idleness and mirth.
Yet, careless as he seemed, the frantic prayers of his mother
were not altogether without their effect upon Eric. For days
he had been fleeing before them as a criminal from his pursuers,
and over his pleasures had fallen the shadow of something
dark and terrible that dogged his steps. The harder he danced,
the louder he sang, the more was he conscious that this phantom
was gaining upon him, that in time it would track him
down. One Sunday afternoon, late in the fall, when he had
been drinking beer with Lena Hanson and listening to a song
which made his cheeks burn, a rattlesnake had crawled out of
the side of the sod house and thrust its ugly head in under the
screen door. He was not afraid of snakes, but he knew
enough of Gospellism to feel the significance of the reptile
lying coiled there upon her doorstep. His lips were cold when
he kissed Lena good-by, and he went there no more.
The final barrier between Eric and his mother’s faith was
his violin, and to that he clung as a man sometimes will cling
to his dearest sin, to the weakness more precious to him than
all his strength. In the great world beauty comes to men in
many guises, and art in a hundred forms, but for Eric there
was only his violin. It stood, to him, for all the manifestations
of art; it was his only bridge into the kingdom of the soul.
It was to Eric Hermannson that the evangelist directed his
impassioned pleading that night.
“Saul, Saul, why persecutest thou me? Is there a Saul here
to-night who has stopped his ears to that gentle pleading,
who has thrust a spear into that bleeding side? Think of it, my
brother; you are offered this wonderful love and you prefer
the worm that dieth not and the fire which will not be
quenched. What right have you to lose one of God’s precious
souls? Saul, Saul, why persecutest thou me?”
A great joy dawned in Asa Skinner’s pale face, for he saw
that Eric Hermannson was swaying to and fro in his seat. The
minister fell upon his knees and threw his long arms up over
his head.
“O my brothers! I feel it coming, the blessing we have
prayed for. I tell you the Spirit is coming! Just a little more
prayer, brothers, a little more zeal, and he will be here. I can
feel his cooling wing upon my brow. Glory be to God forever
and ever, amen!”
The whole congregation groaned under the pressure of this
spiritual panic. Shouts and hallelujahs went up from every lip.
Another figure fell prostrate upon the floor. From the mourners’
bench rose a chant of terror and rapture:
“Eating honey and drinking wine,
Glory to the bleeding Lamb!
I am my Lord’s and he is mine,
Glory to the bleeding Lamb!”
The hymn was sung in a dozen dialects and voiced all the
vague yearning of these hungry lives, of these people who had
starved all the passions so long, only to fall victims to the
basest of them all, fear.
A groan of ultimate anguish rose from Eric Hermannson’s
bowed head, and the sound was like the groan of a great tree
when it falls in the forest.
The minister rose suddenly to his feet and threw back his
head, crying in a loud voice:
“Lazarus, come forth! Eric Hermannson, you are lost, going
down at sea. In the name of God, and Jesus Christ his Son, I
throw you the life-line. Take hold! Almighty God, my soul for
his!” The minister threw his arms out and lifted his quivering
face.
Eric Hermannson rose to his feet; his lips were set and the
lightning was in his eyes. He took his violin by the neck and
crushed it to splinters across his knee, and to Asa Skinner the
sound was like the shackles of sin broken audibly asunder.
II.
For more than two years Eric Hermannson kept the austere
faith to which he had sworn himself, kept it until a girl from
the East came to spend a week on the Nebraska Divide. She
was a girl of other manners and conditions, and there were
greater distances between her life and Eric’s than all the miles
which separated Rattlesnake Creek from New York city. Indeed,
she had no business to be in the West at all; but ah!
across what leagues of land and sea, by what improbable
chances, do the unrelenting gods bring to us our fate!
It was in a year of financial depression that Wyllis Elliot
came to Nebraska to buy cheap land and revisit the country
where he had spent a year of his youth. When he had graduated
from Harvard it was still customary for moneyed gentlemen
to send their scapegrace sons to rough it on ranches in
the wilds of Nebraska or Dakota, or to consign them to a
living death in the sage-brush of the Black Hills. These young
men did not always return to the ways of civilized life. But
Wyllis Elliot had not married a half-breed, nor been shot in a
cow-punchers’ brawl, nor wrecked by bad whisky, nor appropriated
by a smirched adventuress. He had been saved from
these things by a girl, his sister, who had been very near to his
life ever since the days when they read fairy tales together and
dreamed the dreams that never come true. On this, his first
visit to his father’s ranch since he left it six years before, he
brought her with him. She had been laid up half the winter
from a sprain received while skating, and had had too much
time for reflection during those months. She was restless and
filled with a desire to see something of the wild country of
which her brother had told her so much. She was to be married
the next winter, and Wyllis understood her when she
begged him to take her with him on this long, aimless jaunt
across the continent, to taste the last of their freedom together.
It comes to all women of her type—that desire to
taste the unknown which allures and terrifies, to run one’s
whole soul’s length out to the wind—just once.
It had been an eventful journey. Wyllis somehow understood
that strain of gypsy blood in his sister, and he knew
where to take her. They had slept in sod houses on the
Platte River, made the acquaintance of the personnel of a
third-rate opera company on the train to Deadwood, dined in
a camp of railroad constructors at the world’s end beyond
New Castle, gone through the Black Hills on horseback,
fished for trout in Dome Lake, watched a dance at Cripple
Creek, where the lost souls who hide in the hills gathered for
their besotted revelry. And now, last of all, before the return
to thraldom, there was this little shack, anchored on the
windy crest of the Divide, a little black dot against the flaming
sunsets, a scented sea of cornland bathed in opalescent air
and blinding sunlight.
Margaret Elliot was one of those women of whom there
are so many in this day, when old order, passing, giveth place
to new; beautiful, talented, critical, unsatisfied, tired of the
world at twenty-four. For the moment the life and people of
the Divide interested her. She was there but a week; perhaps
had she stayed longer, that inexorable ennui which travels
faster even than the Vestibule Limited would have overtaken
her. The week she tarried there was the week that Eric Hermannson
was helping Jerry Lockhart thresh; a week earlier or
a week later, and there would have been no story to write.
It was on Thursday and they were to leave on Saturday.
Wyllis and his sister were sitting on the wide piazza of the
ranchhouse, staring out into the afternoon sunlight and protesting
against the gusts of hot wind that blew up from the
sandy river-bottom twenty miles to the southward.
The young man pulled his cap lower over his eyes and remarked:
“This wind is the real thing; you don’t strike it anywhere
else. You remember we had a touch of it in Algiers and I told
you it came from Kansas. It’s the key-note of this country.”
Wyllis touched her hand that lay on the hammock and continued
gently:
“I hope it’s paid you, Sis. Roughing it’s dangerous business;
it takes the taste out of things.”
She shut her fingers firmly over the brown hand that was so
like her own.
“Paid? Why, Wyllis, I haven’t been so happy since we were
children and were going to discover the ruins of Troy together
some day. Do you know, I believe I could just stay on
here forever and let the world go on its own gait. It seems as
though the tension and strain we used to talk of last winter
were gone for good, as though one could never give one’s
strength out to such petty things any more.”
Wyllis brushed the ashes of his pipe away from the silk
handkerchief that was knotted about his neck and stared
moodily off at the sky-line.
“No, you’re mistaken. This would bore you after a while.
You can’t shake the fever of the other life. I’ve tried it. There
was a time when the gay fellows of Rome could trot down
into the Thebaid and burrow into the sandhills and get rid of
it. But it’s all too complex now. You see we’ve made our dissipations
so dainty and respectable that they’ve gone further
in than the flesh, and taken hold of the ego proper. You
couldn’t rest, even here. The war-cry would follow you.”
“You don’t waste words, Wyllis, but you never miss fire. I
talk more than you do, without saying half so much. You
must have learned the art of silence from these taciturn Norwegians.
I think I like silent men.”
“Naturally,” said Wyllis, “since you have decided to marry
the most brilliant talker you know.”
Both were silent for a time, listening to the sighing of the
hot wind through the parched morning-glory vines. Margaret
spoke first.
“Tell me, Wyllis, were many of the Norwegians you used to
know as interesting as Eric Hermannson?”
“Who, Siegfried? Well, no. He used to be the flower of the
Norwegian youth in my day, and he’s rather an exception,
even now. He has retrograded, though. The bonds of the soil
have tightened on him, I fancy.”
“Siegfried? Come, that’s rather good, Wyllis. He looks like
a dragon-slayer. What is it that makes him so different from
the others? I can talk to him; he seems quite like a human
being.”
“Well,” said Wyllis, meditatively, “I don’t read Bourget as
much as my cultured sister, and I’m not so well up in analysis,
but I fancy it’s because one keeps cherishing a perfectly unwarranted
suspicion that under that big, hulking anatomy of
his, he may conceal a soul somewhere. Nicht wahr?”
“Something like that,” said Margaret, thoughtfully, “except
that it’s more than a suspicion, and it isn’t groundless. He has
one, and he makes it known, somehow, without speaking.”
“I always have my doubts about loquacious souls,” Wyllis
remarked, with the unbelieving smile that had grown habitual
with him.
Margaret went on, not heeding the interruption. “I knew it
from the first, when he told me about the suicide of his
cousin, the Bernstein boy. That kind of blunt pathos can’t be
summoned at will in anybody. The earlier novelists rose to it,
sometimes, unconsciously. But last night when I sang for him
I was doubly sure. Oh, I haven’t told you about that yet!
Better light your pipe again. You see, he stumbled in on me in
the dark when I was pumping away at that old parlor organ
to please Mrs. Lockhart. It’s her household fetish and I’ve
forgotten how many pounds of butter she made and sold to
buy it. Well, Eric stumbled in, and in some inarticulate manner
made me understand that he wanted me to sing for him. I
sang just the old things, of course. It’s queer to sing familiar
things here at the world’s end. It makes one think how the
hearts of men have carried them around the world, into the
wastes of Iceland and the jungles of Africa and the islands of
the Pacific. I think if one lived here long enough one would
quite forget how to be trivial, and would read only the great
books that we never get time to read in the world, and would
remember only the great music, and the things that are really
worth while would stand out clearly against that horizon over
there. And of course I played the intermezzo from ‘Cavalleria
Rusticana’ for him; it goes rather better on an organ than
most things do. He shuffled his feet and twisted his big hands
up into knots and blurted out that he didn’t know there was
any music like that in the world. Why, there were tears in his
voice, Wyllis! Yes, like Rossetti, I heard his tears. Then it
dawned upon me that it was probably the first good music he
had ever heard in all his life. Think of it, to care for music as
he does and never to hear it, never to know that it exists on
earth! To long for it as we long for other perfect experiences
that never come. I can’t tell you what music means to that
man. I never saw any one so susceptible to it. It gave
him speech, he became alive. When I had finished the intermezzo,
he began telling me about a little crippled brother
who died and whom he loved and used to carry everywhere
in his arms. He did not wait for encouragement. He took
up the story and told it slowly, as if to himself, just sort of
rose up and told his own woe to answer Mascagni’s. It overcame
me.”
“Poor devil,” said Wyllis, looking at her with mysterious
eyes, “and so you’ve given him a new woe. Now he’ll go on
wanting Grieg and Schubert the rest of his days and never
getting them. That’s a girl’s philanthropy for you!”
Jerry Lockhart came out of the house screwing his chin
over the unusual luxury of a stiff white collar, which his wife
insisted upon as a necessary article of toilet while Miss Elliot
was at the house. Jerry sat down on the step and smiled his
broad, red smile at Margaret.
“Well, I’ve got the music for your dance, Miss Elliot. Olaf
Oleson will bring his accordion and Mollie will play the organ,
when she isn’t lookin’ after the grub, and a little chap
from Frenchtown will bring his fiddle—though the French
don’t mix with the Norwegians much.”
“Delightful! Mr. Lockhart, that dance will be the feature
of our trip, and it’s so nice of you to get it up for us. We’ll
see the Norwegians in character at last,” cried Margaret,
cordially.
“See here, Lockhart, I’ll settle with you for backing her in
this scheme,” said Wyllis, sitting up and knocking the ashes
out of his pipe. “She’s done crazy things enough on this trip,
but to talk of dancing all night with a gang of half-mad Norwegians
and taking the carriage at four to catch the six o’clock
train out of Riverton—well, it’s tommy-rot, that’s what
it is!”
“Wyllis, I leave it to your sovereign power of reason to
decide whether it isn’t easier to stay up all night than to get
up at three in the morning. To get up at three, think what
that means! No, sir, I prefer to keep my vigil and then get
into a sleeper.”
“But what do you want with the Norwegians? I thought
you were tired of dancing.”
“So I am, with some people. But I want to see a Norwegian
dance, and I intend to. Come, Wyllis, you know how
seldom it is that one really wants to do anything nowadays. I
wonder when I have really wanted to go to a party before. It
will be something to remember next month at Newport,
when we have to and don’t want to. Remember your own
theory that contrast is about the only thing that makes life
endurable. This is my party and Mr. Lockhart’s; your whole
duty to-morrow night will consist in being nice to the Norwegian
girls. I’ll warrant you were adept enough at it once.
And you’d better be very nice indeed, for if there are many
such young valkyrs as Eric’s sister among them, they would
simply tie you up in a knot if they suspected you were guying
them.”
Wyllis groaned and sank back into the hammock to consider
his fate, while his sister went on.
“And the guests, Mr. Lockhart, did they accept?”
Lockhart took out his knife and began sharpening it on the
sole of his plowshoe.
“Well, I guess we’ll have a couple dozen. You see it’s pretty
hard to get a crowd together here any more. Most of ’em
have gone over to the Free Gospellers, and they’d rather put
their feet in the fire than shake ’em to a fiddle.”
Margaret made a gesture of impatience.
“Those Free Gospellers have just cast an evil spell over this
country, haven’t they?”
“Well,” said Lockhart, cautiously, “I don’t just like to pass
judgment on any Christian sect, but if you’re to know the
chosen by their works, the Gospellers can’t make a very proud
showin’, an’ that’s a fact. They’re responsible for a few suicides,
and they’ve sent a good-sized delegation to the state
insane asylum, an’ I don’t see as they’ve made the rest of us
much better than we were before. I had a little herdboy last
spring, as square a little Dane as I want to work for me, but
after the Gospellers got hold of him and sanctified him, the
little beggar used to get down on his knees out on the prairie
and pray by the hour and let the cattle get into the corn, an’ I
had to fire him. That’s about the way it goes. Now there’s
Eric; that chap used to be a hustler and the spryest dancer in
all this section—called all the dances. Now he’s got no ambition
and he’s glum as a preacher. I don’t suppose we can even
get him to come in to-morrow night.”
“Eric? Why, he must dance, we can’t let him off,” said Margaret,
quickly. “Why, I intend to dance with him myself!”
“I’m afraid he won’t dance. I asked him this morning if
he’d help us out and he said, ‘I don’t dance now, any more,’”
said Lockhart, imitating the labored English of the Norwegian.
“‘The Miller of Hoffbau, the Miller of Hoffbau, O my
Princess!’” chirped Wyllis, cheerfully, from his hammock.
The red on his sister’s cheek deepened a little, and she
laughed mischievously. “We’ll see about that, sir. I’ll not admit
that I am beaten until I have asked him myself.”
Every night Eric rode over to St. Anne, a little village
in the heart of the French settlement, for the mail. As the
road lay through the most attractive part of the Divide country,
on several occasions Margaret Elliot and her brother
had accompanied him. To-night Wyllis had business with
Lockhart, and Margaret rode with Eric, mounted on a
frisky little mustang that Mrs. Lockhart had broken to the
side-saddle. Margaret regarded her escort very much as she
did the servant who always accompanied her on long rides
at home, and the ride to the village was a silent one. She
was occupied with thoughts of another world, and Eric was
wrestling with more thoughts than had ever been crowded
into his head before. He rode with his eyes riveted on that
slight figure before him, as though he wished to absorb it
through the optic nerves and hold it in his brain forever.
He understood the situation perfectly. His brain worked
slowly, but he had a keen sense of the values of things. This
girl represented an entirely new species of humanity to him,
but he knew where to place her. The prophets of old, when
an angel first appeared unto them, never doubted its high
origin.
Eric was patient under the adverse conditions of his life,
but he was not servile. The Norse blood in him had not entirely
lost its self-reliance. He came of a proud fisher line, men
who were not afraid of anything but the ice and the devil, and
he had prospects before him when his father went down off
the North Cape in the long Arctic night, and his mother,
seized by a violent horror of seafaring life, had followed her
brother to America. Eric was eighteen then, handsome as
young Siegfried, a giant in stature, with a skin singularly pure
and delicate, like a Swede’s; hair as yellow as the locks of
Tennyson’s amorous Prince, and eyes of a fierce, burning blue,
whose flash was most dangerous to women. He had in those
days a certain pride of bearing, a certain confidence of approach,
that usually accompanies physical perfection. It was
even said of him then that he was in love with life, and inclined
to levity, a vice most unusual on the Divide. But the
sad history of those Norwegian exiles, transplanted in an arid
soil and under a scorching sun, had repeated itself in his case.
Toil and isolation had sobered him, and he grew more and
more like the clods among which he labored. It was as though
some red-hot instrument had touched for a moment those
delicate fibers of the brain which respond to acute pain or
pleasure, in which lies the power of exquisite sensation, and
had seared them quite away. It is a painful thing to watch the
light die out of the eyes of those Norsemen, leaving an expression
of impenetrable sadness, quite passive, quite hopeless,
a shadow that is never lifted. With some this change
comes almost at once, in the first bitterness of homesickness,
with others it comes more slowly, according to the time it
takes each man’s heart to die.
Oh, those poor Northmen of the Divide! They are dead
many a year before they are put to rest in the little graveyard
on the windy hill where exiles of all nations grow akin.
The peculiar species of hypochondria to which the exiles of
his people sooner or later succumb had not developed in Eric
until that night at the Lone Star schoolhouse, when he had
broken his violin across his knee. After that, the gloom of his
people settled down upon him, and the gospel of maceration
began its work. “If thine eye offend thee, pluck it out,” et cetera.
The pagan smile that once hovered about his lips was gone,
and he was one with sorrow. Religion heals a hundred hearts
for one that it embitters, but when it destroys, its work is
quick and deadly, and where the agony of the cross has been,
joy will not come again. This man understood things literally:
one must live without pleasure to die without fear; to save the
soul it was necessary to starve the soul.
The sun hung low above the cornfields when Margaret and
her cavalier left St. Anne. South of the town there is a stretch
of road that runs for some three miles through the French
settlement, where the prairie is as level as the surface of a lake.
There the fields of flax and wheat and rye are bordered by
precise rows of slender, tapering Lombard poplars. It was a
yellow world that Margaret Elliot saw under the wide light of
the setting sun.
The girl gathered up her reins and called back to Eric, “It
will be safe to run the horses here, won’t it?”
“Yes, I think so, now,” he answered, touching his spur to
his pony’s flank. They were off like the wind. It is an old
saying in the West that new-comers always ride a horse or
two to death before they get broken in to the country. They
are tempted by the great open spaces and try to outride the
horizon, to get to the end of something. Margaret galloped
over the level road, and Eric, from behind, saw her long veil
fluttering in the wind. It had fluttered just so in his dreams
last night and the night before. With a sudden inspiration of
courage he overtook her and rode beside her, looking intently
at her half-averted face. Before, he had only stolen occasional
glances at it, seen it in blinding flashes, always with
more or less embarrassment, but now he determined to let
every line of it sink into his memory. Men of the world
would have said that it was an unusual face, nervous, finely
cut, with clear, elegant lines that betokened ancestry. Men of
letters would have called it a historic face, and would have
conjectured at what old passions, long asleep, what old sorrows
forgotten time out of mind, doing battle together in
ages gone, had curved those delicate nostrils, left their unconscious
memory in those eyes. But Eric read no meaning
in these details. To him this beauty was something more
than color and line; it was as a flash of white light, in which
one cannot distinguish color because all colors are there. To
him it was a complete revelation, an embodiment of those
dreams of impossible loveliness that linger by a young man’s
pillow on midsummer nights; yet, because it held something
more than the attraction of health and youth and shapeliness,
it troubled him, and in its presence he felt as the Goths
before the white marbles in the Roman Capitol, not knowing
whether they were men or gods. At times he felt like uncovering
his head before it, again the fury seized him to
break and despoil, to find the clay in this spirit-thing and
stamp upon it. Away from her, he longed to strike out with
his arms, and take and hold; it maddened him that this
woman whom he could break in his hands should be so
much stronger than he. But near her, he never questioned
this strength; he admitted its potentiality as he admitted the
miracles of the Bible; it enervated and conquered him. To-night,
when he rode so close to her that he could have
touched her, he knew that he might as well reach out his
hand to take a star.
Margaret stirred uneasily under his gaze and turned questioningly
in her saddle.
“This wind puts me a little out of breath when we ride
fast,” she said.
Eric turned his eyes away.
“I want to ask you if I go to New York to work, if I maybe
hear music like you sang last night? I been a purty good hand
to work,” he asked, timidly.
Margaret looked at him with surprise, and then, as she
studied the outline of his face, pityingly.
“Well, you might—but you’d lose a good deal else. I
shouldn’t like you to go to New York—and be poor, you’d
be out of atmosphere, some way,” she said, slowly. Inwardly
she was thinking: “There he would be altogether sordid,
impossible—a machine who would carry one’s trunks upstairs,
perhaps. Here he is every inch a man, rather picturesque;
why is it?” “No,” she added aloud, “I shouldn’t like
that.”
“Then I not go,” said Eric, decidedly.
Margaret turned her face to hide a smile. She was a trifle
amused and a trifle annoyed. Suddenly she spoke again.
“But I’ll tell you what I do want you to do, Eric. I want
you to dance with us to-morrow night and teach me some of
the Norwegian dances; they say you know them all. Won’t
you?”
Eric straightened himself in his saddle and his eyes flashed
as they had done in the Lone Star schoolhouse when he broke
his violin across his knee.
“Yes, I will,” he said, quietly, and he believed that he delivered
his soul to hell as he said it.
They had reached the rougher country now, where the
road wound through a narrow cut in one of the bluffs along
the creek, when a beat of hoofs ahead and the sharp neighing
of horses made the ponies start and Eric rose in his stirrups.
Then down the gulch in front of them and over the steep clay
banks thundered a herd of wild ponies, nimble as monkeys
and wild as rabbits, such as horse-traders drive east from the
plains of Montana to sell in the farming country. Margaret’s
pony made a shrill sound, a neigh that was almost a scream,
and started up the clay bank to meet them, all the wild blood
of the range breaking out in an instant. Margaret called to
Eric just as he threw himself out of the saddle and caught her
pony’s bit. But the wiry little animal had gone mad and was
kicking and biting like a devil. Her wild brothers of the range
were all about her, neighing, and pawing the earth, and striking
her with their fore feet and snapping at her flanks. It was
the old liberty of the range that the little beast fought for.
“Drop the reins and hold tight, tight!” Eric called, throwing
all his weight upon the bit, struggling under those frantic
fore feet that now beat at his breast, and now kicked at the
wild mustangs that surged and tossed about him. He succeeded
in wrenching the pony’s head toward him and crowding
her withers against the clay bank, so that she could not
roll.
“Hold tight, tight!” he shouted again, launching a kick at
a snorting animal that reared back against Margaret’s saddle.
If she should lose her courage and fall now, under those
hoofs——He struck out again and again, kicking right and
left with all his might. Already the negligent drivers had galloped
into the cut, and their long quirts were whistling over
the heads of the herd. As suddenly as it had come, the struggling,
frantic wave of wild life swept up out of the gulch and
on across the open prairie, and with a long despairing whinny
of farewell the pony dropped her head and stood trembling in
her sweat, shaking the foam and blood from her bit.
Eric stepped close to Margaret’s side and laid his hand on
her saddle. “You are not hurt?” he asked, hoarsely. As he
raised his face in the soft starlight she saw that it was white
and drawn and that his lips were working nervously.
“No, no, not at all. But you, you are suffering; they struck
you!” she cried in sharp alarm.
He stepped back and drew his hand across his brow.
“No, it is not that,” he spoke rapidly now, with his hands
clenched at his side. “But if they had hurt you, I would beat
their brains out with my hands, I would kill them all. I was
never afraid before. You are the only beautiful thing that has
ever come close to me. You came like an angel out of the sky.
You are like the music you sing, you are like the stars and the
snow on the mountains where I played when I was a little
boy. You are like all that I wanted once and never had, you
are all that they have killed in me. I die for you to-night,
to-morrow, for all eternity. I am not a coward; I was afraid
because I love you more than Christ who died for me, more
than I am afraid of hell, or hope for heaven. I was never afraid
before. If you had fallen—oh, my God!” he threw his arms
out blindly and dropped his head upon the pony’s mane,
leaning limply against the animal like a man struck by some
sickness. His shoulders rose and fell perceptibly with his
labored breathing. The horse stood cowed with exhaustion
and fear. Presently Margaret laid her hand on Eric’s head and
said gently:
“You are better now, shall we go on? Can you get your
horse?”
“No, he has gone with the herd. I will lead yours, she is not
safe. I will not frighten you again.” His voice was still husky,
but it was steady now. He took hold of the bit and tramped
home in silence.
When they reached the house, Eric stood stolidly by the
pony’s head until Wyllis came to lift his sister from the saddle.
“The horses were badly frightened, Wyllis. I think I was
pretty thoroughly scared myself,” she said as she took her
brother’s arm and went slowly up the hill toward the house.
“No, I’m not hurt, thanks to Eric. You must thank him for
taking such good care of me. He’s a mighty fine fellow. I’ll
tell you all about it in the morning, dear. I was pretty well
shaken up and I’m going right to bed now. Good-night.”
When she reached the low room in which she slept, she
sank upon the bed in her riding-dress face downward.
“Oh, I pity him! I pity him!” she murmured, with a long
sigh of exhaustion. She must have slept a little. When she rose
again, she took from her dress a letter that had been waiting
for her at the village post-office. It was closely written in a
long, angular hand, covering a dozen pages of foreign note-paper,
and began:—
“My Dearest Margaret: If I should attempt to say how like a
winter hath thine absence been, I should incur the risk of being
tedious. Really, it takes the sparkle out of everything. Having
nothing better to do, and not caring to go anywhere in
particular without you, I remained in the city until Jack
Courtwell noted my general despondency and brought me
down here to his place on the sound to manage some open-air
theatricals he is getting up. ‘As You Like It’ is of course
the piece selected. Miss Harrison plays Rosalind. I wish you
had been here to take the part. Miss Harrison reads her lines
well, but she is either a maiden-all-forlorn or a tomboy; insists
on reading into the part all sorts of deeper meanings and
highly colored suggestions wholly out of harmony with the
pastoral setting. Like most of the professionals, she exaggerates
the emotional element and quite fails to do justice to
Rosalind’s facile wit and really brilliant mental qualities.
Gerard will do Orlando, but rumor says he is épris of your
sometime friend, Miss Meredith, and his memory is treacherous
and his interest fitful.
“My new pictures arrived last week on the ‘Gascogne.’ The
Puvis de Chavannes is even more beautiful than I thought it
in Paris. A pale dream-maiden sits by a pale dream-cow, and a
stream of anemic water flows at her feet. The Constant, you
will remember, I got because you admired it. It is here in all
its florid splendor, the whole dominated by a glowing sensuosity.
The drapery of the female figure is as wonderful as you
said; the fabric all barbaric pearl and gold, painted with an
easy, effortless voluptuousness, and that white, gleaming line
of African coast in the background recalls memories of you
very precious to me. But it is useless to deny that Constant
irritates me. Though I cannot prove the charge against him,
his brilliancy always makes me suspect him of cheapness.”
Here Margaret stopped and glanced at the remaining pages
of this strange love-letter. They seemed to be filled chiefly
with discussions of pictures and books, and with a slow smile
she laid them by.
She rose and began undressing. Before she lay down she
went to open the window. With her hand on the sill, she
hesitated, feeling suddenly as though some danger were lurking
outside, some inordinate desire waiting to spring upon
her in the darkness. She stood there for a long time, gazing at
the infinite sweep of the sky.
“Oh, it is all so little, so little there,” she murmured.
“When everything else is so dwarfed, why should one expect
love to be great? Why should one try to read highly colored
suggestions into a life like that? If only I could find one thing
in it all that mattered greatly, one thing that would warm
me when I am alone! Will life never give me that one great
moment?”
As she raised the window, she heard a sound in the plum-bushes
outside. It was only the house-dog roused from his
sleep, but Margaret started violently and trembled so that she
caught the foot of the bed for support. Again she felt herself
pursued by some overwhelming longing, some desperate necessity
for herself, like the outstretching of helpless, unseen
arms in the darkness, and the air seemed heavy with sighs of
yearning. She fled to her bed with the words, “I love you
more than Christ, who died for me!” ringing in her ears.
III.
About midnight the dance at Lockhart’s was at its height.
Even the old men who had come to “look on” caught the
spirit of revelry and stamped the floor with the vigor of old
Silenus. Eric took the violin from the Frenchman, and Minna
Oleson sat at the organ, and the music grew more and more
characteristic—rude, half-mournful music, made up of the
folk-songs of the North, that the villagers sing through the
long night in hamlets by the sea, when they are thinking of
the sun, and the spring, and the fishermen so long away. To
Margaret some of it sounded like Grieg’s Peer Gynt music.
She found something irresistibly infectious in the mirth of
these people who were so seldom merry, and she felt almost
one of them. Something seemed struggling for freedom in
them to-night, something of the joyous childhood of the nations
which exile had not killed. The girls were all boisterous
with delight. Pleasure came to them but rarely, and when it
came, they caught at it wildly and crushed its fluttering wings
in their strong brown fingers. They had a hard life enough,
most of them. Torrid summers and freezing winters, labor and
drudgery and ignorance, were the portion of their girlhood; a
short wooing, a hasty, loveless marriage, unlimited maternity,
thankless sons, premature age and ugliness, were the dower of
their womanhood. But what matter? To-night there was hot
liquor in the glass and hot blood in the heart; to-night they
danced.
To-night Eric Hermannson had renewed his youth. He was
no longer the big, silent Norwegian who had sat at Margaret’s
feet and looked hopelessly into her eyes. To-night he
was a man, with a man’s rights and a man’s power. To-night
he was Siegfried indeed. His hair was yellow as the heavy
wheat in the ripe of summer, and his eyes flashed like the blue
water between the ice-packs in the North Seas. He was not
afraid of Margaret to-night, and when he danced with her he
held her firmly. She was tired and dragged on his arm a little,
but the strength of the man was like an all-pervading fluid,
stealing through her veins, awakening under her heart some
nameless, unsuspected existence that had slumbered there all
these years and that went out through her throbbing fingertips
to his that answered. She wondered if the hoydenish
blood of some lawless ancestor, long asleep, were calling out
in her to-night, some drop of a hotter fluid that the centuries
had failed to cool, and why, if this curse were in her, it had
not spoken before. But was it a curse, this awakening, this
wealth before undiscovered, this music set free? For the first
time in her life her heart held something stronger than herself,
was not this worth while? Then she ceased to wonder.
She lost sight of the lights and the faces, and the music was
drowned by the beating of her own arteries. She saw only the
blue eyes that flashed above her, felt only the warmth of that
throbbing hand which held hers and which the blood of his
heart fed. Dimly, as in a dream, she saw the drooping shoulders,
high white forehead and tight, cynical mouth of the man
she was to marry in December. For an hour she had been
crowding back the memory of that face with all her strength.
“Let us stop, this is enough,” she whispered. His only
answer was to tighten the arm behind her. She sighed and let
that masterful strength bear her where it would. She forgot
that this man was little more than a savage, that they would
part at dawn. The blood has no memories, no reflections, no
regrets for the past, no consideration of the future.
“Let us go out where it is cooler,” she said when the music
stopped; thinking, “I am growing faint here, I shall be all
right in the open air.” They stepped out into the cool, blue air
of the night.
Since the older folk had begun dancing, the young Norwegians
had been slipping out in couples to climb the windmill
tower into the cooler atmosphere, as is their custom.
“You like to go up?” asked Eric, close to her ear.
She turned and looked at him with suppressed amusement.
“How high is it?”
“Forty feet, about. I not let you fall.” There was a note of
irresistible pleading in his voice, and she felt that he tremendously
wished her to go. Well, why not? This was a night of
the unusual, when she was not herself at all, but was living an
unreality. To-morrow, yes, in a few hours, there would be the
Vestibule Limited and the world.
“Well, if you’ll take good care of me. I used to be able to
climb, when I was a little girl.”
Once at the top and seated on the platform, they were silent.
Margaret wondered if she would not hunger for that
scene all her life, through all the routine of the days to come.
Above them stretched the great Western sky, serenely blue,
even in the night, with its big, burning stars, never so cold
and dead and far away as in denser atmospheres. The moon
would not be up for twenty minutes yet, and all about the
horizon, that wide horizon, which seemed to reach around
the world, lingered a pale, white light, as of a universal dawn.
The weary wind brought up to them the heavy odors of the
cornfields. The music of the dance sounded faintly from below.
Eric leaned on his elbow beside her, his legs swinging
down on the ladder. His great shoulders looked more than
ever like those of the stone Doryphorus, who stands in his
perfect, reposeful strength in the Louvre, and had often made
her wonder if such men died forever with the youth of
Greece.
“How sweet the corn smells at night,” said Margaret nervously.
“Yes, like the flowers that grow in paradise, I think.”
She was somewhat startled by this reply, and more startled
when this taciturn man spoke again.
“You go away to-morrow?”
“Yes, we have stayed longer than we thought to now.”
“You not come back any more?”
“No, I expect not. You see, it is a long trip; half-way across
the continent.”
“You soon forget about this country, I guess.” It seemed to
him now a little thing to lose his soul for this woman, but
that she should utterly forget this night into which he threw
all his life and all his eternity, that was a bitter thought.
“No, Eric, I will not forget. You have all been too kind to
me for that. And you won’t be sorry you danced this one
night, will you?”
“I never be sorry. I have not been so happy before. I not be
so happy again, ever. You will be happy many nights yet, I
only this one. I will dream sometimes, maybe.”
The mighty resignation of his tone alarmed and touched
her. It was as when some great animal composes itself for
death, as when a great ship goes down at sea.
She sighed, but did not answer him. He drew a little closer
and looked into her eyes.
“You are not always happy, too?” he asked.
“No, not always, Eric; not very often, I think.”
“You have a trouble?”
“Yes, but I cannot put it into words. Perhaps if I could do
that, I could cure it.”
He clasped his hands together over his heart, as children do
when they pray, and said falteringly, “If I own all the world, I
give him you.”
Margaret felt a sudden moisture in her eyes, and laid her
hand on his.
“Thank you, Eric; I believe you would. But perhaps even
then I should not be happy. Perhaps I have too much of it
already.”
She did not take her hand away from him; she did not
dare. She sat still and waited for the traditions in which she
had always believed to speak and save her. But they were
dumb. She belonged to an ultra-refined civilization which
tries to cheat nature with elegant sophistries. Cheat nature?
Bah! One generation may do it, perhaps two, but the
third—— Can we ever rise above nature or sink below her?
Did she not turn on Jerusalem as upon Sodom, upon St. Anthony
in his desert as upon Nero in his seraglio? Does she not
always cry in brutal triumph: “I am here still, at the bottom of
things, warming the roots of life; you cannot starve me nor
tame me nor thwart me; I made the world, I rule it, and I am
its destiny.”
This woman, on a windmill tower at the world’s end with a
giant barbarian, heard that cry to-night, and she was afraid!
Ah! the terror and the delight of that moment when first we
fear ourselves! Until then we have not lived.
“Come, Eric, let us go down; the moon is up and the music
has begun again,” she said.
He rose silently and stepped down upon the ladder, putting
his arm about her to help her. That arm could have thrown
Thor’s hammer out in the cornfields yonder, yet it scarcely
touched her, and his hand trembled as it had done in the
dance. His face was level with hers now and the moonlight
fell sharply upon it. All her life she had searched the faces of
men for the look that lay in his eyes. She knew that that look
had never shone for her before, would never shine for her on
earth again, that such love comes to one only in dreams or in
impossible places like this, unattainable always. This was
Love’s self, in a moment it would die. Stung by the agonized
appeal that emanated from the man’s whole being, she leaned
forward and laid her lips on his. Once, twice and again she
heard the deep respirations rattle in his throat while she held
them there, and the riotous force under her heart became an
engulfing weakness. He drew her up to him until he felt all
the resistance go out of her body, until every nerve relaxed
and yielded. When she drew her face back from his, it was
white with fear.
“Let us go down, oh, my God! let us go down!” she
muttered. And the drunken stars up yonder seemed reeling
to some appointed doom as she clung to the rounds of the
ladder. All that she was to know of love she had left upon
his lips.
“The devil is loose again,” whispered Olaf Oleson, as he
saw Eric dancing a moment later, his eyes blazing.
But Eric was thinking with an almost savage exultation of
the time when he should pay for this. Ah, there would be no
quailing then! If ever a soul went fearlessly, proudly down to
the gates infernal, his should go. For a moment he fancied he
was there already, treading down the tempest of flame, hugging
the fiery hurricane to his breast. He wondered whether
in ages gone, all the countless years of sinning in which men
had sold and lost and flung their souls away, any man had
ever so cheated Satan, had ever bartered his soul for so great a
price.
It seemed but a little while till dawn.
The carriage was brought to the door and Wyllis Elliot and
his sister said good-by. She could not meet Eric’s eyes as she
gave him her hand, but as he stood by the horse’s head, just
as the carriage moved off, she gave him one swift glance that
said, “I will not forget.” In a moment the carriage was gone.
Eric changed his coat and plunged his head into the watertank
and went to the barn to hook up his team. As he led his
horses to the door, a shadow fell across his path, and he saw
Skinner rising in his stirrups. His rugged face was pale and
worn with looking after his wayward flock, with dragging
men into the way of salvation.
“Good-morning, Eric. There was a dance here last night?”
he asked, sternly.
“A dance? Oh, yes, a dance,” replied Eric, cheerfully.
“Certainly you did not dance, Eric?”
“Yes, I danced. I danced all the time.”
The minister’s shoulders drooped, and an expression of
profound discouragement settled over his haggard face. There
was almost anguish in the yearning he felt for this soul.
“Eric, I didn’t look for this from you. I thought God had
set his mark on you if he ever had on any man. And it is for
things like this that you set your soul back a thousand years
from God. O foolish and perverse generation!”
Eric drew himself up to his full height and looked off to
where the new day was gilding the corn-tassels and flooding
the uplands with light. As his nostrils drew in the breath of
the dew and the morning, something from the only poetry he
had ever read flashed across his mind, and he murmured, half
to himself, with dreamy exultation:
“‘And a day shall be as a thousand years, and a thousand
years as a day.’”
Cosmopolitan, April 1900
The Sentimentality of William Tavener ToC
It takes a strong woman to make any sort of success of
living in the West, and Hester undoubtedly was that.
When people spoke of William Tavener as the most prosperous
farmer in McPherson County, they usually added that his
wife was a “good manager.” She was an executive woman,
quick of tongue and something of an imperatrix. The only
reason her husband did not consult her about his business
was that she did not wait to be consulted.
It would have been quite impossible for one man, within
the limited sphere of human action, to follow all Hester’s advice,
but in the end William usually acted upon some of her
suggestions. When she incessantly denounced the “shiftlessness”
of letting a new threshing machine stand unprotected in
the open, he eventually built a shed for it. When she sniffed
contemptuously at his notion of fencing a hog corral with
sod walls, he made a spiritless beginning on the structure—merely
to “show his temper,” as she put it—but in the end he
went off quietly to town and bought enough barbed wire to
complete the fence. When the first heavy rains came on, and
the pigs rooted down the sod wall and made little paths all
over it to facilitate their ascent, he heard his wife relate with
relish the story of the little pig that built a mud house, to the
minister at the dinner table, and William’s gravity never relaxed
for an instant. Silence, indeed, was William’s refuge and
his strength.
William set his boys a wholesome example to respect their
mother. People who knew him very well suspected that he
even admired her. He was a hard man towards his neighbors,
and even towards his sons; grasping, determined and
ambitious.
There was an occasional blue day about the house when
William went over the store bills, but he never objected to
items relating to his wife’s gowns or bonnets. So it came
about that many of the foolish, unnecessary little things that
Hester bought for boys, she had charged to her personal
account.
One spring night Hester sat in a rocking chair by the sitting
room window, darning socks. She rocked violently and
sent her long needle vigorously back and forth over her
gourd, and it took only a very casual glance to see that she
was wrought up over something. William sat on the other
side of the table reading his farm paper. If he had noticed his
wife’s agitation, his calm, clean-shaven face betrayed no sign
of concern. He must have noticed the sarcastic turn of her
remarks at the supper table, and he must have noticed the
moody silence of the older boys as they ate. When supper was
but half over little Billy, the youngest, had suddenly pushed
back his plate and slipped away from the table, manfully
trying to swallow a sob. But William Tavener never heeded
ominous forecasts in the domestic horizon, and he never
looked for a storm until it broke.
After supper the boys had gone to the pond under the willows
in the big cattle corral, to get rid of the dust of plowing.
