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Title: The mother

Author: Pearl S. Buck

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THE MOTHER




_By Pearl S. Buck_

  THE MOTHER

  THE FIRST WIFE
    AND OTHER STORIES

  SONS

  THE GOOD EARTH

  EAST WIND: WEST WIND

  ALL MEN ARE BROTHERS
    [SHUI HU CHUAN]
    TRANSLATED FROM THE CHINESE




  THE
  MOTHER

  _by Pearl S. Buck_

  THE JOHN DAY COMPANY

  _New York_




  COPYRIGHT, 1934, BY PEARL S. BUCK


  MANUFACTURED IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA
  FOR THE JOHN DAY COMPANY, INC., NEW YORK,
  BY J. J. LITTLE & IVES COMPANY, NEW YORK




THE MOTHER




I


In the kitchen of the small thatched farmhouse the mother sat on a low
bamboo stool behind the earthen stove and fed grass deftly into the
hole where a fire burned beneath the iron cauldron. The blaze was but
just caught and she moved a twig here, a handful of leaves there, and
thrust in a fresh bit of the dried grass she had cut from the hillsides
last autumn. In the corner of the kitchen as near as she could creep to
the fire sat a very old and weazened woman, wrapped in a thick padded
coat of bright red cotton stuff, whose edges showed under a patched
coat of blue she wore over it. She was half blind with a sore disease
of the eyes, and this had well-nigh sealed her eyelids together. But
through the small slits left open she could see a great deal still, and
she watched the flare of the flames as they leaped and caught under
the strong and skillful hands of the mother. Now she said, her words
hissing softly through her sunken, toothless gums, “Be careful how you
feed the fire--there is only that one load--is it two?--and the spring
is but newly come and we have long to go before the grass is long
enough to cut and here I am as I am and I doubt I can ever go again
and pick a bit of fuel--a useless old crone now, who ought to die--”

These last words the old woman said many times a day and every time she
said them she waited to hear the son’s wife speak as she now did, “Do
not say it, old mother! What would we do if we had not you to watch the
door while we are in the field and see that the little ones do not fall
into the pond?”

The old mother coughed loudly at this and gasped out of the midst of
her coughing, “It is true--I do that--the door must be watched in these
evil times with thieves and robbers everywhere. If they came here, such
a screeching as I would raise, daughter! Well I mind it was not so when
I was young--no, then if you left a hoe out in the night it was there
at dawn and in summer we tied the beast to the door hasp outside and
there it stood again the next day and--”

But the young mother although she laughed dutifully and called out,
“Did you, then, old mother!” did not hear the old woman, who talked
incessantly throughout the day. No, while the old cracked voice rambled
on the young mother thought of the fuel and wondered indeed if it would
last until this spring planting were finished when she could take time
to go out with her knife and cut small branches from trees and pick
up this bit and that. It was true that just outside the door of the
kitchen at the edge of the threshing-floor, which was also dooryard,
there were still two ricks of rice straw, neatly rounded and roofed
with hard packed clay to shield them from the damps of rains and snow.
But rice straw was too good to burn. Only city folk burned rice straw,
and she or her man would carry it into the city in great bundles upon
a pole and gain good silver for it. No, rice straw could not be burned
except in city houses.

She fed the grass into the stove bit by bit, absorbed in the task, the
firelight falling on her face, a broad, strong face, full lips, and
darkly brown and red with wind and sun. Her black eyes were shining in
the light, very clear eyes, set straight beneath her brows. It was a
face not beautiful but passionate and good. One would say, here is a
quick-tempered woman but warm wife and mother and kind to an old woman
in her house.

The old woman chattered on. She was alone all day except for the little
children since her son and son’s wife must labor on the land, and now
it seemed there were many things she had to tell this daughter-in-law
whom she loved. Her old wheezing voice went on, pausing to cough now
and again in the smoke which poured out of the stove. “I ever did say
that when a man is hungered and especially a young and hearty son
like mine, an egg stirred into noodles--” The old voice lifted itself
somewhat higher against the fretting of two children who clung to their
mother’s shoulders as she stooped to feed the fire.

But the mother went steadily on with her task, her face quiet and in
repose. Yes, she was as quiet as though she did not hear the fretting
of the children, this boy and this girl, and as though she did not
hear the endless old voice. She was thinking that it was true she was
a little late tonight There was a deal to be done on the land in the
spring, and she had stayed to drop the last row of beans. These warm
days and these soft damp nights, filled with dew--one must make the
most of them, and so she had covered the last row. This very night life
would begin to stir in those dry beans. This thought gave her content.
Yes, that whole field would begin to stir with life tonight secretly
in the damp warm earth. The man was working there still, pressing the
earth tight over the rows with his bare feet. She had left him there
because over the fields came the voices of the children crying her
name, and she had hastened and come home.

The children were standing hungrily at the kitchen door when she
reached there and they were both weeping, the boy gently and steadily,
his eyes tearless, and the little girl whimpering and chewing her fist.
The old woman sat listening to them serenely. She had coaxed them for
a time but now they were beyond her coaxing and would not be comforted
and so she let them be. But the mother said nothing to them. She went
swiftly to the stove, stooping to pick up a load of fuel as she went.
Yet this was sign enough. The boy ceased his howling and ran after her
with all the speed of his five years, and the girl came after as best
she could, being but three and a little less.

Now the food in the cauldron was boiling and from under the wooden lid
clouds of fragrant steam began to creep forth. The old woman drew deep
breaths and champed her empty old jaws a little. Under the cauldron the
flames leaped high and beat against its iron bottom and finding no vent
they spread and flew out again, changing into dense smoke that poured
into the small room. The mother drew back and pulled the little girl
back also. But the acrid smoke had already caught the child and she
blinked and rubbed her eyes with her grimy fists and began to scream.
Then the mother rose in her quick firm way and she lifted the child and
set her outside the kitchen door, saying, “Stay there, small thing!
Ever the smoke hurts your eyes and ever you will thrust your head into
it just the same.”

The old woman listened as she always did whenever her son’s wife spoke,
and she took it as a fresh theme for something to say herself. Now she
began, “Aye, and I always said that if I had not had to feed the fire
for so many years I would not be half blind now. Smoke it was that made
me be so blind as I am now and smoke--”

But the mother did not hear the old voice. She heard the sound of the
little girl as she sat there flat upon the earth, screaming and rubbing
her eyes and essaying to open them. It was true the child’s eyes were
always red and sore. Yet if anyone said to the mother, “Has not your
child something amiss with her eyes?” the mother answered, “It is only
that she will thrust her head into the fiery smoke when I am burning
the grass in the oven.”

But this crying did not move her as once it had. She was too busy now,
and children came thick and fast. When her first son had been born, she
could not bear to hear him cry at all. Then it had seemed to her that
when a child cried a mother ought to still it somehow and give it ease,
and so when the child wept she stopped whatever she did and gave him
her breast. Then the man grew angry because she stopped so often at her
share of the work, and he roared at her, “What--shall you do thus and
leave it all to me? Here be you, but just begun your bearing and for
these next twenty years shall you be suckling one or another, and am I
to bear this? You are no rich man’s wife who needs do naught but bear
and suckle and can hire the labor done!”

She flew back at him then as ever she did, for they were both young and
full of temper and passion, and she cried at him, “And shall I not have
a little something for my pains? Do you go loaded many months to your
work as I must do, and do you have the pains of birth? No, when you
come home you rest, but when I go home there is the food to cook and a
child to care for and an old woman to coax and coddle and tend for this
and that--”

So they quarreled heartily for a while and neither was the victor and
neither vanquished, they were so well matched. But still this one
quarrel did not need to last long; her breasts soon went dry, for she
conceived as easily as a sound and cleanly beast does. Even now was
her milk dry again, though one child she dropped too soon last summer
when she fell and caught herself upon the point of the plough.... Well,
children must make shift now as best they could, and if they wept they
must weep, and it was true that she could not run to give them suck,
and they must wait and suit their hunger to her coming. So she said,
but the truth was her heart was softer than her speech, and she still
made haste if her children called to her.

When the cauldron boiled a while and the smoke was mingled with the
smell of the fragrant rice, she went and found a bowl and first she
poured it full for the old woman. She set it on the table in the larger
room where they all lived, and then she led her there, scarcely heeding
her gabbling voice, “--and if you mix pease with the rice it does
make such a fine full taste as ever was--” And the old woman seated
herself and seized the bowl in her two chill dry hands and fell silent,
suddenly trembling with greediness for the food, so that the water ran
from the corners of her wrinkled mouth, and she fretted, “Where is the
spoon--I cannot find my spoon--”

The mother put the porcelain spoon into the fumbling old hand and she
went out and this time she found two small tin bowls and filled them
and she found two small pairs of bamboo chopsticks, and she took one
bowl to the girl first because she was still weeping and rubbing her
eyes. The child sat in the dust of the threshing-floor, and what with
her tears and what with her grimy fists, her face was caked with mud
and tears. Now the mother lifted her to her feet and wiped her face
somewhat with the palm of her rough dark hand, and then lifting the
edge of the patched coat the child wore, she wiped her eyes. But she
was gentle enough, for it was true the child’s eyes were red and tender
and the edges of the lids turned out and raw, and when the child turned
her head wincing and whimpering, the mother let be in pity, troubled
for the moment with the child’s pain. She set the bowl then upon a rude
and unpainted table that stood outside the door of the house and she
said to the child in her loud, kind voice, “Come--eat!”

The girl went unsteadily and stood clinging to the table, her
red-rimmed eyes half closed against the piercing gold of the evening
sun, and then stretched her hands toward the bowl. The mother cried,
“Take heed--it is hot!”

And the girl hesitated and began to blow her little shallow breaths
upon the food to cool it. But the mother continued to gaze upon her,
still troubled as she gazed, and she muttered to herself, “When he
takes that next load of rice straw to the city I will ask him to go to
a medicine shop and buy some balm for sore eyes.”

Now the boy was complaining because she had not set his bowl down on
the table, too, and so she went and fetched it and set it down and for
a time there was silence.

Then the mother felt herself too weary for a while even to eat and she
gave a great sigh and went and fetched the little bamboo stool and set
it by the door and sat down to rest. She drew in her breath deeply
and smoothed back her rough sun-browned hair with her two hands and
looked about her. The low hills that circled about this valley where
their land lay grew slowly black against a pale yellow sky, and in
the heart of this valley, in the small hamlet, fires were lit for the
evening meal and smoke began to rise languidly into the still windless
air. The mother watched it and was filled with content. Of the six or
seven houses which made up the hamlet there was not one, she thought
suddenly, in which the mother did better for her children than did she
for hers. Some there were who were richer; that wife of the innkeeper,
doubtless, had some silver and to spare, for she wore two silver rings
upon her hands and rings in her ears such as the young mother used to
long for in her girlhood and never had. Well, even so, she had liefer
see her own spare silver go into the good flesh the children wore
upon their bones. The gossip said the innkeeper gave his children but
the meats the guests left in their bowls. But the mother gave her own
children good rice that they grew upon their land, and if the girl’s
eyes were well there would be nothing wrong with them at all; sound and
well grown were they, and the boy big enough for seven or eight. Yes,
she had sound children always, and if that one had not come too soon,
and died when it had breathed but once, it would have been a fair boy
by now, too, and trying to walk soon.

She sighed again. Well, here was this new one coming in a month or two,
and it was enough to think about. But she was glad. Yes, she was glad
and best content when she was big with child and when she was full with
life....

Someone came out of the door across the street of the little hamlet,
and out of the smoking doorway she could see her husband’s cousin’s
wife, and she called, “Ah, you are cooking, too! I am but just
finished!”

“Yes--yes--” came the other’s voice, carelessly cheerful. “And I was
just saying, I dare swear you are finished, you are so forward with
your work.”

But the mother called back loudly and courteously, “No--no--it is only
that my children grow hungry betimes!”

“Truly a very able, forward woman!” cried the cousin’s wife again and
went within once more, carrying the grass she had come to fetch. The
mother sat on a while in the evening twilight, her face half smiling.
It was true she could rightly be proud, proud of her own strength,
proud of her children, proud of that man of hers. But even so there
could not be peace for long. The boy thrust his bowl suddenly before
her, “M-ma, more!”

