As one that in the sapless winter of life
Feels the benumbing touch of icy death
Chill his warm pulses, and no more for strife
Against the foe that ever followeth
Finds the old fire within, or power, or breath,
But knows that soon the eternal frost shall bind
These failing organs of his earthly mind:
And looking backward through the misty years
Beyond the harvest and the summer glow,
Into awakening life's fresh springtide, hears
Voices that rang around him long ago,—
Strange sweet dream-music that he seems to know,
And dimly sees old faces that made bright
The days of childhood with love's softest light:
Like one beneath the glimmering starlight treading
Ways unfamiliar save in the full sun,
He moves bewildered where remembrance, shedding
Faint fitful gleams, illumines one by one
Far-distant scenes where life was first begun,
Quick with light-hearted fancies and fresh hope,
Fearless and steadfast with all foes to cope:
And as he looks he wonders if indeed
That life beyond the years be truly his—
His those high-soaring hopes, that simple creed,
That buoyant spirit: till some light that is
The lode-star of his life shines out in this
Far-off child-world, some goal whereto his aim
Has aye been set unchangingly the same.
And so to eyes that through long-buried ages
Look on that alien-seeming world, that glows
Pictured in fire upon the sacred pages
Where God his dealings with his children shows,—
A larger life than our dwarfed spirit knows,—
Man in the giant vigour of his prime
Looming heroic even through guilt and crime;
Creature in converse with Creator,—signs
Of power writ large in heaven and on the earth,—
Pillar of cloud by day and fire that shines
In darkness,—plague and pestilence and dearth
And deluge,—almost from our very birth
Familiar,—yet how strange and far away
From all the fever of our little day.
Yet as we look on that mysterious story,
Scarce feeling kinship with that primal race,
We that with sin have marred and dimmed the glory
Of God's own presence manifest by grace,
Until he seems to hide afar his face,
Find something in our deadened hearts that rings
Responsive to those far-off echoings.
Ours the old war with sin, the struggle of soul
In passions' eddying waters, ours the choice
To falter and fail, or battle towards the goal
Unyielding; and at times our hearts rejoice,
When borne from out the distance comes a voice
Of brother-men that in the self-same strife
Have fought through weakness and have won their life.
And more than all, when haply shines above
The clouds and heavy mists of low desire
The perfect beauty of true human love,
Beaconing through the darkness like a fire,
And witnessing that hearts can yet aspire
To kinship with the soul that shone in Ruth,
Of woman's faithfulness and woman's truth.