Hester could hear an occasional splash and a laugh ringing
clear through the stillness of the night, as she sat by the open
window. She sat silent for almost an hour reviewing in her
mind many plans of attack. But she was too vigorous a
woman to be much of a strategist, and she usually came to her
point with directness. At last she cut her thread and suddenly
put her darning down, saying emphatically:
“William, I don’t think it would hurt you to let the boys go
to that circus in town to-morrow.”
William continued to read his farm paper, but it was not
Hester’s custom to wait for an answer. She usually divined
his arguments and assailed them one by one before he uttered
them.
“You’ve been short of hands all summer, and you’ve
worked the boys hard, and a man ought use his own flesh and
blood as well as he does his hired hands. We’re plenty able to
afford it, and it’s little enough our boys ever spend. I don’t
see how you can expect ’em to be steady and hard workin’,
unless you encourage ’em a little. I never could see much
harm in circuses, and our boys have never been to one. Oh, I
know Jim Howley’s boys get drunk an’ carry on when they
go, but our boys ain’t that sort, an’ you know it, William. The
animals are real instructive, an’ our boys don’t get to see
much out here on the prairie. It was different where we were
raised, but the boys have got no advantages here, an’ if you
don’t take care, they’ll grow up to be greenhorns.”
Hester paused a moment, and William folded up his paper,
but vouchsafed no remark. His sisters in Virginia had often
said that only a quiet man like William could ever have lived
with Hester Perkins. Secretly, William was rather proud of his
wife’s “gift of speech,” and of the fact that she could talk in
prayer meeting as fluently as a man. He confined his own
efforts in that line to a brief prayer at Covenant meetings.
Hester shook out another sock and went on.
“Nobody was ever hurt by goin’ to a circus. Why, law me!
I remember I went to one myself once, when I was little. I
had most forgot about it. It was over at Pewtown, an’ I remember
how I had set my heart on going. I don’t think I’d
ever forgiven my father if he hadn’t taken me, though that red
clay road was in a frightful way after the rain. I mind they had
an elephant and six poll parrots, an’ a Rocky Mountain lion,
an’ a cage of monkeys, an’ two camels. My! but they were a
sight to me then!”
Hester dropped the black sock and shook her head and
smiled at the recollection. She was not expecting anything
from William yet, and she was fairly startled when he said
gravely, in much the same tone in which he announced the
hymns in prayer meeting:
“No, there was only one camel. The other was a dromedary.”
She peered around the lamp and looked at him keenly.
“Why, William, how come you to know?”
William folded his paper and answered with some hesitation,
“I was there, too.”
Hester’s interest flashed up.—“Well, I never, William! To
think of my finding it out after all these years! Why, you
couldn’t have been much bigger’n our Billy then. It seems
queer I never saw you when you was little, to remember
about you. But then you Back Creek folks never have anything
to do with us Gap people. But how come you to go?
Your father was stricter with you than you are with your
boys.”
“I reckon I shouldn’t ’a gone,” he said slowly, “but boys
will do foolish things. I had done a good deal of fox hunting
the winter before, and father let me keep the bounty money. I
hired Tom Smith’s Tap to weed the corn for me, an’ I slipped
off unbeknownst to father an’ went to the show.”
Hester spoke up warmly: “Nonsense, William! It didn’t do
you no harm, I guess. You was always worked hard enough.
It must have been a big sight for a little fellow. That clown
must have just tickled you to death.”
William crossed his knees and leaned back in his chair.
“I reckon I could tell all that fool’s jokes now. Sometimes I
can’t help thinkin’ about ’em in meetin’ when the sermon’s
long. I mind I had on a pair of new boots that hurt me like
the mischief, but I forgot all about ’em when that fellow rode
the donkey. I recall I had to take them boots off as soon as I
got out of sight o’ town, and walked home in the mud barefoot.”
“O poor little fellow!” Hester ejaculated, drawing her chair
nearer and leaning her elbows on the table. “What cruel shoes
they did use to make for children. I remember I went up to
Back Creek to see the circus wagons go by. They came down
from Romney, you know. The circus men stopped at the
creek to water the animals, an’ the elephant got stubborn an’
broke a big limb off the yellow willow tree that grew there by
the toll house porch, an’ the Scribners were ’fraid as death
he’d pull the house down. But this much I saw him do; he
waded in the creek an’ filled his trunk with water, and
squirted it in at the window and nearly ruined Ellen Scribner’s
pink lawn dress that she had just ironed an’ laid out on
the bed ready to wear to the circus.”
“I reckon that must have been a trial to Ellen,” chuckled
William, “for she was mighty prim in them days.”
Hester drew her chair still nearer William’s. Since the
children had begun growing up, her conversation with her
husband had been almost wholly confined to questions of
economy and expense. Their relationship had become purely
a business one, like that between landlord and tenant. In her
desire to indulge her boys she had unconsciously assumed a
defensive and almost hostile attitude towards her husband.
No debtor ever haggled with his usurer more doggedly than
did Hester with her husband in behalf of her sons. The strategic
contest had gone on so long that it had almost crowded
out the memory of a closer relationship. This exchange of
confidences to-night, when common recollections took them
unawares and opened their hearts, had all the miracle of romance.
They talked on and on; of old neighbors, of old familiar
faces in the valley where they had grown up, of long
forgotten incidents of their youth—weddings, picnics, sleighing
parties and baptizings. For years they had talked of nothing
else but butter and eggs and the prices of things, and now
they had as much to say to each other as people who meet
after a long separation.
When the clock struck ten, William rose and went over to
his walnut secretary and unlocked it. From his red leather
wallet he took out a ten dollar bill and laid it on the table
beside Hester.
“Tell the boys not to stay late, an’ not to drive the horses
hard,” he said quietly, and went off to bed.
Hester blew out the lamp and sat still in the dark a long
time. She left the bill lying on the table where William had
placed it. She had a painful sense of having missed something,
or lost something; she felt that somehow the years had
cheated her.
The little locust trees that grew by the fence were white
with blossoms. Their heavy odor floated in to her on the
night wind and recalled a night long ago, when the first whip-poor-Will
of the Spring was heard, and the rough, buxom
girls of Hawkins Gap had held her laughing and struggling
under the locust trees, and searched in her bosom for a lock
of her sweetheart’s hair, which is supposed to be on every
girl’s breast when the first whip-poor-Will sings. Two of
those same girls had been her bridesmaids. Hester had been a
very happy bride. She rose and went softly into the room
where William lay. He was sleeping heavily, but occasionally
moved his hand before his face to ward off the flies. Hester
went into the parlor and took the piece of mosquito net from
the basket of wax apples and pears that her sister had made
before she died. One of the boys had brought it all the way
from Virginia, packed in a tin pail, since Hester would not
risk shipping so precious an ornament by freight. She went
back to the bed room and spread the net over William’s head.
Then she sat down by the bed and listened to his deep, regular
breathing until she heard the boys returning. She went out
to meet them and warn them not to waken their father.
“I’ll be up early to get your breakfast, boys. Your father says
you can go to the show.” As she handed the money to the
eldest, she felt a sudden throb of allegiance to her husband
and said sharply, “And you be careful of that, an’ don’t waste
it. Your father works hard for his money.”
The boys looked at each other in astonishment and felt that
they had lost a powerful ally.
Library, May 12, 1900
The Namesake ToC
Seven of us, students, sat one evening in Hartwell’s
studio on the Boulevard St. Michel. We were all fellow-countrymen;
one from New Hampshire, one from Colorado,
another from Nevada, several from the farm lands of the
Middle West, and I myself from California. Lyon Hartwell,
though born abroad, was simply, as every one knew, “from
America.” He seemed, almost more than any other one living
man, to mean all of it—from ocean to ocean. When he was in
Paris, his studio was always open to the seven of us who were
there that evening, and we intruded upon his leisure as often
as we thought permissible.
Although we were within the terms of the easiest of all
intimacies, and although the great sculptor, even when he was
more than usually silent, was at all times the most gravely
cordial of hosts, yet, on that long remembered evening, as the
sunlight died on the burnished brown of the horse-chestnuts
below the windows, a perceptible dullness yawned through
our conversation.
We were, indeed, somewhat low in spirit, for one of our
number, Charley Bentley, was leaving us indefinitely, in response
to an imperative summons from home. To-morrow his
studio, just across the hall from Hartwell’s, was to pass into
other hands, and Bentley’s luggage was even now piled in
discouraged resignation before his door. The various bales
and boxes seemed literally to weigh upon us as we sat in his
neighbor’s hospitable rooms, drearily putting in the time until
he should leave us to catch the ten o’clock express for
Dieppe.
The day we had got through very comfortably, for Bentley
made it the occasion of a somewhat pretentious luncheon at
Maxim’s. There had been twelve of us at table, and the two
young Poles were thirsty, the Gascon so fabulously entertaining,
that it was near upon five o’clock when we put down our
liqueur glasses for the last time, and the red, perspiring
waiter, having pocketed the reward of his arduous and protracted
services, bowed us affably to the door, flourishing his
napkin and brushing back the streaks of wet, black hair from
his rosy forehead. Our guests having betaken themselves belated
to their respective engagements, the rest of us returned
with Bentley—only to be confronted by the depressing array
before his door. A glance about his denuded rooms had sufficed
to chill the glow of the afternoon, and we fled across the
hall in a body and begged Lyon Hartwell to take us in.
Bentley had said very little about it, but we all knew what it
meant to him to be called home. Each of us knew what it
would mean to himself, and each had felt something of that
quickened sense of opportunity which comes at seeing another
man in any way counted out of the race. Never had the
game seemed so enchanting, the chance to play it such a piece
of unmerited, unbelievable good fortune.
It must have been, I think, about the middle of October,
for I remember that the sycamores were almost bare in the
Luxembourg Gardens that morning, and the terrace about the
queens of France were strewn with crackling brown leaves.
The fat red roses, out the summer long on the stand of the
old flower woman at the corner, had given place to dahlias
and purple asters. First glimpses of autumn toilettes flashed
from the carriages; wonderful little bonnets nodded at one
along the Champs-Elysées; and in the Quarter an occasional
feather boa, red or black or white, brushed one’s coat sleeve
in the gay twilight of the early evening. The crisp, sunny autumn
air was all day full of the stir of people and carriages and
of the cheer of salutations; greetings of the students, returned
brown and bearded from their holiday, gossip of people come
back from Trouville, from St. Valery, from Dieppe, from all
over Brittany and the Norman coast. Everywhere was the joyousness
of return, the taking up again of life and work and
play.
I had felt ever since early morning that this was the saddest
of all possible seasons for saying good-by to that old, old city
of youth, and to that little corner of it on the south shore
which since the Dark Ages themselves—yes, and before—has
been so peculiarly the land of the young.
I can recall our very postures as we lounged about Hartwell’s
rooms that evening, with Bentley making occasional
hurried trips to his desolated workrooms across the hall—as
if haunted by a feeling of having forgotten something—or
stopping to poke nervously at his perroquets, which he had
bequeathed to Hartwell, gilt cage and all. Our host himself
sat on the couch, his big, bronze-like shoulders backed up
against the window, his shaggy head, beaked nose, and long
chin cut clean against the gray light.
Our drowsing interest, in so far as it could be said to be
fixed upon anything, was centered upon Hartwell’s new figure,
which stood on the block ready to be cast in bronze,
intended as a monument for some American battlefield. He
called it “The Color Sergeant.” It was the figure of a young
soldier running, clutching the folds of a flag, the staff of
which had been shot away. We had known it in all the stages
of its growth, and the splendid action and feeling of the thing
had come to have a kind of special significance for the half
dozen of us who often gathered at Hartwell’s rooms—though,
in truth, there was as much to dishearten one as to
inflame, in the case of a man who had done so much in a field
so amazingly difficult; who had thrown up in bronze all the
restless, teeming force of that adventurous wave still climbing
westward in our own land across the waters. We recalled his
“Scout,” his “Pioneer,” his “Gold Seekers,” and those monuments
in which he had invested one and another of the heroes
of the Civil War with such convincing dignity and power.
“Where in the world does he get the heat to make an idea
like that carry?” Bentley remarked morosely, scowling at the
clay figure. “Hang me, Hartwell, if I don’t think it’s just because
you’re not really an American at all, that you can look at
it like that.”
The big man shifted uneasily against the window. “Yes,” he
replied smiling, “perhaps there is something in that. My citizenship
was somewhat belated and emotional in its flowering.
I’ve half a mind to tell you about it, Bentley.” He rose uncertainly,
and, after hesitating a moment, went back into his
workroom, where he began fumbling among the litter in the
corners.
At the prospect of any sort of personal expression from
Hartwell, we glanced questioningly at one another; for although
he made us feel that he liked to have us about, we
were always held at a distance by a certain diffidence of his.
There were rare occasions—when he was in the heat of work
or of ideas—when he forgot to be shy, but they were so exceptional
that no flattery was quite so seductive as being taken
for a moment into Hartwell’s confidence. Even in the matter
of opinions—the commonest of currency in our circle—he
was niggardly and prone to qualify. No man ever guarded his
mystery more effectually. There was a singular, intense spell,
therefore, about those few evenings when he had broken
through this excessive modesty, or shyness, or melancholy,
and had, as it were, committed himself.
When Hartwell returned from the back room, he brought
with him an unframed canvas which he put on an easel near
his clay figure. We drew close about it, for the darkness was
rapidly coming on. Despite the dullness of the light, we instantly
recognized the boy of Hartwell’s “Color Sergeant.” It
was the portrait of a very handsome lad in uniform, standing
beside a charger impossibly rearing. Not only in his radiant
countenance and flashing eyes, but in every line of his young
body there was an energy, a gallantry, a joy of life, that arrested
and challenged one.
“Yes, that’s where I got the notion,” Hartwell remarked,
wandering back to his seat in the window. “I’ve wanted to do
it for years, but I’ve never felt quite sure of myself. I was
afraid of missing it. He was an uncle of mine, my father’s
half-brother, and I was named for him. He was killed in one
of the big battles of Sixty-four, when I was a child. I never
saw him—never knew him until he had been dead for twenty
years. And then, one night, I came to know him as we sometimes
do living persons—intimately, in a single moment.”
He paused to knock the ashes out of his short pipe, refilled
it, and puffed at it thoughtfully for a few moments with his
hands on his knees. Then, settling back heavily among the
cushions and looking absently out of the window, he began
his story. As he proceeded further and further into the experience
which he was trying to convey to us, his voice sank so
low and was sometimes so charged with feeling, that I almost
thought he had forgotten our presence and was remembering
aloud. Even Bentley forgot his nervousness in astonishment
and sat breathless under the spell of the man’s thus breathing
his memories out into the dusk.
“It was just fifteen years ago this last spring that I first went
home, and Bentley’s having to cut away like this brings it all
back to me.
“I was born, you know, in Italy. My father was a sculptor,
though I dare say you’ve not heard of him. He was one of
those first fellows who went over after Story and Powers,—went
to Italy for ‘Art,’ quite simply; to lift from its native
bough the willing, iridescent bird. Their story is told, informingly
enough, by some of those ingenuous marble things at
the Metropolitan. My father came over some time before the
outbreak of the Civil War, and was regarded as a renegade by
his family because he did not go home to enter the army. His
half-brother, the only child of my grandfather’s second marriage,
enlisted at fifteen and was killed the next year. I was ten
years old when the news of his death reached us. My mother
died the following winter, and I was sent away to a Jesuit
school, while my father, already ill himself, stayed on at
Rome, chipping away at his Indian maidens and marble goddesses,
still gloomily seeking the thing for which he had made
himself the most unhappy of exiles.
“He died when I was fourteen, but even before that I had
been put to work under an Italian sculptor. He had an almost
morbid desire that I should carry on his work, under, as he
often pointed out to me, conditions so much more auspicious.
He left me in the charge of his one intimate friend, an
American gentleman in the consulate at Rome, and his instructions
were that I was to be educated there and to live
there until I was twenty-one. After I was of age, I came to
Paris and studied under one master after another until I was
nearly thirty. Then, almost for the first time, I was confronted
by a duty which was not my pleasure.
“My grandfather’s death, at an advanced age, left an invalid
maiden sister of my father’s quite alone in the world. She had
suffered for years from a cerebral disease, a slow decay of the
faculties which rendered her almost helpless. I decided to go
to America and, if possible, bring her back to Paris, where I
seemed on my way toward what my poor father had wished
for me.
“On my arrival at my father’s birthplace, however, I found
that this was not to be thought of. To tear this timid, feeble,
shrinking creature, doubly aged by years and illness, from the
spot where she had been rooted for a lifetime, would have
been little short of brutality. To leave her to the care of
strangers seemed equally heartless. There was clearly nothing
for me to do but to remain and wait for that slow and painless
malady to run its course. I was there something over two
years.
“My grandfather’s home, his father’s homestead before
him, lay on the high banks of a river in Western Pennsylvania.
The little town twelve miles down the stream, whither my
great-grandfather used to drive his ox-wagon on market days,
had become, in two generations, one of the largest manufacturing
cities in the world. For hundreds of miles about us the
gentle hill slopes were honeycombed with gas wells and coal
shafts; oil derricks creaked in every valley and meadow; the
brooks were sluggish and discolored with crude petroleum,
and the air was impregnated by its searching odor. The great
glass and iron manufactories had come up and up the river
almost to our very door; their smoky exhalations brooded
over us, and their crashing was always in our ears. I was
plunged into the very incandescence of human energy. But,
though my nerves tingled with the feverish, passionate endeavor
which snapped in the very air about me, none of these
great arteries seemed to feed me; this tumultuous life did not
warm me. On every side were the great muddy rivers, the
ragged mountains from which the timber was being ruthlessly
torn away, the vast tracts of wild country, and the gulches
that were like wounds in the earth; everywhere the glare of
that relentless energy which followed me like a searchlight
and seemed to scorch and consume me. I could only hide
myself in the tangled garden, where the dropping of a leaf or
the whistle of a bird was the only incident.
“The Hartwell homestead had been sold away little by
little, until all that remained of it was garden and orchard.
The house, a square brick structure, stood in the midst of a
great garden which sloped toward the river, ending in a
grassy bank which fell some forty feet to the water’s edge.
The garden was now little more than a tangle of neglected
shrubbery; damp, rank, and of that intense blue-green peculiar
to vegetation in smoky places where the sun shines but
rarely, and the mists form early in the evening and hang late
in the morning.
“I shall never forget it as I saw it first, when I arrived there
in the chill of a backward June. The long, rank grass, thick
and soft and falling in billows, was always wet until midday.
The gravel walks were bordered with great lilac-bushes,
mock-orange, and bridal-wreath. Back of the house was a neglected
rose garden, surrounded by a low stone wall over
which the long suckers trailed and matted. They had wound
their pink, thorny tentacles, layer upon layer, about the lock
and the hinges of the rusty iron gate. Even the porches of the
house, and the very windows, were damp and heavy with
growth: wistaria, clematis, honeysuckle, and trumpet vine.
The garden was grown up with trees, especially that part of it
which lay above the river. The bark of the old locusts was
blackened by the smoke that crept continually up the valley,
and their feathery foliage, so merry in its movement and so
yellow and joyous in its color, seemed peculiarly precious
under that somber sky. There were sycamores and copper
beeches; gnarled apple-trees, too old to bear; and fall pear-trees,
hung with a sharp, hard fruit in October; all with a
leafage singularly rich and luxuriant, and peculiarly vivid in
color. The oaks about the house had been old trees when my
great-grandfather built his cabin there, more than a century
before, and this garden was almost the only spot for miles
along the river where any of the original forest growth still
survived. The smoke from the mills was fatal to trees of the
larger sort, and even these had the look of doomed things—bent
a little toward the town and seemed to wait with head
inclined before that on-coming, shrieking force.
“About the river, too, there was a strange hush, a tragic
submission—it was so leaden and sullen in its color, and it
flowed so soundlessly forever past our door.
“I sat there every evening, on the high veranda overlooking
it, watching the dim outlines of the steep hills on the other
shore, the flicker of the lights on the island, where there was a
boat-house, and listening to the call of the boatmen through
the mist. The mist came as certainly as night, whitened by
moonshine or starshine. The tin water-pipes went splash,
splash, with it all evening, and the wind, when it rose at all,
was little more than a sighing of the old boughs and a troubled
breath in the heavy grasses.
“At first it was to think of my distant friends and my old
life that I used to sit there; but after awhile it was simply to
watch the days and weeks go by, like the river which seemed
to carry them away.
“Within the house I was never at home. Month followed
month, and yet I could feel no sense of kinship with anything
there. Under the roof where my father and grandfather were
born, I remained utterly detached. The somber rooms never
spoke to me, the old furniture never seemed tinctured with
race. This portrait of my boy uncle was the only thing to
which I could draw near, the only link with anything I had
ever known before.
“There is a good deal of my father in the face, but it is my
father transformed and glorified; his hesitating discontent
drowned in a kind of triumph. From my first day in that
house, I continually turned to this handsome kinsman of
mine, wondering in what terms he had lived and had his
hope; what he had found there to look like that, to bound at
one, after all those years, so joyously out of the canvas.
“From the timid, clouded old woman over whose life I had
come to watch, I learned that in the backyard, near the old
rose garden, there was a locust-tree which my uncle had
planted. After his death, while it was still a slender sapling, his
mother had a seat built round it, and she used to sit there on
summer evenings. His grave was under the apple-trees in the
old orchard.
“My aunt could tell me little more than this. There were
days when she seemed not to remember him at all.
“It was from an old soldier in the village that I learned
the boy’s story. Lyon was, the old man told me, but fourteen
when the first enlistment occurred, but was even then
eager to go. He was in the court-house square every evening
to watch the recruits at their drill, and when the home company
was ordered off he rode into the city on his pony to
see the men board the train and to wave them good-by. The
next year he spent at home with a tutor, but when he was
fifteen he held his parents to their promise and went into the
army. He was color sergeant of his regiment and fell in a
charge upon the breastworks of a fort about a year after his
enlistment.
“The veteran showed me an account of this charge which
had been written for the village paper by one of my uncle’s
comrades who had seen his part in the engagement. It seems
that as his company were running at full speed across the bottom
lands toward the fortified hill, a shell burst over them.
This comrade, running beside my uncle, saw the colors waver
and sink as if falling, and looked to see that the boy’s hand
and forearm had been torn away by the exploding shrapnel.
The boy, he thought, did not realize the extent of his injury,
for he laughed, shouted something which his comrade did
not catch, caught the flag in his left hand, and ran on up the
hill. They went splendidly up over the breastworks, but just
as my uncle, his colors flying, reached the top of the embankment,
a second shell carried away his left arm at the
arm-pit, and he fell over the wall with the flag settling about
him.
“It was because this story was ever present with me, because
I was unable to shake it off, that I began to read such
books as my grandfather had collected upon the Civil War. I
found that this war was fought largely by boys, that more
men enlisted at eighteen than at any other age. When I
thought of those battlefields—and I thought of them much
in those days—there was always that glory of youth above
them, that impetuous, generous passion stirring the long lines
on the march, the blue battalions in the plain. The bugle,
whenever I have heard it since, has always seemed to me the
very golden throat of that boyhood which spent itself so
gaily, so incredibly.
“I used often to wonder how it was that this uncle of mine,
who seemed to have possessed all the charm and brilliancy
allotted to his family and to have lived up its vitality in one
splendid hour, had left so little trace in the house where he
was born and where he had awaited his destiny. Look as I
would, I could find no letters from him, no clothing or books
that might have been his. He had been dead but twenty years,
and yet nothing seemed to have survived except the tree he
had planted. It seemed incredible and cruel that no physical
memory of him should linger to be cherished among his
kindred,—nothing but the dull image in the brain of that
aged sister. I used to pace the garden walks in the evening,
wondering that no breath of his, no echo of his laugh, of his
call to his pony or his whistle to his dogs, should linger about
those shaded paths where the pale roses exhaled their dewy,
country smell. Sometimes, in the dim starlight, I have
thought that I heard on the grasses beside me the stir of a
footfall lighter than my own, and under the black arch of the
lilacs I have fancied that he bore me company.
“There was, I found, one day in the year for which my old
aunt waited, and which stood out from the months that were
all of a sameness to her. On the thirtieth of May she insisted
that I should bring down the big flag from the attic and run it
up upon the tall flagstaff beside Lyon’s tree in the garden.
Later in the morning she went with me to carry some of the
garden flowers to the grave in the orchard,—a grave scarcely
larger than a child’s.
“I had noticed, when I was hunting for the flag in the attic,
a leather trunk with my own name stamped upon it, but was
unable to find the key. My aunt was all day less apathetic than
usual; she seemed to realize more clearly who I was, and to
wish me to be with her. I did not have an opportunity to
return to the attic until after dinner that evening, when I carried
a lamp up-stairs and easily forced the lock of the trunk. I
found all the things that I had looked for; put away, doubtless,
by his mother, and still smelling faintly of lavender and
rose leaves; his clothes, his exercise books, his letters from the
army, his first boots, his riding-whip, some of his toys, even. I
took them out and replaced them gently. As I was about to
shut the lid, I picked up a copy of the Æneid, on the fly-leaf
of which was written in a slanting, boyish hand,
Lyon Hartwell, January, 1862.
He had gone to the wars in Sixty-three, I remembered.
“My uncle, I gathered, was none too apt at his Latin, for
the pages were dog-eared and rubbed and interlined, the margins
mottled with pencil sketches—bugles, stacked bayonets,
and artillery carriages. In the act of putting the book down, I
happened to run over the pages to the end, and on the fly-leaf
at the back I saw his name again, and a drawing—with his
initials and a date—of the Federal flag; above it, written in a
kind of arch and in the same unformed hand:
‘Oh, say, can you see by the dawn’s early light
What so proudly we hailed at the twilight’s last gleaming?’
It was a stiff, wooden sketch, not unlike a detail from some
Egyptian inscription, but, the moment I saw it, wind and
color seemed to touch it. I caught up the book, blew out the
lamp, and rushed down into the garden.
“I seemed, somehow, at last to have known him; to have
been with him in that careless, unconscious moment and to
have known him as he was then.
“As I sat there in the rush of this realization, the wind began
to rise, stirring the light foliage of the locust over my
head and bringing, fresher than before, the woody odor of
the pale roses that overran the little neglected garden. Then,
as it grew stronger, it brought the sound of something sighing
and stirring over my head in the perfumed darkness.
“I thought of that sad one of the Destinies who, as the
Greeks believed, watched from birth over those marked for a
violent or untimely death. Oh, I could see him, there in the
shine of the morning, his book idly on his knee, his flashing
eyes looking straight before him, and at his side that grave
figure, hidden in her draperies, her eyes following his, but
seeing so much farther—seeing what he never saw, that great
moment at the end, when he swayed above his comrades on
the earthen wall.
“All the while, the bunting I had run up in the morning
flapped fold against fold, heaving and tossing softly in the
dark—against a sky so black with rain clouds that I could
see above me only the blur of something in soft, troubled
motion.
“The experience of that night, coming so overwhelmingly
to a man so dead, almost rent me in pieces. It was the same
feeling that artists know when we, rarely, achieve truth in our
work; the feeling of union with some great force, of purpose
and security, of being glad that we have lived. For the first
time I felt the pull of race and blood and kindred, and felt
beating within me things that had not begun with me. It was
as if the earth under my feet had grasped and rooted me, and
were pouring its essence into me. I sat there until the dawn of
morning, and all night long my life seemed to be pouring out
of me and running into the ground.”
Hartwell drew a long breath that lifted his heavy shoulders,
and then let them fall again. He shifted a little and faced more
squarely the scattered, silent company before him. The darkness
had made us almost invisible to each other, and, except
for the occasional red circuit of a cigarette end traveling upward
from the arm of a chair, he might have supposed us all
asleep.
“And so,” Hartwell added thoughtfully, “I naturally feel
an interest in fellows who are going home. It’s always an experience.”
No one said anything, and in a moment there was a loud
rap at the door,—the concierge, come to take down Bentley’s
luggage and to announce that the cab was below. Bentley got
his hat and coat, enjoined Hartwell to take good care of his
perroquets, gave each of us a grip of the hand, and went
briskly down the long flights of stairs. We followed him into
the street, calling our good wishes, and saw him start on his
drive across the lighted city to the Gare St. Lazare.
McClure’s, March 1907
The Enchanted Bluff ToC
Harper’s, April 1909
We had our swim before sundown, and while we were
cooking our supper the oblique rays of light made a
dazzling glare on the white sand about us. The translucent
red ball itself sank behind the brown stretches of corn field as
we sat down to eat, and the warm layer of air that had rested
over the water and our clean sand-bar grew fresher and
smelled of the rank ironweed and sunflowers growing on the
flatter shore. The river was brown and sluggish, like any other
of the half-dozen streams that water the Nebraska corn lands.
On one shore was an irregular line of bald clay bluffs where a
few scrub-oaks with thick trunks and flat, twisted tops threw
light shadows on the long grass. The western shore was low
and level, with corn fields that stretched to the sky-line, and
all along the water’s edge were little sandy coves and beaches
where slim cottonwoods and willow saplings flickered.
The turbulence of the river in spring-time discouraged milling,
and, beyond keeping the old red bridge in repair, the
busy farmers did not concern themselves with the stream; so
the Sandtown boys were left in undisputed possession. In the
autumn we hunted quail through the miles of stubble and
fodder land along the flat shore, and, after the winter skating
season was over and the ice had gone out, the spring freshets
and flooded bottoms gave us our great excitement of the year.
The channel was never the same for two successive seasons.
Every spring the swollen stream undermined a bluff to the
east, or bit out a few acres of corn field to the west and
whirled the soil away to deposit it in spumy mud banks somewhere
else. When the water fell low in midsummer, new
sand-bars were thus exposed to dry and whiten in the August
sun. Sometimes these were banked so firmly that the fury of
the next freshet failed to unseat them; the little willow seedlings
emerged triumphantly from the yellow froth, broke into
spring leaf, shot up into summer growth, and with their mesh
of roots bound together the moist sand beneath them against
the batterings of another April. Here and there a cottonwood
soon glittered among them, quivering in the low current of
air that, even on breathless days when the dust hung like
smoke above the wagon road, trembled along the face of the
water.
It was on such an island, in the third summer of its yellow
green, that we built our watch-fire; not in the thicket of dancing
willow wands, but on the level terrace of fine sand which
had been added that spring; a little new bit of world, beautifully
ridged with ripple marks, and strewn with the tiny skeletons
of turtles and fish, all as white and dry as if they had
been expertly cured. We had been careful not to mar the freshness
of the place, although we often swam out to it on summer
evenings and lay on the sand to rest.
This was our last watch-fire of the year, and there were
reasons why I should remember it better than any of the others.
Next week the other boys were to file back to their old
places in the Sandtown High School, but I was to go up to
the Divide to teach my first country school in the Norwegian
district. I was already homesick at the thought of quitting the
boys with whom I had always played; of leaving the river, and
going up into a windy plain that was all windmills and corn
fields and big pastures; where there was nothing wilful or unmanageable
in the landscape, no new islands, and no chance
of unfamiliar birds—such as often followed the watercourses.
Other boys came and went and used the river for fishing or
skating, but we six were sworn to the spirit of the stream, and
we were friends mainly because of the river. There were the
two Hassler boys, Fritz and Otto, sons of the little German
tailor. They were the youngest of us; ragged boys of ten and
twelve, with sunburned hair, weather-stained faces, and pale
blue eyes. Otto, the elder, was the best mathematician in
school, and clever at his books, but he always dropped out in
the spring term as if the river could not get on without him.
He and Fritz caught the fat, horned catfish and sold them
about the town, and they lived so much in the water that they
were as brown and sandy as the river itself.
There was Percy Pound, a fat, freckled boy with chubby
cheeks, who took half a dozen boys’ story-papers and was always
being kept in for reading detective stories behind his
desk. There was Tip Smith, destined by his freckles and red
hair to be the buffoon in all our games, though he walked like
a timid little old man and had a funny, cracked laugh. Tip
worked hard in his father’s grocery store every afternoon, and
swept it out before school in the morning. Even his recreations
were laborious. He collected cigarette cards and tin
tobacco-tags indefatigably, and would sit for hours humped
up over a snarling little scroll-saw which he kept in his attic.
His dearest possessions were some little pill-bottles that purported
to contain grains of wheat from the Holy Land, water
from the Jordan and the Dead Sea, and earth from the Mount
of Olives. His father had bought these dull things from a
Baptist missionary who peddled them, and Tip seemed to derive
great satisfaction from their remote origin.
The tall boy was Arthur Adams. He had fine hazel eyes that
were almost too reflective and sympathetic for a boy, and
such a pleasant voice that we all loved to hear him read aloud.
Even when he had to read poetry aloud at school, no one ever
thought of laughing. To be sure, he was not at school very
much of the time. He was seventeen and should have finished
the High School the year before, but he was always off somewhere
with his gun. Arthur’s mother was dead, and his
father, who was feverishly absorbed in promoting schemes,
wanted to send the boy away to school and get him off his
hands; but Arthur always begged off for another year and
promised to study. I remember him as a tall, brown boy with
an intelligent face, always lounging among a lot of us little
fellows, laughing at us oftener than with us, but such a soft,
satisfied laugh that we felt rather flattered when we provoked
it. In after-years people said that Arthur had been given to
evil ways even as a lad, and it is true that we often saw him
with the gambler’s sons and with old Spanish Fanny’s boy,
but if he learned anything ugly in their company he never
betrayed it to us. We would have followed Arthur anywhere,
and I am bound to say that he led us into no worse places
than the cattail marshes and the stubble fields. These, then,
were the boys who camped with me that summer night upon
the sand-bar.
After we finished our supper we beat the willow thicket for
driftwood. By the time we had collected enough, night had
fallen, and the pungent, weedy smell from the shore increased
with the coolness. We threw ourselves down about the fire
and made another futile effort to show Percy Pound the Little
Dipper. We had tried it often before, but he could never be
got past the big one.
“You see those three big stars just below the handle, with
the bright one in the middle?” said Otto Hassler; “that’s
Orion’s belt, and the bright one is the clasp.” I crawled behind
Otto’s shoulder and sighted up his arm to the star that
seemed perched upon the tip of his steady forefinger. The
Hassler boys did seine-fishing at night, and they knew a good
many stars.
Percy gave up the Little Dipper and lay back on the sand,
his hands clasped under his head. “I can see the North Star,”
he announced, contentedly, pointing toward it with his big
toe. “Any one might get lost and need to know that.”
We all looked up at it.
“How do you suppose Columbus felt when his compass
didn’t point north any more?” Tip asked.
Otto shook his head. “My father says that there was another
North Star once, and that maybe this one won’t last
always. I wonder what would happen to us down here if anything
went wrong with it?”
Arthur chuckled. “I wouldn’t worry, Ott. Nothing’s apt to
happen to it in your time. Look at the Milky Way! There
must be lots of good dead Indians.”
We lay back and looked, meditating, at the dark cover
of the world. The gurgle of the water had become heavier.
We had often noticed a mutinous, complaining note in it at
night, quite different from its cheerful daytime chuckle, and
seeming like the voice of a much deeper and more powerful
stream. Our water had always these two moods: the one of
sunny complaisance, the other of inconsolable, passionate
regret.
“Queer how the stars are all in sort of diagrams,” remarked
Otto. “You could do most any proposition in geometry with
’em. They always look as if they meant something. Some folks
say everybody’s fortune is all written out in the stars, don’t
they?”
“They believe so in the old country,” Fritz affirmed.
But Arthur only laughed at him. “You’re thinking of Napoleon,
Fritzey. He had a star that went out when he began to
lose battles. I guess the stars don’t keep any close tally on
Sandtown folks.”
We were speculating on how many times we could count a
hundred before the evening star went down behind the corn
fields, when some one cried, “There comes the moon, and it’s
as big as a cart wheel!”
We all jumped up to greet it as it swam over the bluffs
behind us. It came up like a galleon in full sail; an enormous,
barbaric thing, red as an angry heathen god.
“When the moon came up red like that, the Aztecs used to
sacrifice their prisoners on the temple top,” Percy announced.
“Go on, Perce. You got that out of Golden Days. Do you
believe that, Arthur?” I appealed.
Arthur answered, quite seriously: “Like as not. The moon
was one of their gods. When my father was in Mexico City he
saw the stone where they used to sacrifice their prisoners.”
As we dropped down by the fire again some one asked
whether the Mound-Builders were older than the Aztecs.
When we once got upon the Mound-Builders we never willingly
got away from them, and we were still conjecturing
when we heard a loud splash in the water.
“Must have been a big cat jumping,” said Fritz. “They do
sometimes. They must see bugs in the dark. Look what a
track the moon makes!”
There was a long, silvery streak on the water, and where
the current fretted over a big log it boiled up like gold
pieces.
“Suppose there ever was any gold hid away in this old
river?” Fritz asked. He lay like a little brown Indian, close
to the fire, his chin on his hand and his bare feet in the air.
His brother laughed at him, but Arthur took his suggestion
seriously.
“Some of the Spaniards thought there was gold up here
somewhere. Seven cities chuck full of gold, they had it, and
Coronado and his men came up to hunt it. The Spaniards
were all over this country once.”
Percy looked interested. “Was that before the Mormons
went through?”
We all laughed at this.
“Long enough before. Before the Pilgrim Fathers, Perce.
Maybe they came along this very river. They always followed
the watercourses.”
“I wonder where this river really does begin?” Tip mused.
That was an old and a favorite mystery which the map did not
clearly explain. On the map the little black line stopped somewhere
in western Kansas; but since rivers generally rose in
mountains, it was only reasonable to suppose that ours came
from the Rockies. Its destination, we knew, was the Missouri,
and the Hassler boys always maintained that we could embark
at Sandtown in flood-time, follow our noses, and eventually
arrive at New Orleans. Now they took up their old argument.
“If us boys had grit enough to try it, it wouldn’t take no time
to get to Kansas City and St. Joe.”
We began to talk about the places we wanted to go to. The
Hassler boys wanted to see the stock-yards in Kansas City,
and Percy wanted to see a big store in Chicago. Arthur was
interlocutor and did not betray himself.
“Now it’s your turn, Tip.”
Tip rolled over on his elbow and poked the fire, and his
eyes looked shyly out of his queer, tight little face. “My place
is awful far away. My uncle Bill told me about it.”
Tip’s Uncle Bill was a wanderer, bitten with mining fever,
who had drifted into Sandtown with a broken arm, and when
it was well had drifted out again.
“Where is it?”
“Aw, it’s down in New Mexico somewheres. There aren’t
no railroads or anything. You have to go on mules, and you
run out of water before you get there and have to drink
canned tomatoes.”
“Well, go on, kid. What’s it like when you do get there?”
Tip sat up and excitedly began his story.
“There’s a big red rock there that goes right up out of
the sand for about nine hundred feet. The country’s flat all
around it, and this here rock goes up all by itself, like a monument.
They call it the Enchanted Bluff down there, because
no white man has ever been on top of it. The sides are
smooth rock, and straight up, like a wall. The Indians say that
hundreds of years ago, before the Spaniards came, there was a
village away up there in the air. The tribe that lived there had
some sort of steps, made out of wood and bark, hung down
over the face of the bluff, and the braves went down to hunt
and carried water up in big jars swung on their backs. They
kept a big supply of water and dried meat up there, and never
went down except to hunt. They were a peaceful tribe that
made cloth and pottery, and they went up there to get out of
the wars. You see, they could pick off any war party that tried
to get up their little steps. The Indians say they were a handsome
people, and they had some sort of a queer religion.
Uncle Bill thinks they were Cliff-Dwellers who had got into
trouble and left home. They weren’t fighters, anyhow.
“One time the braves were down hunting and an awful
storm came up—a kind of waterspout—and when they got
back to their rock they found their little staircase had been all
broken to pieces, and only a few steps were left hanging away
up in the air. While they were camped at the foot of the rock,
wondering what to do, a war party from the north came
along and massacred ’em to a man, with all the old folks and
women looking on from the rock. Then the war party went
on south and left the village to get down the best way they
could. Of course they never got down. They starved to death
up there, and when the war party came back on their way
north, they could hear the children crying from the edge of
the bluff where they had crawled out, but they didn’t see a
sign of a grown Indian, and nobody has ever been up there
since.”
We exclaimed at this dolorous legend and sat up.
“There couldn’t have been many people up there,” Percy
demurred. “How big is the top, Tip?”
“Oh, pretty big. Big enough so that the rock doesn’t look
nearly as tall as it is. The top’s bigger than the base. The bluff
is sort of worn away for several hundred feet up. That’s one
reason it’s so hard to climb.”
I asked how the Indians got up, in the first place.
“Nobody knows how they got up or when. A hunting
party came along once and saw that there was a town up
there, and that was all.”
Otto rubbed his chin and looked thoughtful. “Of course
there must be some way to get up there. Couldn’t people get
a rope over someway and pull a ladder up?”
Tip’s little eyes were shining with excitement. “I know a
way. Me and Uncle Bill talked it all over. There’s a kind of
rocket that would take a rope over—life-savers use ’em—and
then you could hoist a rope-ladder and peg it down at the
bottom and make it tight with guy-ropes on the other side.
I’m going to climb that there bluff, and I’ve got it all planned
out.”
Fritz asked what he expected to find when he got up there.
“Bones, maybe, or the ruins of their town, or pottery, or
some of their idols. There might be ’most anything up there.
Anyhow, I want to see.”
“Sure nobody else has been up there, Tip?” Arthur asked.