She rose then to fill it for him again, and when she came out of the
door the sun rested in a dip between the hills, on the edge of the
very field where she had worked that day long. It rested there, caught
seemingly for an instant between the hills, and hung motionless, huge
and solidly gold, and then it went slipping slowly out of sight. Out
of the immediate dusk she saw the man coming along a footpath, his hoe
over his shoulder and caught under his raised arm as he came buttoning
his coat. He walked light and lithe as a young male cat, and suddenly
he broke into singing. He loved to sing, his voice high and quivering
and clear, and many a song he knew, so that oftentimes upon a holiday
he was asked to sing for all in the teashop and so pass the time away.
He lowered his voice as he came to the house, and when at last he
reached the threshold he was only singing a very little but still in
that high, shaking, thrilling voice, his words set into some swift
rhythm. He put his hoe against the wall, and the old woman, hearing
him, woke out of a doze that had fallen on her after she had eaten and
she began to speak as though she had not left off, “As I said, my son
likes a little pease mixed in his rice and such a full sweet taste--”

The man laughed an easy idle laugh and went into the house, and out of
the door his pleasant voice came, “Aye, old mother, and so I do!”

Outside the door the girl child, her bowl emptied, sat passive and
filled and now that the sun was gone she opened her eyes a little and
looked about her more easily and without complaining. The mother went
into the kitchen again and brought out a steaming bowl of rice for
the man. It was a large bowl of coarse blue and white pottery, and it
was filled to the brim. Into it the mother had dropped an egg she had
saved from the few fowls they kept and now the fresh white of the egg
began to harden. When the man worked hard he must have a bit of meat
or an egg. However they might quarrel, it was a pleasure to her to see
him fed well, and all their quarreling, she thought to herself, was
only of the lips. Well she loved to see him eat, even if sometimes she
belabored him with her tongue for something. She called now to the old
woman, “I have put a new-laid egg into your son’s rice! And he has
cabbage, too.”

The old woman heard this and began instantly and quickly, “Oh, aye--a
new-laid egg! I ever did say a new-laid egg--it is the best thing for a
young man. It mends the strength--”

But no one listened. The man ate hastily, being mightily hungered,
and in no time he was calling for the mother to fill his bowl again,
thumping the table with his empty bowl to hasten her. When it was
filled she went and fetched a bowl for herself. But she did not sit
down beside the man. She sat upon her low stool in the dooryard and
supped her rice with pleasure, for she loved her food as a healthy
beast does. Now and again she rose to fetch a bit of cabbage from the
man’s bowl, and as she ate she stared into the dark red sky between
the two hills. The children came and leaned upon her and held up their
mouths to be fed and often the mother put a bit between their lips with
her chopsticks. And although they were filled and no longer hungry, and
although it was what they had eaten, yet this food from their mother’s
bowl seemed better to them than what they had in their own. Even the
yellow farmyard dog came near with confidence. He had been sitting in
hope under the table, but the man kicked him, and he slunk out and
caught deftly the bits of rice the mother threw him once or twice.

Thrice the mother rose and filled the man’s bowl and he ate to
repletion and gave a grunt of satisfaction and then into his empty
bowl she poured boiling water and he supped it loudly, rising now and
supping as he stood outside the door. When he was through and she had
taken his bowl he stood there a while, looking over the countryside as
the night covered it. There was a young spring moon in the sky, very
small and crystal pale among the stars. He stared at it and fell to
singing some soft twisting song as he stood.

Out of the other few houses in the hamlet men began to come now also.
Some shouted to each other of a game they had begun at the inn, and
some stood yawning and gaping at their doors. The young husband ceased
his singing suddenly and looked sharply across the street. There was
only one house where a man worked on while others rested. It was his
cousin. That fellow! He would work on even into the night. There he
was sitting at his door, his head bent to see the weaving of a basket
of some sort he made from willow withes. Well, some men were so, but as
for himself--a little game--he turned to speak to the woman and met her
hostile knowing look, and meeting it he cursed her silently. If he had
worked all day, could he not game a bit at night either? Was he to work
and work his life away? But he could not meet that steadfast, angry
look upon him. He shook himself petulantly as a child does and he said,
“After such a day of work as this--well, I will sleep then! I am too
weary to game tonight!”

He went into the house then and threw himself upon the bed and
stretched and yawned. His old mother, sightless in the dusk of the
lampless room, called out suddenly, “Has my son gone to bed?”

“Aye, mother!” he answered angrily. “And what else is there to do in
such a little empty place as this--work and sleep--work and sleep--”

“Yes, yes, work and sleep,” the old woman answered cheerfully, hearing
nothing of the anger in his voice, and she rose and felt her way to her
own corner where behind a blue cotton curtain her pallet was. But the
man was already asleep.

When she heard the sound of his breathing the mother rose, and the
children followed, clinging to her coat. She rinsed the bowls with a
little cold water from the jar that stood there by the kitchen door,
and set them in a cranny of the earthen wall. Then she went behind
the house, and in the dim light of the moon she lowered a wooden
bucket into a shallow well and dipped it full and took it to the jar
and filled it. Once more she went out and this time to untie the water
buffalo that stood tethered to one of the willow trees which grew
raggedly about the threshing-floor, and she fed it straw and a few
black pease with the straw. When the beast had eaten she led it into
the house and tied it to the post of the bed where the man slept. The
fowls were already roosting beneath the bed, and they cackled drowsily
at her coming and fell silent again.

Once more she went out and called and a pig grunted out of the
gathering darkness. She had fed it at noon and she did not feed it now,
but pushing and prodding it gently she forced it into the house. Only
the yellow dog she left for it must lie across the threshold.

All the time the two children had followed her as best they could,
although she moved as she would without stopping for them. Now they
clung to her trousered legs, whimpering and crying. She stooped and
lifted the younger one into her arms, and leading the older by the
hand, she took them into the house and barred the door fast. Then she
went to the bed and laid the children at the man’s feet. Softly she
removed their outer garments and then her own, and creeping between the
man and his children, she stretched herself out and drew the quilt over
them all. There she lay stretched and still, her strong body full of
healthy weariness. Lying like this in the darkness she was filled with
tenderness. However impatient she might be in the day, however filled
with little sudden angers, at night she was all tenderness--passionate
tenderness to the man when he turned to her in need, tender to the
children as they lay helpless in sleep, tender to the old woman if she
coughed in the night and rising to fetch a little water for her, tender
even to the beasts if they stirred and frightened each other with their
own stirring, and she called out to them, “Be still,--sleep--day is a
long way off yet--” and hearing her rough kind voice even they were
quieted and slept again.

Now in the darkness the boy nuzzled against her, fumbling at her
breast. She let him suckle, lying in warm drowsiness. Her breast was
dry, but it was soft and gave remembered comfort to the child. Soon it
would be full again. Beyond the boy the girl lay, screwing her eyes
tightly shut, rubbing at their incessant itching as she fell asleep.
Even after she slept she tore at her eyes, not knowing what she did.

But soon they all slept. Heavily and deeply they all slept, and if the
dog barked in the night they all slept on except the mother, for to
them these were the sounds of the night. Only the mother woke to listen
and take heed and if she needed not to rise, she slept again, too.




II


Is there one day different from another under heaven for a mother? In
the morning the mother woke and rose before dawn, and while the others
still slept she opened the door and let out the fowls and the pig and
led the water buffalo into the dooryard, and she swept up what filth
they had dropped in the night and put it upon the pile at a corner of
the dooryard. While the others still lay she went into the kitchen and
lit the fire and made water hot for the man and for the old woman to
drink when they woke, and some she poured into a wooden basin to cool a
little, so that she might wash the girl’s eyes.

Every morning the girl’s eyes were sealed fast shut and she could
not see at all until they were washed. At first the child had been
frightened and so was the mother, but the old grandmother piped, “So
was I when I was a child, and I never died of it!”

Now they were used to it and they knew it meant nothing except that
children could be so and not die of it. Scarcely had the mother poured
the water before the children came, the boy leading the girl by the
hand. They had crept up silently and not waking the man, fearing his
anger, for with all his merry ways when he was minded to be merry, the
man could be angry and cuff them furiously if he were waked before his
sleep was ended. The two stood silently at the door and the boy winked
his eyes with sleep and stared at his mother and yawned, but the little
girl stood patiently waiting, her eyes sealed fast shut.

Then the mother rose quickly and taking the gray towel that hung upon a
wooden peg driven into the wall she dipped the end of it into the basin
and slowly wiped the girl’s eyes. The child whimpered soundlessly and
only with her breath, and the mother thought to herself as she thought
every morning, “Well and I must see to the balm for this child’s eyes.
Some time or other I must see to it. If I do not forget it when that
next load of rice straw is sold I will tell him to go to a medicine
shop--there is one there by the gate to the right and down a small
street--”

Even as she thought this the man came to the door drawing his garments
about himself, yawning aloud and scratching his head. She said,
speaking aloud her thought, “When you carry that load of rice straw in
to sell do you go to that medicine shop that is by the Water Gate, and
ask for a balm or some stuff for such sore eyes as these.”

But the man was sour with sleep still and he answered pettishly, “And
why should we use our scanty money for sore eyes when she can never die
of it? I had sore eyes when I was a child, and my father never spent
his money on me, though I was his only son who lived, too.”

The mother, perceiving it was an ill time to speak, said no more, and
she went and poured his water out. But she was somewhat angry too, and
she would not give it to him but set it down on the table where he
must reach for it. Nevertheless, she said nothing and for the time she
put the matter from her. It was true that many children had sore eyes
and they grew well as childhood passed, even as the man had, so that
although his eyes were scarred somewhat about the lids as one could see
who looked him full in the face, still he could see well enough if the
thing were not too fine. It was not as though he was a scholar and had
to peer at a book for his living.

Suddenly the old woman stirred and called out feebly, and the mother
fetched a bowl of hot water and took it to her to sup before she rose,
and the old woman supped it loudly, and belched up the evil winds from
her inner emptiness and moaned a little with her age that made her weak
in the morning.

The mother went back into the kitchen then and set about the morning
food, and the children sat close together upon the ground waiting,
huddled in the chill of the early morning. The boy rose at last and
went to where his mother fed the fire, but the girl sat on alone.
Suddenly the sun burst over the eastern hill and the light streamed in
great bright rays over the land and these rays struck upon the child’s
eyes so that she closed them quickly. Once she would have cried out,
but now she only drew her breath in hard as even a grown person might
have done and sat still, her red eyelids pressed close together, nor
did she move until she felt her mother push against her a bowl of food.

       *       *       *       *       *

Yes, it is true that all days were the same for the mother, but she
never felt them dull and she was well content with the round of the
days. If any had asked her she would have made those bright black eyes
of hers wide and said, “But the land changes from seedtime to harvest
and there is the reaping of the harvest from our own land and the
paying of the grain to the landlord from that land we rent, and there
are the holidays of the festivals and of the new year, yes and even the
children change and grow and I am busy bearing more, and to me there is
naught but change, and change enough to make me work from dawn to dark,
I swear.”

If she had a bit of time there were other women in the hamlet and this
woman due for birth and that one grieving because a child was dead,
or one had a new pattern for the making of a flower upon a shoe, or
some new way to cut a coat. And there were days when she went into the
town with some grain or cabbage to sell, she and the man together, and
there in the town were strange sights to see and think about if ever
she had time to think at all. But the truth was that this woman was
such a one as could live well content with the man and children and
think of nothing else at all. To her--to know the fullness of the man’s
frequent passion, to conceive by him and know life growing within her
own body, to feel this new flesh take shape and grow, to give birth and
feel a child’s lips drink at her breast--these were enough. To rise at
dawn and feed her house and tend the beasts, to sow the land and reap
its fruit, to draw water at the well for drink, to spend days upon the
hills reaping the wild grass and know the sun and wind upon her, these
were enough. She relished all her life: giving birth, the labor on the
land, eating and drinking and sleeping, sweeping and setting in rude
order her house and hearing the women in the hamlet praise her for her
skill in work and sewing; even quarreling with the man was good and set
some edge upon their passion for each other. So therefore she rose to
every day with zest.

On this day when the man had eaten and sighed and taken up his hoe and
gone somewhat halting as he always did to the field, she rinsed the
bowls and sat the old woman out in the warmth of the sun and bade the
children play near but not go too near the pond. Then she took her own
hoe and set forth, stopping once or twice to look back. The thin voice
of the old woman carried faintly on the breeze and the mother smiled
and went on. To watch the door was the sole thing the old woman could
do and she did it proudly. Old and half blind as she was, yet she could
see if anyone came near who should not and she could raise a cry. A
troublesome old woman she was, and a very troublesome old care often,
and worse than any child and more, because she grew wilful and could
not be cuffed as a child could. Yet when the cousin’s wife said one
day, “A very good thing it will be for you, goodwife, when that old
thing is dead, so old and blind and full of aches and pains and pettish
with her food doubtless,” the mother had replied in the mild way she
had when she was secretly tender, “Yes, but a very good use still, too,
to watch the door, and I hope she will live until the girl is bigger.”

Yes, the mother never had it in her heart to be hard on an old woman
like that. Women she had heard who boasted of how they waged war in
a house against their mothers-in-law and how they would not bear the
evil tempers of the elder women. But to this young mother the old woman
seemed but another child of hers, childish and wanting this and that as
children do, so that sometimes it seemed a weary thing to run hither
and thither upon the hills in spring seeking some herb the old soul
longed for, yet when one summer came and there was a fierce flux in
the hamlet so that two strong men died and some women and many little
children, and the old woman lay dying, or so it seemed, and so seemed
that they bought the best coffin they could and set there ready, the
young mother was truly glad when the old woman clung to her life and
came back to it for a while longer. Yes, even though the hardy old
creature had worn out two burial robes, the mother was glad to have
her live. It was a joke in the whole hamlet to see how the old life
hung on. The red coat the young mother had made to bury her in she wore
under a blue coat, as it was the custom to do in these parts, until it
was worn and gone and the old woman fretted and was ill at ease until
the mother had made it new again, and now she wore this second one
merrily and if any called out, “Are you still there then, old one?” she
would pipe back gaily, “Aye, here I be and my good grave clothes on me!
A-wearing them out, I be, and I cannot say how many more I can wear
out!”

And the old soul chuckled to think how good a joke it was that she
lived on and on and could not die.

Now, looking back, the mother smiled and caught the old woman’s voice,
“Rest your heart, good daughter--here am I to watch the door!”

Yes, she would miss this old soul when dead. Yet what use missing? Life
came and went at the appointed hour, and against such appointment there
was no avail.

Therefore the mother went her way tranquil.




III


When the beans she had planted in the field were come to flower and the
winds were full of their fragrance and when the valley was yellow with
the blooming of the rape they grew for the oil they pressed from its
seeds, the mother gave birth to her fourth child. There was no midwife
for hire in that small hamlet as there might be in a city or town or
even in a larger village, but women helped each other when the need
came, and there were grandmothers to say what to do if aught went wrong
and a child came perversely or if there was anything in a birth to
astonish a young woman. But the mother was well made, not too small or
slight, and loosely knit and supple in the thighs, and there was never
anything wrong with her. Even when she had fallen and dropped her child
too soon, she did it easily, and it was little to her save the pity of
a child lost and her trouble for naught.

In her time she called upon their cousin’s wife, and when the cousin’s
wife needed it, she did the same for her. So now upon a sweet and windy
day in spring the woman felt her hour on her and she went across the
field and set her hoe against the house and she called out to the
house across the way and the cousin’s wife came running, wiping her
hands on her apron as she came, for she had been washing clothes at
the pond’s edge. This cousin’s wife was a kindly, good woman, her face
round and brown and her nostrils black and upturned above a big red
mouth. She was a noisy, busy soul, talking the livelong day beside her
silent man, and now she came bustling and laughing and shouting as she
came, “Well, goodwife, I do ever say how good a thing it is that we do
not come together. I have been watching you and wondering which would
come first, you or I. But I am slower somehow this year than I thought
to be, and you are bearing and I but just begun!”

Her voice came out big and loud when she said this, for it was her way,
and women hearing called from other houses and they said gaily, “Your
hour is it, goodwife? Well, luck then, and a son!” And one who was a
widow and a gossip called out mournfully, “Aye, make the most of your
man while you have him, for here be I, a good bearing woman too, and no
man any more!”

But the mother answered nothing. She smiled a little, pale under the
dust and the sweat upon her face and she went into the house. The old
woman followed after chattering and laughing in her pleasure in the
hour, and she said, “I ever said when my hour used to come, and you
know I bore nine children in my time, daughter, and all good sound
children until they died, and I ever said--”

But the mother did not hear. She took a little stool and sat down
without speaking anything and smoothed the rough hair from her face
with her two hands and her hands were wet with sweat--not the sweat of
the fields, but this new sweat of pain. And she took up the edge of her
coat and wiped her face, and she uncoiled her thick long hair and bound
it fresh and firm. Then the pain caught her hard, and she bent over
silently, waiting.

Beside her the old woman clacked on and the cousin’s wife laughed at
her, but when she saw the mother bend like this she ran and shut the
door, and stood to wait. But suddenly there came a beating on the door
and it was the boy. He saw the door closed in the day and his mother
inside and he was afraid and he set up a cry and would have the door
opened. At first the mother said, “Let him be there so that I may have
peace at this task,” and the cousin’s wife went to the door and bawled
through the crack, “Stay there for a while for your mother is at her
task!” And the old woman echoed, “Stay there, my little one, and I will
give you a penny to buy peanuts if you will play well and you shall see
what your mother will have for you in a little while!”

But the boy was afraid to see the door shut in the daytime and would
have his way, and the girl began to whimper too as she did when her
brother cried and she came feeling her way and beat too upon the door
with her puny fists, and at last the mother grew angry in her pain and
the more angry because it bore her down so hard, and she rose and
rushed out and cuffed the boy heartily and shouted at him, “Yes, and
you do wear my life away and you never heed a thing that is said, and
here is another to come just like you, I do swear!”

But the instant she had beat him her heart grew soft and the anger in
her was satisfied and went out of her and she said more gently, “But
there, come in if you must, and it is nothing to see, either.” And she
said to the cousin’s wife, “Leave the door a little open, for they feel
shut out from me, and they are not used to it.”

Then she sat down again and held her head in her hands and gave herself
silently to her pains. As for the boy, he came in and seeing nothing,
but feeling his father’s cousin’s wife look at him hard as if he had
done some ill thing, he went out again. But the little girl came in
and sat down on the earthen floor beside her mother and held her hands
against her eyes to ease them.

Thus they waited, the one woman in silence and in pain, and the other
two talking of this and that in the hamlet and of the man in the
farthest house and how today he was off gambling and his land lying
there waiting for him, and how this morning the man and his wife had
had a mighty quarrel for that he had taken the last bit of money in the
house, and she, poor soul, had been no match for him, and when he was
gone she had sat upon the doorstep and wailed out her woes for all to
hear, and the cousin’s wife said, “It is not as if he ever won a bit to
bring home to her either. He can only lose and lose again, and this is
what makes her so sorrowful.” And the old woman sighed and spat upon
the floor and said, “Aye, a very sorrowful thing it is when a man is
made for losing and made so he never gains, but there be some men so,
and well I know it, but not in my house, thank the gods, for my son is
very good at winning in a game.”

But before she had finished speaking the mother cried out and turned
herself away a little from the girl and she loosened her girdle and
leaned forward upon the stool. Then did the cousin’s wife run forward
and she caught nimbly in her two hands that little child for whom they
waited, and it was a son.

As for the mother, she went and laid herself upon the bed and rested
after her labor, and rest was sweet and she slept heavily and long.
While she slept the cousin’s wife washed and wrapped the child and laid
him down beside the sleeping mother and she did not wake even when his
little squeaking cry rang out. The cousin’s wife went home then to her
work once more and she bade the old woman send the boy to call her when
the mother woke.

When the lad came crying, “Did you know I have a brother now?” she came
quickly with a bowl of soup, laughing at the boy and teasing him and
saying, “I brought the boy myself and do I not know?”

But the boy stared thoughtful at this and at last he said, “Is it not
ours then to keep?” and the women laughed, but the old woman laughed
loudest of all, because she thought the boy so clever. The mother drank
the soup then gratefully, and she murmured to her cousin’s wife, “It is
your good heart, my sister.”

But the cousin’s wife said, “Do you not the same for me in my hour?”

And so the two women felt themselves the more deeply friends because of
this hour common to them both and that must come again and yet again.




IV


But there was the man. To him there was no change in time, no hope of
any new thing day after day. Even in the coming of the children his
wife loved there was no new thing, for to him they were born the same
and one was like another and all were to be clothed and fed, and when
they were grown they must be wed in their turn and once more children
born and all was the same, each day like to another, and there was no
new thing.

In this little hamlet so had he himself been born, and except to go to
the small town which lay behind a curve of the hill upon the river’s
edge, he had never once seen anything new in any day he lived. When
he rose in the morning there was this circle of low round hills set
against this selfsame sky, and he went forth to labor until night, and
when night was come there were these hills set against this sky and he
went into the house where he had been born and he slept upon the bed
where he had slept with his own parents until it grew shameful and then
they had a pallet made for him.

Yes, and now he slept there in the bed with his own wife and children
and his old mother slept on the pallet, and it was the same bed and
the same house, and even in the house scarcely one new thing except the
few small things that had been bought at the time of his wedding, a new
teapot, the blue quilt upon the bed newly covered, new candlesticks and
a new god of paper on the wall. It was a god of wealth, and a merry old
man he was made to be, his robes all red and blue and yellow, but he
had never brought wealth to this house. No, this man looked often at
the god and cursed him in his heart because he could look so merrily
down from the earthen wall and into this poor room that was always and
ever as poor as it was.

Sometimes when the man came home from a holiday in town or when he had
gone on a rainy day to the little inn and gambled a while with the
idlers there, when he came home again to this small house, to this
woman bearing her children that he must labor to feed, it fell upon him
like a terror that so long as he lived there was naught for him but
this, to rise in the morning and go to this land of which they owned
but little and rented from a landlord who lived in pleasure in some far
city; to spend his day upon that rented land even as his father had
done before him; to come home to eat his same coarse food and never the
best the land could give, for the best must ever be sold for others to
eat; to sleep, to rise again to the same next day. Even the harvests
were not his own, for he must measure out a share to that landlord and
he must take another share and fee the townsman who was the landlord’s
agent. When he thought of this agent he could not bear it, for this
townsman was such a one as he himself would fain have been, dressed in
soft silk and his skin pale and fair and with that smooth oily look
that townsmen have who work at some small, light task and are well fed.

On such days when all these thoughts pressed on him he was very surly
and he spoke not at all to the woman except to curse her for some
slowness, and when her quick temper rose against him it was a strange
malicious pleasure to him to fall to loud quarreling with her, and it
eased him somehow, although she had often the best of him, too, because
her temper was more stout than his, except when she was angry at a
child. Even to his anger he could not cling as long as she did, but
grew weary of it and flung himself off to something else. Quickest of
all would her anger rise if he struck one of the children or shouted
at one if it cried. Then she could not bear it, and she flew against
him if it were to save a child and ever the child was right and he
was wrong, and this angered him more than anything, that she put the
children before him, or he thought she did.

Yes, on days like this he held as nothing even the good few holidays he
took, the feast days and the long idle winter days when he did nothing
but sleep, and when he could not sleep he gambled. A lucky gambler
he was, too, and he always came home with more than he took, and it
seemed an easy way to live, if he were a lone man and had but himself
to feed. He loved the chance of gambling and the excitement and the
merriment of the game and all the men crowded together to see what
lucky play he made. Truly luck was in his nimble fingers, which even
the plough and the hoe had not made stiff, for he was young yet, only
twenty and eight years of age, and he had never worked more than he
must.

But the mother never knew what was in the heart of the father of her
children. That he loved play she knew, but what matter that if he
did not lose at play? It was in truth a pride to her that when other
women complained aloud of their own men and how the scanty earnings of
the land were lost at that table in the inn, she need not complain,
and when one cried out to her, “If my poor wretch were but like that
pretty man of yours, goodwife, his fingers are faery somehow, so that
the money crawls to them of its own accord, seemingly, upon the gaming
table--a very lucky woman be you, goodwife!” she smiled complacently
and she did not often blame him for his play unless it served as excuse
for some other cause of quarrel.