“Dead sure. Hardly anybody ever goes down there. Some
hunters tried to cut steps in the rock once, but they didn’t get
higher than a man can reach. The Bluff’s all red granite, and
Uncle Bill thinks it’s a boulder the glaciers left. It’s a queer
place, anyhow. Nothing but cactus and desert for hundreds of
miles, and yet right under the bluff there’s good water and
plenty of grass. That’s why the bison used to go down there.”
Suddenly we heard a scream above our fire, and jumped up
to see a dark, slim bird floating southward far above us—a
whooping-crane, we knew by her cry and her long neck. We
ran to the edge of the island, hoping we might see her alight,
but she wavered southward along the rivercourse until we lost
her. The Hassler boys declared that by the look of the heavens
it must be after midnight, so we threw more wood on our
fire, put on our jackets, and curled down in the warm sand.
Several of us pretended to doze, but I fancy we were really
thinking about Tip’s Bluff and the extinct people. Over in the
wood the ring-doves were calling mournfully to one another,
and once we heard a dog bark, far away. “Somebody getting
into old Tommy’s melon patch,” Fritz murmured, sleepily,
but nobody answered him. By and by Percy spoke out of the
shadow.
“Say, Tip, when you go down there will you take me with
you?”
“Maybe.”
“Suppose one of us beats you down there, Tip?”
“Whoever gets to the Bluff first has got to promise to tell
the rest of us exactly what he finds,” remarked one of the
Hassler boys, and to this we all readily assented.
Somewhat reassured, I dropped off to sleep. I must have
dreamed about a race for the Bluff, for I awoke in a kind of
fear that other people were getting ahead of me and that I
was losing my chance. I sat up in my damp clothes and
looked at the other boys, who lay tumbled in uneasy attitudes
about the dead fire. It was still dark, but the sky was blue
with the last wonderful azure of night. The stars glistened like
crystal globes, and trembled as if they shone through a depth
of clear water. Even as I watched, they began to pale and the
sky brightened. Day came suddenly, almost instantaneously. I
turned for another look at the blue night, and it was gone.
Everywhere the birds began to call, and all manner of little
insects began to chirp and hop about in the willows. A breeze
sprang up from the west and brought the heavy smell of ripened
corn. The boys rolled over and shook themselves. We
stripped and plunged into the river just as the sun came up
over the windy bluffs.
When I came home to Sandtown at Christmas time, we
skated out to our island and talked over the whole project of
the Enchanted Bluff, renewing our resolution to find it.
Although that was twenty years ago, none of us have ever
climbed the Enchanted Bluff. Percy Pound is a stockbroker in
Kansas City and will go nowhere that his red touring-car cannot
carry him. Otto Hassler went on the railroad and lost his
foot braking; after which he and Fritz succeeded their father
as the town tailors.
Arthur sat about the sleepy little town all his life—he died
before he was twenty-five. The last time I saw him, when I
was home on one of my college vacations, he was sitting in a
steamer-chair under a cottonwood tree in the little yard behind
one of the two Sandtown saloons. He was very untidy
and his hand was not steady, but when he rose, unabashed, to
greet me, his eyes were as clear and warm as ever. When I had
talked with him for an hour and heard him laugh again, I
wondered how it was that when Nature had taken such pains
with a man, from his hands to the arch of his long foot, she
had ever lost him in Sandtown. He joked about Tip Smith’s
Bluff, and declared he was going down there just as soon as
the weather got cooler; he thought the Grand Cañon might
be worth while, too.
I was perfectly sure when I left him that he would never get
beyond the high plank fence and the comfortable shade of the
cottonwood. And, indeed, it was under that very tree that he
died one summer morning.
Tip Smith still talks about going to New Mexico. He married
a slatternly, unthrifty country girl, has been much tied to
a perambulator, and has grown stooped and gray from irregular
meals and broken sleep. But the worst of his difficulties
are now over, and he has, as he says, come into easy
water. When I was last in Sandtown I walked home with him
late one moonlight night, after he had balanced his cash and
shut up his store. We took the long way around and sat down
on the schoolhouse steps, and between us we quite revived
the romance of the lone red rock and the extinct people. Tip
insists that he still means to go down there, but he thinks
now he will wait until his boy, Bert, is old enough to go with
him. Bert has been let into the story, and thinks of nothing
but the Enchanted Bluff.
The Joy of Nelly Deane
Nell and I were almost ready to go on for the last act of
“Queen Esther,” and we had for the moment got rid of
our three patient dressers, Mrs. Dow, Mrs. Freeze, and Mrs.
Spinny. Nell was peering over my shoulder into the little
cracked looking-glass that Mrs. Dow had taken from its nail
on her kitchen wall and brought down to the church under
her shawl that morning. When she realized that we were
alone, Nell whispered to me in the quick, fierce way she had:
“Say, Peggy, won’t you go up and stay with me to-night?
Scott Spinny’s asked to take me home, and I don’t want to
walk up with him alone.”
“I guess so, if you’ll ask my mother.”
“Oh, I’ll fix her!” Nell laughed, with a toss of her head
which meant that she usually got what she wanted, even from
people much less tractable than my mother.
In a moment our tiring-women were back again. The three
old ladies—at least they seemed old to us—fluttered about
us, more agitated than we were ourselves. It seemed as
though they would never leave off patting Nell and touching
her up. They kept trying things this way and that, never able
in the end to decide which way was best. They wouldn’t hear
to her using rouge, and as they powdered her neck and arms,
Mrs. Freeze murmured that she hoped we wouldn’t get into
the habit of using such things. Mrs. Spinny divided her time
between pulling up and tucking down the “illusion” that filled
in the square neck of Nelly’s dress. She didn’t like things
much low, she said; but after she had pulled it up, she stood
back and looked at Nell thoughtfully through her glasses.
While the excited girl was reaching for this and that, buttoning
a slipper, pinning down a curl, Mrs. Spinny’s smile softened
more and more until, just before Esther made her
entrance, the old lady tiptoed up to her and softly tucked the
illusion down as far as it would go.
“She’s so pink; it seems a pity not,” she whispered apologetically
to Mrs. Dow.
Every one admitted that Nelly was the prettiest girl in
Riverbend, and the gayest—oh, the gayest! When she was
not singing, she was laughing. When she was not laid up with
a broken arm, the outcome of a foolhardy coasting feat, or
suspended from school because she ran away at recess to go
buggy-riding with Guy Franklin, she was sure to be up to
mischief of some sort. Twice she broke through the ice and
got soused in the river because she never looked where she
skated or cared what happened so long as she went fast
enough. After the second of these duckings our three dressers
declared that she was trying to be a Baptist despite herself.
Mrs. Spinny and Mrs. Freeze and Mrs. Dow, who were
always hovering about Nelly, often whispered to me their
hope that she would eventually come into our church and not
“go with the Methodists”; her family were Wesleyans. But to
me these artless plans of theirs never wholly explained their
watchful affection. They had good daughters themselves,—except
Mrs. Spinny, who had only the sullen Scott,—and
they loved their plain girls and thanked God for them. But
they loved Nelly differently. They were proud of her pretty
figure and yellow-brown eyes, which dilated so easily and
sparkled with a kind of golden effervescence. They were always
making pretty things for her, always coaxing her to
come to the sewing-circle, where she knotted her thread, and
put in the wrong sleeve, and laughed and chattered and said a
great many things that she should not have said, and somehow
always warmed their hearts. I think they loved her for
her unquenchable joy.
All the Baptist ladies liked Nell, even those who criticized
her most severely, but the three who were first in fighting the
battles of our little church, who held it together by their
prayers and the labor of their hands, watched over her as they
did over Mrs. Dow’s century-plant before it blossomed. They
looked for her on Sunday morning and smiled at her as she
hurried, always a little late, up to the choir. When she rose
and stood behind the organ and sang “There Is a Green
Hill,” one could see Mrs. Dow and Mrs. Freeze settle back in
their accustomed seats and look up at her as if she had just
come from that hill and had brought them glad tidings.
It was because I sang contralto, or, as we said, alto, in the
Baptist choir that Nell and I became friends. She was so gay
and grown up, so busy with parties and dances and picnics,
that I would scarcely have seen much of her had we not sung
together. She liked me better than she did any of the older
girls, who tried clumsily to be like her, and I felt almost as
solicitous and admiring as did Mrs. Dow and Mrs. Spinny. I
think even then I must have loved to see her bloom and glow,
and I loved to hear her sing, in “The Ninety and Nine,”
But one was out on the hills away
in her sweet, strong voice. Nell had never had a singing lesson,
but she had sung from the time she could talk, and Mrs.
Dow used fondly to say that it was singing so much that
made her figure so pretty.
After I went into the choir it was found to be easier to get
Nelly to choir practice. If I stopped outside her gate on my
way to church and coaxed her, she usually laughed, ran in for
her hat and jacket, and went along with me. The three old
ladies fostered our friendship, and because I was “quiet,” they
esteemed me a good influence for Nelly. This view was propounded
in a sewing-circle discussion and, leaking down to
us through our mothers, greatly amused us. Dear old ladies!
It was so manifestly for what Nell was that they loved her,
and yet they were always looking for “influences” to change
her.
The “Queen Esther” performance had cost us three months
of hard practice, and it was not easy to keep Nell up to attending
the tedious rehearsals. Some of the boys we knew
were in the chorus of Assyrian youths, but the solo cast was
made up of older people, and Nell found them very poky. We
gave the cantata in the Baptist church on Christmas eve, “to a
crowded house,” as the Riverbend “Messenger” truly chronicled.
The country folk for miles about had come in through a
deep snow, and their teams and wagons stood in a long row
at the hitch-bars on each side of the church door. It was certainly
Nelly’s night, for however much the tenor—he was
her schoolmaster, and naturally thought poorly of her—might
try to eclipse her in his dolorous solos about the rivers
of Babylon, there could be no doubt as to whom the people
had come to hear—and to see.
After the performance was over, our fathers and mothers
came back to the dressing-rooms—the little rooms behind
the baptistry where the candidates for baptism were robed—to
congratulate us, and Nell persuaded my mother to let
me go home with her. This arrangement may not have been
wholly agreeable to Scott Spinny, who stood glumly waiting
at the baptistry door; though I used to think he dogged Nell’s
steps not so much for any pleasure he got from being with
her as for the pleasure of keeping other people away. Dear
little Mrs. Spinny was perpetually in a state of humiliation on
account of his bad manners, and she tried by a very special
tenderness to make up to Nelly for the remissness of her ungracious
son.
Scott was a spare, muscular fellow, good-looking, but with
a face so set and dark that I used to think it very like the
castings he sold. He was taciturn and domineering, and Nell
rather liked to provoke him. Her father was so easy with her
that she seemed to enjoy being ordered about now and then.
That night, when every one was praising her and telling her
how well she sang and how pretty she looked, Scott only said,
as we came out of the dressing-room:
“Have you got your high shoes on?”
“No; but I’ve got rubbers on over my low ones. Mother
doesn’t care.”
“Well, you just go back and put ’em on as fast as you can.”
Nell made a face at him and ran back, laughing. Her
mother, fat, comfortable Mrs. Deane, was immensely amused
at this.
“That’s right, Scott,” she chuckled. “You can do enough
more with her than I can. She walks right over me an’ Jud.”
Scott grinned. If he was proud of Nelly, the last thing he
wished to do was to show it. When she came back he began
to nag again. “What are you going to do with all those flowers?
They’ll freeze stiff as pokers.”
“Well, there won’t none of your flowers freeze, Scott
Spinny, so there!” Nell snapped. She had the best of him that
time, and the Assyrian youths rejoiced. They were most of
them high-school boys, and the poorest of them had “chipped
in” and sent all the way to Denver for Queen Esther’s flowers.
There were bouquets from half a dozen townspeople, too, but
none from Scott. Scott was a prosperous hardware merchant
and notoriously penurious, though he saved his face, as the
boys said, by giving liberally to the church.
“There’s no use freezing the fool things, anyhow. You get
me some newspapers, and I’ll wrap ’em up.” Scott took
from his pocket a folded copy of the Riverbend “Messenger”
and began laboriously to wrap up one of the bouquets.
When we left the church door he bore three large newspaper
bundles, carrying them as carefully as if they had been so
many newly frosted wedding-cakes, and left Nell and me to
shift for ourselves as we floundered along the snow-burdened
sidewalk.
Although it was after midnight, lights were shining from
many of the little wooden houses, and the roofs and shrubbery
were so deep in snow that Riverbend looked as if it had
been tucked down into a warm bed. The companies of
people, all coming from church, tramping this way and that
toward their homes and calling “Good night” and “Merry
Christmas” as they parted company, all seemed to us very unusual
and exciting.
When we got home, Mrs. Deane had a cold supper ready,
and Jud Deane had already taken off his shoes and fallen to on
his fried chicken and pie. He was so proud of his pretty
daughter that he must give her her Christmas presents then
and there, and he went into the sleeping-chamber behind the
dining-room and from the depths of his wife’s closet brought
out a short sealskin jacket and a round cap and made Nelly
put them on.
Mrs. Deane, who sat busy between a plate of spice cake and
a tray piled with her famous whipped-cream tarts, laughed
inordinately at his behavior.
“Ain’t he worse than any kid you ever see? He’s been running
to that closet like a cat shut away from her kittens. I
wonder Nell ain’t caught on before this. I did think he’d
make out now to keep ’em till Christmas morning; but he’s
never made out to keep anything yet.”
That was true enough, and fortunately Jud’s inability to
keep anything seemed always to present a highly humorous
aspect to his wife. Mrs. Deane put her heart into her cooking,
and said that so long as a man was a good provider she had
no cause to complain. Other people were not so charitable
toward Jud’s failing. I remember how many strictures were
passed upon that little sealskin and how he was censured for
his extravagance. But what a public-spirited thing, after all, it
was for him to do! How, the winter through, we all enjoyed
seeing Nell skating on the river or running about the town
with the brown collar turned up about her bright cheeks and
her hair blowing out from under the round cap! “No seal,”
Mrs. Dow said, “would have begrudged it to her. Why
should we?” This was at the sewing-circle, when the new coat
was under grave discussion.
At last Nelly and I got up-stairs and undressed, and the pad
of Jud’s slippered feet about the kitchen premises—where he
was carrying up from the cellar things that might freeze—ceased.
He called “Good night, daughter,” from the foot of
the stairs, and the house grew quiet. But one is not a prima
donna the first time for nothing, and it seemed as if we could
not go to bed. Our light must have burned long after every
other in Riverbend was out. The muslin curtains of Nell’s bed
were drawn back; Mrs. Deane had turned down the white
counterpane and taken off the shams and smoothed the pillows
for us. But their fair plumpness offered no temptation to
two such hot young heads. We could not let go of life even
for a little while. We sat and talked in Nell’s cozy room, where
there was a tiny, white fur rug—the only one in Riverbend—before
the bed; and there were white sash curtains, and the
prettiest little desk and dressing-table I had ever seen. It was a
warm, gay little room, flooded all day long with sunlight
from east and south windows that had climbing-roses all
about them in summer. About the dresser were photographs
of adoring high-school boys; and one of Guy Franklin, much
groomed and barbered, in a dress-coat and a boutonnière. I
never liked to see that photograph there. The home boys
looked properly modest and bashful on the dresser, but he
seemed to be staring impudently all the time.
I knew nothing definite against Guy, but in Riverbend all
“traveling-men” were considered worldly and wicked. He
traveled for a Chicago dry-goods firm, and our fathers didn’t
like him because he put extravagant ideas into our mothers’
heads. He had very smooth and nattering ways, and he introduced
into our simple community a great variety of perfumes
and scented soaps, and he always reminded me of the merchants
in Cæsar, who brought into Gaul “those things which
effeminate the mind,” as we translated that delightfully easy
passage.
Nell was silting before the dressing-table in her nightgown,
holding the new fur coat and rubbing her cheek against it,
when I saw a sudden gleam of tears in her eyes. “You know,
Peggy,” she said in her quick, impetuous way, “this makes me
feel bad. I’ve got a secret from my daddy.”
I can see her now, so pink and eager, her brown hair in two
springy braids down her back, and her eyes shining with tears
and with something even softer and more tremulous.
“I’m engaged, Peggy,” she whispered, “really and truly.”
She leaned forward, unbuttoning her nightgown, and there
on her breast, hung by a little gold chain about her neck, was
a diamond ring—Guy Franklin’s solitaire; every one in Riverbend
knew it well.
“I’m going to live in Chicago, and take singing lessons,
and go to operas, and do all those nice things—oh, everything!
I know you don’t like him, Peggy, but you know you
are a kid. You’ll see how it is yourself when you grow up.
He’s so different from our boys, and he’s just terribly in love
with me. And then, Peggy,”—flushing all down over her soft
shoulders,—“I’m awfully fond of him, too. Awfully.”
“Are you, Nell, truly?” I whispered. She seemed so changed
to me by the warm light in her eyes and that delicate suffusion
of color. I felt as I did when I got up early on picnic
mornings in summer, and saw the dawn come up in the
breathless sky above the river meadows and make all the cornfields
golden.
“Sure I do, Peggy; don’t look so solemn. It’s nothing to
look that way about, kid. It’s nice.” She threw her arms about
me suddenly and hugged me.
“I hate to think about your going so far away from us all,
Nell.”
“Oh, you’ll love to come and visit me. Just you wait.”
She began breathlessly to go over things Guy Franklin had
told her about Chicago, until I seemed to see it all looming
up out there under the stars that kept watch over our little
sleeping town. We had neither of us ever been to a city, but
we knew what it would be like. We heard it throbbing like
great engines, and calling to us, that far-away world. Even
after we had opened the windows and scurried into bed, we
seemed to feel a pulsation across all the miles of snow. The
winter silence trembled with it, and the air was full of something
new that seemed to break over us in soft waves. In that
snug, warm little bed I had a sense of imminent change and
danger. I was somehow afraid for Nelly when I heard her
breathing so quickly beside me, and I put my arm about her
protectingly as we drifted toward sleep.
In the following spring we were both graduated from the
Riverbend high school, and I went away to college. My family
moved to Denver, and during the next four years I heard
very little of Nelly Deane. My life was crowded with new
people and new experiences, and I am afraid I held her little
in mind. I heard indirectly that Jud Deane had lost what little
property he owned in a luckless venture in Cripple Creek, and
that he had been able to keep his house in Riverbend only
through the clemency of his creditors. Guy Franklin had his
route changed and did not go to Riverbend any more. He
married the daughter of a rich cattle-man out near Long Pine,
and ran a dry-goods store of his own. Mrs. Dow wrote me a
long letter about once a year, and in one of these she told me
that Nelly was teaching in the sixth grade in the Riverbend
school.
“Dear Nelly does not like teaching very well. The children
try her, and she is so pretty it seems a pity for her to be tied
down to uncongenial employment. Scott is still very attentive,
and I have noticed him look up at the window of Nelly’s
room in a very determined way as he goes home to dinner.
Scott continues prosperous; he has made money during these
hard times and now owns both our hardware stores. He is
close, but a very honorable fellow. Nelly seems to hold off,
but I think Mrs. Spinny has hopes. Nothing would please her
more. If Scott were more careful about his appearance, it
would help. He of course gets black about his business, and
Nelly, you know, is very dainty. People do say his mother
does his courting for him, she is so eager. If only Scott does
not turn out hard and penurious like his father! We must all
have our schooling in this life, but I don’t want Nelly’s to be
too severe. She is a dear girl, and keeps her color.”
Mrs. Dow’s own schooling had been none too easy. Her
husband had long been crippled with rheumatism, and was
bitter and faultfinding. Her daughters had married poorly,
and one of her sons had fallen into evil ways. But her letters
were always cheerful, and in one of them she gently remonstrated
with me because I “seemed inclined to take a sad view
of life.”
In the winter vacation of my senior year I stopped on my
way home to visit Mrs. Dow. The first thing she told me
when I got into her old buckboard at the station was that
“Scott had at last prevailed,” and that Nelly was to marry him
in the spring. As a preliminary step, Nelly was about to join
the Baptist church. “Just think, you will be here for her baptizing!
How that will please Nelly! She is to be immersed to-morrow night.”
I met Scott Spinny in the post-office that morning, and he
gave me a hard grip with one black hand. There was something
grim and saturnine about his powerful body and
bearded face and his strong, cold hands. I wondered what
perverse fate had driven him for eight years to dog the footsteps
of a girl whose charm was due to qualities naturally distasteful
to him. It still seems strange to me that in easy-going
Riverbend, where there were so many boys who could have
lived contentedly enough with my little grasshopper, it was
the pushing ant who must have her and all her careless ways.
By a kind of unformulated etiquette one did not call upon
candidates for baptism on the day of the ceremony, so I had
my first glimpse of Nelly that evening. The baptistry was a
cemented pit directly under the pulpit rostrum, over which
we had our stage when we sang “Queen Esther.” I sat
through the sermon somewhat nervously. After the minister,
in his long, black gown, had gone down into the water and
the choir had finished singing, the door from the dressing-room
opened, and, led by one of the deacons, Nelly came
down the steps into the pool. Oh, she looked so little and
meek and chastened! Her white cashmere robe clung about
her, and her brown hair was brushed straight back and hung
in two soft braids from a little head bent humbly. As she
stepped down into the water I shivered with the cold of it,
and I remembered sharply how much I had loved her. She
went down until the water was well above her waist, and
stood white and small, with her hands crossed on her breast,
while the minister said the words about being buried with
Christ in baptism. Then, lying in his arm, she disappeared
under the dark water. “It will be like that when she dies,” I
thought, and a quick pain caught my heart. The choir began
to sing “Washed in the Blood of the Lamb” as she rose again,
the door behind the baptistry opened, revealing those three
dear guardians, Mrs. Dow, Mrs. Freeze, and Mrs. Spinny,
and she went up into their arms.
I went to see Nell next day, up in the little room of many
memories. Such a sad, sad visit! She seemed changed—a little
embarrassed and quietly despairing. We talked of many of the
old Riverbend girls and boys, but she did not mention Guy
Franklin or Scott Spinny, except to say that her father had got
work in Scott’s hardware store. She begged me, putting her
hands on my shoulders with something of her old impulsiveness,
to come and stay a few days with her. But I was afraid—afraid
of what she might tell me and of what I might say.
When I sat in that room with all her trinkets, the foolish harvest
of her girlhood, lying about, and the white curtains
and the little white rug, I thought of Scott Spinny with positive
terror and could feel his hard grip on my hand again. I
made the best excuse I could about having to hurry on to
Denver; but she gave me one quick look, and her eyes ceased
to plead. I saw that she understood me perfectly. We had
known each other so well. Just once, when I got up to go and
had trouble with my veil, she laughed her old merry laugh
and told me there were some things I would never learn, for
all my schooling.
The next day, when Mrs. Dow drove me down to the
station to catch the morning train for Denver, I saw Nelly
hurrying to school with several books under her arm. She
had been working up her lessons at home, I thought. She was
never quick at her books, dear Nell.
It was ten years before I again visited Riverbend. I had
been in Rome for a long time, and had fallen into bitter
homesickness. One morning, sitting among the dahlias and
asters that bloom so bravely upon those gigantic heaps of
earth-red ruins that were once the palaces of the Cæsars, I
broke the seal of one of Mrs. Dow’s long yearly letters. It
brought so much sad news that I resolved then and there to
go home to Riverbend, the only place that had ever really
been home to me. Mrs. Dow wrote me that her husband,
after years of illness, had died in the cold spell last March. “So
good and patient toward the last,” she wrote, “and so afraid
of giving extra trouble.” There was another thing she saved
until the last. She wrote on and on, dear woman, about new
babies and village improvements, as if she could not bear to
tell me; and then it came:
“You will be sad to hear that two months ago our dear
Nelly left us. It was a terrible blow to us all. I cannot write
about it yet, I fear. I wake up every morning feeling that I
ought to go to her. She went three days after her little boy
was born. The baby is a fine child and will live, I think, in
spite of everything. He and her little girl, now eight years old,
whom she named Margaret, after you, have gone to Mrs.
Spinny’s. She loves them more than if they were her own. It
seems as if already they had made her quite young again. I
wish you could see Nelly’s children.”
Ah, that was what I wanted, to see Nelly’s children! The
wish came aching from my heart along with the bitter homesick
tears; along with a quick, torturing recollection that
flashed upon me, as I looked about and tried to collect myself,
of how we two had sat in our sunny seat in the corner of the
old bare school-room one September afternoon and learned
the names of the seven hills together. In that place, at that
moment, after so many years, how it all came back to me—the
warm sun on my back, the chattering girl beside me, the
curly hair, the laughing yellow eyes, the stubby little finger on
the page! I felt as if even then, when we sat in the sun with
our heads together, it was all arranged, written out like a
story, that at this moment I should be sitting among the
crumbling bricks and drying grass, and she should be lying in
the place I knew so well, on that green hill far away.
Mrs. Dow sat with her Christmas sewing in the familiar
sitting-room, where the carpet and the wall-paper and the
table-cover had all faded into soft, dull colors, and even the
chromo of Hagar and Ishmael had been toned to the sobriety
of age. In the bay-window the tall wire flower-stand still bore
its little terraces of potted plants, and the big fuchsia and the
Martha Washington geranium had blossomed for Christmas-tide.
Mrs. Dow herself did not look greatly changed to me.
Her hair, thin ever since I could remember it, was now quite
white, but her spare, wiry little person had all its old activity,
and her eyes gleamed with the old friendliness behind her
silver-bowed glasses. Her gray house-dress seemed just like
those she used to wear when I ran in after school to take her
angel-food cake down to the church supper.
The house sat on a hill, and from behind the geraniums I
could see pretty much all of Riverbend, tucked down in the
soft snow, and the air above was full of big, loose flakes, falling
from a gray sky which betokened settled weather. Indoors
the hard-coal burner made a tropical temperature, and glowed
a warm orange from its isinglass sides. We sat and visited, the
two of us, with a great sense of comfort and completeness. I
had reached Riverbend only that morning, and Mrs. Dow,
who had been haunted by thoughts of shipwreck and suffering
upon wintry seas, kept urging me to draw nearer to the
fire and suggesting incidental refreshment. We had chattered
all through the winter morning and most of the afternoon,
taking up one after another of the Riverbend girls and boys,
and agreeing that we had reason to be well satisfied with most
of them. Finally, after a long pause in which I had listened to
the contented ticking of the clock and the crackle of the coal,
I put the question I had until then held back:
“And now, Mrs. Dow, tell me about the one we loved best
of all. Since I got your letter I’ve thought of her every day.
Tell me all about Scott and Nelly.”
The tears flashed behind her glasses, and she smoothed the
little pink bag on her knee.
“Well, dear, I’m afraid Scott proved to be a hard man, like
his father. But we must remember that Nelly always had Mrs.
Spinny. I never saw anything like the love there was between
those two. After Nelly lost her own father and mother, she
looked to Mrs. Spinny for everything. When Scott was too
unreasonable, his mother could ’most always prevail upon
him. She never lifted a hand to fight her own battles with
Scott’s father, but she was never afraid to speak up for Nelly.
And then Nelly took great comfort of her little girl. Such a
lovely child!”
“Had she been very ill before the little baby came?”
“No, Margaret; I’m afraid ’t was all because they had the
wrong doctor. I feel confident that either Doctor Tom or
Doctor Jones could have brought her through. But, you see,
Scott had offended them both, and they’d stopped trading at
his store, so he would have young Doctor Fox, a boy just out
of college and a stranger. He got scared and didn’t know
what to do. Mrs. Spinny felt he wasn’t doing right, so she
sent for Mrs. Freeze and me. It seemed like Nelly had got
discouraged. Scott would move into their big new house before
the plastering was dry, and though ’t was summer, she
had taken a terrible cold that seemed to have drained her, and
she took no interest in fixing the place up. Mrs. Spinny had
been down with her back again and wasn’t able to help, and
things was just anyway. We won’t talk about that, Margaret; I
think ’t would hurt Mrs. Spinny to have you know. She
nearly died of mortification when she sent for us, and blamed
her poor back. We did get Nelly fixed up nicely before she
died. I prevailed upon Doctor Tom to come in at the last, and
it ’most broke his heart. ‘Why, Mis’ Dow,’ he said, ‘if you’d
only have come and told me how ’t was, I’d have come and
carried her right off in my arms.’”
“Oh, Mrs. Dow,” I cried, “then it needn’t have been?”
Mrs. Dow dropped her needle and clasped her hands
quickly. “We mustn’t look at it that way, dear,” she said tremulously
and a little sternly; “we mustn’t let ourselves. We
must just feel that our Lord wanted her then, and took her to
Himself. When it was all over, she did look so like a child of
God, young and trusting, like she did on her baptizing night,
you remember?”
I felt that Mrs. Dow did not want to talk any more about
Nelly then, and, indeed, I had little heart to listen; so I told
her I would go for a walk, and suggested that I might stop at
Mrs. Spinny’s to see the children.
Mrs. Dow looked up thoughtfully at the clock. “I doubt if
you’ll find little Margaret there now. It’s half-past four, and
she’ll have been out of school an hour and more. She’ll be
most likely coasting on Lupton’s Hill. She usually makes for it
with her sled the minute she is out of the school-house door.
You know, it’s the old hill where you all used to slide. If you
stop in at the church about six o’clock, you’ll likely find Mrs.
Spinny there with the baby. I promised to go down and help
Mrs. Freeze finish up the tree, and Mrs. Spinny said she’d run
in with the baby, if ’t wasn’t too bitter. She won’t leave him
alone with the Swede girl. She’s like a young woman with
her first.”
Lupton’s Hill was at the other end of town, and when I got
there the dusk was thickening, drawing blue shadows over the
snowy fields. There were perhaps twenty children creeping up
the hill or whizzing down the packed sled-track. When I had
been watching them for some minutes, I heard a lusty shout,
and a little red sled shot past me into the deep snow-drift
beyond. The child was quite buried for a moment, then she
struggled out and stood dusting the snow from her short coat
and red woolen comforter. She wore a brown fur cap, which
was too big for her and of an old-fashioned shape, such as
girls wore long ago, but I would have known her without the
cap. Mrs. Dow had said a beautiful child, and there would
not be two like this in Riverbend. She was off before I had
time to speak to her, going up the hill at a trot, her sturdy
little legs plowing through the trampled snow. When she
reached the top she never paused to take breath, but threw
herself upon her sled and came down with a whoop that was
quenched only by the deep drift at the end.
“Are you Margaret Spinny?” I asked as she struggled out in
a cloud of snow.
“Yes, ’m.” She approached me with frank curiosity, pulling
her little sled behind her. “Are you the strange lady staying at
Mrs. Dow’s?” I nodded, and she began to look my clothes
over with respectful interest.
“Your grandmother is to be at the church at six o’clock,
isn’t she?”
“Yes, ’m.”
“Well, suppose we walk up there now. It’s nearly six, and
all the other children are going home.” She hesitated, and
looked up at the faintly gleaming track on the hill-slope. “Do
you want another slide? Is that it?” I asked.
“Do you mind?” she asked shyly.
“No. I’ll wait for you. Take your time; don’t run.”
Two little boys were still hanging about the slide, and they
cheered her as she came down, her comforter streaming in the
wind.
“Now,” she announced, getting up out of the drift, “I’ll
show you where the church is.”
“Shall I tie your comforter again?”
“No, ’m, thanks. I’m plenty warm.” She put her mittened
hand confidingly in mine and trudged along beside me.
Mrs. Dow must have heard us tramping up the snowy steps
of the church, for she met us at the door. Every one had gone
except the old ladies. A kerosene lamp flickered over the
Sunday-school chart, with the lesson-picture of the Wise
Men, and the little barrel-stove threw out a deep glow over
the three white heads that bent above the baby. There the
three friends sat, patting him, and smoothing his dress, and
playing with his hands, which made theirs look so brown.
“You ain’t seen nothing finer in all your travels,” said Mrs.
Spinny, and they all laughed.
They showed me his full chest and how strong his back
was; had me feel the golden fuzz on his head, and made him
look at me with his round, bright eyes. He laughed and
reared himself in my arms as I took him up and held him
close to me. He was so warm and tingling with life, and he
had the flush of new beginnings, of the new morning and the
new rose. He seemed to have come so lately from his mother’s
heart! It was as if I held her youth and all her young joy.
As I put my cheek down against his, he spied a pink flower in
my hat, and making a gleeful sound, he lunged at it with both
fists.
“Don’t let him spoil it,” murmured Mrs. Spinny. “He loves
color so—like Nelly.”
Century, October 1911
The Bohemian Girl ToC
I
The Trans-continental Express swung along the
windings of the Sand River Valley, and in the rear seat of
the observation car a young man sat greatly at his ease, not in
the least discomfited by the fierce sunlight which beat in upon
his brown face and neck and strong back. There was a look of
relaxation and of great passivity about his broad shoulders,
which seemed almost too heavy until he stood up and squared
them. He wore a pale flannel shirt and a blue silk necktie with
loose ends. His trousers were wide and belted at the waist,
and his short sack-coat hung open. His heavy shoes had seen
good service. His reddish-brown hair, like his clothes, had a
foreign cut. He had deep-set, dark blue eyes under heavy reddish
eyebrows. His face was kept clean only by close shaving,
and even the sharpest razor left a glint of yellow in the
smooth brown of his skin. His teeth and the palms of his
hands were very white. His head, which looked hard and
stubborn, lay indolently in the green cushion of the wicker
chair, and as he looked out at the ripe summer country a
teasing, not unkindly smile played over his lips. Once, as he
basked thus comfortably, a quick light flashed in his eyes,
curiously dilating the pupils, and his mouth became a hard,
straight line, gradually relaxing into its former smile of rather
kindly mockery. He told himself, apparently, that there was
no point in getting excited; and he seemed a master hand at
taking his ease when he could. Neither the sharp whistle of
the locomotive nor the brakeman’s call disturbed him. It was
not until after the train had stopped that he rose, put on a
Panama hat, took from the rack a small valise and a flute-case,
and stepped deliberately to the station platform. The baggage
was already unloaded, and the stranger presented a check for
a battered sole-leather steamer-trunk.
“Can you keep it here for a day or two?” he asked the
agent. “I may send for it, and I may not.”
“Depends on whether you like the country, I suppose?” demanded
the agent in a challenging tone.
“Just so.”
The agent shrugged his shoulders, looked scornfully at the
small trunk, which was marked “N.E.,” and handed out a
claim check without further comment. The stranger watched
him as he caught one end of the trunk and dragged it into the
express room. The agent’s manner seemed to remind him of
something amusing. “Doesn’t seem to be a very big place,” he
remarked, looking about.
“It’s big enough for us,” snapped the agent, as he banged
the trunk into a corner.
That remark, apparently, was what Nils Ericson had
wanted. He chuckled quietly as he took a leather strap from
his pocket and swung his valise around his shoulder. Then he
settled his Panama securely on his head, turned up his trousers,
tucked the flute-case under his arm, and started off across
the fields. He gave the town, as he would have said, a wide
berth, and cut through a great fenced pasture, emerging,
when he rolled under the barbed wire at the farther corner,
upon a white dusty road which ran straight up from the river
valley to the high prairies, where the ripe wheat stood yellow
and the tin roofs and weather-cocks were twinkling in the
fierce sunlight. By the time Nils had done three miles, the sun
was sinking and the farm-wagons on their way home from
town came rattling by, covering him with dust and making
him sneeze. When one of the farmers pulled up and offered to
give him a lift, he clambered in willingly. The driver was a
thin, grizzled old man with a long lean neck and a foolish sort
of beard, like a goat’s. “How fur ye goin’?” he asked, as he
clucked to his horses and started off.
“Do you go by the Ericson place?”
“Which Ericson?” The old man drew in his reins as if he
expected to stop again.
“Preacher Ericson’s.”
“Oh, the Old Lady Ericson’s!” He turned and looked at
Nils. “La, me! If you’re goin’ out there you might ’a’ rid out
in the automobile. That’s a pity, now. The Old Lady Ericson
was in town with her auto. You might ’a’ heard it snortin’
anywhere about the post-office er the butcher-shop.”
“Has she a motor?” asked the stranger absently.
“‘Deed an’ she has! She runs into town every night about
this time for her mail and meat for supper. Some folks say
she’s afraid her auto won’t get exercise enough, but I say
that’s jealousy.”
“Aren’t there any other motors about here?”
“Oh, yes! we have fourteen in all. But nobody else gets
around like the Old Lady Ericson. She’s out, rain er shine,
over the whole county, chargin’ into town and out amongst
her farms, an’ up to her sons’ places. Sure you ain’t goin’ to
the wrong place?” He craned his neck and looked at Nils’
flute-case with eager curiosity. “The old woman ain’t got any
piany that I knows on. Olaf, he has a grand. His wife’s musical;
took lessons in Chicago.”
“I’m going up there to-morrow,” said Nils imperturbably.
He saw that the driver took him for a piano-tuner.
“Oh, I see!” The old man screwed up his eyes mysteriously.
He was a little dashed by the stranger’s non-communicativeness,
but he soon broke out again.
“I’m one o’ Mis’ Ericson’s tenants. Look after one of her
places. I did own the place myself oncet, but I lost it a while
back, in the bad years just after the World’s Fair. Just as well,
too, I say. Lets you out o’ payin’ taxes. The Ericsons do own
most of the county now. I remember the old preacher’s
fav’rite text used to be, ‘To them that hath shall be given.’
They’ve spread something wonderful—run over this here
country like bindweed. But I ain’t one that begretches it to
’em. Folks is entitled to what they kin git; and they’re hustlers.
Olaf, he’s in the Legislature now, and a likely man fur
Congress. Listen, if that ain’t the old woman comin’ now.
Want I should stop her?”
Nils shook his head. He heard the deep chug-chug of a
motor vibrating steadily in the clear twilight behind them.
The pale lights of the car swam over the hill, and the old man
slapped his reins and turned clear out of the road, ducking his
head at the first of three angry snorts from behind. The motor
was running at a hot, even speed, and passed without turning
an inch from its course. The driver was a stalwart woman
who sat at ease in the front seat and drove her car bareheaded.
She left a cloud of dust and a trail of gasoline behind
her. Her tenant threw back his head and sneezed.
“Whew! I sometimes say I’d as lief be before Mrs. Ericson as
behind her. She does beat all! Nearly seventy, and never lets
another soul touch that car. Puts it into commission herself
every morning, and keeps it tuned up by the hitch-bar all day.
I never stop work for a drink o’ water that I don’t hear her
a-churnin’ up the road. I reckon her darter-in-laws never sets
down easy nowadays. Never know when she’ll pop in. Mis’
Otto, she says to me: ‘We’re so afraid that thing’ll blow up
and do Ma some injury yet, she’s so turrible venturesome.’
Says I: ‘I wouldn’t stew, Mis’ Otto; the old lady’ll drive that
car to the funeral of every darter-in-law she’s got.’ That was
after the old woman had jumped a turrible bad culvert.”
The stranger heard vaguely what the old man was saying.
Just now he was experiencing something very much like
homesickness, and he was wondering what had brought it
about. The mention of a name or two, perhaps; the rattle of a
wagon along a dusty road; the rank, resinous smell of sunflowers
and ironweed, which the night damp brought up
from the draws and low places; perhaps, more than all, the
dancing lights of the motor that had plunged by. He squared
his shoulders with a comfortable sense of strength.
The wagon, as it jolted westward, climbed a pretty steady
upgrade. The country, receding from the rough river valley,
swelled more and more gently, as if it had been smoothed out
by the wind. On one of the last of the rugged ridges, at the
end of a branch road, stood a grim square house with a tin
roof and double porches. Behind the house stretched a row of
broken, wind-racked poplars, and down the hill-slope to the
left straggled the sheds and stables. The old man stopped his
horses where the Ericsons’ road branched across a dry sand
creek that wound about the foot of the hill.
“That’s the old lady’s place. Want I should drive in?”
“No, thank you. I’ll roll out here. Much obliged to you.
Good night.”
His passenger stepped down over the front wheel, and the
old man drove on reluctantly, looking back as if he would like
to see how the stranger would be received.
As Nils was crossing the dry creek he heard the restive
tramp of a horse coming toward him down the hill. Instantly
he flashed out of the road and stood behind a thicket of wild
plum bushes that grew in the sandy bed. Peering through the
dusk, he saw a light horse, under tight rein, descending the
hill at a sharp walk. The rider was a slender woman—barely
visible against the dark hillside—wearing an old-fashioned
derby hat and a long riding-skirt. She sat lightly in the saddle,
with her chin high, and seemed to be looking into the distance.
As she passed the plum thicket her horse snuffed the air
and shied. She struck him, pulling him in sharply, with an
angry exclamation, “Blázne!” in Bohemian. Once in the main
road, she let him out into a lope, and they soon emerged
upon the crest of high land, where they moved along the skyline,
silhouetted against the band of faint color that lingered
in the west. This horse and rider, with their free, rhythmical
gallop, were the only moving things to be seen on the face of
the flat country. They seemed, in the last sad light of evening,
not to be there accidentally, but as an inevitable detail of the
landscape.
Nils watched them until they had shrunk to a mere moving
speck against the sky, then he crossed the sand creek and
climbed the hill. When he reached the gate the front of the
house was dark, but a light was shining from the side windows.