And she did not blame him deeply that he could not work steadily hour
after hour in the fields as she did, though at the moment she might lay
about him sharply with her tongue. She knew that men cannot work as
women do, but have the hearts of children always in them, and she was
used now to working on in her steady way while he flung down his hoe
and laid himself upon the grass that grew on the footpath between this
field and the next and slept an hour or two. But when she said aught to
him in her scolding way, which was but the way, after all, her tongue
was used to speak, for secretly she loved him well, he would answer,
“Yes, and sleep I may for I have worked enough to feed myself.”

She might have said, “Have we not the children then and shall not each
do what he is able to make more for them?” But this she did not say
because it was true the children seemed ever hers and hers alone, since
he did nothing for them. Besides, her tongue was not so adroit as his
to find an answer.

But sometimes her wrath would come up hotly and then it would come
with more than her usual scolding speech. Once or twice in a season a
quarrel would go deep with her and give an unused bitterness to her
tongue. When the man bought some foolish trinket in the market with the
silver he had taken for the cabbage there, or when he was drunken on
a day that was not a holiday, then she would grow angry and well-nigh
she forgot she loved him in her heart. This was a deep fierce anger
too, which smouldered and broke forth so many hours after his misdeed
that the man had almost forgot what he had done, for it was his way to
forget easily anything that did not please him, and when her anger came
up in her like this she was helpless against it and it must out.

On such a day one autumn he came home with a gold ring on his finger,
or one he said was gold, and when she saw it her anger came up and she
cried in the strangest, hottest way, “You--and you will not take your
share of our common bitterness of life! No, you must needs go and spend
the scant bit we have for a silly ring to put upon your little finger!
And whoever heard of a good and honest poor man who wore a ring upon
his finger? A rich man, he may do it and nothing said, but if a poor
man does it, has it any good meaning? Gold! Whoever heard of a gold
ring bought for copper?”

At this he shouted at her, his face rebellious as a child’s, his red
lips pouting, “It is gold, I tell you! It is stolen from some rich
house, the man who sold it told me, and he showed it to me secretly
upon the street as I passed, and he had it under his coat, and let me
see it as I passed--”

But she sneered and said, “Yes, and what he saw was a silly countryman
whom he could trick! And even though it were gold, what if it be seen
upon your finger in the town some day and you be caught and thrown into
a gaol for thief and then how will we buy you out again, or even feed
you in the gaol? Give it to me and let me see if it be gold!”

But he would not give the toy to her. He shook himself sullenly as a
child does and suddenly she could not bear him. No, she flew at him and
scratched his smooth and pretty face and she beat him so heartily that
he was aghast at her and he tore the ring from his finger scornfully
but half frightened, too, and he cried, “There--take it! Very well I
know you are angry because I bought it for my own finger and not for
yours!”

At this she felt fresh anger, because when he spoke she was astonished
to know he spoke the truth, and it was secret pain to her that he never
bought any trinket to put into her ears or on her fingers as some men
do for their wives, and this she did think of when she saw the ring.
She stared at him and he said again, his voice breaking with pity for
himself and his hard life, “You ever do begrudge me the smallest good
thing for myself. No, all we have must go for those brats you breed!”

He began to weep then in good earnest and he went and flung himself
upon the bed and lay there weeping and making the most of his weeping
for her to hear, and his old mother who had heard the quarrel in
greatest fright ran to him as best she could and coaxed him lest he be
ill, and she cast hostile looks at the daughter-in-law whom commonly
she loved well enough, and the children wept when they saw their father
weep, and felt their mother hard and harsh.

But the mother was not cool yet. She picked up the ring from the dust
where he had thrown it and put it between her teeth and bit on it, lest
by any chance it might be the gold he said it was and a good bargain
they could sell again for something. It was true that sometimes stolen
things were cheaply sold, but scarcely, she thought, so cheaply as he
said this was, although he might have lied, perhaps, in fear of her.
But when she bit on it the thing would not give at all between her hard
white teeth as it must if the gold were pure, and she cried out in new
anger, “And if it were gold would it not be soft between my teeth?
It is brass and hard--” she gnawed at it a while and spat the yellow
shallow gold from out her mouth--“See, it has scarce been dipped even
in the gold!”

She could not bear it then that the man had been so childishly
deceived, and she went out from him to work upon the land, her heart
hard so that she would not see the sobbing children nor would she hear
the old mother’s quavering anxious voice that said, “When I was young
I let my man be pleased--a wife should let her man be pleased with a
little slight thing....” No, she would not hear anything to cool her
anger down.

But after she had worked a while on the land the gentle autumn wind
blew into her angry heart and cooled it without her knowing it.
Drifting leaves and brown hillsides from which the green of summer had
died away, the gray sky and the far cry of wild geese flying southward,
the quiescent land and all the quiet melancholy of the falling year
stole into her heart without her knowledge and made her kind again. And
while her hand scattered the winter wheat into the soft and well-tilled
soil, in her heart came quiet and she remembered that she loved the
man well and his laughing face came before her and stirred her and she
said to herself remorsefully, “I will make him a dainty dish for his
meal this noon. It may be I was too angry for but a little money spent,
after all.”

She was in great haste and longing to be gone then and at home to make
the dish and show him she was changed, but when she was come there he
still lay angry in the bed and he lay with his face inward and would
not say a word. When she had made the dish and had caught some shrimps
from the pond to mix into it as he liked and when she called him he
would not rise and he would not eat at all. He said very faintly as
though he were ill, “I cannot eat indeed--you have cursed the souls out
of me.”

She said no more then but set the bowl aside and went silent to her
work again, her lips pressed hard together, nor would she aid the old
mother when she besought her son to eat. But the mother could not beg
him for she remembered freshly all her anger. And as she went the dog
came up to her begging and hungry, and she went into the kitchen again
and there the dish was she had made for the man. She put out her hand
and muttered, “Well, then, I will even give it to the dog.” But she
could not do it. After all, it was food for men and not to be so wasted
and she set the dish back in the niche of the wall and found a little
stale cold rice and gave it to the dog. And she said to her heart that
she was angry still.

Yet in the night when she laid herself beside him and the children
curled against her in the darkness and she felt the man on her other
side, her anger was clean gone. Then it seemed to her this man was
but a child, too, and dependent on her as all in this house were, and
when the morning came she rose, very gentle and quiet, and after all
were fed except him, she went to him and coaxed him to rise and eat,
and when he saw her like this he rose slowly as though from a sick bed
and he ate a little of the dish she had made and then he finished it,
for it was one he loved. And while he ate the old woman watched him
lovingly, clacking as she watched, of this and that.

But he would not work that day. No, as the mother went out to the field
he sat upon a stool in the sun of the doorway and he shook his head
feebly and he said, “I feel a very weak place in me and a pain that
flutters at the mouth of my heart and I will rest myself this day.”

And the mother felt that she had been wrong to blame him so heartily
that he was like this and so she said, soothing him and sorry for her
anger, “Rest yourself, then,” and went her way.

But when she was gone the man grew restless and he was weary of his
mother’s constant chatter, for the old woman grew very merry to think
her son would be at home all day to talk to, though for the man it was
a dull thing to sit and listen to her and see the children playing.
He rose then, muttering he would be better if he had some hot tea in
him, and he went down the little street to the wayside inn his fifth
cousin kept. At the inn there were other men drinking tea, too, and
talking, and tables were set under a canopy of cloth upon the street,
where travelers might pass, and when such travelers stayed one heard
a tale or two of this strange thing and that, and even perhaps some
story-teller passed and told his tales, and indeed the inn was a merry,
noisy place.

But as he went the man met his sober cousin coming from the field for
his first morning meal, having already worked a space since dawn, and
this cousin called, “Where do you go and not at work?”

And the man answered complaining and very weak, “That woman of mine has
cursed me ill over some small thing I scarcely know, and there is no
pleasing her, and she cursed me so sore I had an illness in the night
and it frightened even her so that she bade me rest myself today and I
go to drink a little hot tea for the comfort of my belly.”

Then the cousin spat and passed on, saying nothing, for he was by
nature a man who did not speak unless he must, and kept what few
thoughts he had close in him.

       *       *       *       *       *

So was the man impatient with his life and it seemed to him a thing
not to be borne forever that there was to be no new thing for him, and
only this wheel of days, year upon year, until he grew old and died.
The more hard was it to him because the few travelers who came past
the wayside inn told him of strange and wonderful things beyond the
circle of the hills and at the mouth of the river that flowed past
them. There the river met the sea, they said, and there was a vast city
full of people of many hues of skin, and money was easy come by with
very little work for it and gaming houses everywhere and pretty singing
girls in every gaming house, such girls as the men in this hamlet had
never even seen and could not hope to see their lives long. Strange
sights there were in that city, streets as smooth as threshing-floors
and carts of every sort, houses tall as mountains and shops with
windows filled with merchandise of all the world that ships brought
there from over seas. A man could spend a lifetime there looking at
those windows and he could not finish with the looking. Good food and
plenty was there, too, sea fish and sea meats, and after he had eaten
a man might enter into a great playhouse where there was every sort
of play and picture, some merry to make a man burst his belly with
laughing and some strange and fierce and some very witty and vile to
see. And strangest thing of all was this, that in the great city all
the night was light as day with a sort of lamp they had, not made with
hands nor lit with any flame, but with some pure light that was caught
from out of heaven.

Sometimes the man gamed a while with such a traveler and ever the
traveler was astonished at so skilled a gamester as he in this small
country hamlet, and would cry, “Good fellow, you play as lucky as a
city man, I swear, and you could play in any city pleasure house!”

The man smiled to hear this, then, and he said earnestly, “Do you think
I could in truth?” and he would say in his own heart with scorn and
longing, “It is true there is not one in this little dull place who
dares play with me any more, and even in the town I hold my own against
the townsmen.”

When he thought of this more than ever did he long exceedingly to
leave this life of his upon the land he hated and often he muttered to
himself as his hoe rose and fell lagging over the clods, “Here I be,
young and pretty and with my luck all in my fingers, and here I be,
stuck like a fish in a well. All I can see is this round sky over my
head and the same sky in rain or shine, and in my house the same woman
and one child after another and all alike weeping and brawling and
wanting to be fed. Why should I wear my good body to the bone to feed
them and never find any merry thing at all for me in my own life?”

And indeed, when the mother had conceived and borne this last son he
was even sullen and angered against her because she bore so easily and
so quickly after the last birth, although very well he knew this is a
thing for which a wife should be praised and not blamed, and he might
complain with justice only if she were barren, but never if she bore in
her due season every year and sons more often than not.

But in these days justice was not in him. He was but a lad still in
some ways, and younger by some two years than his wife was, as the
custom was in those parts, where it was held fitting for a man to be
younger than his wife, and his heart rose hot and high within him and
it was nothing to him that he was the father of sons, seeing that he
longed for pleasure and strange sights and any idle joy that he could
find in some city far away.

And indeed he was such a one as heaven had shaped for joy. He was well
formed and not tall, but strong and slight and full of grace, his
bones small and exquisite. He had a pretty face, too, his eyes bright
and black and full of laughter at what time he was not sullen over
something else, and when he was in good company he could always sing a
new song of some kind and he had a quick and witty tongue, and he could
say a thing seeming simple but full of wit and hidden coarseness such
as the countrymen loved. He could set a whole crowd laughing with his
songs and wit, and men and women too liked him very well. When he heard
them laugh his heart leaped with pleasure in this power he had, and
when he came home again and saw his wife’s grave face and sturdy body
it seemed to him that only she did not know him for the fine man he
truly was, for only she never praised him. It was true he made no joke
in his own house and he was seldom merry even with his own children.
He was such a one as seemed to save all his good humor and his merry,
lovable looks for strangers and for those who were not of his own house.

And the woman knew this, too, so that half it angered her and half it
was a pain when other women cried, “That man of yours, I do declare his
tongue is good as any play, and his quick merry looks--”

And she would answer quietly, “Aye, a very merry man, truly,” and would
talk then of other things to hide her pain, because she loved him
secretly. And she knew he was never merry when he was with her.