The pigs were squealing in the hog corral, and Nils
could see a tall boy, who carried two big wooden buckets,
moving about among them. Half way between the barn and
the house, the windmill wheezed lazily. Following the path
that ran around to the back porch, Nils stopped to look
through the screen door into the lamp-lit kitchen. The
kitchen was the largest room in the house; Nils remembered
that his older brothers used to give dances there when he was
a boy. Beside the stove stood a little girl with two light yellow
braids and a broad, flushed face, peering anxiously into a
frying-pan. In the dining-room beyond, a large, broad-shouldered
woman was moving about the table. She walked
with an active, springy step. Her face was heavy and florid,
almost without wrinkles, and her hair was black at seventy.
Nils felt proud of her as he watched her deliberate activity;
never a momentary hesitation, or a movement that did not
tell. He waited until she came out into the kitchen and,
brushing the child aside, took her place at the stove. Then he
tapped on the screen door and entered.
“It’s nobody but Nils, Mother. I expect you weren’t looking
for me.”
Mrs. Ericson turned away from the stove and stood staring
at him. “Bring the lamp, Hilda, and let me look.”
Nils laughed and unslung his valise. “What’s the matter,
Mother? Don’t you know me?”
Mrs. Ericson put down the lamp. “You must be Nils. You
don’t look very different, anyway.”
“Nor you, Mother. You hold your own. Don’t you wear
glasses yet?”
“Only to read by. Where’s your trunk, Nils?”
“Oh, I left that in town. I thought it might not be convenient
for you to have company so near threshing-time.”
“Don’t be foolish, Nils.” Mrs. Ericson turned back to the
stove. “I don’t thresh now. I hitched the wheat land onto the
next farm and have a tenant. Hilda, take some hot water up to
the company room, and go call little Eric.”
The tow-haired child, who had been standing in mute
amazement, took up the tea-kettle and withdrew, giving Nils
a long, admiring look from the door of the kitchen stairs.
“Who’s the youngster?” Nils asked, dropping down on the
bench behind the kitchen stove.
“One of your Cousin Henrik’s.”
“How long has Cousin Henrik been dead?”
“Six years. There are two boys. One stays with Peter and
one with Anders. Olaf is their guardeen.”
There was a clatter of pails on the porch, and a tall, lanky
boy peered wonderingly in through the screen door. He had
a fair, gentle face and big gray eyes, and wisps of soft yellow
hair hung down under his cap. Nils sprang up and pulled him
into the kitchen, hugging him and slapping him on the shoulders.
“Well, if it isn’t my kid! Look at the size of him! Don’t
you know me, Eric?”
The boy reddened under his sunburn and freckles, and
hung his head. “I guess it’s Nils,” he said shyly.
“You’re a good guesser,” laughed Nils, giving the lad’s
hand a swing. To himself he was thinking: “That’s why the
little girl looked so friendly. He’s taught her to like me. He
was only six when I went away, and he’s remembered for
twelve years.”
Eric stood fumbling with his cap and smiling. “You look
just like I thought you would,” he ventured.
“Go wash your hands, Eric,” called Mrs. Ericson. “I’ve got
cob corn for supper, Nils. You used to like it. I guess you
don’t get much of that in the old country. Here’s Hilda; she’ll
take you up to your room. You’ll want to get the dust off you
before you eat.”
Mrs. Ericson went into the dining-room to lay another
plate, and the little girl came up and nodded to Nils as if to
let him know that his room was ready. He put out his hand
and she took it, with a startled glance up at his face. Little
Eric dropped his towel, threw an arm about Nils and one
about Hilda, gave them a clumsy squeeze, and then stumbled
out to the porch.
During supper Nils heard exactly how much land each of
his eight grown brothers farmed, how their crops were coming
on, and how much live stock they were feeding. His
mother watched him narrowly as she talked. “You’ve got
better looking, Nils,” she remarked abruptly, whereupon he
grinned and the children giggled. Eric, although he was eighteen
and as tall as Nils, was always accounted a child, being
the last of so many sons. His face seemed childlike, too, Nils
thought, and he had the open, wandering eyes of a little boy.
All the others had been men at his age.
After supper Nils went out to the front porch and sat down
on the step to smoke a pipe. Mrs. Ericson drew a rocking-chair
up near him and began to knit busily. It was one of the
few old-world customs she had kept up, for she could not
bear to sit with idle hands.
“Where’s little Eric, Mother?”
“He’s helping Hilda with the dishes. He does it of his own
will; I don’t like a boy to be too handy about the house.”
“He seems like a nice kid.”
“He’s very obedient.”
Nils smiled a little in the dark. It was just as well to shift
the line of conversation. “What are you knitting there,
Mother?”
“Baby stockings. The boys keep me busy.” Mrs. Ericson
chuckled and clicked her needles.
“How many grandchildren have you?”
“Only thirty-one now. Olaf lost his three. They were sickly,
like their mother.”
“I supposed he had a second crop by this time!”
“His second wife has no children. She’s too proud. She
tears about on horseback all the time. But she’ll get caught up
with, yet. She sets herself very high, though nobody knows
what for. They were low enough Bohemians she came of. I
never thought much of Bohemians; always drinking.”
Nils puffed away at his pipe in silence, and Mrs. Ericson
knitted on. In a few moments she added grimly: “She was
down here to-night, just before you came. She’d like to quarrel
with me and come between me and Olaf, but I don’t give
her the chance. I suppose you’ll be bringing a wife home
some day.”
“I don’t know. I’ve never thought much about it.”
“Well, perhaps it’s best as it is,” suggested Mrs. Ericson
hopefully. “You’d never be contented tied down to the land.
There was roving blood in your father’s family, and it’s
come out in you. I expect your own way of life suits you
best.” Mrs. Ericson had dropped into a blandly agreeable
tone which Nils well remembered. It seemed to amuse him
a good deal and his white teeth flashed behind his pipe.
His mother’s strategies had always diverted him, even when
he was a boy—they were so flimsy and patent, so illy proportioned
to her vigor and force. “They’ve been waiting
to see which way I’d jump,” he reflected. He felt that Mrs.
Ericson was pondering his case deeply as she sat clicking her
needles.
“I don’t suppose you’ve ever got used to steady work,” she
went on presently. “Men ain’t apt to if they roam around too
long. It’s a pity you didn’t come back the year after the
World’s Fair. Your father picked up a good bit of land cheap
then, in the hard times, and I expect maybe he’d have give
you a farm. It’s too bad you put off comin’ back so long, for
I always thought he meant to do something by you.”
Nils laughed and shook the ashes out of his pipe. “I’d have
missed a lot if I had come back then. But I’m sorry I didn’t
get back to see father.”
“Well, I suppose we have to miss things at one end or the
other. Perhaps you are as well satisfied with your own doings,
now, as you’d have been with a farm,” said Mrs. Ericson reassuringly.
“Land’s a good thing to have,” Nils commented, as he lit
another match and sheltered it with his hand.
His mother looked sharply at his face until the match
burned out. “Only when you stay on it!” she hastened to say.
Eric came round the house by the path just then, and Nils
rose, with a yawn. “Mother, if you don’t mind, Eric and I will
take a little tramp before bed-time. It will make me sleep.”
“Very well; only don’t stay long. I’ll sit up and wait for you.
I like to lock up myself.”
Nils put his hand on Eric’s shoulder, and the two tramped
down the hill and across the sand creek into the dusty highroad
beyond. Neither spoke. They swung along at an even
gait, Nils puffing at his pipe. There was no moon, and the
white road and the wide fields lay faint in the starlight. Over
everything was darkness and thick silence, and the smell of
dust and sunflowers. The brothers followed the road for a
mile or more without finding a place to sit down. Finally Nils
perched on a stile over the wire fence, and Eric sat on the
lower step.
“I began to think you never would come back, Nils,” said
the boy softly.
“Didn’t I promise you I would?”
“Yes; but people don’t bother about promises they make to
babies. Did you really know you were going away for good
when you went to Chicago with the cattle that time?”
“I thought it very likely, if I could make my way.”
“I don’t see how you did it, Nils. Not many fellows could.”
Eric rubbed his shoulder against his brother’s knee.
“The hard thing was leaving home—you and father. It was
easy enough, once I got beyond Chicago. Of course I got
awful homesick; used to cry myself to sleep. But I’d burned
my bridges.”
“You had always wanted to go, hadn’t you?”
“Always. Do you still sleep in our little room? Is that cottonwood
still by the window?”
Eric nodded eagerly and smiled up at his brother in the
gray darkness.
“You remember how we always said the leaves were whispering
when they rustled at night? Well, they always whispered
to me about the sea. Sometimes they said names out of
the geography books. In a high wind they had a desperate
sound, like something trying to tear loose.”
“How funny, Nils,” said Eric dreamily, resting his chin on
his hand. “That tree still talks like that, and ’most always it
talks to me about you.”
They sat a while longer, watching the stars. At last Eric
whispered anxiously: “Hadn’t we better go back now?
Mother will get tired waiting for us.” They rose and took a
short cut home, through the pasture.
II
The next morning Nils woke with the first flood of light
that came with dawn. The white-plastered walls of his room
reflected the glare that shone through the thin window-shades,
and he found it impossible to sleep. He dressed hurriedly
and slipped down the hall and up the back stairs to the
half-story room which he used to share with his little brother.
Eric, in a skimpy night-shirt, was sitting on the edge of the
bed, rubbing his eyes, his pale yellow hair standing up in tufts
all over his head. When he saw Nils, he murmured something
confusedly and hustled his long legs into his trousers. “I
didn’t expect you’d be up so early, Nils,” he said, as his head
emerged from his blue shirt.
“Oh, you thought I was a dude, did you?” Nils gave him a
playful tap which bent the tall boy up like a clasp-knife. “See
here; I must teach you to box.” Nils thrust his hands into his
pockets and walked about. “You haven’t changed things much
up here. Got most of my old traps, haven’t you?”
He took down a bent, withered piece of sapling that hung
over the dresser. “If this isn’t the stick Lou Sandberg killed
himself with!”
The boy looked up from his shoe-lacing.
“Yes; you never used to let me play with that. Just how did
he do it, Nils? You were with father when he found Lou,
weren’t you?”
“Yes. Father was going off to preach somewhere, and, as
we drove along, Lou’s place looked sort of forlorn, and we
thought we’d stop and cheer him up. When we found him
father said he’d been dead a couple days. He’d tied a piece of
binding twine round his neck, made a noose in each end,
fixed the nooses over the ends of a bent stick, and let the stick
spring straight; strangled himself.”
“What made him kill himself such a silly way?”
The simplicity of the boy’s question set Nils laughing. He
clapped little Eric on the shoulder. “What made him such a
silly as to kill himself at all, I should say!”
“Oh, well! But his hogs had the cholera, and all up and
died on him, didn’t they?”
“Sure they did; but he didn’t have cholera; and there were
plenty of hogs left in the world, weren’t there?”
“Well, but, if they weren’t his, how could they do him any
good?” Eric asked, in astonishment.
“Oh, scat! He could have had lots of fun with other people’s
hogs. He was a chump, Lou Sandberg. To kill yourself
for a pig—think of that, now!” Nils laughed all the way
downstairs, and quite embarrassed little Eric, who fell to
scrubbing his face and hands at the tin basin. While he was
patting his wet hair at the kitchen looking-glass, a heavy tread
sounded on the stairs. The boy dropped his comb. “Gracious,
there’s Mother. We must have talked too long.” He hurried
out to the shed, slipped on his overalls, and disappeared with
the milking-pails.
Mrs. Ericson came in, wearing a clean white apron, her
black hair shining from the application of a wet brush.
“Good morning, Mother. Can’t I make the fire for you?”
“No, thank you, Nils. It’s no trouble to make a cob fire,
and I like to manage the kitchen stove myself.” Mrs. Ericson
paused with a shovel full of ashes in her hand. “I expect you
will be wanting to see your brothers as soon as possible. I’ll
take you up to Anders’ place this morning. He’s threshing,
and most of our boys are over there.”
“Will Olaf be there?”
Mrs. Ericson went on taking out the ashes, and spoke between
shovels. “No; Olaf’s wheat is all in, put away in his
new barn. He got six thousand bushel this year. He’s going to
town to-day to get men to finish roofing his barn.”
“So Olaf is building a new barn?” Nils asked absently.
“Biggest one in the county, and almost done. You’ll likely
be here for the barn-raising. He’s going to have a supper and
a dance as soon as everybody’s done threshing. Says it keeps
the voters in a good humor. I tell him that’s all nonsense; but
Olaf has a long head for politics.”
“Does Olaf farm all Cousin Henrik’s land?”
Mrs. Ericson frowned as she blew into the faint smoke
curling up about the cobs. “Yes; he holds it in trust for the
children, Hilda and her brothers. He keeps strict account of
everything he raises on it, and puts the proceeds out at compound
interest for them.”
Nils smiled as he watched the little flames shoot up. The
door of the back stairs opened, and Hilda emerged, her arms
behind her, buttoning up her long gingham apron as she
came. He nodded to her gaily, and she twinkled at him out of
her little blue eyes, set far apart over her wide cheek-bones.
“There, Hilda, you grind the coffee—and just put in an
extra handful; I expect your Cousin Nils likes his strong,” said
Mrs. Ericson, as she went out to the shed.
Nils turned to look at the little girl, who gripped the
coffee-grinder between her knees and ground so hard that her
two braids bobbed and her face flushed under its broad spattering
of freckles. He noticed on her middle finger something
that had not been there last night, and that had evidently
been put on for company: a tiny gold ring with a clumsily set
garnet stone. As her hand went round and round he touched
the ring with the tip of his finger, smiling.
Hilda glanced toward the shed door through which Mrs.
Ericson had disappeared. “My Cousin Clara gave me that,”
she whispered bashfully. “She’s Cousin Olaf’s wife.”
III
Mrs. Olaf Ericson—Clara Vavrika, as many people still
called her—was moving restlessly about her big bare house
that morning. Her husband had left for the county town before
his wife was out of bed—her lateness in rising was one
of the many things the Ericson family had against her. Clara
seldom came downstairs before eight o’clock, and this morning
she was even later, for she had dressed with unusual care.
She put on, however, only a tight-fitting black dress, which
people thereabouts thought very plain. She was a tall, dark
woman of thirty, with a rather sallow complexion and a touch
of dull salmon red in her cheeks, where the blood seemed to
burn under her brown skin. Her hair, parted evenly above her
low forehead, was so black that there were distinctly blue
lights in it. Her black eyebrows were delicate half-moons and
her lashes were long and heavy. Her eyes slanted a little, as if
she had a strain of Tartar or gypsy blood, and were sometimes
full of fiery determination and sometimes dull and opaque.
Her expression was never altogether amiable; was often, indeed,
distinctly sullen, or, when she was animated, sarcastic.
She was most attractive in profile, for then one saw to advantage
her small, well-shaped head and delicate ears, and
felt at once that here was a very positive, if not an altogether
pleasing, personality.
The entire management of Mrs. Olaf’s household devolved
upon her aunt, Johanna Vavrika, a superstitious, doting
woman of fifty. When Clara was a little girl her mother died,
and Johanna’s life had been spent in ungrudging service to her
niece. Clara, like many self-willed and discontented persons,
was really very apt, without knowing it, to do as other people
told her, and to let her destiny be decided for her by intelligences
much below her own. It was her Aunt Johanna who
had humored and spoiled her in her girlhood, who had got
her off to Chicago to study piano, and who had finally persuaded
her to marry Olaf Ericson as the best match she would
be likely to make in that part of the country. Johanna Vavrika
had been deeply scarred by smallpox in the old country. She
was short and fat, homely and jolly and sentimental. She was
so broad, and took such short steps when she walked, that her
brother, Joe Vavrika, always called her his duck. She adored
her niece because of her talent, because of her good looks and
masterful ways, but most of all because of her selfishness.
Clara’s marriage with Olaf Ericson was Johanna’s particular
triumph. She was inordinately proud of Olaf’s position, and
she found a sufficiently exciting career in managing Clara’s
house, in keeping it above the criticism of the Ericsons, in
pampering Olaf to keep him from finding fault with his wife,
and in concealing from every one Clara’s domestic infelicities.
While Clara slept of a morning, Johanna Vavrika was bustling
about, seeing that Olaf and the men had their breakfast, and
that the cleaning or the butter-making or the washing was
properly begun by the two girls in the kitchen. Then, at about
eight o’clock, she would take Clara’s coffee up to her, and
chat with her while she drank it, telling her what was going
on in the house. Old Mrs. Ericson frequently said that her
daughter-in-law would not know what day of the week it was
if Johanna did not tell her every morning. Mrs. Ericson despised
and pitied Johanna, but did not wholly dislike her. The
one thing she hated in her daughter-in-law above everything
else was the way in which Clara could come it over people. It
enraged her that the affairs of her son’s big, barnlike house
went on as well as they did, and she used to feel that in this
world we have to wait over-long to see the guilty punished.
“Suppose Johanna Vavrika died or got sick?” the old lady used
to say to Olaf. “Your wife wouldn’t know where to look for
her own dish-cloth.” Olaf only shrugged his shoulders. The
fact remained that Johanna did not die, and, although Mrs.
Ericson often told her she was looking poorly, she was never
ill. She seldom left the house, and she slept in a little room off
the kitchen. No Ericson, by night or day, could come prying
about there to find fault without her knowing it. Her one
weakness was that she was an incurable talker, and she sometimes
made trouble without meaning to.
This morning Clara was tying a wine-colored ribbon about
her throat when Johanna appeared with her coffee. After putting
the tray on a sewing-table, she began to make Clara’s
bed, chattering the while in Bohemian.
“Well, Olaf got off early, and the girls are baking. I’m going
down presently to make some poppy-seed bread for Olaf.
He asked for prune preserves at breakfast, and I told him I
was out of them, and to bring some prunes and honey and
cloves from town.”
Clara poured her coffee. “Ugh! I don’t see how men can eat
so much sweet stuff. In the morning, too!”
Her aunt chuckled knowingly. “Bait a bear with honey, as
we say in the old country.”
“Was he cross?” her niece asked indifferently.
“Olaf? Oh, no! He was in fine spirits. He’s never cross if
you know how to take him. I never knew a man to make so
little fuss about bills. I gave him a list of things to get a yard
long, and he didn’t say a word; just folded it up and put it in
his pocket.”
“I can well believe he didn’t say a word,” Clara remarked
with a shrug. “Some day he’ll forget how to talk.”
“Oh, but they say he’s a grand speaker in the Legislature.
He knows when to keep quiet. That’s why he’s got such influence
in politics. The people have confidence in him.” Johanna
beat up a pillow and held it under her fat chin while
she slipped on the case. Her niece laughed.
“Maybe we could make people believe we were wise,
Aunty, if we held our tongues. Why did you tell Mrs. Ericson
that Norman threw me again last Saturday and turned my
foot? She’s been talking to Olaf.”
Johanna fell into great confusion. “Oh, but, my precious,
the old lady asked for you, and she’s always so angry if I can’t
give an excuse. Anyhow, she needn’t talk; she’s always tearing
up something with that motor of hers.”
When her aunt clattered down to the kitchen, Clara went
to dust the parlor. Since there was not much there to dust,
this did not take very long. Olaf had built the house new for
her before their marriage, but her interest in furnishing it had
been short-lived. It went, indeed, little beyond a bath-tub and
her piano. They had disagreed about almost every other article
of furniture, and Clara had said she would rather have her
house empty than full of things she didn’t want. The house
was set in a hillside, and the west windows of the parlor
looked out above the kitchen yard thirty feet below. The east
windows opened directly into the front yard. At one of the
latter, Clara, while she was dusting, heard a low whistle. She
did not turn at once, but listened intently as she drew her
cloth slowly along the round of a chair. Yes, there it was:
“I dreamt that I dwelt in ma-a-arble halls,”
She turned and saw Nils Ericson laughing in the sunlight,
his hat in his hand, just outside the window. As she crossed
the room he leaned against the wire screen. “Aren’t you at all
surprised to see me, Clara Vavrika?”
“No; I was expecting to see you. Mother Ericson telephoned
Olaf last night that you were here.”
Nils squinted and gave a long whistle. “Telephoned? That
must have been while Eric and I were out walking. Isn’t she
enterprising? Lift this screen, won’t you?”
Clara lifted the screen, and Nils swung his leg across the
window-sill. As he stepped into the room she said: “You
didn’t think you were going to get ahead of your mother, did
you?”
He threw his hat on the piano. “Oh, I do sometimes. You
see, I’m ahead of her now. I’m supposed to be in Anders’
wheat-field. But, as we were leaving, Mother ran her car into
a soft place beside the road and sank up to the hubs. While
they were going for horses to pull her out, I cut away behind
the stacks and escaped.” Nils chuckled. Clara’s dull eyes lit up
as she looked at him admiringly.
“You’ve got them guessing already. I don’t know what your
mother said to Olaf over the telephone, but he came back
looking as if he’d seen a ghost, and he didn’t go to bed until a
dreadful hour—ten o’clock, I should think. He sat out on the
porch in the dark like a graven image. It had been one of his
talkative days, too.” They both laughed, easily and lightly, like
people who have laughed a great deal together; but they remained
standing.
“Anders and Otto and Peter looked as if they had seen
ghosts, too, over in the threshing-field. What’s the matter
with them all?”
Clara gave him a quick, searching look. “Well, for one
thing, they’ve always been afraid you have the other will.”
Nils looked interested. “The other will?”
“Yes. A later one. They knew your father made another,
but they never knew what he did with it. They almost tore
the old house to pieces looking for it. They always suspected
that he carried on a clandestine correspondence with you, for
the one thing he would do was to get his own mail himself.
So they thought he might have sent the new will to you for
safekeeping. The old one, leaving everything to your mother,
was made long before you went away, and it’s understood
among them that it cuts you out—that she will leave all the
property to the others. Your father made the second will to
prevent that. I’ve been hoping you had it. It would be such
fun to spring it on them.” Clara laughed mirthfully, a thing
she did not often do now.
Nils shook his head reprovingly. “Come, now, you’re malicious.”
“No, I’m not. But I’d like something to happen to stir them
all up, just for once. There never was such a family for having
nothing ever happen to them but dinner and threshing. I’d
almost be willing to die, just to have a funeral. You wouldn’t
stand it for three weeks.”
Nils bent over the piano and began pecking at the keys
with the finger of one hand. “I wouldn’t? My dear young
lady, how do you know what I can stand? You wouldn’t wait
to find out.”
Clara flushed darkly and frowned. “I didn’t believe you
would ever come back—” she said defiantly.
“Eric believed I would, and he was only a baby when I
went away. However, all’s well that ends well, and I haven’t
come back to be a skeleton at the feast. We mustn’t quarrel.
Mother will be here with a search-warrant pretty soon.” He
swung round and faced her, thrusting his hands into his coat
pockets. “Come, you ought to be glad to see me, if you want
something to happen. I’m something, even without a will. We
can have a little fun, can’t we? I think we can!”
She echoed him, “I think we can!” They both laughed and
their eyes sparkled. Clara Vavrika looked ten years younger
than when she had put the velvet ribbon about her throat that
morning.
“You know, I’m so tickled to see mother,” Nils went on. “I
didn’t know I was so proud of her. A regular pile-driver.
How about little pigtails, down at the house? Is Olaf doing
the square thing by those children?”
Clara frowned pensively. “Olaf has to do something that
looks like the square thing, now that he’s a public man!” She
glanced drolly at Nils. “But he makes a good commission out
of it. On Sundays they all get together here and figure. He
lets Peter and Anders put in big bills for the keep of the two
boys, and he pays them out of the estate. They are always
having what they call accountings. Olaf gets something out of
it, too. I don’t know just how they do it, but it’s entirely a
family matter, as they say. And when the Ericsons say that—”
Clara lifted her eyebrows.
Just then the angry honk-honk of an approaching motor
sounded from down the road. Their eyes met and they began
to laugh. They laughed as children do when they can not contain
themselves, and can not explain the cause of their mirth
to grown people, but share it perfectly together. When Clara
Vavrika sat down at the piano after he was gone, she felt that
she had laughed away a dozen years. She practised as if the
house were burning over her head.
When Nils greeted his mother and climbed into the front
seat of the motor beside her, Mrs. Ericson looked grim, but
she made no comment upon his truancy until she had turned
her car and was retracing her revolutions along the road that
ran by Olaf’s big pasture. Then she remarked dryly:
“If I were you I wouldn’t see too much of Olaf’s wife while
you are here. She’s the kind of woman who can’t see much of
men without getting herself talked about. She was a good
deal talked about before he married her.”
“Hasn’t Olaf tamed her?” Nils asked indifferently.
Mrs. Ericson shrugged her massive shoulders. “Olaf don’t
seem to have much luck, when it comes to wives. The first
one was meek enough, but she was always ailing. And this
one has her own way. He says if he quarreled with her she’d
go back to her father, and then he’d lose the Bohemian vote.
There are a great many Bohunks in this district. But when
you find a man under his wife’s thumb you can always be sure
there’s a soft spot in him somewhere.”
Nils thought of his own father, and smiled. “She brought
him a good deal of money, didn’t she, besides the Bohemian
vote?”
Mrs. Ericson sniffed. “Well, she has a fair half section in her
own name, but I can’t see as that does Olaf much good. She
will have a good deal of property some day, if old Vavrika
don’t marry again. But I don’t consider a saloonkeeper’s
money as good as other people’s money.”
Nils laughed outright. “Come, Mother, don’t let your prejudices
carry you that far. Money’s money. Old Vavrika’s a
mighty decent sort of saloonkeeper. Nothing rowdy about
him.”
Mrs. Ericson spoke up angrily: “Oh, I know you always
stood up for them! But hanging around there when you were
a boy never did you any good, Nils, nor any of the other boys
who went there. There weren’t so many after her when she
married Olaf, let me tell you. She knew enough to grab her
chance.”
Nils settled back in his seat. “Of course I liked to go there,
Mother, and you were always cross about it. You never took
the trouble to find out that it was the one jolly house in this
country for a boy to go to. All the rest of you were working
yourselves to death, and the houses were mostly a mess, full
of babies and washing and flies. Oh, it was all right—I understand
that; but you are young only once, and I happened
to be young then. Now, Vavrika’s was always jolly. He played
the violin, and I used to take my flute, and Clara played the
piano, and Johanna used to sing Bohemian songs. She always
had a big supper for us—herrings and pickles and poppyseed
bread, and lots of cake and preserves. Old Joe had been
in the army in the old country, and he could tell lots of good
stories. I can see him cutting bread, at the head of the table,
now. I don’t know what I’d have done when I was a kid if it
hadn’t been for the Vavrikas, really.”
“And all the time he was taking money that other people
had worked hard in the fields for,” Mrs. Ericson observed.
“So do the circuses, Mother, and they’re a good thing.
People ought to get fun for some of their money. Even
father liked old Joe.”
“Your father,” Mrs. Ericson said grimly, “liked everybody.”
As they crossed the sand creek and turned into her own
place, Mrs. Ericson observed, “There’s Olaf’s buggy. He’s
stopped on his way from town.” Nils shook himself and prepared
to greet his brother, who was waiting on the porch.
Olaf was a big, heavy Norwegian, slow of speech and
movement. His head was large and square, like a block of
wood. When Nils, at a distance, tried to remember what his
brother looked like, he could recall only his heavy head, high
forehead, large nostrils, and pale-blue eyes, set far apart.
Olaf’s features were rudimentary: the thing one noticed was
the face itself, wide and flat and pale, devoid of any expression,
betraying his fifty years as little as it betrayed anything
else, and powerful by reason of its very stolidness. When Olaf
shook hands with Nils he looked at him from under his light
eyebrows, but Nils felt that no one could ever say what that
pale look might mean. The one thing he had always felt in
Olaf was a heavy stubbornness, like the unyielding stickiness
of wet loam against the plow. He had always found Olaf the
most difficult of his brothers.
“How do you do, Nils? Expect to stay with us long?”
“Oh, I may stay forever,” Nils answered gaily. “I like this
country better than I used to.”
“There’s been some work put into it since you left,” Olaf
remarked.
“Exactly. I think it’s about ready to live in now—and I’m
about ready to settle down.” Nils saw his brother lower his
big head. (“Exactly like a bull,” he thought.) “Mother’s been
persuading me to slow down now, and go in for farming,” he
went on lightly.
Olaf made a deep sound in his throat. “Farming ain’t
learned in a day,” he brought out, still looking at the ground.
“Oh, I know! But I pick things up quickly.” Nils had not
meant to antagonize his brother, and he did not know now
why he was doing it. “Of course,” he went on, “I shouldn’t
expect to make a big success, as you fellows have done. But
then, I’m not ambitious. I won’t want much. A little land,
and some cattle, maybe.”
Olaf still stared at the ground, his head down. He wanted
to ask Nils what he had been doing all these years, that he
didn’t have a business somewhere he couldn’t afford to leave;
why he hadn’t more pride than to come back with only a little
sole-leather trunk to show for himself, and to present himself
as the only failure in the family. He did not ask one of these
questions, but he made them all felt distinctly.
“Humph!” Nils thought. “No wonder the man never talks,
when he can butt his ideas into you like that without ever
saying a word. I suppose he uses that kind of smokeless powder
on his wife all the time. But I guess she has her innings.”
He chuckled, and Olaf looked up. “Never mind me, Olaf. I
laugh without knowing why, like little Eric. He’s another
cheerful dog.”
“Eric,” said Olaf slowly, “is a spoiled kid. He’s just let his
mother’s best cow go dry because he don’t milk her right. I
was hoping you’d take him away somewhere and put him
into business. If he don’t do any good among strangers, he
never will.” This was a long speech for Olaf, and as he finished
it he climbed into his buggy.
Nils shrugged his shoulders. “Same old tricks,” he thought.
“Hits from behind you every time. What a whale of a man!”
He turned and went round to the kitchen, where his mother
was scolding little Eric for letting the gasoline get low.
IV
Joe Vavrika’s saloon was not in the county-seat, where Olaf
and Mrs. Ericson did their trading, but in a cheerfuller place,
a little Bohemian settlement which lay at the other end of the
county, ten level miles north of Olaf’s farm. Clara rode up to
see her father almost every day. Vavrika’s house was, so to
speak, in the back yard of his saloon. The garden between the
two buildings was inclosed by a high board fence as tight as a
partition, and in summer Joe kept beer-tables and wooden
benches among the gooseberry bushes under his little cherry
tree. At one of these tables Nils Ericson was seated in the late
afternoon, three days after his return home. Joe had gone in
to serve a customer, and Nils was lounging on his elbows,
looking rather mournfully into his half-emptied pitcher, when
he heard a laugh across the little garden. Clara, in her riding-habit,
was standing at the back door of the house, under the
grapevine trellis that old Joe had grown there long ago. Nils
rose.
“Come out and keep your father and me company. We’ve
been gossiping all afternoon. Nobody to bother us but the
flies.”
She shook her head. “No, I never come out here any
more. Olaf doesn’t like it. I must live up to my position, you
know.”
“You mean to tell me you never come out and chat with
the boys, as you used to? He has tamed you! Who keeps up
these flower-beds?”
“I come out on Sundays, when father is alone, and read the
Bohemian papers to him. But I am never here when the bar is
open. What have you two been doing?”
“Talking, as I told you. I’ve been telling him about my
travels. I find I can’t talk much at home, not even to Eric.”
Clara reached up and poked with her riding-whip at a
white moth that was fluttering in the sunlight among the vine
leaves. “I suppose you will never tell me about all those
things.”
“Where can I tell them? Not in Olaf’s house, certainly.
What’s the matter with our talking here?” He pointed persuasively
with his hat to the bushes and the green table, where
the flies were singing lazily above the empty beer-glasses.
Clara shook her head weakly. “No, it wouldn’t do. Besides,
I am going now.”
“I’m on Eric’s mare. Would you be angry if I overtook
you?”
Clara looked back and laughed. “You might try and see. I
can leave you if I don’t want you. Eric’s mare can’t keep up
with Norman.”
Nils went into the bar and attempted to pay his score. Big
Joe, six feet four, with curly yellow hair and mustache,
clapped him on the shoulder. “Not a God-damn a your
money go in my drawer, you hear? Only next time you bring
your flute, te-te-te-te-te-ty.” Joe wagged his fingers in imitation
of the flute-player’s position. “My Clara, she come all-a-time
Sundays an’ play for me. She not like to play at Ericson’s
place.” He shook his yellow curls and laughed. “Not a God-damn
a fun at Ericson’s. You come a Sunday. You like-a fun.
No forget de flute.” Joe talked very rapidly and always tumbled
over his English. He seldom spoke it to his customers,
and had never learned much.
Nils swung himself into the saddle and trotted to the west
end of the village, where the houses and gardens scattered
into prairie-land and the road turned south. Far ahead of
him, in the declining light, he saw Clara Vavrika’s slender figure,
loitering on horseback. He touched his mare with the
whip, and shot along the white, level road, under the reddening
sky. When he overtook Olaf’s wife he saw that she had
been crying. “What’s the matter, Clara Vavrika?” he asked
kindly.
“Oh, I get blue sometimes. It was awfully jolly living there
with father. I wonder why I ever went away.”
Nils spoke in a low, kind tone that he sometimes used with
women: “That’s what I’ve been wondering these many years.
You were the last girl in the country I’d have picked for a wife
for Olaf. What made you do it, Clara?”
“I suppose I really did it to oblige the neighbors”—Clara
tossed her head. “People were beginning to wonder.”
“To wonder?”
“Yes—why I didn’t get married. I suppose I didn’t like to
keep them in suspense. I’ve discovered that most girls marry
out of consideration for the neighborhood.”
Nils bent his head toward her and his white teeth flashed.
“I’d have gambled that one girl I knew would say, ‘Let the
neighborhood be damned.’”
Clara shook her head mournfully. “You see, they have it on
you, Nils; that is, if you’re a woman. They say you’re beginning
to go off. That’s what makes us get married: we can’t
stand the laugh.”
Nils looked sidewise at her. He had never seen her head
droop before. Resignation was the last thing he would have
expected of her. “In your case, there wasn’t something else?”
“Something else?”
“I mean, you didn’t do it to spite somebody? Somebody
who didn’t come back?”
Clara drew herself up. “Oh, I never thought you’d come
back. Not after I stopped writing to you, at least. That was all
over, long before I married Olaf.”
“It never occurred to you, then, that the meanest thing you
could do to me was to marry Olaf?”
Clara laughed. “No; I didn’t know you were so fond of
Olaf.”
Nils smoothed his horse’s mane with his glove. “You know,
Clara Vavrika, you are never going to stick it out. You’ll cut
away some day, and I’ve been thinking you might as well cut
away with me.”
Clara threw up her chin. “Oh, you don’t know me as well
as you think. I won’t cut away. Sometimes, when I’m with
father, I feel like it. But I can hold out as long as the Ericsons
can. They’ve never got the best of me yet, and one can live, so
long as one isn’t beaten. If I go back to father, it’s all up with
Olaf in politics. He knows that, and he never goes much beyond
sulking. I’ve as much wit as the Ericsons. I’ll never leave
them unless I can show them a thing or two.”
“You mean unless you can come it over them?”
“Yes—unless I go away with a man who is cleverer than
they are, and who has more money.”
Nils whistled. “Dear me, you are demanding a good deal.
The Ericsons, take the lot of them, are a bunch to beat. But I
should think the excitement of tormenting them would have
worn off by this time.”
“It has, I’m afraid,” Clara admitted mournfully.
“Then why don’t you cut away? There are more amusing
games than this in the world. When I came home I thought it
might amuse me to bully a few quarter sections out of the
Ericsons; but I’ve almost decided I can get more fun for my
money somewhere else.”
Clara took in her breath sharply. “Ah, you have got the
other will! That was why you came home!”
“No, it wasn’t. I came home to see how you were getting
on with Olaf.”
Clara struck her horse with the whip, and in a bound she
was far ahead of him. Nils dropped one word, “Damn!” and
whipped after her; but she leaned forward in her saddle and
fairly cut the wind. Her long riding-skirt rippled in the still
air behind her. The sun was just sinking behind the stubble in
a vast, clear sky, and the shadows drew across the fields so
rapidly that Nils could scarcely keep in sight the dark figure
on the road. When he overtook her he caught her horse by
the bridle. Norman reared, and Nils was frightened for her;
but Clara kept her seat.
“Let me go, Nils Ericson!” she cried. “I hate you more than
any of them. You were created to torture me, the whole tribe
of you—to make me suffer in every possible way.”
She struck her horse again and galloped away from him.
Nils set his teeth and looked thoughtful. He rode slowly
home along the deserted road, watching the stars come out in
the clear violet sky. They flashed softly into the limpid heavens,
like jewels let fall into clear water. They were a reproach,
he felt, to a sordid world. As he turned across the sand creek,
he looked up at the North Star and smiled, as if there were an
understanding between them. His mother scolded him for
being late for supper.
V
On Sunday afternoon Joe Vavrika, in his shirt-sleeves
and carpet-slippers, was sitting in his garden, smoking a long-tasseled
porcelain pipe with a hunting scene painted on
the bowl. Clara sat under the cherry tree, reading aloud to
him from the weekly Bohemian papers. She had worn a
white muslin dress under her riding-habit, and the leaves of
the cherry tree threw a pattern of sharp shadows over her
skirt. The black cat was dozing in the sunlight at her feet, and
Joe’s dachshund was scratching a hole under the scarlet geraniums
and dreaming of badgers. Joe was filling his pipe for
the third time since dinner, when he heard a knocking on the
fence. He broke into a loud guffaw and unlatched the little
door that led into the street. He did not call Nils by name,
but caught him by the hand and dragged him in. Clara stiffened
and the color deepened under her dark skin. Nils, too,
felt a little awkward. He had not seen her since the night
when she rode away from him and left him alone on the level
road between the fields. Joe dragged him to the wooden
bench beside the green table.
“You bring de flute,” he cried, tapping the leather case under
Nils’ arm. “Ah, das-a good! Now we have some liddle fun
like old times. I got somet’ing good for you.” Joe shook his
finger at Nils and winked his blue eyes, a bright clear eye, full
of fire, though the tiny blood-vessels on the ball were always a
little distended. “I got somet’ing for you from”—he paused
and waved his hand—“Hongarie. You know Hongarie? You
wait!” He pushed Nils down on the bench, and went through
the back door of his saloon.
Nils looked at Clara, who sat frigidly with her white
skirts drawn tight about her. “He didn’t tell you he had asked
me to come, did he? He wanted a party and proceeded to
arrange it. Isn’t he fun? Don’t be cross; let’s give him a good
time.”
Clara smiled and shook out her skirt. “Isn’t that like father?
And he has sat here so meekly all day. Well, I won’t pout. I’m
glad you came. He doesn’t have very many good times now
any more. There are so few of his kind left. The second generation
are a tame lot.”
Joe came back with a flask in one hand and three wine-glasses
caught by the stems between the fingers of the other.
These he placed on the table with an air of ceremony, and,
going behind Nils, held the flask between him and the sun,
squinting into it admiringly. “You know dis, Tokai? A great
friend of mine, he bring dis to me, a present out of Hongarie.
You know how much it cost, dis wine? Chust so much what it
weigh in gold. Nobody but de nobles drink him in Bohemie.
Many, many years I save him up, dis Tokai.” Joe whipped out
his official cork-screw and delicately removed the cork. “De
old man die what bring him to me, an’ dis wine he lay on his
belly in my cellar an’ sleep. An’ now,” carefully pouring out
the heavy yellow wine, “an’ now he wake up; and maybe he
wake us up, too!” He carried one of the glasses to his daughter
and presented it with great gallantry.
Clara shook her head, but, seeing her father’s disappointment,
relented. “You taste it first. I don’t want so much.”
Joe sampled it with a beatific expression, and turned to
Nils. “You drink him slow, dis wine. He very soft, but he go
down hot. You see!”
After a second glass Nils declared that he couldn’t take any
more without getting sleepy. “Now get your fiddle, Vavrika,”
he said as he opened his flute-case.
But Joe settled back in his wooden rocker and wagged his
big carpet-slipper. “No-no-no-no-no-no-no! No play fiddle
now any more: too much ache in de finger,” waving them,
“all-a-time rheumatiz. You play de flute, te-tety-te-tety-te. Bohemie
songs.”
“I’ve forgotten all the Bohemian songs I used to play with
you and Johanna. But here’s one that will make Clara pout.
You remember how her eyes used to snap when we called her
the Bohemian Girl?” Nils lifted his flute and began “When
Other Lips and Other Hearts,” and Joe hummed the air in a
husky baritone, waving his carpet-slipper. “Oh-h-h, das-a fine
music,” he cried, clapping his hands as Nils finished. “Now
‘Marble Halls, Marble Halls’! Clara, you sing him.”
Clara smiled and leaned back in her chair, beginning softly:
“I dreamt that I dwelt in ma-a-arble halls,
With vassals and serfs at my knee,”
and Joe hummed like a big bumble-bee.
“There’s one more you always played,” Clara said quietly;
“I remember that best.” She locked her hands over her knee
and began “The Heart Bowed Down,” and sang it through
without groping for the words. She was singing with a good
deal of warmth when she came to the end of the old song:
“For memory is the only friend
That grief can call its own.”
Joe flashed out his red silk handkerchief and blew his nose,
shaking his head. “No-no-no-no-no-no-no! Too sad, too sad!
I not like-a dat. Play quick somet’ing gay now.”
Nils put his lips to the instrument, and Joe lay back in his
chair, laughing and singing, “Oh, Evelina, Sweet Evelina!”
Clara laughed, too. Long ago, when she and Nils went to
high school, the model student of their class was a very
homely girl in thick spectacles. Her name was Evelina Oleson;
she had a long, swinging walk which somehow suggested the
measure of that song, and they used mercilessly to sing it at
her.
“Dat ugly Oleson girl, she teach in de school,” Joe gasped,
“an’ she still walk chust like dat, yup-a, yup-a, yup-a, chust
like a camel she go! Now, Nils, we have some more li’l drink.
Oh, yes-yes-yes-yes-yes-yes-yes! Dis time you haf to drink, and
Clara she haf to, so she show she not jealous. So, we all drink
to your girl. You not tell her name, eh? No-no-no, I no make
you tell. She pretty, eh? She make good sweetheart? I bet!”
Joe winked and lifted his glass. “How soon you get married?”
Nils screwed up his eyes. “That I don’t know. When she
says.”
Joe threw out his chest. “Das-a way boys talks. No way for
mans. Mans say, ‘You come to de church, an’ get a hurry on
you.’ Das-a way mans talks.”
“Maybe Nils hasn’t got enough to keep a wife,” put in
Clara ironically. “How about that, Nils?” she asked him
frankly, as if she wanted to know.
Nils looked at her coolly, raising one eyebrow. “Oh, I can
keep her, all right.”
“The way she wants to be kept?”
“With my wife, I’ll decide that,” replied Nils calmly. “I’ll
give her what’s good for her.”
Clara made a wry face. “You’ll give her the strap, I expect,
like old Peter Oleson gave his wife.”
“When she needs it,” said Nils lazily, locking his hands behind
his head and squinting up through the leaves of the
cherry tree. “Do you remember the time I squeezed the cherries
all over your clean dress, and Aunt Johanna boxed my
ears for me? My gracious, weren’t you mad! You had both
hands full of cherries, and I squeezed ’em and made the juice
fly all over you. I liked to have fun with you; you’d get so mad.”
“We did have fun, didn’t we? None of the other kids ever
had so much fun. We knew how to play.”
Nils dropped his elbows on the table and looked steadily
across at her. “I’ve played with lots of girls since, but I haven’t
found one who was such good fun.”
Clara laughed. The late afternoon sun was shining full in
her face, and deep in the back of her eyes there shone something
fiery, like the yellow drops of Tokai in the brown glass
bottle. “Can you still play, or are you only pretending?”
“I can play better than I used to, and harder.”
“Don’t you ever work, then?” She had not intended to say
it. It slipped out because she was confused enough to say just
the wrong thing.
“I work between times.” Nils’ steady gaze still beat upon
her. “Don’t you worry about my working, Mrs. Ericson.
You’re getting like all the rest of them.” He reached his
brown, warm hand across the table and dropped it on Clara’s,
which was cold as an icicle. “Last call for play, Mrs. Ericson!”
Clara shivered, and suddenly her hands and cheeks grew
warm. Her fingers lingered in his a moment, and they looked
at each other earnestly. Joe Vavrika had put the mouth of the
bottle to his lips and was swallowing the last drops of the
Tokai, standing. The sun, just about to sink behind his shop,
glistened on the bright glass, on his flushed face and curly
yellow hair. “Look,” Clara whispered; “that’s the way I want
to grow old.”
VI
On the day of Olaf Ericson’s barn-raising, his wife, for once
in a way, rose early. Johanna Vavrika had been baking cakes
and frying and boiling and spicing meats for a week beforehand,
but it was not until the day before the party was to take
place that Clara showed any interest in it. Then she was seized
with one of her fitful spasms of energy, and took the wagon
and little Eric and spent the day on Plum Creek, gathering
vines and swamp goldenrod to decorate the barn.
By four o’clock in the afternoon buggies and wagons began
to arrive at the big unpainted building in front of Olaf’s
house. When Nils and his mother came at five, there were
more than fifty people in the barn, and a great drove of children.
On the ground floor stood six long tables, set with the
crockery of seven flourishing Ericson families, lent for the occasion.
In the middle of each table was a big yellow pumpkin,
hollowed out and filled with woodbine. In one corner of the
barn, behind a pile of green-and-white-striped watermelons,
was a circle of chairs for the old people; the younger guests
sat on bushel measures or barbed-wire spools, and the children
tumbled about in the haymow. The box-stalls Clara had
converted into booths. The framework was hidden by goldenrod
and sheaves of wheat, and the partitions were covered
with wild grapevines full of fruit. At one of these Johanna
Vavrika watched over her cooked meats, enough to provision
an army; and at the next her kitchen girls had ranged the
ice-cream freezers, and Clara was already cutting pies and
cakes against the hour of serving. At the third stall, little
Hilda, in a bright pink lawn dress, dispensed lemonade
throughout the afternoon. Olaf, as a public man, had thought
it inadvisable to serve beer in his barn; but Joe Vavrika had
come over with two demijohns concealed in his buggy, and
after his arrival the wagon-shed was much frequented by the
men.
“Hasn’t Cousin Clara fixed things lovely?” little Hilda whispered,
when Nils went up to her stall and asked for lemonade.
Nils leaned against the booth, talking to the excited little
girl and watching the people. The barn faced the west, and
the sun, pouring in at the big doors, filled the whole interior
with a golden light, through which filtered fine particles of
dust from the haymow, where the children were romping.
There was a great chattering from the stall where Johanna
Vavrika exhibited to the admiring women her platters heaped
with fried chicken, her roasts of beef, boiled tongues, and
baked hams with cloves stuck in the crisp brown fat and garnished
with tansy and parsley. The older women, having
assured themselves that there were twenty kinds of cake,
not counting cookies, and three dozen fat pies, repaired to the
corner behind the pile of watermelons, put on their white
aprons, and fell to their knitting and fancy-work. They were
a fine company of old women, and a Dutch painter would
have loved to find them there together, where the sun made
bright patches on the floor and sent long, quivering shafts of
gold through the dusky shade up among the rafters. There
were fat, rosy old women who looked hot in their best black
dresses; spare, alert old women with brown, dark-veined
hands; and several of almost heroic frame, not less massive
than old Mrs. Ericson herself. Few of them wore glasses,
and old Mrs. Svendsen, a Danish woman, who was quite
bald, wore the only cap among them. Mrs. Oleson, who had
twelve big grandchildren, could still show two braids of yellow
hair as thick as her own wrists. Among all these grandmothers
there were more brown heads than white. They all
had a pleased, prosperous air, as if they were more than satisfied
with themselves and with life. Nils, leaning against
Hilda’s lemonade-stand, watched them as they sat chattering
in four languages, their fingers never lagging behind their
tongues.
“Look at them over there,” he whispered, detaining Clara
as she passed him. “Aren’t they the Old Guard? I’ve just
counted thirty hands. I guess they’ve wrung many a chicken’s
neck and warmed many a boy’s jacket for him in their time.”
In reality he fell into amazement when he thought of the
Herculean labors those fifteen pairs of hands had performed:
of the cows they had milked, the butter they had made, the
gardens they had planted, the children and grandchildren they
had tended, the brooms they had worn out, the mountains of
food they had cooked. It made him dizzy. Clara Vavrika
smiled a hard, enigmatical smile at him and walked rapidly
away. Nils’ eyes followed her white figure as she went toward
the house. He watched her walking alone in the sunlight,
looked at her slender, defiant shoulders and her little hard-set
head with its coils of blue-black hair. “No,” he reflected;
“she’d never be like them, not if she lived here a hundred
years. She’d only grow more bitter. You can’t tame a wild
thing; you can only chain it. People aren’t all alike. I mustn’t
lose my nerve.” He gave Hilda’s pigtail a parting tweak and
set out after Clara. “Where to?” he asked, as he came upon
her in the kitchen.
“I’m going to the cellar for preserves.”
“Let me go with you. I never get a moment alone with
you. Why do you keep out of my way?”
Clara laughed. “I don’t usually get in anybody’s way.”
Nils followed her down the stairs and to the far corner of
the cellar, where a basement window let in a stream of light.
From a swinging shelf Clara selected several glass jars, each
labeled in Johanna’s careful hand. Nils took up a brown flask.
“What’s this? It looks good.”
“It is. It’s some French brandy father gave me when I was
married. Would you like some? Have you a corkscrew? I’ll get
glasses.”
When she brought them, Nils took them from her and put
them down on the window-sill. “Clara Vavrika, do you remember
how crazy I used to be about you?”
Clara shrugged her shoulders. “Boys are always crazy about
somebody or other. I dare say some silly has been crazy about
Evelina Oleson. You got over it in a hurry.”
“Because I didn’t come back, you mean? I had to get on,
you know, and it was hard sledding at first. Then I heard
you’d married Olaf.”
“And then you stayed away from a broken heart,” Clara
laughed.
“And then I began to think about you more than I had
since I first went away. I began to wonder if you were really
as you had seemed to me when I was a boy. I thought I’d like
to see. I’ve had lots of girls, but no one ever pulled me the
same way. The more I thought about you, the more I remembered
how it used to be—like hearing a wild tune you can’t
resist, calling you out at night. It had been a long while since
anything had pulled me out of my boots, and I wondered
whether anything ever could again.” Nils thrust his hands
into his coat pockets and squared his shoulders, as his mother
sometimes squared hers, as Olaf, in a clumsier manner,
squared his. “So I thought I’d come back and see. Of course
the family have tried to do me, and I rather thought I’d bring
out father’s will and make a fuss. But they can have their old
land; they’ve put enough sweat into it.” He took the flask and
filled the two glasses carefully to the brim. “I’ve found out
what I want from the Ericsons. Drink skoal, Clara.” He lifted
his glass, and Clara took hers with downcast eyes. “Look at
me, Clara Vavrika. Skoal!”
She raised her burning eyes and answered fiercely: “Skoal!”
The barn supper began at six o’clock and lasted for two
hilarious hours. Yense Nelson had made a wager that he could
eat two whole fried chickens, and he did. Eli Swanson stowed
away two whole custard pies, and Nick Hermanson ate a
chocolate layer cake to the last crumb. There was even a
cooky contest among the children, and one thin, slablike Bohemian
boy consumed sixteen and won the prize, a ginger-bread
pig which Johanna Vavrika had carefully decorated with
red candies and burnt sugar. Fritz Sweiheart, the German carpenter,
won in the pickle contest, but he disappeared soon
after supper and was not seen for the rest of the evening. Joe
Vavrika said that Fritz could have managed the pickles all
right, but he had sampled the demijohn in his buggy too
often before sitting down to the table.
While the supper was being cleared away the two fiddlers
began to tune up for the dance. Clara was to accompany them
on her old upright piano, which had been brought down
from her father’s. By this time Nils had renewed old acquaintances.
Since his interview with Clara in the cellar, he had
been busy telling all the old women how young they looked,
and all the young ones how pretty they were, and assuring the
men that they had here the best farm-land in the world. He
had made himself so agreeable that old Mrs. Ericson’s friends
began to come up to her and tell how lucky she was to get her
smart son back again, and please to get him to play his flute.
Joe Vavrika, who could still play very well when he forgot that
he had rheumatism, caught up a fiddle from Johnny Oleson
and played a crazy Bohemian dance tune that set the wheels
going. When he dropped the bow every one was ready to
dance.
Olaf, in a frock-coat and a solemn made-up necktie, led the
grand march with his mother. Clara had kept well out of that
by sticking to the piano. She played the march with a pompous
solemnity which greatly amused the prodigal son, who
went over and stood behind her.
“Oh, aren’t you rubbing it into them, Clara Vavrika? And
aren’t you lucky to have me here, or all your wit would be
thrown away.”
“I’m used to being witty for myself. It saves my life.”
The fiddles struck up a polka, and Nils convulsed Joe
Vavrika by leading out Evelina Oleson, the homely school-teacher.
His next partner was a very fat Swedish girl, who,
although she was an heiress, had not been asked for the first
dance, but had stood against the wall in her tight, high-heeled
shoes, nervously fingering a lace handkerchief. She was soon
out of breath, so Nils led her, pleased and panting, to her
seat, and went over to the piano, from which Clara had been
watching his gallantry. “Ask Olena Yenson,” she whispered.
“She waltzes beautifully.”
Olena, too, was rather inconveniently plump, handsome in
a smooth, heavy way, with a fine color and good-natured,
sleepy eyes. She was redolent of violet sachet powder, and
had warm, soft, white hands, but she danced divinely, moving
as smoothly as the tide coming in. “There, that’s something
like,” Nils said as he released her. “You’ll give me the next
waltz, won’t you? Now I must go and dance with my little
cousin.”
Hilda was greatly excited when Nils went up to her stall
and held out his arm. Her little eyes sparkled, but she declared
that she could not leave her lemonade. Old Mrs. Ericson,
who happened along at this moment, said she would
attend to that, and Hilda came out, as pink as her pink dress.
The dance was a schottische, and in a moment her yellow
braids were fairly standing on end. “Bravo!” Nils cried encouragingly.
“Where did you learn to dance so nicely?”
“My Cousin Clara taught me,” the little girl panted.
Nils found Eric sitting with a group of boys who were too
awkward or too shy to dance, and told him that he must
dance the next waltz with Hilda.
The boy screwed up his shoulders. “Aw, Nils, I can’t dance.
My feet are too big; I look silly.”
“Don’t be thinking about yourself. It doesn’t matter how
boys look.”
Nils had never spoken to him so sharply before, and Eric
made haste to scramble out of his corner and brush the straw
from his coat.
Clara nodded approvingly. “Good for you, Nils. I’ve been
trying to get hold of him. They dance very nicely together; I
sometimes play for them.”
“I’m obliged to you for teaching him. There’s no reason
why he should grow up to be a lout.”
“He’ll never be that. He’s more like you than any of them.
Only he hasn’t your courage.” From her slanting eyes Clara
shot forth one of those keen glances, admiring and at the
same time challenging, which she seldom bestowed on any
one, and which seemed to say, “Yes, I admire you, but I am
your equal.”
Clara was proving a much better host than Olaf, who, once
the supper was over, seemed to feel no interest in anything
but the lanterns. He had brought a locomotive headlight
from town to light the revels, and he kept skulking about it as
if he feared the mere light from it might set his new barn on
fire. His wife, on the contrary, was cordial to every one, was
animated and even gay. The deep salmon color in her cheeks
burned vividly, and her eyes were full of life. She gave the
piano over to the fat Swedish heiress, pulled her father away
from the corner where he sat gossiping with his cronies, and
made him dance a Bohemian dance with her. In his youth Joe
had been a famous dancer, and his daughter got him so
limbered up that every one sat round and applauded them.
The old ladies were particularly delighted, and made them
go through the dance again. From their corner where they
watched and commented, the old women kept time with their
feet and hands, and whenever the fiddles struck up a new air
old Mrs. Svendsen’s white cap would begin to bob.
Clara was waltzing with little Eric when Nils came up to
them, brushed his brother aside, and swung her out among
the dancers. “Remember how we used to waltz on rollers at
the old skating-rink in town? I suppose people don’t do that
any more. We used to keep it up for hours. You know, we
never did moon around as other boys and girls did. It was
dead serious with us from the beginning. When we were
most in love with each other, we used to fight. You were
always pinching people; your fingers were like little nippers.
A regular snapping-turtle, you were. Lord, how you’d like
Stockholm! Sit out in the streets in front of cafés and talk all
night in summer. Just like a reception—officers and ladies
and funny English people. Jolliest people in the world, the
Swedes, once you get them going. Always drinking things—champagne
and stout mixed, half-and-half; serve it out of big
pitchers, and serve plenty. Slow pulse, you know; they can
stand a lot. Once they light up, they’re glow-worms, I can tell
you.”
“All the same, you don’t really like gay people.”
“I don’t?”
“No; I could see that when you were looking at the old
women there this afternoon. They’re the kind you really admire,
after all; women like your mother. And that’s the kind
you’ll marry.”
“Is it, Miss Wisdom? You’ll see who I’ll marry, and she
won’t have a domestic virtue to bless herself with. She’ll be a
snapping-turtle, and she’ll be a match for me. All the same,
they’re a fine bunch of old dames over there. You admire
them yourself.”
“No, I don’t; I detest them.”
“You won’t, when you look back on them from Stockholm
or Budapest. Freedom settles all that. Oh, but you’re the real
Bohemian Girl, Clara Vavrika!” Nils laughed down at her sullen
frown and began mockingly to sing:
“Oh, how could a poor gypsy maiden like me
Expect the proud bride of a baron to be?”
Clara clutched his shoulder. “Hush, Nils; every one is looking
at you.”
“I don’t care. They can’t gossip. It’s all in the family, as the
Ericsons say when they divide up little Hilda’s patrimony
amongst them. Besides, we’ll give them something to talk
about when we hit the trail. Lord, it will be a godsend to
them! They haven’t had anything so interesting to chatter
about since the grasshopper year. It’ll give them a new lease
of life. And Olaf won’t lose the Bohemian vote, either.
They’ll have the laugh on him so that they’ll vote two apiece.
They’ll send him to Congress. They’ll never forget his barn
party, or us. They’ll always remember us as we’re dancing
together now. We’re making a legend. Where’s my waltz,
boys?” he called as they whirled past the fiddlers.
The musicians grinned, looked at each other, hesitated, and
began a new air; and Nils sang with them, as the couples fell
from a quick waltz to a long, slow glide:
“When other lips and other hearts
Their tale of love shall tell,
In language whose excess imparts
The power they feel so well,”
The old women applauded vigorously. “What a gay one he
is, that Nils!” And old Mrs. Svendsen’s cap lurched dreamily
from side to side to the flowing measure of the dance.
“Of days that have as ha-a-p-py been,
And you’ll remember me.”
VII
The moonlight flooded that great, silent land. The reaped
fields lay yellow in it. The straw stacks and poplar windbreaks
threw sharp black shadows. The roads were white rivers of
dust. The sky was a deep, crystalline blue, and the stars were
few and faint. Everything seemed to have succumbed, to have
sunk to sleep, under the great, golden, tender, midsummer
moon. The splendor of it seemed to transcend human life and
human fate. The senses were too feeble to take it in, and every
time one looked up at the sky one felt unequal to it, as if one
were sitting deaf under the waves of a great river of melody.
Near the road, Nils Ericson was lying against a straw stack in
Olaf’s wheat-field. His own life seemed strange and unfamiliar
to him, as if it were something he had read about, or
dreamed, and forgotten. He lay very still, watching the white
road that ran in front of him, lost itself among the fields, and
then, at a distance, reappeared over a little hill. At last, against
this white band he saw something moving rapidly, and he got
up and walked to the edge of the field. “She is passing the
row of poplars now,” he thought. He heard the padded beat
of hoofs along the dusty road, and as she came into sight he
stepped out and waved his arms. Then, for fear of frightening
the horse, he drew back and waited. Clara had seen him, and
she came up at a walk. Nils took the horse by the bit and
stroked his neck.
“What are you doing out so late, Clara Vavrika? I went
to the house, but Johanna told me you had gone to your
father’s.”
“Who can stay in the house on a night like this? Aren’t you
out yourself?”
“Ah, but that’s another matter.”
Nils turned the horse into the field.
“What are you doing? Where are you taking Norman?”
“Not far, but I want to talk to you to-night; I have something
to say to you. I can’t talk to you at the house, with Olaf
sitting there on the porch, weighing a thousand tons.”
Clara laughed. “He won’t be sitting there now. He’s in bed
by this time, and asleep—weighing a thousand tons.”
Nils plodded on across the stubble. “Are you really going
to spend the rest of your life like this, night after night, summer
after summer? Haven’t you anything better to do on a
night like this than to wear yourself and Norman out tearing
across the country to your father’s and back? Besides, your
father won’t live forever, you know. His little place will be
shut up or sold, and then you’ll have nobody but the Ericsons.
You’ll have to fasten down the hatches for the winter
then.”
Clara moved her head restlessly. “Don’t talk about that. I
try never to think of it. If I lost father I’d lose everything,
even my hold over the Ericsons.”
“Bah! You’d lose a good deal more than that. You’d lose
your race, everything that makes you yourself. You’ve lost a
good deal of it now.”
“Of what?”
“Of your love of life, your capacity for delight.”
Clara put her hands up to her face. “I haven’t, Nils Ericson,
I haven’t! Say anything to me but that. I won’t have it!” she
declared vehemently.
Nils led the horse up to a straw stack, and turned to Clara,
looking at her intently, as he had looked at her that
Sunday afternoon at Vavrika’s. “But why do you fight for that
so? What good is the power to enjoy, if you never enjoy?
Your hands are cold again; what are you afraid of all the time?
Ah, you’re afraid of losing it; that’s what’s the matter with
you! And you will, Clara Vavrika, you will! When I used to
know you—listen; you’ve caught a wild bird in your hand,
haven’t you, and felt its heart beat so hard that you were
afraid it would shatter its little body to pieces? Well, you used
to be just like that, a slender, eager thing with a wild delight
inside you. That is how I remembered you. And I come back
and find you—a bitter woman. This is a perfect ferret fight
here; you live by biting and being bitten. Can’t you remember
what life used to be? Can’t you remember that old delight?
I’ve never forgotten it, or known its like, on land or
sea.”
He drew the horse under the shadow of the straw stack.
Clara felt him take her foot out of the stirrup, and she slid
softly down into his arms. He kissed her slowly. He was a
deliberate man, but his nerves were steel when he wanted
anything. Something flashed out from him like a knife out of
a sheath. Clara felt everything slipping away from her; she
was flooded by the summer night. He thrust his hand into his
pocket, and then held it out at arm’s length. “Look,” he said.
The shadow of the straw stack fell sharp across his wrist, and
in the palm of his hand she saw a silver dollar shining.
“That’s my pile,” he muttered; “will you go with me?”
Clara nodded, and dropped her forehead on his shoulder.
Nils took a deep breath. “Will you go with me to-night?”
“Where?” she whispered softly.
“To town, to catch the midnight flyer.”
Clara lifted her head and pulled herself together. “Are you
crazy, Nils? We couldn’t go away like that.”
“That’s the only way we ever will go. You can’t sit on the
bank and think about it. You have to plunge. That’s the way
I’ve always done, and it’s the right way for people like you
and me. There’s nothing so dangerous as sitting still. You’ve
only got one life, one youth, and you can let it slip through
your fingers if you want to; nothing easier. Most people do
that. You’d be better off tramping the roads with me than you
are here.” Nils held back her head and looked into her eyes.
“But I’m not that kind of a tramp, Clara. You won’t have to
take in sewing. I’m with a Norwegian shipping line; came
over on business with the New York offices, but now I’m going
straight back to Bergen. I expect I’ve got as much money
as the Ericsons. Father sent me a little to get started. They
never knew about that. There, I hadn’t meant to tell you; I
wanted you to come on your own nerve.”
Clara looked off across the fields. “It isn’t that, Nils, but
something seems to hold me. I’m afraid to pull against it. It
comes out of the ground, I think.”
“I know all about that. One has to tear loose. You’re not
needed here. Your father will understand; he’s made like us.
As for Olaf, Johanna will take better care of him than ever you
could. It’s now or never, Clara Vavrika. My bag’s at the station;
I smuggled it there yesterday.”
Clara clung to him and hid her face against his shoulder.
“Not to-night,” she whispered. “Sit here and talk to me to-night.
I don’t want to go anywhere to-night. I may never love
you like this again.”
Nils laughed through his teeth. “You can’t come that on
me. That’s not my way, Clara Vavrika. Eric’s mare is over
there behind the stacks, and I’m off on the midnight. It’s
good-by, or off across the world with me. My carriage won’t
wait. I’ve written a letter to Olaf; I’ll mail it in town. When
he reads it he won’t bother us—not if I know him. He’d
rather have the land. Besides, I could demand an investigation
of his administration of Cousin Henrik’s estate, and that
would be bad for a public man. You’ve no clothes, I know;
but you can sit up to-night, and we can get everything on the
way. Where’s your old dash, Clara Vavrika? What’s become of
your Bohemian blood? I used to think you had courage
enough for anything. Where’s your nerve—what are you
waiting for?”
Clara drew back her head, and he saw the slumberous fire
in her eyes. “For you to say one thing, Nils Ericson.”
“I never say that thing to any woman, Clara Vavrika.” He
leaned back, lifted her gently from the ground, and whispered
through his teeth: “But I’ll never, never let you go, not to any
man on earth but me! Do you understand me? Now, wait
here.”
Clara sank down on a sheaf of wheat and covered her face
with her hands. She did not know what she was going to
do—whether she would go or stay. The great, silent country
seemed to lay a spell upon her. The ground seemed to hold
her as if by roots. Her knees were soft under her. She felt as if
she could not bear separation from her old sorrows, from her
old discontent. They were dear to her, they had kept her alive,
they were a part of her. There would be nothing left of her if
she were wrenched away from them. Never could she pass
beyond that sky-line against which her restlessness had beat so
many times. She felt as if her soul had built itself a nest there
on that horizon at which she looked every morning and every
evening, and it was dear to her, inexpressibly dear. She
pressed her fingers against her eyeballs to shut it out. Beside
her she heard the tramping of horses in the soft earth. Nils
said nothing to her. He put his hands under her arms and
lifted her lightly to her saddle. Then he swung himself into
his own.
“We shall have to ride fast to catch the midnight train. A
last gallop, Clara Vavrika. Forward!”
There was a start, a thud of hoofs along the moonlit road,
two dark shadows going over the hill; and then the great, still
land stretched untroubled under the azure night. Two shadows
had passed.
VIII
A year after the flight of Olaf Ericson’s wife, the night train
was steaming across the plains of Iowa. The conductor was
hurrying through one of the day-coaches, his lantern on his
arm, when a lank, fair-haired boy sat up in one of the plush
seats and tweaked him by the coat.
“What is the next stop, please, sir?”
“Red Oak, Iowa. But you go through to Chicago, don’t
you?” He looked down, and noticed that the boy’s eyes were
red and his face was drawn, as if he were in trouble.
“Yes. But I was wondering whether I could get off at the
next place and get a train back to Omaha.”
“Well, I suppose you could. Live in Omaha?”
“No. In the western part of the State. How soon do we get
to Red Oak?”
“Forty minutes. You’d better make up your mind, so I can
tell the baggageman to put your trunk off.”
“Oh, never mind about that! I mean, I haven’t got any,”
the boy added, blushing.
“Run away,” the conductor thought, as he slammed the
coach door behind him.
Eric Ericson crumpled down in his seat and put his brown
hand to his forehead. He had been crying, and he had had no
supper, and his head was aching violently. “Oh, what shall I
do?” he thought, as he looked dully down at his big shoes.
“Nils will be ashamed of me; I haven’t got any spunk.”
Ever since Nils had run away with his brother’s wife, life at
home had been hard for little Eric. His mother and Olaf both
suspected him of complicity. Mrs. Ericson was harsh and
fault-finding, constantly wounding the boy’s pride; and Olaf
was always getting her against him.
Joe Vavrika heard often from his daughter. Clara had always
been fond of her father, and happiness made her kinder. She
wrote him long accounts of the voyage to Bergen, and of the
trip she and Nils took through Bohemia to the little town
where her father had grown up and where she herself was
born. She visited all her kinsmen there, and sent her father
news of his brother, who was a priest; of his sister, who had
married a horse-breeder—of their big farm and their many
children. These letters Joe always managed to read to little
Eric. They contained messages for Eric and Hilda. Clara sent
presents, too, which Eric never dared to take home and which
poor little Hilda never even saw, though she loved to hear
Eric tell about them when they were out getting the eggs
together. But Olaf once saw Eric coming out of Vavrika’s
house,—the old man had never asked the boy to come into
his saloon,—and Olaf went straight to his mother and told
her. That night Mrs. Ericson came to Eric’s room after he was
in bed and made a terrible scene. She could be very terrifying
when she was really angry. She forbade him ever to speak to
Vavrika again, and after that night she would not allow him
to go to town alone. So it was a long while before Eric got
any more news of his brother. But old Joe suspected what was
going on, and he carried Clara’s letters about in his pocket.
One Sunday he drove out to see a German friend of his, and
chanced to catch sight of Eric, sitting by the cattle-pond in
the big pasture. They went together into Fritz Oberlies’ barn,
and read the letters and talked things over. Eric admitted that
things were getting hard for him at home. That very night old
Joe sat down and laboriously penned a statement of the case
to his daughter.
Things got no better for Eric. His mother and Olaf felt
that, however closely he was watched, he still, as they said,
“heard.” Mrs. Ericson could not admit neutrality. She had
sent Johanna Vavrika packing back to her brother’s, though
Olaf would much rather have kept her than Anders’ eldest
daughter, whom Mrs. Ericson installed in her place. He was
not so high-handed as his mother, and he once sulkily told
her that she might better have taught her granddaughter to
cook before she sent Johanna away. Olaf could have borne a
good deal for the sake of prunes spiced in honey, the secret of
which Johanna had taken away with her.
At last two letters came to Joe Vavrika: one from Nils, inclosing
a postal order for money to pay Eric’s passage to Bergen,
and one from Clara, saying that Nils had a place for Eric
in the offices of his company, that he was to live with them,
and that they were only waiting for him to come. He was to
leave New York on one of the boats of Nils’ own line; the
captain was one of their friends, and Eric was to make himself
known at once.
Nils’ directions were so explicit that a baby could have followed
them, Eric felt. And here he was, nearing Red Oak,
Iowa, and rocking backward and forward in despair. Never
had he loved his brother so much, and never had the big
world called to him so hard. But there was a lump in his
throat which would not go down. Ever since nightfall he had
been tormented by the thought of his mother, alone in that
big house that had sent forth so many men. Her unkindness
now seemed so little, and her loneliness so great. He remembered
everything she had ever done for him: how frightened
she had been when he tore his hand in the corn-sheller, and
how she wouldn’t let Olaf scold him. When Nils went away
he didn’t leave his mother all alone, or he would never have
gone. Eric felt sure of that.
The train whistled. The conductor came in, smiling not unkindly.
“Well, young man, what are you going to do? We stop
at Red Oak in three minutes.”
“Yes, thank you. I’ll let you know.” The conductor went
out, and the boy doubled up with misery. He couldn’t let his
one chance go like this. He felt for his breast pocket and
crackled Nils’ kind letter to give him courage. He didn’t want
Nils to be ashamed of him. The train stopped. Suddenly he
remembered his brother’s kind, twinkling eyes, that always
looked at you as if from far away. The lump in his throat
softened. “Ah, but Nils, Nils would understand!” he thought.
“That’s just it about Nils; he always understands.”
A lank, pale boy with a canvas telescope stumbled off the
train to the Red Oak siding, just as the conductor called, “All
aboard!”
The next night Mrs. Ericson was sitting alone in her
wooden rocking-chair on the front porch. Little Hilda had
been sent to bed and had cried herself to sleep. The old woman’s
knitting was in her lap, but her hands lay motionless on
top of it. For more than an hour she had not moved a muscle.
She simply sat, as only the Ericsons and the mountains can
sit. The house was dark, and there was no sound but the
croaking of the frogs down in the pond of the little pasture.
Eric did not come home by the road, but across the fields,
where no one could see him. He set his telescope down softly
in the kitchen shed, and slipped noiselessly along the path to
the front porch. He sat down on the step without saying anything.
Mrs. Ericson made no sign, and the frogs croaked on.
At last the boy spoke timidly.
“I’ve come back, Mother.”
“Very well,” said Mrs. Ericson.
Eric leaned over and picked up a little stick out of the grass.
“How about the milking?” he faltered.
“That’s been done, hours ago.”
“Who did you get?”
“Get? I did it myself. I can milk as good as any of you.”
Eric slid along the step nearer to her. “Oh, Mother, why
did you?” he asked sorrowfully. “Why didn’t you get one of
Otto’s boys?”
“I didn’t want anybody to know I was in need of a boy,”
said Mrs. Ericson bitterly. She looked straight in front of her
and her mouth tightened. “I always meant to give you the
home farm,” she added.
The boy started and slid closer. “Oh, Mother,” he faltered,
“I don’t care about the farm. I came back because I thought
you might be needing me, maybe.” He hung his head and got
no further.
“Very well,” said Mrs. Ericson. Her hand went out from
her suddenly and rested on his head. Her fingers twined
themselves in his soft, pale hair. His tears splashed down on
the boards; happiness filled his heart.
McClure’s, August 1912
Consequences ToC
Henry Eastman, a lawyer, aged forty, was standing beside
the Flatiron building in a driving November rainstorm,
signaling frantically for a taxi. It was six-thirty, and
everything on wheels was engaged. The streets were in confusion
about him, the sky was in turmoil above him, and the
Flatiron building, which seemed about to blow down, threw
water like a mill-shoot. Suddenly, out of the brutal struggle of
men and cars and machines and people tilting at each other
with umbrellas, a quiet, well-mannered limousine paused before
him, at the curb, and an agreeable, ruddy countenance
confronted him through the open window of the car.
“Don’t you want me to pick you up, Mr. Eastman? I’m
running directly home now.”
Eastman recognized Kier Cavenaugh, a young man of pleasure,
who lived in the house on Central Park South, where he
himself had an apartment.
“Don’t I?” he exclaimed, bolting into the car. “I’ll risk getting
your cushions wet without compunction. I came up in a
taxi, but I didn’t hold it. Bad economy. I thought I saw your
car down on Fourteenth Street about half an hour ago.”
The owner of the car smiled. He had a pleasant, round face
and round eyes, and a fringe of smooth, yellow hair showed
under the rim of his soft felt hat. “With a lot of little broilers
fluttering into it? You did. I know some girls who work in the
cheap shops down there. I happened to be down-town and I
stopped and took a load of them home. I do sometimes.
Saves their poor little clothes, you know. Their shoes are
never any good.”
Eastman looked at his rescuer. “Aren’t they notoriously
afraid of cars and smooth young men?” he inquired.
Cavenaugh shook his head. “They know which cars are safe
and which are chancy. They put each other wise. You have to
take a bunch at a time, of course. The Italian girls can never
come along; their men shoot. The girls understand, all right;
but their fathers don’t. One gets to see queer places, sometimes,
taking them home.”
Eastman laughed drily. “Every time I touch the circle of
your acquaintance, Cavenaugh, it’s a little wider. You must
know New York pretty well by this time.”
“Yes, but I’m on my good behavior below Twenty-third
Street,” the young man replied with simplicity. “My little
friends down there would give me a good character. They’re
wise little girls. They have grand ways with each other, a romantic
code of loyalty. You can find a good many of the lost
virtues among them.”
The car was standing still in a traffic block at Fortieth
Street, when Cavenaugh suddenly drew his face away from
the window and touched Eastman’s arm. “Look, please. You
see that hansom with the bony gray horse—driver has a broken
hat and red flannel around his throat. Can you see who is
inside?”
Eastman peered out. The hansom was just cutting across
the line, and the driver was making a great fuss about it, bobbing
his head and waving his whip. He jerked his dripping
old horse into Fortieth Street and clattered off past the Public
Library grounds toward Sixth Avenue. “No, I couldn’t see the
passenger. Someone you know?”
“Could you see whether there was a passenger?” Cavenaugh
asked.
“Why, yes. A man, I think. I saw his elbow on the apron.
No driver ever behaves like that unless he has a passenger.”
“Yes, I may have been mistaken,” Cavenaugh murmured
absent-mindedly. Ten minutes or so later, after Cavenaugh’s
car had turned off Fifth Avenue into Fifty-eighth Street, Eastman
exclaimed, “There’s your same cabby, and his cart’s
empty. He’s headed for a drink now, I suppose.” The driver
in the broken hat and the red flannel neck cloth was still brandishing
the whip over his old gray. He was coming from the
west now, and turned down Sixth Avenue, under the elevated.
Cavenaugh’s car stopped at the bachelor apartment house
between Sixth and Seventh Avenues where he and Eastman
lived, and they went up in the elevator together. They were
still talking when the lift stopped at Cavenaugh’s floor, and
Eastman stepped out with him and walked down the hall,
finishing his sentence while Cavenaugh found his latch-key.
When he opened the door, a wave of fresh cigarette smoke
greeted them. Cavenaugh stopped short and stared into his
hallway. “Now how in the devil—!” he exclaimed angrily.
“Someone waiting for you? Oh, no, thanks. I wasn’t coming
in. I have to work to-night. Thank you, but I couldn’t.”
Eastman nodded and went up the two flights to his own
rooms.
Though Eastman did not customarily keep a servant he had
this winter a man who had been lent to him by a friend who
was abroad. Rollins met him at the door and took his coat
and hat.
“Put out my dinner clothes, Rollins, and then get out of
here until ten o’clock. I’ve promised to go to a supper to-night.
I shan’t be dining. I’ve had a late tea and I’m going to
work until ten. You may put out some kumiss and biscuit for
me.”
Rollins took himself off, and Eastman settled down at the
big table in his sitting-room. He had to read a lot of letters
submitted as evidence in a breach of contract case, and before
he got very far he found that long paragraphs in some of the
letters were written in German. He had a German dictionary
at his office, but none here. Rollins had gone, and anyhow,
the bookstores would be closed. He remembered having seen
a row of dictionaries on the lower shelf of one of Cavenaugh’s
bookcases. Cavenaugh had a lot of books, though he never
read anything but new stuff. Eastman prudently turned down
his student’s lamp very low—the thing had an evil habit of
smoking—and went down two flights to Cavenaugh’s door.
The young man himself answered Eastman’s ring. He was
freshly dressed for the evening, except for a brown smoking
jacket, and his yellow hair had been brushed until it shone.
He hesitated as he confronted his caller, still holding the door
knob, and his round eyes and smooth forehead made their
best imitation of a frown. When Eastman began to apologize,
Cavenaugh’s manner suddenly changed. He caught his arm
and jerked him into the narrow hall. “Come in, come in.
Right along!” he said excitedly. “Right along,” he repeated as
he pushed Eastman before him into his sitting-room. “Well
I’ll—” he stopped short at the door and looked about his
own room with an air of complete mystification. The back
window was wide open and a strong wind was blowing in.
Cavenaugh walked over to the window and stuck out his
head, looking up and down the fire escape. When he pulled
his head in, he drew down the sash.
“I had a visitor I wanted you to see,” he explained with a
nervous smile. “At least I thought I had. He must have gone
out that way,” nodding toward the window.
“Call him back. I only came to borrow a German dictionary,
if you have one. Can’t stay. Call him back.”
Cavenaugh shook his head despondently. “No use. He’s
beat it. Nowhere in sight.”
“He must be active. Has he left something?” Eastman
pointed to a very dirty white glove that lay on the floor under
the window.
“Yes, that’s his.” Cavenaugh reached for his tongs, picked
up the glove, and tossed it into the grate, where it quickly
shriveled on the coals. Eastman felt that he had happened in
upon something disagreeable, possibly something shady, and
he wanted to get away at once. Cavenaugh stood staring at
the fire and seemed stupid and dazed; so he repeated his
request rather sternly, “I think I’ve seen a German dictionary
down there among your books. May I have it?”
Cavenaugh blinked at him. “A German dictionary? Oh,
possibly! Those were my father’s. I scarcely know what there
is.” He put down the tongs and began to wipe his hands
nervously with his handkerchief.
Eastman went over to the bookcase behind the Chesterfield,
opened the door, swooped upon the book he wanted
and stuck it under his arm. He felt perfectly certain now that
something shady had been going on in Cavenaugh’s rooms,
and he saw no reason why he should come in for any hang-over.
“Thanks. I’ll send it back to-morrow,” he said curtly as
he made for the door.
Cavenaugh followed him. “Wait a moment. I wanted you
to see him. You did see his glove,” glancing at the grate.
Eastman laughed disagreeably. “I saw a glove. That’s not
evidence. Do your friends often use that means of exit? Somewhat
inconvenient.”
Cavenaugh gave him a startled glance. “Wouldn’t you think
so? For an old man, a very rickety old party? The ladders are
steep, you know, and rusty.” He approached the window
again and put it up softly. In a moment he drew his head back
with a jerk. He caught Eastman’s arm and shoved him toward
the window. “Hurry, please. Look! Down there.” He pointed
to the little patch of paved court four flights down.
The square of pavement was so small and the walls about it
were so high, that it was a good deal like looking down a
well. Four tall buildings backed upon the same court and
made a kind of shaft, with flagstones at the bottom, and at
the top a square of dark blue with some stars in it. At the
bottom of the shaft Eastman saw a black figure, a man in a
caped coat and a tall hat stealing cautiously around, not across
the square of pavement, keeping close to the dark wall and
avoiding the streak of light that fell on the flagstones from a
window in the opposite house. Seen from that height he was
of course fore-shortened and probably looked more shambling
and decrepit than he was. He picked his way along with
exaggerated care and looked like a silly old cat crossing a wet
street. When he reached the gate that led into an alley way
between two buildings, he felt about for the latch, opened the
door a mere crack, and then shot out under the feeble lamp
that burned in the brick arch over the gateway. The door
closed after him.
“He’ll get run in,” Eastman remarked curtly, turning away
from the window. “That door shouldn’t be left unlocked.
Any crook could come in. I’ll speak to the janitor about it, if
you don’t mind,” he added sarcastically.
“Wish you would.” Cavenaugh stood brushing down the
front of his jacket, first with his right hand and then with his
left. “You saw him, didn’t you?”
“Enough of him. Seems eccentric. I have to see a lot of
buggy people. They don’t take me in any more. But I’m keeping
you and I’m in a hurry myself. Good night.”