       *       *       *       *       *

Now it happened that in the new summer time when the mother had borne
her fourth child, the most evil quarrel that ever was between the man
and woman came to pass. It was on a day in the sixth month of the year
and it was early summer and it was such a day in that summer as might
set any man to dreaming of new joy, and so that man had dreamed the
whole morning long. The air was so full of languor and soft warmth,
the leaves and grass so newly green, and the sky so bright and deep a
blue that scarcely could he work at all. He could not sleep, either,
for that day was too full of life for sleep, and the great heat not
yet come. Even the birds made continual songs and chirping and there
was a sweet wind, teasing and blowing now this fragrance and that down
from the hill where yellow fragrant lilies bloomed and wild wistaria
hung in pale purple wreaths. The wind blew against the sky, too, and
shifted the great billowing clouds as white as snow, and they floated
across the bright sky and set the hills and valley in such vivid light
and darkness as are seldom seen, so that now it was bright and now
shadowy, and there was no repose in the day. It was a day too merry for
work, and very disturbing to the heart of any man.

In the noontime of that bright day it happened that a pedlar of summer
stuffs came through the countryside, and he carried on his shoulder
a great heap of his stuffs, of every hue and shade, and some were
flowered, and as he went he called, “Cloth--good cloth for sale!”

When he came to this house where the man and the woman and the old
mother and the little children sat in the shade of their willow tree
and ate their noon meal he halted and cried, “Shall I stay, goodwife,
and show you my stuffs?”

But the mother called back, “We have no money to buy, unless it be a
foot of some common cheap stuff for this new son of mine. We be but
poor farmer folk and not able to buy new clothes nor much of any stuffs
except such as must be had to keep us from bareness!”

And the old woman, who must always put in her bit, cried in her little
old shrill voice, “Aye, it is true what my daughter-in-law says, and
the stuffs be very poor these days and washed to shreds in a time or
two, and I mind when I was young I wore my grandmother’s coat and it
was good till I was married and needing something new but still only
for pride’s sake, for the coat was good enough still, but here I be in
my second shroud and nearly ready for a third, the stuffs be so poor
and weak these days--”

Then the pedlar came near, scenting sale, and he was a man with very
pleasant and courteous coaxing ways such as pedlars have, and he
humored the mother and had a good kindly word for the old woman, too,
and he said to her, “Old mother, here I have a bit of cloth as good as
any the ancients had and good enough even for that new grandson you
have--goodwife, it is a bit left from a large piece that a rich lady
bought in a great village I went through today, and she bought it for
her only son. Of her I did ask the honest price seeing she cut from a
whole piece, but since there is only this bit left, I will all but give
it to you, goodwife, in honor of the fine new son you have there at
your breast.”

So saying these words smoothly and as though all in one flowing breath,
the pedlar drew from out his pack a very pretty end of cloth, and it
was as he said, flowered with great red peonies upon a grass-green
ground.

The old woman cried out with pleasure because her dim eyes could see
its hues so clear and bright, and the mother loved it when she saw it.
She looked down then at the babe upon her breast, naked except for
a bit of old rag about its belly, and it was true he was a fat and
handsome child, the prettiest of her three, and like the father, and he
would look most beautiful in that bit of flowery stuff. So it seemed
to the mother and she felt her heart grow weak in her and she said
unwillingly, “How much is that bit then? But still I cannot buy it for
we have scarcely enough to feed these children and this old soul and
pay the landlord too. We cannot buy such stuffs as rich women put upon
their only sons.”

The old woman looked very doleful at this, and the little girl had
slipped from her place and went to peer at the bright cloth, putting
her dim eyes near to see it. Only the elder lad ate on, caring nothing,
and the man sat idly, singing a little, careless of this bit of stuff
for no one but a child.

Then the pedlar dropped his voice low and coaxing and he held the
cloth near the child, but not too near either, careful lest some soil
come on it if it were not bought, and he said half whispering, “Such
cloth--such strength--such color--I have had many a piece pass through
my hands, but never such a piece as this. If I had a son of my own I
would have saved it out for him, but I have only a poor barren wife who
gives me no child at all, and why should the cloth be wasted on such as
she?”

The old woman listened to this tale and when she heard him say his wife
was barren she was vastly diverted and she cried out, “A pity, too, and
you so good a man! And why do you not take a little wife, good man,
and try again and see what you can do? I ever say a man must try three
women before he knows the fault is his--”

But the mother did not hear. She sat musing and unsure, and her heart
grew weaker still, for she looked down at her child and he was so
beautiful with this fine new stuff against his soft golden skin and his
red cheeks that she yielded and said, “What is your least price, then,
for more I cannot pay?”

Then the pedlar named a sum, and it was not too high and not as high
as she had feared, and her heart leaped secretly. But she shook her
head and looked grave and named half the sum, as the custom was in
bargaining in those parts. This was so little that the pedlar took the
cloth back quickly and put it in its place and made to go away again,
and then the mother, remembering her fair child, called out a sum a
little more, and so haggling back and forth and after many false starts
away the pedlar made, he threw down his pack again and pulled forth
the bit, agreeing at last to somewhat less than he had asked, and so
the mother rose to fetch the money from the cranny in the earthen wall
where it was kept.

Now all this time the man sat idly by, singing, and his high voice
made soft and small and stopping sometimes to sup down his hot water
that he drank always after he had eaten, and he took no part in this
bargain. But the pedlar being a very clever fellow and eager to turn
to his account every passing moment, took care to spread out seemingly
in carelessness a piece of grass cloth that he had, and it was that
cloth made of wild flax which cools the flesh upon a hot day in summer,
and in color it was like the sky, as clear, as blue. Then the pedlar
glanced secretly at the man to see if the man saw it, and he said half
laughing, “Have you bought a robe for yourself yet this summer? For
if you have not, I have it for you here, and at a price I swear is
cheaper than it can be bought in any shop in town.”

But the man shook his head and a dark look came down upon his idle,
pretty face, and he said with bitterness, “I have nothing wherewith to
buy myself anything in this house. Work I have and nothing else, and
all I gain for it is more to feed, the more I work.”

Now the pedlar had passed through many a town and countryside and it
was his trade to know men’s faces and he saw at a glance that this man
was one who loved his pleasure, and that he was like a lad held down
to life he was not ready for, and so he said in seeming kindliness and
pity, “It is true that I can see you have a very hard life and little
gain, and from your fine looks I see it is too hard a life. But if
you buy yourself a new robe you will find it like a very potent new
medicine to put pleasure in your heart. There is nothing like a new
summer robe to put joy in a man, and with that ring upon your finger
shined and cleaned and your hair smoothed with a bit of oil and this
new robe upon you, I swear I could not see a prettier man even in a
town.”

Now the man heard this and it pleased him and he laughed aloud half
sheepishly, and then he remembered himself and said, “And why should
I not for once have a new robe for myself? There is nothing ahead but
one after another of these young ones, and am I forever to wear my
old rags?” And he stooped swiftly and fingered the good stuff in his
fingers and while he looked at it the old mother was excited by the
thought and she cried, “It is a very fair piece, my son, and if you
must have a robe then this is as pretty a blue robe as ever I did see,
and I remember once your father had such a robe--was it when we were
wed? But no, I was wed in winter, yes, in winter, for I sneezed so at
the wedding and the men laughed to see a bride sneezing so--”

But the man asked suddenly and roughly, “How much will it be for a
robe?”

Now when the pedlar said the price, at that moment the mother came
forth with the money in her hand counted and exact to the last penny
and she cried out alarmed, “We can spend no more!”

At that cry of hers some desire hardened in the man and he said
wilfully, “But I will have myself a robe cut from this piece and I like
it very well so that I will have it for the once! There are those three
silver pieces I know we have.”

Now those three coins were of good value and coins the mother had
brought with her when she came to be wed, and her own mother had handed
them to her for her own when she left her home. They were her precious
possession and she had never found the hour when she could spend them.
Even when she had bought the coffin for the old mother when they
thought her dying, she had pinched and borrowed and would not spend her
own, and often the thought of those three silver pieces was in her mind
for safe riches, and they were there if ever times grew too hard, some
war or hardship that might come at any hour and lose them the fruits of
their land. With those three coins in the wall she knew they could not
starve for a while. So now she cried, “That silver we cannot spend!”

But the man leaped up as swift as a swallow and darted past her in
a fury and he went to that cranny and searched in it and seized the
silver. Yet the woman was after him, too, and she caught him and held
him and hung to him as he ran. But she was not quick enough and never
quick enough for his litheness. He threw her aside so that she fell
upon the earthen floor, and the child still in her arms, and he ran out
shouting as he ran, “Cut me off twelve feet of it and the foot and more
to spare that is the custom!”

This the pedlar made haste to do, and he took the silver coins quickly,
although indeed they were somewhat less than he had asked, but he was
anxious to be away and yet have his stuff sold, too. When the mother
came out at last the pedlar was gone and the man stood in the green
shade of the tree, the blue stuff bright and new in his two hands, and
her silver gone. The old woman sat afraid and when she saw the mother
come she began in haste to speak of this or that in a loud creaky
voice, “A very pretty blue, my son, and not dear, and a long summer
since you had a grass cloth--”

But the man looked blackly at the woman, his face dark and red, and he
roared at her, still bold with his anger, “Will you make it, then, or
shall I take it to some woman and pay her to make it and tell her my
wife will not?”

But the mother said nothing. She sat down again upon her little stool
and she sat silent at first, pale and shaken with her fall, and the
child she held still screamed in fright. But she paid no heed to him.
She set him on the ground to scream, and twisted up afresh the knot of
her loosened hair. She panted for a while and swallowed once or twice
and at last she said, not looking at the man, “Give it to me then. I
will make it.”

She was ashamed to have another do it and know the quarrel more than
they did now, watching from their doors when they heard the angry cries.

But from that day on the woman harbored this hour against the man. Even
while she cut the cloth and shaped it, and she did it well and the best
she knew to do, for it was good stuff and worth good care, still she
took no pleasure in the work and while she made the robe she stayed
hard and silent with the man, and she said no small and easy thing
about the day or what had happened in the street or any little thing
such as contented women say about a house. And because she was hard
with him in these small ways the man was sullen and he did not sing
and as soon as he had eaten he went away to the wayside inn and he sat
there among the men and drank his tea and gambled far into the night,
so that he must needs sleep late the next day. When he did so in usual
times she would scold him and keep him miserable until he gave over
for peace’s sake, but now she let him sleep and she went alone to the
fields, hard and silent against him whatever he might do, though her
heart was dreary, too, while she kept it hard.

Even when the robe was done at last, and she was long in making it
because there was the rice to be set and planted, even when it was
done she said nothing of how it looked upon him. She gave it to him
and he put it on and he shined his ring with bits of broken stone and
he smoothed his hair with oil he poured from the kitchen bottle and he
went swaggering down the street.

Yet even when this one and that cried out to him how fine he was and
how fine his robe, he took no full sweet pleasure in himself as he
might have done. She had said no word to him. No, when he had lingered
at the door an instant she went on with her task, bending to the
short-handled broom and sweeping about the house and never looking up
to ask if the robe fitted him or if his body was suited to its shape,
as she was wont to do if she had made him even so much as a pair of new
shoes. At last he had even said, half shy, “It seems to me you have
sewed this robe better than any robe I ever had, and it fits me as a
townsman’s does.”

But still she would not look up. She set the broom in its corner and
went and fetched a roll of cotton wool and set herself to spinning it
to thread, since she had used her store in the making of the blue robe.
At last she answered bitterly, “At the cost it was to me it should
look like an emperor’s robe.”

But she would not look at him, no, not even when he flung himself down
the street. She would not even look at him secretly when his back was
turned because she was so bitter against him, although her heart knew
the blue robe suited him well.




V


Through that day long the mother watched for the man to come home. It
was a day when the fields could be left to their own growing, for the
rice was planted in its pools, and in the shallow water and in the warm
sunlight the green young plants waved their newly forming heads in the
slight winds. There was no need to go out to the land that day.

So the mother sat under the willow tree spinning and the old woman
came to sit beside her, glad of one to listen to what she said, and
while she talked she unfastened her coat and stretched her thin old
withered arms in the hot sun and felt the good heat in her bones, and
the children ran naked in the sunshine too. But the mother sat silently
on, twisting the spindle with a sure movement between her thumb and the
finger she wet on her tongue, and the thread came out close spun and
white, and when she had made a length of it she wound it about a bit of
bamboo polished smooth to make a spool. She spun as she did all things,
firmly and well, and the thread was strong and hard.

Slowly the sun climbed to noon and she put her spinning down and rose.

“He will be coming home soon and hungry for all his blue robe,” she
said dryly, and the old woman answered, cackling with her ready, feeble
laughter, “Oh, aye, what is on a man’s belly is not the same as what is
in it--”

The mother went then and dipped rice with a gourd from the basket where
they kept it stored, and she leveled the gourd with her other hand so
not a grain was spilled, and she poured the rice into a basket made
of finely split bamboo and went along the path to the pond’s edge,
and as she went she looked down the street. But she saw no glimpse of
new blue. She stepped carefully down the bank and began to wash the
rice, dipping the basket into the water and scrubbing the grain with
her brown strong hands, dipping it again and again until the rice
shone clean and white as wet pearls. On her way back she stooped to
pull a head of cabbage where it grew, and threw a handful of grass to
the water buffalo tethered under a tree, and so she came again to the
house. Now the elder boy came home from the street leading his sister
by the hand, and the mother asked him quietly, “Saw you your father on
the street or in the inn or at anyone’s door?”

“He sat a while at the inn drinking tea this morning,” the boy replied,
wondering. “And I saw his robe, new and blue, and it was pretty and our
cousin when he knew how much it cost said it had cost my father very
dear.”

“Aye, it cost him dear, I swear!” said the mother, suddenly, her voice
hard.

And the girl piped up, echoing her brother, “Yes, his robe was
blue--even I could see that it was blue.”

But the mother said no more. The babe began to weep where he lay
sleeping in a winnowing basket and she went and picked him up and
opened her coat and held him to her breast, and she suckled him as she
went to cook the meal. But first she called to the old woman, “Turn
yourself where you sit, old mother, and watch and tell me if you see
the new blue of his robe, and I will put the meal on the table.”

“I will, then, daughter,” called the old dame cheerfully.

Yet when the rice was cooked and flaked, white and dry as the man loved
it, still he did not come. When the cabbage was tender and the woman
had even made a bit of sweet and sour sauce to pour upon its heart, as
he loved it, he did not come.

They waited a while and the old woman grew hungry and faint with the
smell of the food in her nostrils and she cried out, in a sudden small
anger, being so hungry, “Wait no more for that son of mine! The water
is leaking out of my mouth and my belly is as empty as a drum and still
he is not here!”

So the mother gave the old woman her bowl then and she fed the children
too and even let them eat of the cabbage, only she saved the heart of
it for him. She ate also after this, but sparingly for she seemed less
zestful in her hunger today, somehow, so there was still much rice left
and a good bowlful of the cabbage and this she put carefully away where
the wind would catch it and keep it fresh. It would be as good at night
as it was now if she heated it again. Then she gave suck to the babe,
and he drank his fill and slept, a round, fat, sturdy child, sleeping
in the strong sun and brown and red with its heat, and the two children
stretched in the shade of the willow tree and slept and the old woman
nodded on her bench, and over the whole small hamlet the peace of sleep
and the silence of the heat of noonday fell, so that even the beasts
stood with drooping, drowsy heads.

Only the mother did not sleep. She took up her spindle and she sat
herself in the shade of the willow tree that cast its shadow on the
western part of the threshing-floor and she twisted the thread and
wound it. But after a while she could not work. Through the morning she
had worked steadily and smoothly, twisting and turning and spinning,
but now she could not be still. It was as though some strange anxiety
gathered like a power in her body. She had never known the man not to
come home for his food. She murmured to herself, “It must be he has
gone into the town to game or for something or other.”

This she had not thought of, but the more she thought upon it the
more it seemed true that so he had done. And after a while her
cousin-neighbor came out to go to his fields and after a while his
wife awoke from where she had sat sleeping by a tree, and she called,
“Has your man gone for the day somewhere?”

The mother answered easily, “Aye, he has gone to the town on some
business of his own,” and the cousin searching slowly among his hoes
and spades for what he wanted called in his thin voice, “Aye, I saw him
gay in his new blue robe and set for town!”

“Aye,” said the woman.

Now her heart eased itself somewhat, and she fell to spinning again
with more zeal, since the cousin had seen him set for town. He had gone
for a day’s pleasure, doubtless, flinging himself off for the day to
revenge himself on her. It was what he would do with his new gown and
that brass ring of his scrubbed bright and clean and his hair covered
with oil. She nursed her anger somewhat at the thought. But her anger
was dead, and she could not make it live again, because it was mingled
with some strange anxiety still, for all the cousin’s words.

The afternoon wore on long and hot. The old woman woke and cried that
her mouth was dry as bark and the mother rose and fetched her tea to
drink, and the children woke and rolled in the dust a while and rose at
last to play, and the babe woke and lay merry in his basket, happy with
his sleep.

Still the mother could not rest. If she could have slept she would
have, and on any common day she could have dropped easily into sleep
even as she worked, since she was so sound and robust that sleep came
on her deep and sweet and without her seeking it. But there was some
gnawing in her heart today that held her wide awake and as though she
listened for some sound that must come.

She rose at last impatient with her waiting and weary of the empty
street that was empty for her so long as she did not see the one she
sought, and she took up the babe and set him on her thigh and she took
her hoe and went to the field, and she called to the old woman, “I go
to weed the corn on the south hillside.” And as she went she thought to
herself that it would be easier if she were not at the house, and the
hours would pass more quickly if she pushed her body to some hard labor.

So through the afternoon she worked in the corn field, her face
shielded from the sun’s heat with a blue cotton kerchief, and up and
down she moved her hoe unceasingly among the green young corn. It was
but a small, ragged field, for all of their land which could bear it
they put into rice, terracing even the hillsides as high as water could
be forced, because rice is a more dainty food than corn and sells for
higher price.

The sun poured down upon the shadeless hill and beat upon her and
soon her coat was wet and dark with her sweat. But she would not rest
at all except sometimes to suckle the babe when he cried, and then
she sat flat on the earth and suckled him and wiped her hot face and
stared across the brilliant summer land, seeing nothing. When he was
satisfied she put him down again to work once more and she worked until
her body ached and her mind was numb and she thought of nothing now
except of those weeds falling under the point of her hoe and withering
in the dry hot sunshine. At last the sun rested on the edge of the land
and the valley fell into sudden shadow. Then she straightened herself
and wiped her wet face with her coat and she muttered aloud, “Surely he
will be home waiting--I must go to make his food.” And picking up the
child from the bed of soft earth where she had laid him she went home.

But he was not there. When she turned the corner of the house he was
not there. The old woman was peering anxiously toward the field, and
the two children sat upon the doorstep waiting and weary and they cried
out when they saw her and she said bewildered, “Your father--is he not
come yet?”

“He has not come and we are hungry,” cried the boy, and the girl
echoed in her broken, childish way, “Not come, and we are hungry!”
and sat with her eyes fast shut against the piercing last golden rays
of the sun. And the old mother rose and hobbled to the edge of the
threshing-floor and called out shrilly to the cousin coming home, “Saw
you my son anywhere?”

But the mother cried out in sudden impatience, “Let be, old mother! Do
not tell all he is not come!”

“Well, but he does not,” said the old woman, peering, troubled.

But the mother said no more. She fetched cold rice for the children and
heated a little water and poured it over the rice for the old woman
and found a morsel of some old food for the dog, and while they ate
she went down the street, the babe upon her arm, to the wayside inn.
There were but few guests there now, and only a scattered one or two on
his way home to some near village, for it was the hour when men are in
their homes and the day’s work done. If he were there, she thought, he
would be sitting at a table nearest the street where he could hear and
see whatever passed, or at a table with a guest, for he would not be
alone if he could help it, or if there was a game going on, he would be
in the middle of it. But although she stared as she came there was no
glint of a new blue robe and no clatter of gambling upon a table. She
went and looked within the door then, but he was not there. Only the
innkeeper stood resting himself after the evening meal and he leaned
against the wall by his stove, his face black with the smoke and grease
of many days, for in such a blackish trade as his it seemed to him but
little use to wash himself, seeing he was black again so soon.

“Have you seen the father of my children?” the mother called.

But the innkeeper picked at his teeth with his black fingernail and
sucked and called back idly, “He sat here a while in that new blue
robe of his this morning and then he went townward for the day.” And
smelling some new gossip he cried afresh, “What--has aught happened,
goodwife?”

“Nothing--nothing--” replied the mother in haste. “He had business in
the town and it kept him late, I dare swear, and it may be he will
spend the night somewhere and come home tomorrow.”

“And what business?” asked the innkeeper suddenly curious.

“How can I know, being but a woman?” she answered and turned away.

But on the way home while her lips called answer back to those who
called to her as she passed, she thought of something. When she reached
the house she went in and went to that cranny and felt in it. It was
empty. Well she knew there had been a precious small store of copper
coins there, and a small silver bit, too, because he had sold the rice
straw for a good price a day or two ago, being clever at such things,
and he brought a good part of the money back. She had taken it from him
and counted it and put it into the cranny and there it should be. But
it was not there.

Then she knew indeed that he was gone. It came over her in a daze that
he was truly gone. She sat down suddenly there in the earthen house
upon the earthen floor and holding the babe in her arms she rocked
herself back and forth slowly and in silence. Well, he was gone! Here
was she with the three children and the old woman, and he gone!

The babe began to fret suddenly and without knowing what she did she
opened her bosom to him. The two children came in, the girl whimpering
and rubbing her eyes, and the old woman came in leaning on her staff
and saying over and over, “I do wonder where is my son. Daughter, did
my son say where he was? A very strange thing where my son is gone--”

Then the mother rose and said, “He will be back tomorrow, doubtless,
old mother. Lie you down now and sleep. He will be back tomorrow.”

The old mother listened and echoed, comforted, “Oh, aye, back tomorrow
doubtless,” and went to her pallet, feeling through the dim room.

Then the mother led the two children into the dooryard and washed them
as her wont was on a summer’s night before they slept, and she poured a
gourdful of water over each of them, rubbing their smooth brown flesh
clean with her palm as she poured. But she did not hear what they
said, nor did she heed the girl’s moaning of her eyes. Only when they
went to the bed and the boy cried, astonished that his father was not
come, “And where does my father sleep, then?”--only then did the mother
answer out of her daze, “Doubtless in the town, for he will come home
tomorrow or in a day or so,” and she added in sudden anger, “Doubtless
when that bit of money is gone he will be home again,” and she added
again and most bitterly, “And that new blue robe will be filthy and
ready for me to wash already, doubtless!”

And she was somehow glad she could be angry at him, and she held her
anger, clinging to it, because it made him seem more near, and she
clung to it while she led in the beast and barred the door against the
night and she muttered, “I dare swear I shall be just asleep when he
comes pounding at the door, even tonight!”

But in the dark night, in the still, hot night, in the silence of the
closed room, her anger went out of her and she was afraid. If he did
not come back what would she do, a lone woman and young?... The bed
was enormous, empty. She need take no care tonight, she might spread
her arms and legs out as she would. He was gone. Suddenly there fell
upon her the hottest longing for that man of hers. These six years
she had lain against him. Angry she might be with him in the day, but
at night she was near to him again and she forgot his idle ways and
his childishness. She remembered now how good and fair he was to look
upon, not coarse in the mouth and foul of breath as most men are, but a
very fair young man to see, and his teeth as white as rice. So she lay
longing for him, and all her anger was gone out of her and only longing
left.

When the morning came she rose weary with her sleeplessness, and again
she could be hard. When she rose and he did not come and she had turned
the beasts out and fed the children and the old woman, she hardened
herself and over and over she muttered half aloud, “He will come when
his money is gone--very well I know he will come then!”

When the boy stared at the emptiness of the bed and when he asked
astonished, “Where is my father still?” she replied sharply and in a
sudden loud voice, “I say he is away a day or two, and if any asks you
on the street you are to say he is away a day or so.”

Nevertheless on that day when the children were off to play here and
there she did not go to the fields. No, she set her stool so that
she could see through the short single street of the hamlet if any
came that way, and while she made answer somehow to the old mother’s
prattling she thought to herself that the blue robe was so clear a blue
she could see it a long way off and she set herself to spinning, and
with every twist she gave to the spindle she looked secretly down the
road. And she counted over in her mind the money he had taken and how
many days it might last, and it seemed to her it could not last more
than six or seven days, except he had those nimble lucky fingers of his
to game with and so he might make more and stay a little longer, too,
before he must come back. Times there were as the morning wore on when
she thought she could not bear the old mother’s prattling voice any
more, but she bore it still for the hope of seeing the man come home
perhaps.