Cavenaugh put out his hand detainingly and started to say
something; but Eastman rudely turned his back and went
down the hall and out of the door. He had never felt anything
shady about Cavenaugh before, and he was sorry he had gone
down for the dictionary. In five minutes he was deep in his
papers; but in the half hour when he was loafing before he
dressed to go out, the young man’s curious behavior came
into his mind again.
Eastman had merely a neighborly acquaintance with Cavenaugh.
He had been to a supper at the young man’s rooms
once, but he didn’t particularly like Cavenaugh’s friends; so
the next time he was asked, he had another engagement. He
liked Cavenaugh himself, if for nothing else than because he
was so cheerful and trim and ruddy. A good complexion is
always at a premium in New York, especially when it shines
reassuringly on a man who does everything in the world to
lose it. It encourages fellow mortals as to the inherent vigor
of the human organism and the amount of bad treatment it
will stand for. “Footprints that perhaps another,” etc.
Cavenaugh, he knew, had plenty of money. He was the son
of a Pennsylvania preacher, who died soon after he discovered
that his ancestral acres were full of petroleum, and Kier had
come to New York to burn some of the oil. He was thirty-two
and was still at it; spent his life, literally, among the breakers.
His motor hit the Park every morning as if it were the first
time ever. He took people out to supper every night. He
went from restaurant to restaurant, sometimes to half-a-dozen
in an evening. The head waiters were his hosts and their cordiality
made him happy. They made a life-line for him up
Broadway and down Fifth Avenue. Cavenaugh was still fresh
and smooth, round and plump, with a lustre to his hair and
white teeth and a clear look in his round eyes. He seemed
absolutely unwearied and unimpaired; never bored and never
carried away.
Eastman always smiled when he met Cavenaugh in the
entrance hall, serenely going forth to or returning from gladiatorial
combats with joy, or when he saw him rolling
smoothly up to the door in his car in the morning after a
restful night in one of the remarkable new roadhouses he was
always finding. Eastman had seen a good many young men
disappear on Cavenaugh’s route, and he admired this young
man’s endurance.
To-night, for the first time, he had got a whiff of something
unwholesome about the fellow—bad nerves, bad company,
something on hand that he was ashamed of, a visitor old and
vicious, who must have had a key to Cavenaugh’s apartment,
for he was evidently there when Cavenaugh returned at seven
o’clock. Probably it was the same man Cavenaugh had seen in
the hansom. He must have been able to let himself in, for
Cavenaugh kept no man but his chauffeur; or perhaps the
janitor had been instructed to let him in. In either case, and
whoever he was, it was clear enough that Cavenaugh was
ashamed of him and was mixing up in questionable business
of some kind.
Eastman sent Cavenaugh’s book back by Rollins, and for
the next few weeks he had no word with him beyond a casual
greeting when they happened to meet in the hall or the elevator.
One Sunday morning Cavenaugh telephoned up to him
to ask if he could motor out to a roadhouse in Connecticut
that afternoon and have supper; but when Eastman found
there were to be other guests he declined.
On New Year’s eve Eastman dined at the University Club
at six o’clock and hurried home before the usual manifestations
of insanity had begun in the streets. When Rollins
brought his smoking coat, he asked him whether he wouldn’t
like to get off early.
“Yes, sir. But won’t you be dressing, Mr. Eastman?” he inquired.
“Not to-night.” Eastman handed him a bill. “Bring some
change in the morning. There’ll be fees.”
Rollins lost no time in putting everything to rights for the
night, and Eastman couldn’t help wishing that he were in
such a hurry to be off somewhere himself. When he heard the
hall door close softly, he wondered if there were any place,
after all, that he wanted to go. From his window he looked
down at the long lines of motors and taxis waiting for a signal
to cross Broadway. He thought of some of their probable
destinations and decided that none of those places pulled him
very hard. The night was warm and wet, the air was drizzly.
Vapor hung in clouds about the Times Building, half hid the
top of it, and made a luminous haze along Broadway. While
he was looking down at the army of wet, black carriage-tops
and their reflected headlights and tail-lights, Eastman heard a
ring at his door. He deliberated. If it were a caller, the hall
porter would have telephoned up. It must be the janitor.
When he opened the door, there stood a rosy young man in a
tuxedo, without a coat or hat.
“Pardon. Should I have telephoned? I half thought you
wouldn’t be in.”
Eastman laughed. “Come in, Cavenaugh. You weren’t sure
whether you wanted company or not, eh, and you were trying
to let chance decide it? That was exactly my state of mind.
Let’s accept the verdict.” When they emerged from the narrow
hall into his sitting-room, he pointed out a seat by the
fire to his guest. He brought a tray of decanters and soda
bottles and placed it on his writing table.
Cavenaugh hesitated, standing by the fire. “Sure you
weren’t starting for somewhere?”
“Do I look it? No, I was just making up my mind to stick it
out alone when you rang. Have one?” he picked up a tall
tumbler.
“Yes, thank you. I always do.”
Eastman chuckled. “Lucky boy! So will I. I had a very early
dinner. New York is the most arid place on holidays,” he continued
as he rattled the ice in the glasses. “When one gets too
old to hit the rapids down there, and tired of gobbling food
to heathenish dance music, there is absolutely no place where
you can get a chop and some milk toast in peace, unless you
have strong ties of blood brotherhood on upper Fifth Avenue.
But you, why aren’t you starting for somewhere?”
The young man sipped his soda and shook his head as he
replied:
“Oh, I couldn’t get a chop, either. I know only flashy people,
of course.” He looked up at his host with such a grave
and candid expression that Eastman decided there couldn’t be
anything very crooked about the fellow. His smooth cheeks
were positively cherubic.
“Well, what’s the matter with them? Aren’t they flashing
to-night?”
“Only the very new ones seem to flash on New Year’s eve.
The older ones fade away. Maybe they are hunting a chop,
too.”
“Well”—Eastman sat down—“holidays do dash one. I was
just about to write a letter to a pair of maiden aunts in my old
home town, up-state; old coasting hill, snow-covered pines,
lights in the church windows. That’s what you’ve saved me
from.”
Cavenaugh shook himself. “Oh, I’m sure that wouldn’t
have been good for you. Pardon me,” he rose and took a
photograph from the bookcase, a handsome man in shooting
clothes. “Dudley, isn’t it? Did you know him well?”
“Yes. An old friend. Terrible thing, wasn’t it? I haven’t got
over the jolt yet.”
“His suicide? Yes, terrible! Did you know his wife?”
“Slightly. Well enough to admire her very much. She must
be terribly broken up. I wonder Dudley didn’t think of that.”
Cavenaugh replaced the photograph carefully, lit a cigarette,
and standing before the fire began to smoke. “Would
you mind telling me about him? I never met him, but of
course I’d read a lot about him, and I can’t help feeling interested.
It was a queer thing.”
Eastman took out his cigar case and leaned back in his deep
chair. “In the days when I knew him best he hadn’t any story,
like the happy nations. Everything was properly arranged for
him before he was born. He came into the world happy,
healthy, clever, straight, with the right sort of connections
and the right kind of fortune, neither too large nor too small.
He helped to make the world an agreeable place to live in
until he was twenty-six. Then he married as he should have
married. His wife was a Californian, educated abroad. Beautiful.
You have seen her picture?”
Cavenaugh nodded. “Oh, many of them.”
“She was interesting, too. Though she was distinctly a person
of the world, she had retained something, just enough of
the large Western manner. She had the habit of authority, of
calling out a special train if she needed it, of using all our
ingenious mechanical contrivances lightly and easily, without
over-rating them. She and Dudley knew how to live better
than most people. Their house was the most charming one I
have ever known in New York. You felt freedom there, and a
zest of life, and safety—absolute sanctuary—from everything
sordid or petty. A whole society like that would justify the
creation of man and would make our planet shine with a soft,
peculiar radiance among the constellations. You think I’m
putting it on thick?”
The young man sighed gently. “Oh, no! One has always
felt there must be people like that. I’ve never known any.”
“They had two children, beautiful ones. After they had
been married for eight years, Rosina met this Spaniard. He
must have amounted to something. She wasn’t a flighty
woman. She came home and told Dudley how matters stood.
He persuaded her to stay at home for six months and try to
pull up. They were both fair-minded people, and I’m as sure
as if I were the Almighty, that she did try. But at the end of
the time, Rosina went quietly off to Spain, and Dudley went
to hunt in the Canadian Rockies. I met his party out there. I
didn’t know his wife had left him and talked about her a good
deal. I noticed that he never drank anything, and his light
used to shine through the log chinks of his room until all
hours, even after a hard day’s hunting. When I got back to
New York, rumors were creeping about. Dudley did not come
back. He bought a ranch in Wyoming, built a big log house
and kept splendid dogs and horses. One of his sisters went
out to keep house for him, and the children were there when
they were not in school. He had a great many visitors, and
everyone who came back talked about how well Dudley kept
things going.
“He put in two years out there. Then, last month, he had
to come back on business. A trust fund had to be settled up,
and he was administrator. I saw him at the club; same light,
quick step, same gracious handshake. He was getting gray,
and there was something softer in his manner; but he had a
fine red tan on his face and said he found it delightful to be
here in the season when everything is going hard. The Madison
Avenue house had been closed since Rosina left it. He
went there to get some things his sister wanted. That, of
course, was the mistake. He went alone, in the afternoon, and
didn’t go out for dinner—found some sherry and tins of biscuit
in the sideboard. He shot himself sometime that night.
There were pistols in his smoking-room. They found burnt
out candles beside him in the morning. The gas and electricity
were shut off. I suppose there, in his own house, among his
own things, it was too much for him. He left no letters.”
Cavenaugh blinked and brushed the lapel of his coat. “I
suppose,” he said slowly, “that every suicide is logical and
reasonable, if one knew all the facts.”
Eastman roused himself. “No, I don’t think so. I’ve known
too many fellows who went off like that—more than I deserve,
I think—and some of them were absolutely inexplicable.
I can understand Dudley; but I can’t see why healthy
bachelors, with money enough, like ourselves, need such a
device. It reminds me of what Dr. Johnson said, that the most
discouraging thing about life is the number of fads and hobbies
and fake religions it takes to put people through a few
years of it.”
“Dr. Johnson? The specialist? Oh, the old fellow!” said
Cavenaugh imperturbably. “Yes, that’s interesting. Still, I
fancy if one knew the facts—Did you know about Wyatt?”
“I don’t think so.”
“You wouldn’t, probably. He was just a fellow about town
who spent money. He wasn’t one of the forestieri, though.
Had connections here and owned a fine old place over on
Staten Island. He went in for botany, and had been all over,
hunting things; rusts, I believe. He had a yacht and used to
take a gay crowd down about the South Seas, botanizing. He
really did botanize, I believe. I never knew such a spender—only
not flashy. He helped a lot of fellows and he was awfully
good to girls, the kind who come down here to get a little
fun, who don’t like to work and still aren’t really tough, the
kind you see talking hard for their dinner. Nobody knows
what becomes of them, or what they get out of it, and there
are hundreds of new ones every year. He helped dozens of
’em; it was he who got me curious about the little shop girls.
Well, one afternoon when his tea was brought, he took prussic
acid instead. He didn’t leave any letters, either; people of
any taste don’t. They wouldn’t leave any material reminder if
they could help it. His lawyers found that he had just $314.72
above his debts when he died. He had planned to spend all
his money, and then take his tea; he had worked it out carefully.”
Eastman reached for his pipe and pushed his chair away
from the fire. “That looks like a considered case, but I don’t
think philosophical suicides like that are common. I think
they usually come from stress of feeling and are really, as the
newspapers call them, desperate acts; done without a motive.
You remember when Anna Karenina was under the wheels,
she kept saying, ‘Why am I here?’”
Cavenaugh rubbed his upper lip with his pink finger and
made an effort to wrinkle his brows. “May I, please?” reaching
for the whiskey. “But have you,” he asked, blinking as the
soda flew at him, “have you ever known, yourself, cases that
were really inexplicable?”
“A few too many. I was in Washington just before Captain
Jack Purden was married and I saw a good deal of him. Popular
army man, fine record in the Philippines, married a
charming girl with lots of money; mutual devotion. It was the
gayest wedding of the winter, and they started for Japan.
They stopped in San Francisco for a week and missed their
boat because, as the bride wrote back to Washington, they
were too happy to move. They took the next boat, were both
good sailors, had exceptional weather. After they had been
out for two weeks, Jack got up from his deck chair one afternoon,
yawned, put down his book, and stood before his wife.
‘Stop reading for a moment and look at me.’ She laughed and
asked him why. ‘Because you happen to be good to look at.’
He nodded to her, went back to the stern and was never seen
again. Must have gone down to the lower deck and slipped
overboard, behind the machinery. It was the luncheon hour,
not many people about; steamer cutting through a soft green
sea. That’s one of the most baffling cases I know. His friends
raked up his past, and it was as trim as a cottage garden. If
he’d so much as dropped an ink spot on his fatigue uniform,
they’d have found it. He wasn’t emotional or moody; wasn’t,
indeed, very interesting; simply a good soldier, fond of all the
pompous little formalities that make up a military man’s life.
What do you make of that, my boy?”
Cavenaugh stroked his chin. “It’s very puzzling, I admit.
Still, if one knew everything——”
“But we do know everything. His friends wanted to find
something to help them out, to help the girl out, to help the
case of the human creature.”
“Oh, I don’t mean things that people could unearth,” said
Cavenaugh uneasily. “But possibly there were things that
couldn’t be found out.”
Eastman shrugged his shoulders. “It’s my experience that
when there are ‘things’ as you call them, they’re very apt to be
found. There is no such thing as a secret. To make any move
at all one has to employ human agencies, employ at least one
human agent. Even when the pirates killed the men who buried
their gold for them, the bones told the story.”
Cavenaugh rubbed his hands together and smiled his sunny
smile.
“I like that idea. It’s reassuring. If we can have no secrets, it
means that we can’t, after all, go so far afield as we might,” he
hesitated, “yes, as we might.”
Eastman looked at him sourly. “Cavenaugh, when you’ve
practised law in New York for twelve years, you find that people
can’t go far in any direction, except—” He thrust his forefinger
sharply at the floor. “Even in that direction, few people
can do anything out of the ordinary. Our range is limited.
Skip a few baths, and we become personally objectionable.
The slightest carelessness can rot a man’s integrity or give him
ptomaine poisoning. We keep up only by incessant cleansing
operations, of mind and body. What we call character, is held
together by all sorts of tacks and strings and glue.”
Cavenaugh looked startled. “Come now, it’s not so bad
as that, is it? I’ve always thought that a serious man, like
you, must know a lot of Launcelots.” When Eastman only
laughed, the younger man squirmed about in his chair. He
spoke again hastily, as if he were embarrassed. “Your military
friend may have had personal experiences, however, that his
friends couldn’t possibly get a line on. He may accidentally
have come to a place where he saw himself in too unpleasant
a light. I believe people can be chilled by a draft from outside,
somewhere.”
“Outside?” Eastman echoed. “Ah, you mean the far outside!
Ghosts, delusions, eh?”
Cavenaugh winced. “That’s putting it strong. Why not say
tips from the outside? Delusions belong to a diseased mind,
don’t they? There are some of us who have no minds to speak
of, who yet have had experiences. I’ve had a little something
in that line myself and I don’t look it, do I?”
Eastman looked at the bland countenance turned toward
him. “Not exactly. What’s your delusion?”
“It’s not a delusion. It’s a haunt.”
The lawyer chuckled. “Soul of a lost Casino girl?”
“No; an old gentleman. A most unattractive old gentleman,
who follows me about.”
“Does he want money?”
Cavenaugh sat up straight. “No. I wish to God he wanted
anything—but the pleasure of my society! I’d let him clean
me out to be rid of him. He’s a real article. You saw him
yourself that night when you came to my rooms to borrow a
dictionary, and he went down the fire-escape. You saw him
down in the court.”
“Well, I saw somebody down in the court, but I’m too
cautious to take it for granted that I saw what you saw.
Why, anyhow, should I see your haunt? If it was your friend
I saw, he impressed me disagreeably. How did you pick
him up?”
Cavenaugh looked gloomy. “That was queer, too. Charley
Burke and I had motored out to Long Beach, about a year
ago, sometime in October, I think. We had supper and stayed
until late. When we were coming home, my car broke
down. We had a lot of girls along who had to get back for
morning rehearsals and things; so I sent them all into town in
Charley’s car, and he was to send a man back to tow me
home. I was driving myself, and didn’t want to leave my machine.
We had not taken a direct road back; so I was stuck in a
lonesome, woody place, no houses about. I got chilly and
made a fire, and was putting in the time comfortably enough,
when this old party steps up. He was in shabby evening
clothes and a top hat, and had on his usual white gloves.
How he got there, at three o’clock in the morning, miles from
any town or railway, I’ll leave it to you to figure out. He
surely had no car. When I saw him coming up to the fire, I
disliked him. He had a silly, apologetic walk. His teeth were
chattering, and I asked him to sit down. He got down like a
clothes-horse folding up. I offered him a cigarette, and when
he took off his gloves I couldn’t help noticing how knotted
and spotty his hands were. He was asthmatic, and took his
breath with a wheeze. ‘Haven’t you got anything—refreshing
in there?’ he asked, nodding at the car. When I told him I
hadn’t, he sighed. ‘Ah, you young fellows are greedy. You
drink it all up. You drink it all up, all up—up!’ he kept chewing
it over.”
Cavenaugh paused and looked embarrassed again. “The
thing that was most unpleasant is difficult to explain. The old
man sat there by the fire and leered at me with a silly sort of
admiration that was—well, more than humiliating. ‘Gay boy,
gay dog!’ he would mutter, and when he grinned he showed
his teeth, worn and yellow—shells. I remembered that it was
better to talk casually to insane people; so I remarked carelessly
that I had been out with a party and got stuck.
“‘Oh yes, I remember,’ he said, ‘Flora and Lottie and Maybelle
and Marcelline, and poor Kate.’
“He had named them correctly; so I began to think I had
been hitting the bright waters too hard.
“Things I drank never had seemed to make me woody; but
you can never tell when trouble is going to hit you. I pulled
my hat down and tried to look as uncommunicative as possible;
but he kept croaking on from time to time, like this:
‘Poor Kate! Splendid arms, but dope got her. She took up
with Eastern religions after she had her hair dyed. Got to
going to a Swami’s joint, and smoking opium. Temple of the
Lotus, it was called, and the police raided it.’
“This was nonsense, of course; the young woman was in
the pink of condition. I let him rave, but I decided that if
something didn’t come out for me pretty soon, I’d foot it
across Long Island. There wasn’t room enough for the two of
us. I got up and took another try at my car. He hopped right
after me.
“‘Good car,’ he wheezed, ‘better than the little Ford.’
“I’d had a Ford before, but so has everybody; that was a
safe guess.
“‘Still,’ he went on, ‘that run in from Huntington Bay in
the rain wasn’t bad. Arrested for speeding, he-he.’
“It was true I had made such a run, under rather unusual
circumstances, and had been arrested. When at last I heard
my life-boat snorting up the road, my visitor got up, sighed,
and stepped back into the shadow of the trees. I didn’t wait to
see what became of him, you may believe. That was visitation
number one. What do you think of it?”
Cavenaugh looked at his host defiantly. Eastman smiled.
“I think you’d better change your mode of life, Cavenaugh.
Had many returns?” he inquired.
“Too many, by far.” The young man took a turn about the
room and came back to the fire. Standing by the mantel he lit
another cigarette before going on with his story:
“The second visitation happened in the street, early in the
evening, about eight o’clock. I was held up in a traffic block
before the Plaza. My chauffeur was driving. Old Nibbs steps
up out of the crowd, opens the door of my car, gets in and
sits down beside me. He had on wilted evening clothes, same
as before, and there was some sort of heavy scent about him.
Such an unpleasant old party! A thorough-going rotter; you
knew it at once. This time he wasn’t talkative, as he had been
when I first saw him. He leaned back in the car as if he owned
it, crossed his hands on his stick and looked out at the
crowd—sort of hungrily.
“I own I really felt a loathing compassion for him. We got
down the avenue slowly. I kept looking out at the mounted
police. But what could I do? Have him pulled? I was afraid
to. I was awfully afraid of getting him into the papers.
“‘I’m going to the New Astor,’ I said at last. ‘Can I take
you anywhere?’
“‘No, thank you,’ says he. ‘I get out when you do. I’m due
on West 44th. I’m dining to-night with Marcelline—all that
is left of her!’
“He put his hand to his hat brim with a grewsome salute.
Such a scandalous, foolish old face as he had! When we pulled
up at the Astor, I stuck my hand in my pocket and asked him
if he’d like a little loan.
“‘No, thank you, but’—he leaned over and whispered,
ugh!—‘but save a little, save a little. Forty years from now—a
little—comes in handy. Save a little.’
“His eyes fairly glittered as he made his remark. I jumped
out. I’d have jumped into the North River. When he tripped
off, I asked my chauffeur if he’d noticed the man who got
into the car with me. He said he knew someone was with me,
but he hadn’t noticed just when he got in. Want to hear any
more?”
Cavenaugh dropped into his chair again. His plump cheeks
were a trifle more flushed than usual, but he was perfectly
calm. Eastman felt that the young man believed what he was
telling him.
“Of course I do. It’s very interesting. I don’t see quite
where you are coming out though.”
Cavenaugh sniffed. “No more do I. I really feel that I’ve
been put upon. I haven’t deserved it any more than any other
fellow of my kind. Doesn’t it impress you disagreeably?”
“Well, rather so. Has anyone else seen your friend?”
“You saw him.”
“We won’t count that. As I said, there’s no certainty that
you and I saw the same person in the court that night. Has
anyone else had a look in?”
“People sense him rather than see him. He usually crops up
when I’m alone or in a crowd on the street. He never approaches
me when I’m with people I know, though I’ve seen
him hanging about the doors of theatres when I come out
with a party; loafing around the stage exit, under a wall; or
across the street, in a doorway. To be frank, I’m not anxious
to introduce him. The third time, it was I who came upon
him. In November my driver, Harry, had a sudden attack of
appendicitis. I took him to the Presbyterian Hospital in the
car, early in the evening. When I came home, I found the old
villain in my rooms. I offered him a drink, and he sat down.
It was the first time I had seen him in a steady light, with his
hat off.
“His face is lined like a railway map, and as to color—Lord,
what a liver! His scalp grows tight to his skull, and his
hair is dyed until it’s perfectly dead, like a piece of black
cloth.”
Cavenaugh ran his fingers through his own neatly trimmed
thatch, and seemed to forget where he was for a moment.
“I had a twin brother, Brian, who died when we were
sixteen. I have a photograph of him on my wall, an enlargement
from a kodak of him, doing a high jump, rather good
thing, full of action. It seemed to annoy the old gentleman.
He kept looking at it and lifting his eyebrows, and finally he
got up, tip-toed across the room, and turned the picture to
the wall.
“‘Poor Brian! Fine fellow, but died young,’ says he.
“Next morning, there was the picture, still reversed.”
“Did he stay long?” Eastman asked interestedly.
“Half an hour, by the clock.”
“Did he talk?”
“Well, he rambled.”
“What about?”
Cavenaugh rubbed his pale eyebrows before answering.
“About things that an old man ought to want to forget.
His conversation is highly objectionable. Of course he knows
me like a book; everything I’ve ever done or thought. But
when he recalls them, he throws a bad light on them, somehow.
Things that weren’t much off color, look rotten. He
doesn’t leave one a shred of self-respect, he really doesn’t.
That’s the amount of it.” The young man whipped out his
handkerchief and wiped his face.
“You mean he really talks about things that none of your
friends know?”
“Oh, dear, yes! Recalls things that happened in school.
Anything disagreeable. Funny thing, he always turns Brian’s
picture to the wall.”
“Does he come often?”
“Yes, oftener, now. Of course I don’t know how he gets in
down-stairs. The hall boys never see him. But he has a key to
my door. I don’t know how he got it, but I can hear him turn
it in the lock.”
“Why don’t you keep your driver with you, or telephone
for me to come down?”
“He’d only grin and go down the fire escape as he did
before. He’s often done it when Harry’s come in suddenly.
Everybody has to be alone sometimes, you know. Besides, I
don’t want anybody to see him. He has me there.”
“But why not? Why do you feel responsible for him?”
Cavenaugh smiled wearily. “That’s rather the point, isn’t
it? Why do I? But I absolutely do. That identifies him, more
than his knowing all about my life and my affairs.”
Eastman looked at Cavenaugh thoughtfully. “Well, I
should advise you to go in for something altogether different
and new, and go in for it hard; business, engineering, metallurgy,
something this old fellow wouldn’t be interested in.
See if you can make him remember logarithms.”
Cavenaugh sighed. “No, he has me there, too. People never
really change; they go on being themselves. But I would
never make much trouble. Why can’t they let me alone, damn
it! I’d never hurt anybody, except, perhaps——”
“Except your old gentleman, eh?” Eastman laughed. “Seriously,
Cavenaugh, if you want to shake him, I think a year on
a ranch would do it. He would never be coaxed far from his
favorite haunts. He would dread Montana.”
Cavenaugh pursed up his lips. “So do I!”
“Oh, you think you do. Try it, and you’ll find out. A gun and
a horse beats all this sort of thing. Besides losing your haunt,
you’d be putting ten years in the bank for yourself. I know a
good ranch where they take people, if you want to try it.”
“Thank you. I’ll consider. Do you think I’m batty?”
“No, but I think you’ve been doing one sort of thing too
long. You need big horizons. Get out of this.”
Cavenaugh smiled meekly. He rose lazily and yawned behind
his hand. “It’s late, and I’ve taken your whole evening.”
He strolled over to the window and looked out. “Queer
place, New York; rough on the little fellows. Don’t you feel
sorry for them, the girls especially? I do. What a fight they
put up for a little fun! Why, even that old goat is sorry for
them, the only decent thing he kept.”
Eastman followed him to the door and stood in the hall,
while Cavenaugh waited for the elevator. When the car came
up Cavenaugh extended his pink, warm hand. “Good night.”
The cage sank and his rosy countenance disappeared, his
round-eyed smile being the last thing to go.
Weeks passed before Eastman saw Cavenaugh again. One
morning, just as he was starting for Washington to argue a
case before the Supreme Court, Cavenaugh telephoned him at
his office to ask him about the Montana ranch he had recommended;
said he meant to take his advice and go out there for
the spring and summer.
When Eastman got back from Washington, he saw dusty
trunks, just up from the trunk room, before Cavenaugh’s
door. Next morning, when he stopped to see what the young
man was about, he found Cavenaugh in his shirt sleeves,
packing.
“I’m really going; off to-morrow night. You didn’t think it
of me, did you?” he asked gaily.
“Oh, I’ve always had hopes of you!” Eastman declared.
“But you are in a hurry, it seems to me.”
“Yes, I am in a hurry.” Cavenaugh shot a pair of leggings
into one of the open trunks. “I telegraphed your ranch people,
used your name, and they said it would be all right. By
the way, some of my crowd are giving a little dinner for me at
Rector’s to-night. Couldn’t you be persuaded, as it’s a farewell
occasion?” Cavenaugh looked at him hopefully.
Eastman laughed and shook his head. “Sorry, Cavenaugh,
but that’s too gay a world for me. I’ve got too much work
lined up before me. I wish I had time to stop and look at your
guns, though. You seem to know something about guns.
You’ve more than you’ll need, but nobody can have too many
good ones.” He put down one of the revolvers regretfully.
“I’ll drop in to see you in the morning, if you’re up.”
“I shall be up, all right. I’ve warned my crowd that I’ll cut
away before midnight.”
“You won’t, though,” Eastman called back over his shoulder
as he hurried down-stairs.
The next morning, while Eastman was dressing, Rollins
came in greatly excited.
“I’m a little late, sir. I was stopped by Harry, Mr. Cavenaugh’s
driver. Mr. Cavenaugh shot himself last night, sir.”
Eastman dropped his vest and sat down on his shoe-box.
“You’re drunk, Rollins,” he shouted. “He’s going away to-day!”
“Yes, sir. Harry found him this morning. Ah, he’s quite
dead, sir. Harry’s telephoned for the coroner. Harry don’t
know what to do with the ticket.”
Eastman pulled on his coat and ran down the stairway.
Cavenaugh’s trunks were strapped and piled before the door.
Harry was walking up and down the hall with a long green
railroad ticket in his hand and a look of complete stupidity on
his face.
“What shall I do about this ticket, Mr. Eastman?” he whispered.
“And what about his trunks? He had me tell the transfer
people to come early. They may be here any minute. Yes,
sir. I brought him home in the car last night, before twelve, as
cheerful as could be.”
“Be quiet, Harry. Where is he?”
“In his bed, sir.”
Eastman went into Cavenaugh’s sleeping-room. When he
came back to the sitting-room, he looked over the writing
table; railway folders, time-tables, receipted bills, nothing
else. He looked up for the photograph of Cavenaugh’s twin
brother. There it was, turned to the wall. Eastman took it
down and looked at it; a boy in track clothes, half lying in the
air, going over the string shoulders first, above the heads of a
crowd of lads who were running and cheering. The face was
somewhat blurred by the motion and the bright sunlight.
Eastman put the picture back, as he found it. Had Cavenaugh
entertained his visitor last night, and had the old man been
more convincing than usual? “Well, at any rate, he’s seen to it
that the old man can’t establish identity. What a soft lot they
are, fellows like poor Cavenaugh!” Eastman thought of his
office as a delightful place.
McClure’s, November 1915
The Bookkeeper’s Wife ToC
Nobody but the janitor was stirring about the offices of
the Remsen Paper Company, and still Percy Bixby sat at
his desk, crouched on his high stool and staring out at the
tops of the tall buildings flushed with the winter sunset, at the
hundreds of windows, so many rectangles of white electric
light, flashing against the broad waves of violet that ebbed
across the sky. His ledgers were all in their places, his desk
was in order, his office coat on its peg, and yet Percy’s
smooth, thin face wore the look of anxiety and strain which
usually meant that he was behind in his work. He was trying
to persuade himself to accept a loan from the company without
the company’s knowledge. As a matter of fact, he had
already accepted it. His books were fixed, the money, in
a black-leather bill-book, was already inside his waistcoat
pocket.
He had still time to change his mind, to rectify the false
figures in his ledger, and to tell Stella Brown that they
couldn’t possibly get married next month. There he always
halted in his reasoning, and went back to the beginning.
The Remsen Paper Company was a very wealthy concern,
with easy, old-fashioned working methods. They did a longtime
credit business with safe customers, who never thought
of paying up very close on their large indebtedness. From the
payments on these large accounts Percy had taken a hundred
dollars here and two hundred there until he had made up the
thousand he needed. So long as he stayed by the books himself
and attended to the mail-orders he couldn’t possibly be
found out. He could move these little shortages about from
account to account indefinitely. He could have all the time he
needed to pay back the deficit, and more time than he needed.
Although he was so far along in one course of action, his
mind still clung resolutely to the other. He did not believe he
was going to do it. He was the least of a sharper in the world.
Being scrupulously honest even in the most trifling matters
was a pleasure to him. He was the sort of young man that
Socialists hate more than they hate capitalists. He loved his
desk, he loved his books, which had no handwriting in them
but his own. He never thought of resenting the fact that he
had written away in those books the good red years between
twenty-one and twenty-seven. He would have hated to let any
one else put so much as a pen-scratch in them. He liked all
the boys about the office; his desk, worn smooth by the
sleeves of his alpaca coat; his rulers and inks and pens and
calendars. He had a great pride in working economics, and he
always got so far ahead when supplies were distributed that
he had drawers full of pencils and pens and rubber bands
against a rainy day.
Percy liked regularity: to get his work done on time, to
have his half-day off every Saturday, to go to the theater Saturday
night, to buy a new necktie twice a month, to appear in
a new straw hat on the right day in May, and to know what
was going on in New York. He read the morning and evening
papers coming and going on the elevated, and preferred journals
of approximate reliability. He got excited about ballgames
and elections and business failures, was not above an
interest in murders and divorce scandals, and he checked the
news off as neatly as he checked his mail-orders. In short,
Percy Bixby was like the model pupil who is satisfied with his
lessons and his teachers and his holidays, and who would
gladly go to school all his life. He had never wanted anything
outside his routine until he wanted Stella Brown to marry
him, and that had upset everything.
It wasn’t, he told himself for the hundredth time, that she
was extravagant. Not a bit of it. She was like all girls. Moreover,
she made good money, and why should she marry unless
she could better herself? The trouble was that he had lied
to her about his salary. There were a lot of fellows rushing
Mrs. Brown’s five daughters, and they all seemed to have fixed
on Stella as first choice and this or that one of the sisters as
second. Mrs. Brown thought it proper to drop an occasional
hint in the presence of these young men to the effect that she
expected Stella to “do well.” It went without saying that hair
and complexion like Stella’s could scarcely be expected to
do poorly. Most of the boys who went to the house and took
the girls out in a bunch to dances and movies seemed to realize
this. They merely wanted a whirl with Stella before they
settled down to one of her sisters. It was tacitly understood
that she came too high for them. Percy had sensed all this
through those slumbering instincts which awake in us all to
befriend us in love or in danger.
But there was one of his rivals, he knew, who was a man to
be reckoned with. Charley Greengay was a young salesman
who wore tailor-made clothes and spotted waistcoats, and
had a necktie for every day in the month. His air was that of a
young man who is out for things that come high and who is
going to get them. Mrs. Brown was ever and again dropping
a word before Percy about how the girl that took Charley
would have her flat furnished by the best furniture people,
and her china-closet stocked with the best ware, and would
have nothing to worry about but nicks and scratches. It was
because he felt himself pitted against this pulling power of
Greengay’s that Percy had brazenly lied to Mrs. Brown, and
told her that his salary had been raised to fifty a week, and
that now he wanted to get married.
When he threw out this challenge to Mother Brown, Percy
was getting thirty-five dollars a week, and he knew well
enough that there were several hundred thousand young men
in New York who would do his work as well as he did for
thirty.
These were the factors in Percy’s present situation. He
went over them again and again as he sat stooping on his tall
stool. He had quite lost track of time when he heard the janitor
call good night to the watchman. Without thinking what
he was doing, he slid into his overcoat, caught his hat, and
rushed out to the elevator, which was waiting for the janitor.
The moment the car dropped, it occurred to him that the
thing was decided without his having made up his mind at all.
The familiar floors passed him, ten, nine, eight, seven. By the
time he reached the fifth, there was no possibility of going
back; the click of the drop-lever seemed to settle that. The
money was in his pocket. Now, he told himself as he hurried
out into the exciting clamor of the street, he was not going to
worry about it any more.
When Percy reached the Browns’ flat on 123d Street that
evening he felt just the slightest chill in Stella’s greeting. He
could make that all right, he told himself, as he kissed her
lightly in the dark three-by-four entrance-hall. Percy’s courting
had been prosecuted mainly in the Bronx or in winged
pursuit of a Broadway car. When he entered the crowded
sitting-room he greeted Mrs. Brown respectfully and the four
girls playfully. They were all piled on one couch, reading the
continued story in the evening paper, and they didn’t think it
necessary to assume more formal attitudes for Percy. They
looked up over the smeary pink sheets of paper, and handed
him, as Percy said, the same old jolly:
“Hullo, Perc’! Come to see me, ain’t you? So flattered!”
“Any sweet goods on you, Perc’? Anything doing in the
bong-bong line to-night?”
“Look at his new neckwear! Say, Perc’, remember me. That
tie would go lovely with my new tailored waist.”
“Quit your kiddin’, girls!” called Mrs. Brown, who was
drying shirt-waists on the dining-room radiator. “And, Percy,
mind the rugs when you’re steppin’ round among them gum-drops.”
Percy fired his last shot at the recumbent figures, and
followed Stella into the dining-room, where the table and
two large easy-chairs formed, in Mrs. Brown’s estimation, a
proper background for a serious suitor.
“I say, Stell’,” he began as he walked about the table with
his hands in his pockets, “seems to me we ought to begin
buying our stuff.” She brightened perceptibly. “Ah,” Percy
thought, “so that was the trouble!” “To-morrow’s Saturday;
why can’t we make an afternoon of it?” he went on cheerfully.
“Shop till we’re tired, then go to Houtin’s for dinner, and
end up at the theater.”
As they bent over the lists she had made of things needed,
Percy glanced at her face. She was very much out of her sisters’
class and out of his, and he kept congratulating himself
on his nerve. He was going in for something much too handsome
and expensive and distinguished for him, he felt, and it
took courage to be a plunger. To begin with, Stella was the
sort of girl who had to be well dressed. She had pale primrose
hair, with bluish tones in it, very soft and fine, so that it lay
smooth however she dressed it, and pale-blue eyes, with
blond eyebrows and long, dark lashes. She would have been a
little too remote and languid even for the fastidious Percy had
it not been for her hard, practical mouth, with lips that always
kept their pink even when the rest of her face was pale. Her
employers, who at first might be struck by her indifference,
understood that anybody with that sort of mouth would get
through the work.
After the shopping-lists had been gone over, Percy took up
the question of the honeymoon. Stella said she had been
thinking of Atlantic City. Percy met her with firmness. Whatever
happened, he couldn’t leave his books now.
“I want to do my traveling right here on Forty-second
Street, with a high-price show every night,” he declared. He
made out an itinerary, punctuated by theaters and restaurants,
which Stella consented to accept as a substitute for Atlantic
City.
“They give your fellows a week off when they’re married,
don’t they?” she asked.
“Yes, but I’ll want to drop into the office every morning to
look after my mail. That’s only businesslike.”
“I’d like to have you treated as well as the others, though.”
Stella turned the rings about on her pale hand and looked at
her polished finger-tips.
“I’ll look out for that. What do you say to a little walk,
Stell’?” Percy put the question coaxingly. When Stella was
pleased with him she went to walk with him, since that was
the only way in which Percy could ever see her alone. When
she was displeased, she said she was too tired to go out. To-night
she smiled at him incredulously, and went to put on her
hat and gray fur piece.
Once they were outside, Percy turned into a shadowy side
street that was only partly built up, a dreary waste of derricks
and foundation holes, but comparatively solitary. Stella liked
Percy’s steady, sympathetic silences; she was not a chatterbox
herself. She often wondered why she was going to marry
Bixby instead of Charley Greengay. She knew that Charley
would go further in the world. Indeed, she had often coolly
told herself that Percy would never go very far. But, as she
admitted with a shrug, she was “weak to Percy.” In the capable
New York stenographer, who estimated values coldly and
got the most for the least outlay, there was something left
that belonged to another kind of woman—something that
liked the very things in Percy that were not good business
assets. However much she dwelt upon the effectiveness of
Greengay’s dash and color and assurance, her mind always
came back to Percy’s neat little head, his clean-cut face, and
warm, clear, gray eyes, and she liked them better than Charley’s
fullness and blurred floridness. Having reckoned up their
respective chances with no doubtful result, she opposed a
mild obstinacy to her own good sense. “I guess I’ll take
Percy, anyway,” she said simply, and that was all the good her
clever business brain did her.
Percy spent a night of torment, lying tense on his bed in the
dark, and figuring out how long it would take him to pay
back the money he was advancing to himself. Any fool could
do it in five years, he reasoned, but he was going to do it in
three. The trouble was that his expensive courtship had taken
every penny of his salary. With competitors like Charley
Greengay, you had to spend money or drop out. Certain
birds, he reflected ruefully, are supplied with more attractive
plumage when they are courting, but nature hadn’t been so
thoughtful for men. When Percy reached the office in the
morning he climbed on his tall stool and leaned his arms on
his ledger. He was so glad to feel it there that he was faint
and weak-kneed.
Oliver Remsen, Junior, had brought new blood into the
Remsen Paper Company. He married shortly after Percy
Bixby did, and in the five succeeding years he had considerably
enlarged the company’s business and profits. He had
been particularly successful in encouraging efficiency and loyalty
in the employees. From the time he came into the office
he had stood for shorter hours, longer holidays, and a generous
consideration of men’s necessities. He came out of college
on the wave of economic reform, and he continued to read
and think a good deal about how the machinery of labor is
operated. He knew more about the men who worked for him
than their mere office records.
Young Remsen was troubled about Percy Bixby because he
took no summer vacations—always asked for the two weeks’
extra pay instead. Other men in the office had skipped a vacation
now and then, but Percy had stuck to his desk for five
years, had tottered to his stool through attacks of grippe and
tonsilitis. He seemed to have grown fast to his ledger, and it
was to this that Oliver objected. He liked his men to stay
men, to look like men and live like men. He remembered how
alert and wide-awake Bixby had seemed to him when he himself
first came into the office. He had picked Bixby out as the
most intelligent and interested of his father’s employees, and
since then had often wondered why he never seemed to see
chances to forge ahead. Promotions, of course, went to the
men who went after them. When Percy’s baby died, he went
to the funeral, and asked Percy to call on him if he needed
money. Once when he chanced to sit down by Bixby on the
elevated and found him reading Bryce’s “American Commonwealth,”
he asked him to make use of his own large office
library. Percy thanked him, but he never came for any books.
Oliver wondered whether his bookkeeper really tried to avoid
him.
One evening Oliver met the Bixbys in the lobby of a theater.
He introduced Mrs. Remsen to them, and held them for
some moments in conversation. When they got into their motor,
Mrs. Remsen said:
“Is that little man afraid of you, Oliver? He looked like a
scared rabbit.”
Oliver snapped the door, and said with a shade of irritation:
“I don’t know what’s the matter with him. He’s the fellow
I’ve told you about who never takes a vacation. I half believe
it’s his wife. She looks pitiless enough for anything.”
“She’s very pretty of her kind,” mused Mrs. Remsen, “but
rather chilling. One can see that she has ideas about elegance.”
“Rather unfortunate ones for a bookkeeper’s wife. I surmise
that Percy felt she was overdressed, and that made him
awkward with me. I’ve always suspected that fellow of good
taste.”
After that, when Remsen passed the counting-room and
saw Percy screwed up over his ledger, he often remembered
Mrs. Bixby, with her cold, pale eyes and long lashes, and her
expression that was something between indifference and discontent.
She rose behind Percy’s bent shoulders like an apparition.
One spring afternoon Remsen was closeted in his private
office with his lawyer until a late hour. As he came down the
long hall in the dusk he glanced through the glass partition
into the counting-room, and saw Percy Bixby huddled up on
his tall stool, though it was too dark to work. Indeed, Bixby’s
ledger was closed, and he sat with his two arms resting on the
brown cover. He did not move a muscle when young Remsen
entered.
“You are late, Bixby, and so am I,” Oliver began genially as
he crossed to the front of the room and looked out at the
lighted windows of other tall buildings. “The fact is, I’ve
been doing something that men have a foolish way of putting
off. I’ve been making my will.”
“Yes, sir.” Percy brought it out with a deep breath.
“Glad to be through with it,” Oliver went on. “Mr. Melton
will bring the paper back to-morrow, and I’d like to ask you
to be one of the witnesses.”
“I’d be very proud, Mr. Remsen.”
“Thank you, Bixby. Good night.” Remsen took up his hat
just as Percy slid down from his stool.
“Mr. Remsen, I’m told you’re going to have the books
gone over.”
“Why, yes, Bixby. Don’t let that trouble you. I’m taking in
a new partner, you know, an old college friend. Just because
he is a friend, I insist upon all the usual formalities. But it is a
formality, and I’ll guarantee the expert won’t make a scratch
on your books. Good night. You’d better be coming, too.”
Remsen had reached the door when he heard “Mr. Remsen!”
in a desperate voice behind him. He turned, and saw Bixby
standing uncertainly at one end of the desk, his hand still on
his ledger, his uneven shoulders drooping forward and his
head hanging as if he were seasick. Remsen came back and
stood at the other end of the long desk. It was too dark to see
Bixby’s face clearly.
“What is it, Bixby?”
“Mr. Remsen, five years ago, just before I was married, I
falsified the books a thousand dollars, and I used the money.”
Percy leaned forward against his desk, which took him just
across the chest.
“What’s that, Bixby?” Young Remsen spoke in a tone of
polite surprise. He felt painfully embarrassed.
“Yes, sir. I thought I’d get it all paid back before this. I’ve
put back three hundred, but the books are still seven hundred
out of true. I’ve played the shortages about from account to
account these five years, but an expert would find ’em in
twenty-four hours.”
“I don’t just understand how—” Oliver stopped and shook
his head.
“I held it out of the Western remittances, Mr. Remsen.
They were coming in heavy just then. I was up against it. I
hadn’t saved anything to marry on, and my wife thought I
was getting more money than I was. Since we’ve been married,
I’ve never had the nerve to tell her. I could have paid it
all back if it hadn’t been for the unforeseen expenses.”
Remsen sighed.
“Being married is largely unforeseen expenses, Percy.
There’s only one way to fix this up: I’ll give you seven hundred
dollars in cash to-morrow, and you can give me your
personal note, with the understanding that I hold ten dollars
a week out of your pay-check until it is paid. I think you
ought to tell your wife exactly how you are fixed, though. You
can’t expect her to help you much when she doesn’t know.”
That night Mrs. Bixby was sitting in their flat, waiting for
her husband. She was dressed for a bridge party, and often
looked with impatience from her paper to the Mission clock,
as big as a coffin and with nothing but two weights dangling
in its hollow framework. Percy had been loath to buy the
clock when they got their furniture, and he had hated it ever
since. Stella had changed very little since she came into the
flat a bride. Then she wore her hair in a Floradora pompadour;
now she wore it hooded close about her head like a
scarf, in a rather smeary manner, like an Impressionist’s
brush-work. She heard her husband come in and close the
door softly. While he was taking off his hat in the narrow
tunnel of a hall, she called to him:
“I hope you’ve had something to eat down-town. You’ll
have to dress right away.” Percy came in and sat down. She
looked up from the evening paper she was reading. “You’ve
no time to sit down. We must start in fifteen minutes.”
He shaded his eyes from the glaring overhead light.
“I’m afraid I can’t go anywhere to-night. I’m all in.”
Mrs. Bixby rattled her paper, and turned from the theatrical
page to the fashions.
“You’ll feel better after you dress. We won’t stay late.”
Her even persistence usually conquered her husband. She
never forgot anything she had once decided to do. Her
manner of following it up grew more chilly, but never
weaker. To-night there was no spring in Percy. He closed his
eyes and replied without moving:
“I can’t go. You had better telephone the Burks we aren’t
coming. I have to tell you something disagreeable.”
Stella rose.
“I certainly am not going to disappoint the Burks and stay
at home to talk about anything disagreeable.”
“You’re not very sympathetic, Stella.”
She turned away.
“If I were, you’d soon settle down into a pretty dull proposition.
We’d have no social life now if I didn’t keep at you.”
Percy roused himself a little.
“Social life? Well, we’ll have to trim that pretty close for a
while. I’m in debt to the company. We’ve been living beyond
our means ever since we were married.”
“We can’t live on less than we do,” Stella said quietly. “No
use in taking that up again.”
Percy sat up, clutching the arms of his chair.
“We’ll have to take it up. I’m seven hundred dollars short,
and the books are to be audited to-morrow. I told young
Remsen and he’s going to take my note and hold the money
out of my pay-checks. He could send me to jail, of course.”
Stella turned and looked down at him with a gleam of
interest.
“Oh, you’ve been playing solitaire with the books, have
you? And he’s found you out! I hope I’ll never see that man
again. Sugar face!” She said this with intense acrimony. Her
forehead flushed delicately, and her eyes were full of hate.
Young Remsen was not her idea of a “business man.”
Stella went into the other room. When she came back she
wore her evening coat and carried long gloves and a black
scarf. This she began to arrange over her hair before the mirror
above the false fireplace. Percy lay inert in the Morris chair
and watched her. Yes, he understood; it was very difficult for
a woman with hair like that to be shabby and to go without
things. Her hair made her conspicuous, and it had to be lived
up to. It had been the deciding factor in his fate.
Stella caught the lace over one ear with a large gold hairpin.
She repeated this until she got a good effect. Then turning
to Percy, she began to draw on her gloves.
“I’m not worrying any, because I’m going back into business,”
she said firmly. “I meant to, anyway, if you didn’t get a
raise the first of the year. I have the offer of a good position,
and we can live in an apartment hotel.”
Percy was on his feet in an instant.
“I won’t have you grinding in any office. That’s flat.”
Stella’s lower lip quivered in a commiserating smile. “Oh, I
won’t lose my health. Charley Greengay’s a partner in his
concern now, and he wants a private secretary.”
Percy drew back.
“You can’t work for Greengay. He’s got too bad a reputation.
You’ve more pride than that, Stella.”
The thin sweep of color he knew so well went over Stella’s
face.
“His business reputation seems to be all right,” she commented,
working the kid on with her left hand.
“What if it is?” Percy broke out. “He’s the cheapest kind of
a skate. He gets into scrapes with the girls in his own office.
The last one got into the newspapers, and he had to pay the
girl a wad.”
“He don’t get into scrapes with his books, anyway, and he
seems to be able to stand getting into the papers. I excuse
Charley. His wife’s a pill.”
“I suppose you think he’d have been all right if he’d married
you,” said Percy, bitterly.
“Yes, I do.” Stella buttoned her glove with an air of
finishing something, and then looked at Percy without animosity.
“Charley and I both have sporty tastes, and we like
excitement. You might as well live in Newark if you’re going
to sit at home in the evening. You oughtn’t to have married a
business woman; you need somebody domestic. There’s
nothing in this sort of life for either of us.”
“That means, I suppose, that you’re going around with
Greengay and his crowd?”
“Yes, that’s my sort of crowd, and you never did fit into it.
You’re too intellectual. I’ve always been proud of you, Percy.
You’re better style than Charley, but that gets tiresome. You
will never burn much red fire in New York, now, will you?”
Percy did not reply. He sat looking at the minute-hand of
the eviscerated Mission clock. His wife almost never took the
trouble to argue with him.
“You’re old style, Percy,” she went on. “Of course everybody
marries and wishes they hadn’t, but nowadays people
get over it. Some women go ahead on the quiet, but I’m
giving it to you straight. I’m going to work for Greengay. I
like his line of business, and I meet people well. Now I’m
going to the Burks’.”
Percy dropped his hands limply between his knees.
“I suppose,” he brought out, “the real trouble is that
you’ve decided my earning power is not very great.”
“That’s part of it, and part of it is you’re old-fashioned.”
Stella paused at the door and looked back. “What made you
rush me, anyway, Percy?” she asked indulgently. “What did
you go and pretend to be a spender and get tied up with me
for?”
“I guess everybody wants to be a spender when he’s in
love,” Percy replied.
Stella shook her head mournfully.
“No, you’re a spender or you’re not. Greengay has been
broke three times, fired, down and out, black-listed. But he’s
always come back, and he always will. You will never be fired,
but you’ll always be poor.” She turned and looked back again
before she went out.
Six months later Bixby came to young Oliver Remsen one
afternoon and said he would like to have twenty dollars a
week held out of his pay until his debt was cleared off.
Oliver looked up at his sallow employee and asked him
how he could spare as much as that.
“My expenses are lighter,” Bixby replied. “My wife has
gone into business with a ready-to-wear firm. She is not living
with me any more.”
Oliver looked annoyed, and asked him if nothing could be
done to readjust his domestic affairs. Bixby said no; they
would probably remain as they were.
“But where are you living, Bixby? How have you arranged
things?” the young man asked impatiently.
“I’m very comfortable. I live in a boarding-house and have
my own furniture. There are several fellows there who are
fixed the same way. Their wives went back into business, and
they drifted apart.”
With a baffled expression Remsen stared at the uneven
shoulders under the skin-fitting alpaca desk coat as his bookkeeper
went out. He had meant to do something for Percy,
but somehow, he reflected, one never did do anything for a
fellow who had been stung as hard as that.
Century, May 1916
Ardessa ToC
The grand-mannered old man who sat at a desk in the
reception-room of “The Outcry” offices to receive visitors
and incidentally to keep the time-book of the employees,
looked up as Miss Devine entered at ten minutes past ten and
condescendingly wished him good morning. He bowed profoundly
as she minced past his desk, and with an indifferent
air took her course down the corridor that led to the editorial
offices. Mechanically he opened the flat, black book at his elbow
and placed his finger on D, running his eye along the
line of figures after the name Devine. “It’s banker’s hours she
keeps, indeed,” he muttered. What was the use of entering so
capricious a record? Nevertheless, with his usual preliminary
flourish he wrote 10:10 under this, the fourth day of May.
The employee who kept banker’s hours rustled on down
the corridor to her private room, hung up her lavender jacket
and her trim spring hat, and readjusted her side combs by the
mirror inside her closet door. Glancing at her desk, she rang
for an office boy, and reproved him because he had not
dusted more carefully and because there were lumps in her
paste. When he disappeared with the paste-jar, she sat down
to decide which of her employer’s letters he should see and
which he should not.
Ardessa was not young and she was certainly not handsome.
The coquettish angle at which she carried her head was
a mannerism surviving from a time when it was more becoming.
She shuddered at the cold candor of the new business
woman, and was insinuatingly feminine.
Ardessa’s employer, like young Lochinvar, had come out of
the West, and he had done a great many contradictory things
before he became proprietor and editor of “The Outcry.”
Before he decided to go to New York and make the East
take notice of him, O’Mally had acquired a punctual, reliable
silver-mine in South Dakota. This silent friend in the background
made his journalistic success comparatively easy. He
had figured out, when he was a rich nobody in Nevada, that
the quickest way to cut into the known world was through
the printing-press. He arrived in New York, bought a highly
respectable publication, and turned it into a red-hot magazine
of protest, which he called “The Outcry.” He knew what the
West wanted, and it proved to be what everybody secretly
wanted. In six years he had done the thing that had hitherto
seemed impossible: built up a national weekly, out on the
news-stands the same day in New York and San Francisco; a
magazine the people howled for, a moving-picture film of
their real tastes and interests.
O’Mally bought “The Outcry” to make a stir, not to make
a career, but he had got built into the thing more than he ever
intended. It had made him a public man and put him into
politics. He found the publicity game diverting, and it held
him longer than any other game had ever done. He had built
up about him an organization of which he was somewhat
afraid and with which he was vastly bored. On his staff there
were five famous men, and he had made every one of them.
At first it amused him to manufacture celebrities. He found
he could take an average reporter from the daily press, give
him a “line” to follow, a trust to fight, a vice to expose,—this
was all in that good time when people were eager to read
about their own wickedness,—and in two years the reporter
would be recognized as an authority. Other people—Napoleon,
Disraeli, Sarah Bernhardt—had discovered that advertising
would go a long way; but Marcus O’Mally discovered
that in America it would go all the way—as far as you wished
to pay its passage. Any human countenance, plastered in
three-sheet posters from sea to sea, would be revered by the
American people. The strangest thing was that the owners of
these grave countenances, staring at their own faces on newsstands
and billboards, fell to venerating themselves; and even
he, O’Mally, was more or less constrained by these reputations
that he had created out of cheap paper and cheap ink.
Constraint was the last thing O’Mally liked. The most engaging
and unusual thing about the man was that he couldn’t
be fooled by the success of his own methods, and no amount
of “recognition” could make a stuffed shirt of him. No matter
how much he was advertised as a great medicine-man in the
councils of the nation, he knew that he was a born gambler
and a soldier of fortune. He left his dignified office to take
care of itself for a good many months of the year while he
played about on the outskirts of social order. He liked being a
great man from the East in rough-and-tumble Western cities
where he had once been merely an unconsidered spender.
O’Mally’s long absences constituted one of the supreme advantages
of Ardessa Devine’s position. When he was at his
post her duties were not heavy, but when he was giving balls
in Goldfield, Nevada, she lived an ideal life. She came to the
office every day, indeed, to forward such of O’Mally’s letters
as she thought best, to attend to his club notices and tradesmen’s
bills, and to taste the sense of her high connections.
The great men of the staff were all about her, as contemplative
as Buddhas in their private offices, each meditating upon
the particular trust or form of vice confided to his care. Thus
surrounded, Ardessa had a pleasant sense of being at the heart
of things. It was like a mental massage, exercise without exertion.
She read and she embroidered. Her room was pleasant,
and she liked to be seen at ladylike tasks and to feel herself a
graceful contrast to the crude girls in the advertising and
circulation departments across the hall. The younger stenographers,
who had to get through with the enormous office
correspondence, and who rushed about from one editor to
another with wire baskets full of letters, made faces as they
passed Ardessa’s door and saw her cool and cloistered,
daintily plying her needle. But no matter how hard the other
stenographers were driven, no one, not even one of the
five oracles of the staff, dared dictate so much as a letter to
Ardessa. Like a sultan’s bride, she was inviolate in her lord’s
absence; she had to be kept for him.
Naturally the other young women employed in “The Outcry”
offices disliked Miss Devine. They were all competent
girls, trained in the exacting methods of modern business, and
they had to make good every day in the week, had to get
through with a great deal of work or lose their position.
O’Mally’s private secretary was a mystery to them. Her exemptions
and privileges, her patronizing remarks, formed an
exhaustless subject of conversation at the lunch-hour. Ardessa
had, indeed, as they knew she must have, a kind of “purchase”
on her employer.
When O’Mally first came to New York to break into publicity,
he engaged Miss Devine upon the recommendation of
the editor whose ailing publication he bought and rechristened.
That editor was a conservative, scholarly gentleman of
the old school, who was retiring because he felt out of place
in the world of brighter, breezier magazines that had been
flowering since the new century came in. He believed that in
this vehement world young O’Mally would make himself
heard and that Miss Devine’s training in an editorial office
would be of use to him.
When O’Mally first sat down at a desk to be an editor, all
the cards that were brought in looked pretty much alike to
him. Ardessa was at his elbow. She had long been steeped in
literary distinctions and in the social distinctions which used
to count for much more than they do now. She knew all the
great men, all the nephews and clients of great men. She
knew which must be seen, which must be made welcome, and
which could safely be sent away. She could give O’Mally on
the instant the former rating in magazine offices of nearly
every name that was brought in to him. She could give him
an idea of the man’s connections, of the price his work commanded,
and insinuate whether he ought to be met with the
old punctiliousness or with the new joviality. She was useful
in explaining to her employer the significance of various invitations,
and the standing of clubs and associations. At first she
was virtually the social mentor of the bullet-headed young
Westerner who wanted to break into everything, the solitary
person about the office of the humming new magazine who
knew anything about the editorial traditions of the eighties
and nineties which, antiquated as they now were, gave an
editor, as O’Mally said, a background.
Despite her indolence, Ardessa was useful to O’Mally as a
social reminder. She was the card catalogue of his ever-changing
personal relations. O’Mally went in for everything
and got tired of everything; that was why he made a good
editor. After he was through with people, Ardessa was very
skilful in covering his retreat. She read and answered the letters
of admirers who had begun to bore him. When great
authors, who had been dined and fêted the month before,
were suddenly left to cool their heels in the reception-room,
thrown upon the suave hospitality of the grand old man at
the desk, it was Ardessa who went out and made soothing
and plausible explanations as to why the editor could not see
them. She was the brake that checked the too-eager neophyte,
the emollient that eased the severing of relationships, the gentle
extinguisher of the lights that failed. When there were no
longer messages of hope and cheer to be sent to ardent young
writers and reformers, Ardessa delivered, as sweetly as possible,
whatever messages were left.
In handling these people with whom O’Mally was quite
through, Ardessa had gradually developed an industry which
was immensely gratifying to her own vanity. Not only did she
not crush them; she even fostered them a little. She continued
to advise them in the reception-room and “personally” received
their manuscripts long after O’Mally had declared that
he would never read another line they wrote. She let them
outline their plans for stories and articles to her, promising to
bring these suggestions to the editor’s attention. She denied
herself to nobody, was gracious even to the Shakspere-Bacon
man, the perpetual-motion man, the travel-article man, the
ghosts which haunt every magazine office. The writers who
had had their happy hour of O’Mally’s favor kept feeling that
Ardessa might reinstate them. She answered their letters of
inquiry in her most polished and elegant style, and even gave
them hints as to the subjects in which the restless editor was
or was not interested at the moment: she feared it would be
useless to send him an article on “How to Trap Lions,” because
he had just bought an article on “Elephant-Shooting in
Majuba Land,” etc.
So when O’Mally plunged into his office at 11:30 on this,
the fourth day of May, having just got back from three-days’
fishing, he found Ardessa in the reception-room, surrounded
by a little court of discards. This was annoying, for he always
wanted his stenographer at once. Telling the office boy to give
her a hint that she was needed, he threw off his hat and topcoat
and began to race through the pile of letters Ardessa had
put on his desk. When she entered, he did not wait for her
polite inquiries about his trip, but broke in at once.
“What is that fellow who writes about phossy jaw still
hanging round here for? I don’t want any articles on phossy
jaw, and if I did, I wouldn’t want his.”
“He has just sold an article on the match industry to ‘The
New Age,’ Mr. O’Mally,” Ardessa replied as she took her seat
at the editor’s right.
“Why does he have to come and tell us about it? We’ve
nothing to do with ‘The New Age.’ And that prison-reform
guy, what’s he loafing about for?”
Ardessa bridled.
“You remember, Mr. O’Mally, he brought letters of introduction
from Governor Harper, the reform Governor of
Mississippi.”
O’Mally jumped up, kicking over his waste-basket in his
impatience.
“That was months ago. I went through his letters and went
through him, too. He hasn’t got anything we want. I’ve been
through with Governor Harper a long while. We’re asleep at
the switch in here. And let me tell you, if I catch sight of that
causes-of-blindness-in-babies woman around here again, I’ll
do something violent. Clear them out, Miss Devine! Clear
them out! We need a traffic policeman in this office. Have you
got that article on ‘Stealing Our National Water Power’ ready
for me?”
“Mr. Gerrard took it back to make modifications. He gave
it to me at noon on Saturday, just before the office closed. I
will have it ready for you to-morrow morning, Mr. O’Mally,
if you have not too many letters for me this afternoon,” Ardessa
replied pointedly.
“Holy Mike!” muttered O’Mally, “we need a traffic policeman
for the staff, too. Gerrard’s modified that thing half a
dozen times already. Why don’t they get accurate information
in the first place?”
He began to dictate his morning mail, walking briskly up
and down the floor by way of giving his stenographer an energetic
example. Her indolence and her ladylike deportment
weighed on him. He wanted to take her by the elbows and
run her around the block. He didn’t mind that she loafed
when he was away, but it was becoming harder and harder to
speed her up when he was on the spot. He knew his correspondence
was not enough to keep her busy, so when he was
in town he made her type his own breezy editorials and various
articles by members of his staff.
Transcribing editorial copy is always laborious, and the
only way to make it easy is to farm it out. This Ardessa was
usually clever enough to do. When she returned to her own
room after O’Mally had gone out to lunch, Ardessa rang for
an office boy and said languidly, “James, call Becky, please.”
In a moment a thin, tense-faced Hebrew girl of eighteen or
nineteen came rushing in, carrying a wire basket full of typewritten
sheets. She was as gaunt as a plucked spring chicken,
and her cheap, gaudy clothes might have been thrown on her.
She looked as if she were running to catch a train and in
mortal dread of missing it. While Miss Devine examined the
pages in the basket, Becky stood with her shoulders drawn up
and her elbows drawn in, apparently trying to hide herself in
her insufficient open-work waist. Her wild, black eyes followed
Miss Devine’s hands desperately. Ardessa sighed.
“This seems to be very smeary copy again, Becky. You
don’t keep your mind on your work, and so you have to erase
continually.”
Becky spoke up in wailing self-vindication.
“It ain’t that, Miss Devine. It’s so many hard words he uses
that I have to be at the dictionary all the time. Look! Look!”
She produced a bunch of manuscript faintly scrawled in pencil,
and thrust it under Ardessa’s eyes. “He don’t write out the
words at all. He just begins a word, and then makes waves for
you to guess.”
“I see you haven’t always guessed correctly, Becky,” said
Ardessa, with a weary smile. “There are a great many words
here that would surprise Mr. Gerrard, I am afraid.”
“And the inserts,” Becky persisted. “How is anybody to tell
where they go, Miss Devine? It’s mostly inserts; see, all over
the top and sides and back.”
Ardessa turned her head away.
“Don’t claw the pages like that, Becky. You make me nervous.
Mr. Gerrard has not time to dot his i’s and cross his t’s.
That is what we keep copyists for. I will correct these sheets
for you,—it would be terrible if Mr. O’Mally saw them,—and
then you can copy them over again. It must be done by
to-morrow morning, so you may have to work late. See that
your hands are clean and dry, and then you will not smear it.”
“Yes, ma’am. Thank you, Miss Devine. Will you tell the
janitor, please, it’s all right if I have to stay? He was cross
because I was here Saturday afternoon doing this. He said it
was a holiday, and when everybody else was gone I ought
to—”
“That will do, Becky. Yes, I will speak to the janitor for
you. You may go to lunch now.”
Becky turned on one heel and then swung back.
“Miss Devine,” she said anxiously, “will it be all right if I
get white shoes for now?”
Ardessa gave her kind consideration.
“For office wear, you mean? No, Becky. With only one
pair, you could not keep them properly clean; and black shoes
are much less conspicuous. Tan, if you prefer.”
Becky looked down at her feet. They were too large, and
her skirt was as much too short as her legs were too long.
“Nearly all the girls I know wear white shoes to business,”
she pleaded.
“They are probably little girls who work in factories or department
stores, and that is quite another matter. Since you
raise the question, Becky, I ought to speak to you about your
new waist. Don’t wear it to the office again, please. Those
cheap open-work waists are not appropriate in an office like
this. They are all very well for little chorus girls.”
“But Miss Kalski wears expensive waists to business more
open than this, and jewelry—”
Ardessa interrupted. Her face grew hard.
“Miss Kalski,” she said coldly, “works for the business department.
You are employed in the editorial offices. There is a
great difference. You see, Becky, I might have to call you in
here at any time when a scientist or a great writer or the
president of a university is here talking over editorial matters,
and such clothes as you have on to-day would make a bad
impression. Nearly all our connections are with important
people of that kind, and we ought to be well, but quietly,
dressed.”
“Yes, Miss Devine. Thank you,” Becky gasped and disappeared.
Heaven knew she had no need to be further impressed
with the greatness of “The Outcry” office. During
the year and a half she had been there she had never ceased to
tremble. She knew the prices all the authors got as well as
Miss Devine did, and everything seemed to her to be done on
a magnificent scale. She hadn’t a good memory for long technical
words, but she never forgot dates or prices or initials or
telephone numbers.
Becky felt that her job depended on Miss Devine, and she
was so glad to have it that she scarcely realized she was being
bullied. Besides, she was grateful for all that she had learned
from Ardessa; Ardessa had taught her to do most of the
things that she was supposed to do herself. Becky wanted to
learn, she had to learn; that was the train she was always running
for. Her father, Isaac Tietelbaum, the tailor, who pressed
Miss Devine’s skirts and kept her ladylike suits in order, had
come to his client two years ago and told her he had a bright
girl just out of a commercial high school. He implored Ardessa
to find some office position for his daughter. Ardessa told
an appealing story to O’Mally, and brought Becky into the
office, at a salary of six dollars a week, to help with the copying
and to learn business routine. When Becky first came she
was as ignorant as a young savage. She was rapid at her shorthand
and typing, but a Kafir girl would have known as much
about the English language. Nobody ever wanted to learn
more than Becky. She fairly wore the dictionary out. She dug
up her old school grammar and worked over it at night. She
faithfully mastered Miss Devine’s fussy system of punctuation.
There were eight children at home, younger than Becky,
and they were all eager to learn. They wanted to get their
mother out of the three dark rooms behind the tailor shop
and to move into a flat up-stairs, where they could, as Becky
said, “live private.” The young Tietelbaums doubted their father’s
ability to bring this change about, for the more things
he declared himself ready to do in his window placards, the
fewer were brought to him to be done. “Dyeing, Cleaning,
Ladies’ Furs Remodeled”—it did no good.
Rebecca was out to “improve herself,” as her father had
told her she must. Ardessa had easy way with her. It was one
of those rare relationships from which both persons profit.
The more Becky could learn from Ardessa, the happier she
was; and the more Ardessa could unload on Becky, the
greater was her contentment. She easily broke Becky of the
gum-chewing habit, taught her to walk quietly, to efface herself
at the proper moment, and to hold her tongue. Becky had
been raised to eight dollars a week; but she didn’t care half so
much about that as she did about her own increasing efficiency.
The more work Miss Devine handed over to her the
happier she was, and the faster she was able to eat it up. She
tested and tried herself in every possible way. She now had
full confidence that she would surely one day be a high-priced
stenographer, a real “business woman.”
Becky would have corrupted a really industrious person,
but a bilious temperament like Ardessa’s couldn’t make even
a feeble stand against such willingness. Ardessa had grown
soft and had lost the knack of turning out work. Sometimes,
in her importance and serenity, she shivered. What if O’Mally
should die, and she were thrust out into the world to work in
competition with the brazen, competent young women she
saw about her everywhere? She believed herself indispensable,
but she knew that in such a mischanceful world as this the
very powers of darkness might rise to separate her from this
pearl among jobs.
When Becky came in from lunch she went down the long hall
to the wash-room, where all the little girls who worked in
the advertising and circulation departments kept their hats
and jackets. There were shelves and shelves of bright spring
hats, piled on top of one another, all as stiff as sheet-iron and
trimmed with gay flowers. At the marble wash-stand stood
Rena Kalski, the right bower of the business manager, polishing
her diamond rings with a nail-brush.
“Hullo, kid,” she called over her shoulder to Becky. “I’ve
got a ticket for you for Thursday afternoon.”
Becky’s black eyes glowed, but the strained look on her
face drew tighter than ever.
“I’ll never ask her, Miss Kalski,” she said rapidly. “I don’t
dare. I have to stay late to-night again; and I know she’d be
hard to please after, if I was to try to get off on a week-day. I
thank you, Miss Kalski, but I’d better not.”
Miss Kalski laughed. She was a slender young Hebrew,
handsome in an impudent, Tenderloin sort of way, with a
small head, reddish-brown almond eyes, a trifle tilted, a rapacious
mouth, and a beautiful chin.
“Ain’t you under that woman’s thumb, though! Call her
bluff. She isn’t half the prima donna she thinks she is. On my
side of the hall we know who’s who about this place.”
The business and editorial departments of “The Outcry”
were separated by a long corridor and a great contempt. Miss
Kalski dried her rings with tissue-paper and studied them
with an appraising eye.
“Well, since you’re such a ’fraidy-calf,’” she went on,
“maybe I can get a rise out of her myself. Now I’ve got you a
ticket out of that shirt-front, I want you to go. I’ll drop in on
Devine this afternoon.”
When Miss Kalski went back to her desk in the business
manager’s private office, she turned to him familiarly, but not
impertinently.
“Mr. Henderson, I want to send a kid over in the editorial
stenographers’ to the Palace Thursday afternoon. She’s a nice
kid, only she’s scared out of her skin all the time. Miss
Devine’s her boss, and she’ll be just mean enough not to let
the young one off. Would you say a word to her?”
The business manager lit a cigar.
“I’m not saying words to any of the high-brows over there.
Try it out with Devine yourself. You’re not bashful.”
Miss Kalski shrugged her shoulders and smiled.
“Oh, very well.” She serpentined out of the room and
crossed the Rubicon into the editorial offices. She found Ardessa
typing O’Mally’s letters and wearing a pained expression.
“Good afternoon, Miss Devine,” she said carelessly. “Can
we borrow Becky over there for Thursday afternoon? We’re
short.”
Miss Devine looked piqued and tilted her head.
“I don’t think it’s customary, Miss Kalski, for the business
department to use our people. We never have girls enough
here to do the work. Of course if Mr. Henderson feels justified—”
“Thanks awfully, Miss Devine,”—Miss Kalski interrupted
her with the perfectly smooth, good-natured tone which
never betrayed a hint of the scorn every line of her sinuous
figure expressed,—“I will tell Mr. Henderson. Perhaps we
can do something for you some day.” Whether this was a
threat, a kind wish, or an insinuation, no mortal could have
told. Miss Kalski’s face was always suggesting insolence without
being quite insolent. As she returned to her own domain
she met the cashier’s head clerk in the hall. “That Devine
woman’s a crime,” she murmured. The head clerk laughed
tolerantly.
That afternoon as Miss Kalski was leaving the office at 5:15,
on her way down the corridor she heard a typewriter clicking
away in the empty, echoing editorial offices. She looked in,
and found Becky bending forward over the machine as if she
were about to swallow it.
“Hello, kid. Do you sleep with that?” she called. She
walked up to Becky and glanced at her copy. “What do you
let ’em keep you up nights over that stuff for?” she asked
contemptuously. “The world wouldn’t suffer if that stuff
never got printed.”
Rebecca looked up wildly. Not even Miss Kalski’s French
pansy hat or her ear-rings and landscape veil could loosen
Becky’s tenacious mind from Mr. Gerrard’s article on water
power. She scarcely knew what Miss Kalski had said to her,
certainly not what she meant.
“But I must make progress already, Miss Kalski,” she
panted.
Miss Kalski gave her low, siren laugh.
“I should say you must!” she ejaculated.
Ardessa decided to take her vacation in June, and she
arranged that Miss Milligan should do O’Mally’s work
while she was away. Miss Milligan was blunt and noisy,
rapid and inaccurate. It would be just as well for O’Mally to
work with a coarse instrument for a time; he would be more
appreciative, perhaps, of certain qualities to which he had
seemed insensible of late. Ardessa was to leave for East
Hampton on Sunday, and she spent Saturday morning instructing
her substitute as to the state of the correspondence.
At noon O’Mally burst into her room. All the morning he
had been closeted with a new writer of mystery-stories just
over from England.
“Can you stay and take my letters this afternoon, Miss
Devine? You’re not leaving until to-morrow.”
Ardessa pouted, and tilted her head at the angle he was
tired of.
“I’m sorry, Mr. O’Mally, but I’ve left all my shopping for
this afternoon. I think Becky Tietelbaum could do them for
you. I will tell her to be careful.”
“Oh, all right.” O’Mally bounced out with a reflection of
Ardessa’s disdainful expression on his face. Saturday afternoon
was always a half-holiday, to be sure, but since she had
weeks of freedom when he was away—However—
At two o’clock Becky Tietelbaum appeared at his door, clad
in the sober office suit which Miss Devine insisted she should
wear, her note-book in her hand, and so frightened that her
fingers were cold and her lips were pale. She had never taken
dictation from the editor before. It was a great and terrifying
occasion.
“Sit down,” he said encouragingly. He began dictating
while he shook from his bag the manuscripts he had snatched
away from the amazed English author that morning. Presently
he looked up.
“Do I go too fast?”
“No, sir,” Becky found strength to say.
At the end of an hour he told her to go and type as many
of the letters as she could while he went over the bunch of
stuff he had torn from the Englishman. He was with the
Hindu detective in an opium den in Shanghai when Becky
returned and placed a pile of papers on his desk.
“How many?” he asked, without looking up.
“All you gave me, sir.”
“All, so soon? Wait a minute and let me see how many
mistakes.” He went over the letters rapidly, signing them as
he read. “They seem to be all right. I thought you were the
girl that made so many mistakes.”
Rebecca was never too frightened to vindicate herself.
“Mr. O’Mally, sir, I don’t make mistakes with letters. It’s
only copying the articles that have so many long words, and
when the writing isn’t plain, like Mr. Gerrard’s. I never make
many mistakes with Mr. Johnson’s articles, or with yours I
don’t.”
O’Mally wheeled round in his chair, looked with curiosity
at her long, tense face, her black eyes, and straight brows.
“Oh, so you sometimes copy articles, do you? How does
that happen?”
“Yes, sir. Always Miss Devine gives me the articles to do.
It’s good practice for me.”
“I see.” O’Mally shrugged his shoulders. He was thinking
that he could get a rise out of the whole American public any
day easier than he could get a rise out of Ardessa. “What
editorials of mine have you copied lately, for instance?”
Rebecca blazed out at him, reciting rapidly:
“Oh, ‘A Word about the Rosenbaums,’ ‘Useless Navy-Yards,’
‘Who Killed Cock Robin’—”
“Wait a minute.” O’Mally checked her flow. “What was
that one about—Cock Robin?”
“It was all about why the secretary of the interior dismissed—”
“All right, all right. Copy those letters, and put them down
the chute as you go out. Come in here for a minute on Monday
morning.”
Becky hurried home to tell her father that she had taken the
editor’s letters and had made no mistakes. On Monday she
learned that she was to do O’Mally’s work for a few days. He
disliked Miss Milligan, and he was annoyed with Ardessa for
trying to put her over on him when there was better material
at hand. With Rebecca he got on very well; she was impersonal,
unreproachful, and she fairly panted for work. Everything
was done almost before he told her what he wanted.
She raced ahead with him; it was like riding a good modern
bicycle after pumping along on an old hard tire.
On the day before Miss Devine’s return O’Mally strolled
over for a chat with the business office.
“Henderson, your people are taking vacations now, I suppose?
Could you use an extra girl?”
“If it’s that thin black one, I can.”
O’Mally gave him a wise smile.
“It isn’t. To be honest, I want to put one over on you. I
want you to take Miss Devine over here for a while and speed
her up. I can’t do anything. She’s got the upper hand of me. I
don’t want to fire her, you understand, but she makes my life
too difficult. It’s my fault, of course. I’ve pampered her. Give
her a chance over here; maybe she’ll come back. You can be
firm with ’em, can’t you?”
Henderson glanced toward the desk where Miss Kalski’s
lightning eye was skimming over the printing-house bills that
he was supposed to verify himself.
“Well, if I can’t, I know who can,” he replied, with a
chuckle.
“Exactly,” O’Mally agreed. “I’m counting on the force of
Miss Kalski’s example. Miss Devine’s all right, Miss Kalski,
but she needs regular exercise. She owes it to her complexion.
I can’t discipline people.”
Miss Kalski’s only reply was a low, indulgent laugh.
O’Mally braced himself on the morning of Ardessa’s return.
He told the waiter at his club to bring him a second pot of
coffee and to bring it hot. He was really afraid of her. When
she presented herself at his office at 10:30 he complimented
her upon her tan and asked about her vacation. Then he
broke the news to her.
“We want to make a few temporary changes about here,
Miss Devine, for the summer months. The business department
is short of help. Henderson is going to put Miss Kalski
on the books for a while to figure out some economies for
him, and he is going to take you over. Meantime I’ll get
Becky broken in so that she could take your work if you were
sick or anything.”
Ardessa drew herself up.
“I’ve not been accustomed to commercial work, Mr.
O’Mally. I’ve no interest in it, and I don’t care to brush up in
it.”
“Brushing up is just what we need, Miss Devine.” O’Mally
began tramping about his room expansively. “I’m going to
brush everybody up. I’m going to brush a few people out;
but I want you to stay with us, of course. You belong here.
Don’t be hasty now. Go to your room and think it over.”
Ardessa was beginning to cry, and O’Mally was afraid he
would lose his nerve. He looked out of the window at a new
sky-scraper that was building, while she retired without a
word.
At her own desk Ardessa sat down breathless and trembling.
The one thing she had never doubted was her unique
value to O’Mally. She had, as she told herself, taught him
everything. She would say a few things to Becky Tietelbaum,
and to that pigeon-breasted tailor, her father, too! The worst
of it was that Ardessa had herself brought it all about; she
could see that clearly now. She had carefully trained and qualified
her successor. Why had she ever civilized Becky? Why
had she taught her manners and deportment, broken her of
the gum-chewing habit, and made her presentable? In her
original state O’Mally would never have put up with her, no
matter what her ability.
Ardessa told herself that O’Mally was notoriously fickle;
Becky amused him, but he would soon find out her limitations.
The wise thing, she knew, was to humor him; but it
seemed to her that she could not swallow her pride. Ardessa
grew yellower within the hour. Over and over in her mind
she bade O’Mally a cold adieu and minced out past the grand
old man at the desk for the last time. But each exit she rehearsed
made her feel sorrier for herself. She thought over all
the offices she knew, but she realized that she could never
meet their inexorable standards of efficiency.
While she was bitterly deliberating, O’Mally himself wandered
in, rattling his keys nervously in his pocket. He shut the
door behind him.
“Now, you’re going to come through with this all right,
aren’t you, Miss Devine? I want Henderson to get over the
notion that my people over here are stuck up and think the
business department are old shoes. That’s where we get our
money from, as he often reminds me. You’ll be the best-paid
girl over there; no reduction, of course. You don’t want to go
wandering off to some new office where personality doesn’t
count for anything.” He sat down confidentially on the edge
of her desk. “Do you, now, Miss Devine?”
Ardessa simpered tearfully as she replied.
“Mr. O’Mally,” she brought out, “you’ll soon find that
Becky is not the sort of girl to meet people for you when you
are away. I don’t see how you can think of letting her.”
“That’s one thing I want to change, Miss Devine. You’re
too soft-handed with the has-beens and the never-was-ers.
You’re too much of a lady for this rough game. Nearly everybody
who comes in here wants to sell us a gold-brick, and
you treat them as if they were bringing in wedding presents.
Becky is as rough as sandpaper, and she’ll clear out a lot of
dead wood.” O’Mally rose, and tapped Ardessa’s shrinking
shoulder. “Now, be a sport and go through with it, Miss
Devine. I’ll see that you don’t lose. Henderson thinks you’ll
refuse to do his work, so I want you to get moved in there
before he comes back from lunch. I’ve had a desk put in his
office for you. Miss Kalski is in the bookkeeper’s room half
the time now.”
Rena Kalski was amazed that afternoon when a line
of office boys entered, carrying Miss Devine’s effects, and
when Ardessa herself coldly followed them. After Ardessa
had arranged her desk, Miss Kalski went over to her and
told her about some matters of routine very good-naturedly.
Ardessa looked pretty badly shaken up, and Rena bore no
grudges.
“When you want the dope on the correspondence with the
paper men, don’t bother to look it up. I’ve got it all in my
head, and I can save time for you. If he wants you to go over
the printing bills every week, you’d better let me help you
with that for a while. I can stay almost any afternoon. It’s
quite a trick to figure out the plates and over-time charges till
you get used to it. I’ve worked out a quick method that saves
trouble.”
When Henderson came in at three he found Ardessa, chilly,
but civil, awaiting his instructions. He knew she disapproved
of his tastes and his manners, but he didn’t mind. What interested
and amused him was that Rena Kalski, whom he
had always thought as cold-blooded as an adding-machine,
seemed to be making a hair-mattress of herself to break Ardessa’s
fall.
At five o’clock, when Ardessa rose to go, the business manager
said breezily:
“See you at nine in the morning, Miss Devine. We begin on
the stroke.”
Ardessa faded out of the door, and Miss Kalski’s slender
back squirmed with amusement.