When the children wandered home at noon hungry and the boy spied the
cabbage bowl set aside for his father and asked for some, she would
not let him have it. She cuffed him soundly when he asked again and she
answered loudly, “No, it is for your father. If he comes home tonight
he will be hungry and want it all for himself.”

The long still summer’s afternoon wore on, and he did not come, and the
sun set in its old way, heavy and full of golden light, and the valley
was filled with the light for a little while, and the night came and it
was deep and dark and now she refused no more. She set the bowl before
the children and she said, “Eat what you will, for it will spoil if it
is left until another day, and who knows--” and she dipped up some of
the sweet and sour sauce and gave it to the old woman saying, “Eat it,
and I will make fresh if he comes tomorrow.”

“Will he come tomorrow then?” the old woman asked, and the mother
answered sombrely, “Aye, tomorrow perhaps.”

That night she laid herself down most sorrowful and afraid upon her bed
and this night she said openly to her own heart that none knew if he
would ever come back again.

       *       *       *       *       *

Nevertheless, there was the hope of the seven days when his money might
be gone. One by one the seven days came, and in each one it seemed to
her in the midst of her waiting as though the day was come for his
return. She had never been a woman to gad about the little hamlet or
chatter overmuch with the other women there. But now one after another
of these twenty or so came by to see and ask, and they asked where her
man was, and they cried, “We are all one house in this hamlet and all
somehow related to him and kin,” and at last in her pride the mother
made a tale of her own and she answered boldly, from a sudden thought
in her head, “He has a friend in a far city, and the friend said there
was a place there he could work and the wage is good so that we need
not wear ourselves upon the land. If the work is not suited to him he
will come home soon, but if it be such work as he thinks fit to him, he
will not come home until his master gives him holiday.”

This she said as calmly as she ever spoke a truth, and the old woman
was astounded and she cried, “And why did you not tell me so good a
lucky thing, seeing I am his mother?”

And the mother made a further tale and she answered, “He told me not
to speak, old mother, because he said your tongue was as loose in your
mouth as any pebble and all the street would know more than he did, and
if he did not like it he would not have them know it.”

“Did he so, then!” cackled the old mother, leaning forward on her staff
to peer at her daughter’s face, her old empty jaws hanging, and she
said half hurt, “It is true I ever was a good talker, daughter, but not
so loose as any pebble!”

Again and again the mother told the tale and once told she added to it
now and then to make it seem more perfect in its truth.

Now there was one woman who came often past her house, a widow woman
who lived in an elder brother’s house, and she had not overmuch to do,
being widowed and childless, and she sat all day making little silken
flowers upon a shoe she made for herself, and she could ponder long on
any little curious thing she heard. So she pondered on this strange
thing of a man gone, and one day she thought of something and she ran
down the street as fast as she could on her little feet and she cried
shrewdly to the mother, “But there has no letter come a long time to
this hamlet and I have not heard of any letter coming to that man of
yours!”

She went secretly to the only man who knew how to read in the hamlet,
and he wrote such few letters as any needed to have written and read
such as came for any, and so added a little to his livelihood. This man
the widow asked secretly, “Did any letter come for Li The First, who
was son to Li The Third in the last generation?”

And when the man said no, the gossip cried out, “But there was a
letter, or so his wife says, and but a few days ago.”

Then the man grew jealous lest they had taken the letter to some other
village writer and he denied again and again, and he said, “Very well I
know there was no letter, nor any answering letter, nor has anyone come
to me to read or write or to buy a stamp to put on any letter and I am
the only one who has such stamps. And there has not come so much as a
letter carrier this way for twenty days or more.”

Then the widow smelled some strange thing and she told everywhere,
whispering that the wife of Li The First lied and there had been no
letter and doubtless the husband had run away and left his wife. Had
there not been a great quarrel over the new robe, so that the whole
hamlet heard them cursing each other, and the man had pushed her down
and struck her even? Or so the children said.

But when the talk leaked through to the mother she answered stoutly
that what she said was true and that she had made the new blue robe on
purpose for the man to go to the far town, and that the quarrel was for
another thing. As for the letter, there was no letter but the news had
come by word of mouth from a traveling pedlar who had come in from the
coast.

Thus did the mother lie steadfastly and well, and the old woman
believed the tale heartily and cried out often of her son and how rich
he would be, and the mother kept her face calm and smooth and she did
not weep as women do when their men run away and shame them. At last
the tale seemed true to all, and even the gossip was silenced somewhat
and could only mutter darkly over her silken flowers, “We will see--as
time comes, we will see if there is money sent or any letter written,
or if he comes home ever and again.”

So the little stir in the hamlet died down and the minds of people
turned to other things and they forgot the mother and her tale.

       *       *       *       *       *

Then did the mother set herself steadfastly to her life. The seven days
were long past and the man did not come and the rice ripened through
the days and hung heavy and yellow and ready for the harvest and he
did not come. The woman reaped it alone then except for two days when
the cousin came and helped her when his own rice was cut and bound in
sheaves. She was glad of his help and yet she feared him too, for he
was a man of few words, honest and few, and his questions were simple
and hard not to answer truthfully. But he worked silently and asked
her nothing and he said nothing except the few necessary words he must
until he went away, and then he said, “If he is not come when the time
is here to divide the grain with the landlord, I will help you then,
for the new agent is a wily, clever man, and of a sort ill for a woman
to do with alone.”

She thanked him quietly, glad of his help, for she knew the agent but
a little, since he was new in the last years to those parts, and a
townsman who had a false heartiness in all he did and said.

So day had passed into month, and day after day the woman had risen
before the dawn and she left the children and the old woman sleeping,
and she set their food ready for them to eat when they woke, and taking
the babe with her in one arm and in her other hand the short curved
sickle she must use in reaping she set out to the fields. The babe was
large now and he could sit alone and she set him down upon the earth
and let him play as he would, and he filled his hands with earth and
put it to his mouth and ate of it and spat it out hating it and yet he
forgot and ate of it again until he was covered with the muddy spew.
But whatever he did the mother could not heed him. She must work for
two and work she did, and if the child cried he must cry until she was
weary and could sit down to rest and then she could put her breast to
his earthy mouth and let him drink and she was too weary to care for
the stains he left upon her.

Handful by handful she reaped the stiff yellow grain, bending to every
handful, and she heaped it into sheaves. When gleaners came to her
field to glean what she might drop, as beggars and gleaners do at
harvest time, she turned on them, her face dark with sweat and earth,
and drawn with the bitterness of labor, and she screamed curses at
them, and she cried, “Will you glean from a lone woman who has no
man to help her? I am poorer than you, you beggars, and you cursed
thieves!” And she cursed them so heartily and she so cursed the mothers
that bore them and the sons they had themselves that at last they let
her fields be, because they were afraid of such powerful cursing.

Then sheaf by sheaf she carried the rice to the threshing-floor and
there she threshed it, yoking the buffalo to the rude stone roller they
had, and she drove the beast all through the hot still days of autumn,
and she drove herself, too. When the grain was threshed, she gathered
the empty straw and heaped it and tossed the grain up and winnowed it
in the winds that came sometimes.

Now she pressed the boy into labor too and if he lagged or longed to
play she cuffed him out of her sheer weariness and the despair of her
driven body. But she could not make the ricks. She could not heap the
sheaves into the ricks, for this the man had always done, since it was
a labor he hated less than some, and he did it always neatly and well
and plastered the tops smooth with mud. So she asked the cousin to
teach her this one year and she could do it thenceforth with the boy if
the man stayed longer than a year, and the cousin came and showed her
how and she bent her body to the task and stretched and threw the grass
to him as he sat on top of the rick and spread it, and so the rice was
harvested.

She was bone-thin now with her labor and with being too often weary,
and every ounce of flesh was gone from her, and her skin was burnt a
dark brown except the red of cheeks and lips. Only the milk stayed in
her breasts rich and full. Some women there are whose food goes all to
their own fat and none to child or food for child, but this woman was
made for children, and her motherhood would rob her own body ruthlessly
if there was any need for child.

Then came the day set for measuring out the landlord’s share of all
the harvest. Now this landlord of the hamlet and the fields about it
never came himself to fetch his share. He lived an idle rich man in
some far city or other, since the land was his from his fathers, and he
sent in his place his agent, and this year it was a new agent, for his
old agent had left him the last year, being rich enough after twenty
years to cease his labors. This new agent came now and he came to every
farmer in that hamlet, and the mother waited at her own door, the grain
heaped on the threshing-floor and waiting, and the agent came.

He was a townsman, head to foot, a tall, smooth man, his gown gray silk
and leathern shoes on his feet, and he had a large smooth hand he put
often to his shaven lip, and when he moved a scent of some sort came
from him. The mother hung back when he came and when he called, “Where
is the farmer?” the woman waited and let the old mother pipe forth, “My
son he works in the city now, and there be only we upon the land.”

And the woman sent the lad for the cousin and she waited silently,
coming forward to hand the man his tea but saying nothing but common
greeting, yet feeling his eyes somehow hot upon her bare feet and on
her face. And she stood by while the cousin measured off the grain
for her, and measured the share the agent took for his own, and the
woman was glad she needed to say nothing nor even come near to see
the weight, so honest was her cousin. But she saw the grain divided
and hard it was too, as it was hard for every farmer, to give to this
smooth townsman his own share in what they had labored on. But they
gave grimly, and so did she, knowing that if they did not they would
suffer, and besides the landlord’s share they gave the agent a fat fowl
or two or a measure of rice or some eggs or even silver for his private
fee.

More than this, when all the grain was measured out the village must
set a feast before the agent and every house must give a dish. Even in
this lonely year the mother caught a fowl and killed it and cooked it
for the feast, steaming it gently and long until it was done and while
the shape was whole and the skin unbroken, yet was the flesh so tender
that when the first chopsticks touched it it would fall apart. The
savor of that fowl and its smell when it had cooked so many hours were
more than the children could endure and they hung about the kitchen and
the boy cried, “I wish it were for us--I wish we ever could eat a fowl
ourselves!”

But the mother was bitter with her weariness and she answered, “Who can
eat such meat except a rich man?”

Nevertheless when the feast was over she went to the littered table
where the men had sat and she picked up a bone left from her fowl and
a little skin was hanging to it and a shred of meat and she took it and
gave it to the lad to suck and she said, “Hasten and grow big, my son,
and you can eat at table with them too.”

Then the boy asked innocently, “Do you think my father will let me?”

The mother answered bitterly, “If he is not here you shall eat in his
place, that I swear.”

       *       *       *       *       *

Thus the year wore on to late autumn. Almost the children had forgotten
that there had ever been another in the bed except themselves and
their mother, and even the old woman seldom thought to ask of her son,
because the chill winds set her old bones aching, and she had enough
to do to search for this warm spot and that out of wind and in the
sun, and she complained incessantly because the winds shifted so, and
because every year the sun seemed cooler than the year before.

The boy worked daily now in small ways and took it as his duty. Every
day when there was no other task he led the buffalo to the hill lands
and let it feed on the short grass, lying upon its back the whole day
through, or coming down to leap upon some grave and sit there catching
crickets in the grass and weaving little cages for them out of stems of
grass. When he came home at night he hung the cages by the door, and
the crickets chirped and the sound pleased the babe and his sister.

But soon the wild grass on the hills browned with coming winter and
the summer flowers among the grass bore seed and the byways were gay
with purple asters and with small yellow wild chrysanthemums, which are
the flowers of autumn, and it was time to cut the grass for winter’s
fuel. Then the boy went with his mother and all day she cut the dried
grass with her short-handled sickle and the boy twisted rope of grass
and bound what she cut into sheaves. Everywhere over all the mountain
sides there were spots of blue and these were people like themselves
cutting and binding the brown grass into sheaves. In the evening when
the sun set and the night air came down chill from the hill tops the
people all went winding homeward through the narrow hilly paths, each
loaded with two great sheaves upon a pole across the shoulder, and so
did the mother also, and the boy with two little sheaves.

When they came home the first thing the mother did was to seize the
babe and ease her breasts of their load of milk and the child drank
hungrily, having had but rice gruel in the day. The old woman these
cold early nights crept into bed to warm herself as soon as the sun was
set and the little girl came feeling her way out into the last light of
day, wincing a little even in that pale light, and she sat smiling on
the threshold, rejoicing in her brother’s coming, for she missed him
now he had to work.