“I never thought to hear such words spoken,” she admitted;
“but I guess she’ll limber up all right. The atmosphere is
bad over there. They get moldy.”
After the next monthly luncheon of the heads of departments,
O’Mally said to Henderson, as he feed the coat-boy:
“By the way, how are you making it with the bartered
bride?”
Henderson smashed on his Panama as he said:
“Any time you want her back, don’t be delicate.”
But O’Mally shook his red head and laughed.
“Oh, I’m no Indian giver!”
Century, May 1918
Her Boss ToC
I
Paul Wanning opened the front door of his house in
Orange, closed it softly behind him, and stood looking
about the hall as he drew off his gloves.
Nothing was changed there since last night, and yet he
stood gazing about him with an interest which a long-married
man does not often feel in his own reception hall. The rugs,
the two pillars, the Spanish tapestry chairs, were all the same.
The Venus di Medici stood on her column as usual and there,
at the end of the hall (opposite the front door), was the full-length
portrait of Mrs. Wanning, maturely blooming forth in
an evening gown, signed with the name of a French painter
who seemed purposely to have made his signature indistinct.
Though the signature was largely what one paid for, one
couldn’t ask him to do it over.
In the dining room the colored man was moving about
the table set for dinner, under the electric cluster. The candles
had not yet been lighted. Wanning watched him with a
homesick feeling in his heart. They had had Sam a long
while, twelve years, now. His warm hall, the lighted dining-room,
the drawing room where only the flicker of the wood
fire played upon the shining surfaces of many objects—they
seemed to Wanning like a haven of refuge. It had never
occurred to him that his house was too full of things. He
often said, and he believed, that the women of his household
had “perfect taste.” He had paid for these objects, sometimes
with difficulty, but always with pride. He carried a
heavy life-insurance and permitted himself to spend most of
the income from a good law practise. He wished, during his
life-time, to enjoy the benefits of his wife’s discriminating
extravagance.
Yesterday Wanning’s doctor had sent him to a specialist.
Today the specialist, after various laboratory tests, had told
him most disconcerting things about the state of very necessary,
but hitherto wholly uninteresting, organs of his body.
The information pointed to something incredible; insinuated
that his residence in this house was only temporary; that
he, whose time was so full, might have to leave not only his
house and his office and his club, but a world with which he
was extremely well satisfied—the only world he knew anything
about.
Wanning unbuttoned his overcoat, but did not take it off.
He stood folding his muffler slowly and carefully. What he
did not understand was, how he could go while other people
stayed. Sam would be moving about the table like this, Mrs.
Wanning and her daughters would be dressing upstairs, when
he would not be coming home to dinner any more; when he
would not, indeed, be dining anywhere.
Sam, coming to turn on the parlor lights, saw Wanning and
stepped behind him to take his coat.
“Good evening, Mr. Wanning, sah, excuse me. You entahed
so quietly, sah, I didn’t heah you.”
The master of the house slipped out of his coat and went
languidly upstairs.
He tapped at the door of his wife’s room, which stood
ajar.
“Come in, Paul,” she called from her dressing table.
She was seated, in a violet dressing gown, giving the last
touches to her coiffure, both arms lifted. They were firm and
white, like her neck and shoulders. She was a handsome
woman of fifty-five,—still a woman, not an old person, Wanning
told himself, as he kissed her cheek. She was heavy in
figure, to be sure, but she had kept, on the whole, presentable
outlines. Her complexion was good, and she wore less false
hair than either of her daughters.
Wanning himself was five years older, but his sandy hair did
not show the gray in it, and since his mustache had begun to
grow white he kept it clipped so short that it was unobtrusive.
His fresh skin made him look younger than he was. Not
long ago he had overheard the stenographers in his law office
discussing the ages of their employers. They had put him
down at fifty, agreeing that his two partners must be considerably
older than he—which was not the case. Wanning had
an especially kindly feeling for the little new girl, a copyist,
who had exclaimed that “Mr. Wanning couldn’t be fifty; he
seemed so boyish!”
Wanning lingered behind his wife, looking at her in the
mirror.
“Well, did you tell the girls, Julia?” he asked, trying to speak
casually.
Mrs. Wanning looked up and met his eyes in the glass.
“The girls?”
She noticed a strange expression come over his face.
“About your health, you mean? Yes, dear, but I tried not to
alarm them. They feel dreadfully. I’m going to have a talk
with Dr. Seares myself. These specialists are all alarmists, and
I’ve often heard of his frightening people.”
She rose and took her husband’s arm, drawing him toward
the fireplace.
“You are not going to let this upset you, Paul? If you take
care of yourself, everything will come out all right. You have
always been so strong. One has only to look at you.”
“Did you,” Wanning asked, “say anything to Harold?”
“Yes, of course. I saw him in town today, and he agrees
with me that Seares draws the worst conclusions possible. He
says even the young men are always being told the most terrifying
things. Usually they laugh at the doctors and do as
they please. You certainly don’t look like a sick man, and you
don’t feel like one, do you?”
She patted his shoulder, smiled at him encouragingly, and
rang for the maid to come and hook her dress.
When the maid appeared at the door, Wanning went out
through the bathroom to his own sleeping chamber. He was
too much dispirited to put on a dinner coat, though such
remissness was always noticed. He sat down and waited for
the sound of the gong, leaving his door open, on the chance
that perhaps one of his daughters would come in.
When Wanning went down to dinner he found his wife
already at her chair, and the table laid for four.
“Harold,” she explained, “is not coming home. He has to
attend a first night in town.”
A moment later their two daughters entered, obviously
“dressed.” They both wore earrings and masses of hair. The
daughters’ names were Roma and Florence,—Roma, Firenze,
one of the young men who came to the house often, but
not often enough, had called them. Tonight they were going
to a rehearsal of “The Dances of the Nations,”—a benefit
performance in which Miss Roma was to lead the Spanish
dances, her sister the Grecian.
The elder daughter had often been told that her name
suited her admirably. She looked, indeed, as we are apt to
think the unrestrained beauties of later Rome must have
looked,—but as their portrait busts emphatically declare they
did not. Her head was massive, her lips full and crimson,
her eyes large and heavy-lidded, her forehead low. At costume
balls and in living pictures she was always Semiramis,
or Poppea, or Theodora. Barbaric accessories brought out
something cruel and even rather brutal in her handsome
face. The men who were attracted to her were somehow
afraid of her.
Florence was slender, with a long, graceful neck, a restless
head, and a flexible mouth—discontent lurked about the corners
of it. Her shoulders were pretty, but her neck and arms
were too thin. Roma was always struggling to keep within a
certain weight—her chin and upper arms grew persistently
more solid—and Florence was always striving to attain a certain
weight. Wanning used sometimes to wonder why these
disconcerting fluctuations could not go the other way; why
Roma could not melt away as easily as did her sister, who had
to be sent to Palm Beach to save the precious pounds.
“I don’t see why you ever put Rickie Allen in charge of the
English country dances,” Florence said to her sister, as they
sat down. “He knows the figures, of course, but he has no
real style.”
Roma looked annoyed. Rickie Allen was one of the men
who came to the house almost often enough.
“He is absolutely to be depended upon, that’s why,” she
said firmly.
“I think he is just right for it, Florence,” put in Mrs. Wanning.
“It’s remarkable he should feel that he can give up the
time; such a busy man. He must be very much interested in
the movement.”
Florence’s lip curled drolly under her soup spoon. She shot
an amused glance at her mother’s dignity.
“Nothing doing,” her keen eyes seemed to say.
Though Florence was nearly thirty and her sister a little
beyond, there was, seriously, nothing doing. With so many
charms and so much preparation, they never, as Florence vulgarly
said, quite pulled it off. They had been rushed, time and
again, and Mrs. Wanning had repeatedly steeled herself to
bear the blow. But the young men went to follow a career in
Mexico or the Philippines, or moved to Yonkers, and escaped
without a mortal wound.
Roma turned graciously to her father.
“I met Mr. Lane at the Holland House today, where I was
lunching with the Burtons, father. He asked about you, and
when I told him you were not so well as usual, he said he
would call you up. He wants to tell you about some doctor he
discovered in Iowa, who cures everything with massage and
hot water. It sounds freakish, but Mr. Lane is a very clever
man, isn’t he?”
“Very,” assented Wanning.
“I should think he must be!” sighed Mrs. Wanning. “How
in the world did he make all that money, Paul? He didn’t
seem especially promising years ago, when we used to see so
much of them.”
“Corporation business. He’s attorney for the P. L. and G.,”
murmured her husband.
“What a pile he must have!” Florence watched the old negro’s
slow movements with restless eyes. “Here is Jenny, a
Contessa, with a glorious palace in Genoa that her father
must have bought her. Surely Aldrini had nothing. Have you
seen the baby count’s pictures, Roma? They’re very cunning.
I should think you’d go to Genoa and visit Jenny.”
“We must arrange that, Roma. It’s such an opportunity.”
Though Mrs. Wanning addressed her daughter, she looked at
her husband. “You would get on so well among their friends.
When Count Aldrini was here you spoke Italian much better
than poor Jenny. I remember when we entertained him, he
could scarcely say anything to her at all.”
Florence tried to call up an answering flicker of amusement
upon her sister’s calm, well-bred face. She thought her
mother was rather outdoing herself tonight,—since Aldrini
had at least managed to say the one important thing to Jenny,
somehow, somewhere. Jenny Lane had been Roma’s friend
and schoolmate, and the Count was an ephemeral hope in
Orange. Mrs. Wanning was one of the first matrons to declare
that she had no prejudices against foreigners, and at the dinners
that were given for the Count, Roma was always put
next him to act as interpreter.
Roma again turned to her father.
“If I were you, dear, I would let Mr. Lane tell me about his
doctor. New discoveries are often made by queer people.”
Roma’s voice was low and sympathetic; she never lost her
dignity.
Florence asked if she might have her coffee in her room,
while she dashed off a note, and she ran upstairs humming
“Bright Lights” and wondering how she was going to stand
her family until the summer scattering. Why could Roma
never throw off her elegant reserve and call things by their
names? She sometimes thought she might like her sister, if
she would only come out in the open and howl about her
disappointments.
Roma, drinking her coffee deliberately, asked her father if
they might have the car early, as they wanted to pick up Mr.
Allen and Mr. Rydberg on their way to rehearsal.
Wanning said certainly. Heaven knew he was not stingy
about his car, though he could never quite forget that in his
day it was the young men who used to call for the girls when
they went to rehearsals.
“You are going with us, Mother?” Roma asked as they
rose.
“I think so dear. Your father will want to go to bed early,
and I shall sleep better if I go out. I am going to town tomorrow
to pour tea for Harold. We must get him some new
silver, Paul. I am quite ashamed of his spoons.”
Harold, the only son, was a playwright—as yet “unproduced”—and
he had a studio in Washington Square.
A half-hour later, Wanning was alone in his library. He
would not permit himself to feel aggrieved. What was more
commendable than a mother’s interest in her children’s pleasures?
Moreover, it was his wife’s way of following things up,
of never letting die grass grow under her feet, that had helped
to push him along in the world. She was more ambitious than
he,—that had been good for him. He was naturally indolent,
and Julia’s childlike desire to possess material objects, to buy
what other people were buying, had been the spur that made
him go after business. It had, moreover, made his house the
attractive place he believed it to be.
“Suppose,” his wife sometimes said to him when the bills
came in from Céleste or Mme. Blanche, “suppose you had
homely daughters; how would you like that?”
He wouldn’t have liked it. When he went anywhere with
his three ladies, Wanning always felt very well done by. He
had no complaint to make about them, or about anything.
That was why it seemed so unreasonable—He felt along his
back incredulously with his hand. Harold, of course, was a
trial; but among all his business friends, he knew scarcely one
who had a promising boy.
The house was so still that Wanning could hear a faint, metallic
tinkle from the butler’s pantry. Old Sam was washing
up the silver, which he put away himself every night.
Wanning rose and walked aimlessly down the hall and out
through the dining-room.
“Any Apollinaris on ice, Sam? I’m not feeling very well tonight.”
The old colored man dried his hands.
“Yessah, Mistah Wanning. Have a little rye with it, sah?”
“No, thank you, Sam. That’s one of the things I can’t do
any more. I’ve been to see a big doctor in the city, and he tells
me there’s something seriously wrong with me. My kidneys
have sort of gone back on me.”
It was a satisfaction to Wanning to name the organ that had
betrayed him, while all the rest of him was so sound.
Sam was immediately interested. He shook his grizzled
head and looked full of wisdom.
“Don’t seem like a gen’leman of such a temperate life ought
to have anything wrong thar, sah.”
“No, it doesn’t, does it?”
Wanning leaned against the china closet and talked to Sam
for nearly half an hour. The specialist who condemned him
hadn’t seemed half so much interested. There was not a detail
about the examination and the laboratory tests in which Sam
did not show the deepest concern. He kept asking Wanning if
he could remember “straining himself” when he was a young
man.
“I’ve knowed a strain like that to sleep in a man for yeahs
and yeahs, and then come back on him, ’deed I have,” he said,
mysteriously. “An’ again, it might be you got a floatin’ kidney,
sah. Aftah dey once teah loose, dey sometimes don’t
make no trouble for quite a while.”
When Wanning went to his room he did not go to bed. He
sat up until he heard the voices of his wife and daughters in
the hall below. His own bed somehow frightened him. In all
the years he had lived in this house he had never before
looked about his room, at that bed, with the thought that he
might one day be trapped there, and might not get out again.
He had been ill, of course, but his room had seemed a particularly
pleasant place for a sick man; sunlight, flowers,—agreeable,
well-dressed women coming in and out.
Now there was something sinister about the bed itself,
about its position, and its relation to the rest of the furniture.
II
The next morning, on his way downtown, Wanning got off
the subway train at Astor Place and walked over to Washington
Square. He climbed three flights of stairs and knocked at
his son’s studio. Harold, dressed, with his stick and gloves in
his hand, opened the door. He was just going over to the
Brevoort for breakfast. He greeted his father with the cordial
familiarity practised by all the “boys” of his set, clapped him
on the shoulder and said in his light, tonsilitis voice:
“Come in, Governor, how delightful! I haven’t had a call
from you in a long time.”
He threw his hat and gloves on the writing table. He was a
perfect gentleman, even with his father.
Florence said the matter with Harold was that he had heard
people say he looked like Byron, and stood for it.
What Harold would stand for in such matters was, indeed,
the best definition of him. When he read his play “The Street
Walker” in drawing rooms and one lady told him it had the
poetic symbolism of Tchekhov, and another said that it suggested
the biting realism of Brieux, he never, in his most secret
thoughts, questioned the acumen of either lady. Harold’s
speech, even if you heard it in the next room and could not
see him, told you that he had no sense of the absurd,—a
throaty staccato, with never a downward inflection, trustfully
striving to please.
“Just going out?” his father asked. “I won’t keep you. Your
mother told you I had a discouraging session with Seares?”
“So awfully sorry you’ve had this bother, Governor; just as
sorry as I can be. No question about it’s coming out all right,
but it’s a downright nuisance, your having to diet and that
sort of thing. And I suppose you ought to follow directions,
just to make us all feel comfortable, oughtn’t you?” Harold
spoke with fluent sympathy.
Wanning sat down on the arm of a chair and shook his
head. “Yes, they do recommend a diet, but they don’t promise
much from it.”
Harold laughed precipitately. “Delicious! All doctors are,
aren’t they? So profound and oracular! The medicine-man;
it’s quite the same idea, you see; with tom-toms.”
Wanning knew that Harold meant something subtle,—one
of the subtleties which he said were only spoiled by being
explained—so he came bluntly to one of the issues he had in
mind.
“I would like to see you settled before I quit the harness,
Harold.”
Harold was absolutely tolerant.
He took out his cigarette case and burnished it with his
handkerchief.
“I perfectly understand your point of view, dear Governor,
but perhaps you don’t altogether get mine. Isn’t it so? I am
settled. What you mean by being settled, would unsettle me,
completely. I’m cut out for just such an existence as this; to
live four floors up in an attic, get my own breakfast, and have
a charwoman to do for me. I should be awfully bored with an
establishment. I’m quite content with a little diggings like
this.”
Wanning’s eyes fell. Somebody had to pay the rent of even
such modest quarters as contented Harold, but to say so
would be rude, and Harold himself was never rude. Wanning
did not, this morning, feel equal to hearing a statement of his
son’s uncommercial ideals.
“I know,” he said hastily. “But now we’re up against hard
facts, my boy. I did not want to alarm your mother, but I’ve
had a time limit put on me, and it’s not a very long one.”
Harold threw away the cigarette he had just lighted in a
burst of indignation.
“That’s the sort of thing I consider criminal, Father, absolutely
criminal! What doctor has a right to suggest such a
thing? Seares himself may be knocked out tomorrow. What
have laboratory tests got to do with a man’s will to live? The
force of that depends upon his entire personality, not on any
organ or pair of organs.”
Harold thrust his hands in his pockets and walked up and
down, very much stirred. “Really, I have a very poor opinion
of scientists. They ought to be made serve an apprenticeship
in art, to get some conception of the power of human motives.
Such brutality!”
Harold’s plays dealt with the grimmest and most depressing
matters, but he himself was always agreeable, and he insisted
upon high cheerfulness as the correct tone of human
intercourse.
Wanning rose and turned to go. There was, in Harold, simply
no reality, to which one could break through. The young
man took up his hat and gloves.
“Must you go? Let me step along with you to the sub. The
walk will do me good.”
Harold talked agreeably all the way to Astor Place. His
father heard little of what he said, but he rather liked his
company and his wish to be pleasant.
Wanning went to his club for luncheon, meaning to spend
the afternoon with some of his friends who had retired from
business and who read the papers there in the empty hours
between two and seven. He got no satisfaction, however.
When he tried to tell these men of his present predicament,
they began to describe ills of their own in which he could not
feel interested. Each one of them had a treacherous organ of
which he spoke with animation, almost with pride, as if it
were a crafty business competitor whom he was constantly
outwitting. Each had a doctor, too, for whom he was ardently
soliciting business. They wanted either to telephone
their doctor and make an appointment for Wanning, or to
take him then and there to the consulting room. When he did
not accept these invitations, they lost interest in him and remembered
engagements. He called a taxi and returned to the
offices of McQuiston, Wade, and Wanning.
Settled at his desk, Wanning decided that he would not
go home to dinner, but would stay at the office and dictate
a long letter to an old college friend who lived in Wyoming.
He could tell Douglas Brown things that he had not
succeeded in getting to any one else. Brown, out in the
Wind River mountains, couldn’t defend himself, couldn’t
slap Wanning on the back and tell him to gather up the sunbeams.
He called up his house in Orange to say that he would not
be home until late. Roma answered the telephone. He spoke
mournfully, but she was not disturbed by it.
“Very well, Father. Don’t get too tired,” she said in her well
modulated voice.
When Wanning was ready to dictate his letter, he looked
out from his private office into the reception room and saw
that his stenographer in her hat and gloves, and furs of the
newest cut, was just leaving.
“Goodnight, Mr. Wanning,” she said, drawing down her
dotted veil.
Had there been important business letters to be got off on
the night mail, he would have felt that he could detain her,
but not for anything personal. Miss Doane was an expert
legal stenographer, and she knew her value. The slightest
delay in dispatching office business annoyed her. Letters that
were not signed until the next morning awoke her deepest
contempt. She was scrupulous in professional etiquette, and
Wanning felt that their relations, though pleasant, were
scarcely cordial.
As Miss Doane’s trim figure disappeared through the outer
door, little Annie Wooley, the copyist, came in from the stenographers’
room. Her hat was pinned over one ear, and she
was scrambling into her coat as she came, holding her gloves
in her teeth and her battered handbag in the fist that was
already through a sleeve.
“Annie, I wanted to dictate a letter. You were just leaving,
weren’t you?”
“Oh, I don’t mind!” she answered cheerfully, and pulling
off her old coat, threw it on a chair. “I’ll get my book.”
She followed him into his room and sat down by a table,—though
she wrote with her book on her knee.
Wanning had several times kept her after office hours to
take his private letters for him, and she had always been good-natured
about it. On each occasion, when he gave her a dollar
to get her dinner, she protested, laughing, and saying that she
could never eat so much as that.
She seemed a happy sort of little creature, didn’t pout when
she was scolded, and giggled about her own mistakes in spelling.
She was plump and undersized, always dodging under
the elbows of taller people and clattering about on high heels,
much run over. She had bright black eyes and fuzzy black hair
in which, despite Miss Doane’s reprimands, she often stuck
her pencil. She was the girl who couldn’t believe that Wanning
was fifty, and he had liked her ever since he overheard
that conversation.
Tilting back his chair—he never assumed this position
when he dictated to Miss Doane—Wanning began: “To Mr.
D. E. Brown, South Forks, Wyoming.”
He shaded his eyes with his hand and talked off a long
letter to this man who would be sorry that his mortal frame
was breaking up. He recalled to him certain fine months they
had spent together on the Wind River when they were young
men, and said he sometimes wished that like D. E. Brown, he
had claimed his freedom in a big country where the wheels
did not grind a man as hard as they did in New York. He had
spent all these years hustling about and getting ready to live
the way he wanted to live, and now he had a puncture the
doctors couldn’t mend. What was the use of it?
Wanning’s thoughts were fixed on the trout streams and
the great silver-firs in the canyons of the Wind River Mountains,
when he was disturbed by a soft, repeated sniffling. He
looked out between his fingers. Little Annie, carried away by
his eloquence, was fairly panting to make dots and dashes fast
enough, and she was sopping her eyes with an unpresentable,
end-of-the-day handkerchief.
Wanning rambled on in his dictation. Why was she crying?
What did it matter to her? He was a man who said good-morning
to her, who sometimes took an hour of the precious
few she had left at the end of the day and then complained
about her bad spelling. When the letter was finished, he
handed her a new two dollar bill.
“I haven’t got any change tonight; and anyhow, I’d like
you to eat a whole lot. I’m on a diet, and I want to see everybody
else eat.”
Annie tucked her notebook under her arm and stood looking
at the bill which she had not taken up from the table.
“I don’t like to be paid for taking letters to your friends,
Mr. Wanning,” she said impulsively. “I can run personal letters
off between times. It ain’t as if I needed the money,” she
added carelessly.
“Get along with you! Anybody who is eighteen years old
and has a sweet tooth needs money, all they can get.”
Annie giggled and darted out with the bill in her hand.
Wanning strolled aimlessly after her into the reception
room.
“Let me have that letter before lunch tomorrow, please,
and be sure that nobody sees it.” He stopped and frowned. “I
don’t look very sick, do I?”
“I should say you don’t!” Annie got her coat on after considerable
tugging. “Why don’t you call in a specialist? My
mother called a specialist for my father before he died.”
“Oh, is your father dead?”
“I should say he is! He was a painter by trade, and he fell
off a seventy-foot stack into the East River. Mother couldn’t
get anything out of the company, because he wasn’t buckled.
He lingered for four months, so I know all about taking care
of sick people. I was attending business college then, and sick
as he was, he used to give me dictation for practise. He made
us all go into professions; the girls, too. He didn’t like us to
just run.”
Wanning would have liked to keep Annie and hear more
about her family, but it was nearly seven o’clock, and he knew
he ought, in mercy, to let her go. She was the only person to
whom he had talked about his illness who had been frank and
honest with him, who had looked at him with eyes that concealed
nothing. When he broke the news of his condition to
his partners that morning, they shut him off as if he were
uttering indecent ravings. All day they had met him with a
hurried, abstracted manner. McQuiston and Wade went out
to lunch together, and he knew what they were thinking, perhaps
talking, about. Wanning had brought into the firm valuable
business, but he was less enterprising than either of his
partners.
III
In the early summer Wanning’s family scattered. Roma
swallowed her pride and sailed for Genoa to visit the Contessa
Jenny. Harold went to Cornish to be in an artistic atmosphere.
Mrs. Wanning and Florence took a cottage at York
Harbor where Wanning was supposed to join them whenever
he could get away from town. He did not often get away. He
felt most at ease among his accustomed surroundings. He
kept his car in the city and went back and forth from his office
to the club where he was living. Old Sam, his butler, came in
from Orange every night to put his clothes in order and make
him comfortable.
Wanning began to feel that he would not tire of his office in
a hundred years. Although he did very little work, it was
pleasant to go down town every morning when the streets
were crowded, the sky clear, and the sunshine bright. From
the windows of his private office he could see the harbor and
watch the ocean liners come down the North River and go
out to sea.
While he read his mail, he often looked out and wondered
why he had been so long indifferent to that extraordinary
scene of human activity and hopefulness. How had a short-lived
race of beings the energy and courage valiantly to begin
enterprises which they could follow for only a few years; to
throw up towers and build sea-monsters and found great
businesses, when the frailest of the materials with which they
worked, the paper upon which they wrote, the ink upon their
pens, had more permanence in this world than they? All this
material rubbish lasted. The linen clothing and cosmetics of
the Egyptians had lasted. It was only the human flame that
certainly, certainly went out. Other things had a fighting
chance; they might meet with mishap and be destroyed, they
might not. But the human creature who gathered and shaped
and hoarded and foolishly loved these things, he had no
chance—absolutely none. Wanning’s cane, his hat, his topcoat,
might go from beggar to beggar and knock about in this
world for another fifty years or so; but not he.
In the late afternoon he never hurried to leave his office
now. Wonderful sunsets burned over the North River, wonderful
stars trembled up among the towers; more wonderful
than anything he could hurry away to. One of his windows
looked directly down upon the spire of Old Trinity, with the
green churchyard and the pale sycamores far below. Wanning
often dropped into the church when he was going out to
lunch; not because he was trying to make his peace with
Heaven, but because the church was old and restful and familiar,
because it and its gravestones had sat in the same place for
a long while. He bought flowers from the street boys and
kept them on his desk, which his partners thought strange
behavior, and which Miss Doane considered a sign that he
was failing.
But there were graver things than bouquets for Miss Doane
and the senior partner to ponder over.
The senior partner, McQuiston, in spite of his silvery hair
and mustache and his important church connections, had rich
natural taste for scandal.—After Mr. Wade went away for his
vacation, in May, Wanning took Annie Wooley out of the
copying room, put her at a desk in his private office, and
raised her pay to eighteen dollars a week, explaining to McQuiston
that for the summer months he would need a secretary.
This explanation satisfied neither McQuiston nor Miss
Doane.
Annie was also paid for overtime, and although Wanning
attended to very little of the office business now, there was a
great deal of overtime. Miss Doane was, of course, ‘above’
questioning a chit like Annie; but what was he doing with his
time and his new secretary, she wanted to know?
If anyone had told her that Wanning was writing a book,
she would have said bitterly that it was just like him. In his
youth Wanning had hankered for the pen. When he studied
law, he had intended to combine that profession with some
tempting form of authorship. Had he remained a bachelor, he
would have been an unenterprising literary lawyer to the end
of his days. It was his wife’s restlessness and her practical turn
of mind that had made him a money-getter. His illness
seemed to bring back to him the illusions with which he left
college.
As soon as his family were out of the way and he shut up
the Orange house, he began to dictate his autobiography to
Annie Wooley. It was not only the story of his life, but an
expression of all his theories and opinions, and a commentary
on the fifty years of events which he could remember.
Fortunately, he was able to take great interest in this undertaking.
He had the happiest convictions about the clear-cut
style he was developing and his increasing felicity in phrasing.
He meant to publish the work handsomely, at his own expense
and under his own name. He rather enjoyed the
thought of how greatly disturbed Harold would be. He and
Harold differed in their estimates of books. All the solid
works which made up Wanning’s library, Harold considered
beneath contempt. Anybody, he said, could do that sort of
thing.
When Wanning could not sleep at night, he turned on the
light beside his bed and made notes on the chapter he meant
to dictate the next day.
When he returned to the office after lunch, he gave instructions
that he was not to be interrupted by telephone calls, and
shut himself up with his secretary.
After he had opened all the windows and taken off his coat,
he fell to dictating. He found it a delightful occupation, the
solace of each day. Often he had sudden fits of tiredness; then
he would lie down on the leather sofa and drop asleep, while
Annie read “The Leopard’s Spots” until he awoke.
Like many another business man Wanning had relied so
long on stenographers that the operation of writing with a
pen had become laborious to him. When he undertook it, he
wanted to cut everything short. But walking up and down his
private office, with the strong afternoon sun pouring in at his
windows, a fresh air stirring, all the people and boats moving
restlessly down there, he could say things he wanted to say. It
was like living his life over again.
He did not miss his wife or his daughters. He had become
again the mild, contemplative youth he was in college, before
he had a profession and a family to grind for, before the two
needs which shape our destiny had made of him pretty much
what they make of every man.
At five o’clock Wanning sometimes went out for a cup of
tea and took Annie along. He felt dull and discouraged as
soon as he was alone. So long as Annie was with him, he
could keep a grip on his own thoughts. They talked about
what he had just been dictating to her. She found that he
liked to be questioned, and she tried to be greatly interested
in it all.
After tea, they went back to the office. Occasionally Wanning
lost track of time and kept Annie until it grew dark. He
knew he had old McQuiston guessing, but he didn’t care.
One day the senior partner came to him with a reproving air.
“I am afraid Miss Doane is leaving us, Paul. She feels that
Miss Wooley’s promotion is irregular.”
“How is that any business of hers, I’d like to know? She has
all my legal work. She is always disagreeable enough about
doing anything else.”
McQuiston’s puffy red face went a shade darker.
“Miss Doane has a certain professional pride; a strong feeling
for office organization. She doesn’t care to fill an equivocal
position. I don’t know that I blame her. She feels that
there is something not quite regular about the confidence you
seem to place in this inexperienced young woman.”
Wanning pushed back his chair.
“I don’t care a hang about Miss Doane’s sense of propriety.
I need a stenographer who will carry out my instructions. I’ve
carried out Miss Doane’s long enough. I’ve let that schoolma’am
hector me for years. She can go when she pleases.”
That night McQuiston wrote to his partner that things
were in a bad way, and they would have to keep an eye on
Wanning. He had been seen at the theatre with his new
stenographer.
That was true. Wanning had several times taken Annie to
the Palace on Saturday afternoon. When all his acquaintances
were off motoring or playing golf, when the down-town offices
and even the streets were deserted, it amused him to
watch a foolish show with a delighted, cheerful little person
beside him.
Beyond her generosity, Annie had no shining merits of
character, but she had the gift of thinking well of everything,
and wishing well. When she was there Wanning felt as if there
were someone who cared whether this was a good or a bad
day with him. Old Sam, too, was like that. While the old
black man put him to bed and made him comfortable, Wanning
could talk to him as he talked to little Annie. Even if he
dwelt upon his illness, in plain terms, in detail, he did not feel
as if he were imposing on them.
People like Sam and Annie admitted misfortune,—admitted
it almost cheerfully. Annie and her family did not consider
illness or any of its hard facts vulgar or indecent. It had its
place in their scheme of life, as it had not in that of Wanning’s
friends.
Annie came out of a typical poor family of New York. Of
eight children, only four lived to grow up. In such families
the stream of life is broad enough, but runs shallow. In the
children, vitality is exhausted early. The roots do not go down
into anything very strong. Illness and deaths and funerals, in
her own family and in those of her friends, had come at frequent
intervals in Annie’s life. Since they had to be, she and
her sisters made the best of them. There was something to be
got out of funerals, even, if they were managed right. They
kept people in touch with old friends who had moved uptown,
and revived kindly feelings.
Annie had often given up things she wanted because there
was sickness at home, and now she was patient with her boss.
What he paid her for overtime work by no means made up to
her what she lost.
Annie was not in the least thrifty, nor were any of her
sisters. She had to make a living, but she was not interested
in getting all she could for her time, or in laying up for
the future. Girls like Annie know that the future is a very uncertain
thing, and they feel no responsibility about it. The
present is what they have—and it is all they have. If Annie
missed a chance to go sailing with the plumber’s son on Saturday
afternoon, why, she missed it. As for the two dollars
her boss gave her, she handed them over to her mother. Now
that Annie was getting more money, one of her sisters quit a
job she didn’t like and was staying at home for a rest. That
was all promotion meant to Annie.
The first time Annie’s boss asked her to work on Saturday
afternoon, she could not hide her disappointment. He suggested
that they might knock off early and go to a show, or
take a run in his car, but she grew tearful and said it would be
hard to make her family understand. Wanning thought perhaps
he could explain to her mother. He called his motor and
took Annie home.
When his car stopped in front of the tenement house on
Eighth Avenue, heads came popping out of the windows for
six storys up, and all the neighbor women, in dressing sacks
and wrappers, gazed down at the machine and at the couple
alighting from it. A motor meant a wedding or the hospital.
The plumber’s son, Willy Steen, came over from the corner
saloon to see what was going on, and Annie introduced him
at the doorstep.
Mrs. Wooley asked Wanning to come into the parlor and
invited him to have a chair of ceremony between the folding
bed and the piano.
Annie, nervous and tearful, escaped to the dining-room—the
cheerful spot where the daughters visited with each other
and with their friends. The parlor was a masked sleeping
chamber and store room.
The plumber’s son sat down on the sofa beside Mrs.
Wooley, as if he were accustomed to share in the family councils.
Mrs. Wooley waited expectant and kindly. She looked the
sensible, hard-working woman that she was, and one could
see she hadn’t lived all her life on Eighth Avenue without
learning a great deal.
Wanning explained to her that he was writing a book which
he wanted to finish during the summer months when business
was not so heavy. He was ill and could not work regularly.
His secretary would have to take his dictation when he felt
able to give it; must, in short, be a sort of companion to him.
He would like to feel that she could go out in his car with
him, or even to the theater, when he felt like it. It might have
been better if he had engaged a young man for this work, but
since he had begun it with Annie, he would like to keep her if
her mother was willing.
Mrs. Wooley watched him with friendly, searching eyes.
She glanced at Willy Steen, who, wise in such distinctions,
had decided that there was nothing shady about Annie’s boss.
He nodded his sanction.
“I don’t want my girl to conduct herself in any such way as
will prejudice her, Mr. Wanning,” she said thoughtfully. “If
you’ve got daughters, you know how that is. You’ve been liberal
with Annie, and it’s a good position for her. It’s right
she should go to business every day, and I want her to do her
work right, but I like to have her home after working hours. I
always think a young girl’s time is her own after business
hours, and I try not to burden them when they come home.
I’m willing she should do your work as suits you, if it’s her
wish; but I don’t like to press her. The good times she misses
now, it’s not you nor me, sir, that can make them up to her.
These young things has their feelings.”
“Oh, I don’t want to press her, either,” Wanning said hastily.
“I simply want to know that you understand the situation.
I’ve made her a little present in my will as a recognition that
she is doing more for me than she is paid for.”
“That’s something above me, sir. We’ll hope there won’t be
no question of wills for many years yet,” Mrs. Wooley spoke
heartily. “I’m glad if my girl can be of any use to you, just so
she don’t prejudice herself.”
The plumber’s son rose as if the interview were over.
“It’s all right, Mama Wooley, don’t you worry,” he said.
He picked up his canvas cap and turned to Wanning. “You
see, Annie ain’t the sort of girl that would want to be spotted
circulating around with a monied party her folks didn’t know
all about. She’d lose friends by it.”
After this conversation Annie felt a great deal happier. She
was still shy and a trifle awkward with poor Wanning when
they were outside the office building, and she missed the old
freedom of her Saturday afternoons. But she did the best she
could, and Willy Steen tried to make it up to her.
In Annie’s absence he often came in of an afternoon to have
a cup of tea and a sugar-bun with Mrs. Wooley and the
daughter who was “resting.” As they sat at the dining-room
table, they discussed Annie’s employer, his peculiarities, his
health, and what he had told Mrs. Wooley about his will.
Mrs. Wooley said she sometimes felt afraid he might disinherit
his children, as rich people often did, and make talk; but
she hoped for the best. Whatever came to Annie, she prayed
it might not be in the form of taxable property.
IV
Late in September Wanning grew suddenly worse. His
family hurried home, and he was put to bed in his house
in Orange. He kept asking the doctors when he could get
back to the office, but he lived only eight days.
The morning after his father’s funeral, Harold went to the
office to consult Wanning’s partners and to read the will.
Everything in the will was as it should be. There were no
surprises except a codicil in the form of a letter to Mrs. Wanning,
dated July 8th, requesting that out of the estate she
should pay the sum of one thousand dollars to his stenographer,
Annie Wooley, “in recognition of her faithful services.”
“I thought Miss Doane was my father’s stenographer,”
Harold exclaimed.
Alec McQuiston looked embarrassed and spoke in a low,
guarded tone.
“She was, for years. But this spring,—” he hesitated.
McQuiston loved a scandal. He leaned across his desk toward
Harold.
“This spring your father put this little girl, Miss Wooley, a
copyist, utterly inexperienced, in Miss Doane’s place. Miss
Doane was indignant and left us. The change made comment
here in the office. It was slightly—No, I will be frank with
you, Harold, it was very irregular.”
Harold also looked grave. “What could my father have
meant by such a request as this to my mother?”
The silver haired senior partner flushed and spoke as if he
were trying to break something gently.
“I don’t understand it, my boy. But I think, indeed I prefer
to think, that your father was not quite himself all this
summer. A man like your father does not, in his right senses,
find pleasure in the society of an ignorant, common little girl.
He does not make a practise of keeping her at the office after
hours, often until eight o’clock, or take her to restaurants and
to the theater with him; not, at least, in a slanderous city like
New York.”
Harold flinched before McQuiston’s meaning gaze and
turned aside in pained silence. He knew, as a dramatist, that
there are dark chapters in all men’s lives, and this but too
clearly explained why his father had stayed in town all summer
instead of joining his family.
McQuiston asked if he should ring for Annie Wooley.
Harold drew himself up. “No. Why should I see her? I
prefer not to. But with your permission, Mr. McQuiston, I
will take charge of this request to my mother. It could only
give her pain, and might awaken doubts in her mind.”
“We hardly know,” murmured the senior partner, “where
an investigation would lead us. Technically, of course, I cannot
agree with you. But if, as one of the executors of the will,
you wish to assume personal responsibility for this bequest,
under the circumstances—irregularities beget irregularities.”
“My first duty to my father,” said Harold, “is to protect my
mother.”
That afternoon McQuiston called Annie Wooley into his
private office and told her that her services would not be
needed any longer, and that in lieu of notice the clerk would
give her two weeks’ salary.
“Can I call up here for references?” Annie asked.
“Certainly. But you had better ask for me, personally. You
must know there has been some criticism of you here in the
office, Miss Wooley.”
“What about?” Annie asked boldly.
“Well, a young girl like you cannot render so much personal
service to her employer as you did to Mr. Wanning
without causing unfavorable comment. To be blunt with you,
for your own good, my dear young lady, your services to
your employer should terminate in the office, and at the close
of office hours. Mr. Wanning was a very sick man and his
judgment was at fault, but you should have known what a girl
in your station can do and what she cannot do.”
The vague discomfort of months flashed up in little Annie.
She had no mind to stand by and be lectured without having
a word to say for herself.
“Of course he was sick, poor man!” she burst out. “Not as
anybody seemed much upset about it. I wouldn’t have given
up my half-holidays for anybody if they hadn’t been sick, no
matter what they paid me. There wasn’t anything in it for
me.”
McQuiston raised his hand warningly.
“That will do, young lady. But when you get another
place, remember this: it is never your duty to entertain or to
provide amusement for your employer.”
He gave Annie a look which she did not clearly understand,
although she pronounced him a nasty old man as she hustled
on her hat and jacket.
When Annie reached home she found Willy Steen sitting
with her mother and sister at the dining-room table. This was
the first day that Annie had gone to the office since Wanning’s
death, and her family awaited her return with suspense.
“Hello yourself,” Annie called as she came in and threw her
handbag into an empty armchair.
“You’re off early, Annie,” said her mother gravely. “Has the
will been read?”
“I guess so. Yes, I know it has. Miss Wilson got it out of
the safe for them. The son came in. He’s a pill.”
“Was nothing said to you, daughter?”
“Yes, a lot. Please give me some tea, mother.” Annie felt
that her swagger was failing.
“Don’t tantalize us, Ann,” her sister broke in. “Didn’t you
get anything?”
“I got the mit, all right. And some back talk from the old
man that I’m awful sore about.”
Annie dashed away the tears and gulped her tea.
Gradually her mother and Willy drew the story from her.
Willy offered at once to go to the office building and take his
stand outside the door and never leave it until he had
punched old Mr. McQuiston’s face. He rose as if to attend to
it at once, but Mrs. Wooley drew him to his chair again and
patted his arm.
“It would only start talk and get the girl in trouble, Willy.
When it’s lawyers, folks in our station is helpless. I certainly
believed that man when he sat here; you heard him yourself.
Such a gentleman as he looked.”
Willy thumped his great fist, still in punching position,
down on his knee.
“Never you be fooled again, Mama Wooley. You’ll never
get anything out of a rich guy that he ain’t signed up in the
courts for. Rich is tight. There’s no exceptions.”
Annie shook her head.
“I didn’t want anything out of him. He was a nice, kind
man, and he had his troubles, I guess. He wasn’t tight.”
“Still,” said Mrs. Wooley sadly, “Mr. Wanning had no call
to hold out promises. I hate to be disappointed in a gentleman.
You’ve had confining work for some time, daughter; a
rest will do you good.”
Smart Set, October 1919