So did the autumn pass, and here was the ground to be ploughed for
wheat and the wheat sown and the mother taught the lad how to scatter
it so that a passing wind would help him and how to watch the wind,
too, and not let the grain fall too thickly here and too scanty there.
Then the winter came when the wheat was sprouted but a little, and the
fields shrank and hardened in the oncoming cold. Now the mother drew
the winter garments out from under her bed where she kept them and she
sunned them and made them ready to wear. But the rough work of the
summer and the autumn had so torn her hands that even the coarse cotton
cloth caught at the cracks upon them and her fingers were stiff and
hard, although shapely still in the bone.

Yet she worked on, sitting now in the doorway to be in the southern
sun and out of the sharp wind and first she tended to the old woman’s
garments, since she felt the chill so much. And she bade the old woman
stay in bed a day or two and take off the red shroud she wore, and
in between the stuff and its lining she put back the cotton wadding
she had taken out when summer came, and the old woman lay snug and
chattered happily and cried, “Shall I outlast this shroud, do you
think, daughter-in-law? In summer time I feel I shall, but when the
winter comes I am not sure, because my food does not heat me as once it
did.”

And the mother answered absently, “Oh, you will last, I dare swear, old
mother, and I never saw such an old crone for lasting on when others
have gone the common way.”

Then the old woman cackled full of pleasure and she cackled, laughing
and coughing, “Aye, a very lasting sort I be, I know!” and lay content
and waited for her shroud to be made warm for her again.

And the mother mended the children’s clothing, but the girl’s garments
she must give to the babe, and the boy’s to the girl, so had they all
three grown in the year. Then came the question of what the lad would
wear to keep him warm. There was the man’s padded coat and there the
trousers that he had worn those three winters gone and he had torn them
and she had mended them at wrist and neck, and in the front was a long
tear where the buffalo’s horn had caught one day when he was angry at
the beast and had jerked the rope passed through its nostrils, so that
it tossed its head in agony.

But she could not bear to cut them small to the lad’s shape. She turned
the garments over pondering and aching and at last she muttered, “What
if he should come--I will not do it yet.”

But there the boy was not clad for winter and he waited shivering in
the chill of morning and evening, and at last she set her lips and
made the garments small for him and she comforted herself and said in
her heart, “If he comes we can sell some of the rice and buy new ones.
If he should come at the new year he will take pleasure in the new
garments.”

So the winter wore on and it seemed to the woman that the man must
surely come at the new year, a time when all men go to their homes if
they still live and are not beggars. So when any asked her she began to
say, “He will come home for the new year festival,” and the old mother
said a score of times a day, “When my son comes at new year....” and
the children hoped too for the day. Now and again the gossip would
smile and say in her malice, and she was making herself a fine new pair
of shoes against the day of festival, “It is strange no letter comes
from that man of yours, and I know none comes, for the letter writer
tells me so.”

Then the mother would answer with outward calm, “But I have heard
several times by mouth of one who passed, and my man and I have never
held with much writing and the good money that must go out for it, and
no knowing, either, what hired writers forget to say and it is all
written and it is public for the whole street to know when once it does
come to me. I am glad he sends no letters.”

So did she silence the gossip, and so much she said he would come at
the new year that truly it seemed to her he would. The time drew near
and everyone in the hamlet was busy for the feast, and she must needs
be busy, too, not only for the children, to make them new shoes and
wash their garments clean and make a new cap for the babe, but she
must be busy for the man, also. She filled two great baskets with the
rice, all she dared to spare, and carried them to the town, and sold
them at but a little less in price than the man did, and this was well
enough, seeing she was a woman bargaining alone with men. With the
money she bought two red candles and incense to burn before the god and
red letters of luck to paste upon the tools and on the plough and farm
things that she used, and she bought a little lard and sugar to make
sweet cakes for the day. Then with what was left she went into a cloth
shop and bought twenty feet or so of good blue cotton cloth and to
another shop and bought five pounds of carded cotton wool for padding.

Yes, she was so sure by now he would come that she even set her
scissors in that cloth and she cut it slowly and with pains and care
and she made a coat and trousers of the good stuff and padded them
evenly and quilted them, and so she finished the garments to the last
button she made of bits of cloth twisted hard and sewed fast. Then she
put the garments away against his coming, and to all of them it seemed
the garments brought the man more nearly home again.

       *       *       *       *       *

But the day dawned and he did not come. No, all day long they sat in
their clean clothes, the children clean and frightened lest they soil
themselves, and the old woman careful not to spill her food upon her
lap, and the mother made herself to smile steadfastly all through the
day, and she told them all, “It is still day yet, and he may yet come
in the day.” There came those to the door who had been good fellows
with her man and they came to wish him well if he were come, and she
pressed tea on them and the little cakes and when they asked she said,
“Truly he may come today, but it may be his master cannot spare him
days enough to come so far, and I hear his master loves him well and
leans on him.”

And when the next day the women came she said this also and she smiled
and seemed at ease and said, “Since he is not come, there will come
word soon, I swear, and tell me why,” and then she spoke of other
things.

So the days passed and she talked easily and the children and the old
woman believed what she said, trusting her in everything.

But in the nights, in the dark nights, she wept silently and most
bitterly. Partly she wept because he was gone, but sometimes she wept,
too, because she was so put to shame, and sometimes she wept because
she was a lone woman and life seemed too hard for her with these four
leaning on her.

One day when she sat thinking of her weeping it came to her that at
least she could spare herself the shame. Yes, when she thought of the
money she had spent for his new garments and he did not come, and of
the cakes she had made and of the incense burned to pray for him, and
he did not come, and when she thought of the gossip’s sly looks and
all her whispered hints and the wondering doubtful looks of even her
good cousin, when time passed and still the man did not come, then it
seemed to her she must spare herself the shame.

And she wiped her tears away and plotted and she thought of this to do.
She carried all the rice she could spare into the city and the straw
she had to spare and she sold it. When she had the silver in her hand
she asked for a paper bit that is as good as silver, and with it she
went to a letter writer, a strange man in that town she did not know,
and he sat in his little booth beside the Confucian temple. She sat
down on the little bench near by, and she said, “I have a letter to
write for a brother who is working and is not free to go home, and so
say what I tell you. He is ill upon his bed, and I write for him.”

Then the old man took out his spectacles and stopped staring at the
passersby, and he took a sheet of new paper and he wet his brush upon
the block of ink and looked at her and said, “Say on, then, but tell
me first the brother’s wife’s name and where her home is and what your
name is too.”

Then the mother told him, “It is my brother-in-law who bids me write
the letter to his wife and he lives in a city from whence I am but come
newly, and my name is no matter,” and she gave her husband’s name for
brother and the name of a far city she had known once to be near her
girlhood home, and then for her brother’s wife’s name she gave her own
name and where her hamlet was and she said, “Here is what he has to
tell his wife. Tell her, ‘I am working hard and I have a good place and
I have what I like to eat and a kind master, and all I need to do is to
fetch his pipe and tea and take his messages to his friends. I have my
food and three silver pieces a month besides, and out of my wage I have
saved ten pieces that I have changed to a paper bit as good these days
as silver. Use them for my mother and yourself and the children.’”

Then she sat and waited and the old man wrote slowly and for a long
time and at last he said, “Is that all?”

And she said, “No, I have this more to say. Say, ‘I could not come at
the new year because my master loves me so he could not spare me, but
if I can I will come another year, and if I cannot even so I will send
you my wage as I am able once a year, as much as I can spare.’”

And again the old man wrote and she said when she had thought a while,
“One more thing there is he is to say. Say, ‘Tell my old mother I shall
bring red stuff for her third shroud when I come, as good stout stuff
as can be bought.’”

So the letter was complete and the old man signed the letter and sealed
it and set the superscription and he spat upon a stamp and put it on,
and said that he would post it in the place he knew. And she paid his
fee and went home, and this was the thing she had plotted when she
wiped her tears away.




VI


Some seven days after that day a letter carrier who carried letters in
a bag upon his shoulder passed by, a new thing in these later days, for
in old days there were no such men, and to the folk of this hamlet it
was ever a magic miracle that letters could be come by like this, but
so they were, nevertheless. And now this man took a letter from his bag
and held it and he stared at the mother and he said, “Are you the wife
of one surnamed Li?”

Then she knew her letter had come and she said, “I am that one,” and he
said, “Then this is yours and it is from your man, wherever he is, for
his name is written there.” So he gave her the letter.

Then she made herself cry out and she summoned false joy somehow and
she cried to the old woman, “Here is a letter from your son!” And to
the children she said, “Here is your father’s letter come!” They could
scarcely wait until it was read, and the woman washed herself and put
on a clean coat and combed her hair smoothly, and while she did she
heard the old mother call out to the cousin’s wife, “My son’s letter is
come!” and when she had said it she laughed and fell to coughing and
laughing until the cousin’s wife across the way grew frightened at such
a turmoil in the weak old body and ran over and rubbed her back and
cried in her hearty kind way, “Good mother, do not let it kill you, I
pray!” And when the mother came out clean and smiling she said in her
same way, “Here be this old crone choking herself because a letter is
come!” and the mother made her smile shine out and she said, “So it has
and here it is,” and held the letter out for the other one to see.

When she went down the street they all came crowding with her as she
went, for the lad followed grinning and saying to all who asked that
his father’s letter was come, and the little girl came after him,
clinging to his coat, and since it was winter still and little to be
done, the idle men and women followed, too, and they all crowded to the
letter writer’s house, who was astonished at such a houseful coming in
so suddenly. But when he heard what the matter was he took the letter
and studied it a while and he turned it this way and that and stared at
it, and at last he said gravely and as the first thing to be said, “It
is from your husband.”

“That I guessed,” the mother said, and the gossip who was in the crowd
called out, “And what other man would it be, good man?” And all the
crowd roared with ready laughter.

Then the letter writer began to read the letter to her slowly and
silence fell and the mother listened and the children and all the
crowd, and at every word he paused to explain its full meaning,
partly because it is true written and spoken words are not the same,
but partly, too, to show how learned he was. And the mother listened
as though she had never heard one word of it before, and she nodded
at every word, and when he came to that place where it said there was
money sent, the man raised his voice very loud and clear at such a
serious thing, and those in the crowd gaped and cried out, “But was
there money in it?” Then the woman nodded and she opened her hand and
showed the paper piece into which she had changed her own silver,
and she gave it to the letter writer to see, and he said hushed and
solemnly, “It is true I see a ten, and it must be it is worth ten
pieces of silver.”

Then all the crowd must see it and there was a picture of a fat
whiskered general on the paper and when the gossip saw it she cried
out aghast, “Why, goodwife, how your man is changed!” for she supposed
it was a picture of the man himself, and none of them was sure it was
not except the woman and she said, “It is not my man, I know.” And the
letter writer guessed and said, “Doubtless it is his master.” And so
they all looked at it again and cried how rich and fed he looked. Thus
all the crowd were silent with wonder and with envy, and they watched
while the mother folded the bit of precious paper into her hand and
held it there closely.

So was the letter read and when the old man had finished it and folded
it into its case again, he said gravely, “You are a very lucky wife
and it is not every countrywoman whose man could go into a great city
and find so good a place, or who if he did would send back his wage
like that either, and so many places as I hear there are in towns to
spend money in.”

Then all the crowd fell back in respect for her, and she walked proudly
home, the children following her and sharing in their mother’s glory,
and when the mother was come she told it all to the old mother and
especially did the old soul laugh with pleasure to hear what her son
said of the third shroud and she cried out in her trembling, cracking
voice and struck her skinny knees with pleasure, “That son of mine! I
do swear there was never one like him! And doubtless that town stuff
is very fine good stuff.” Then she grew a trifle grave and she said
wistfully, “Aye, daughter, if it be as good as he says, I doubt I can
wear it out before I die. It may be that one will be my last shroud.”

The lad looked grave, too, when he saw his grandmother look so, and he
cried loyally, “No, grandmother, it will not, for you have lasted two,
and this one cannot be as strong as two!”

Then the old soul was cheered again and laughed to hear the boy so
clever, and she said to the mother, “Very well you remembered all he
said, daughter, and almost as if you read the words yourself.”

“Aye,” said the mother quietly, “I remembered every word.” And she went
alone into the house and stood behind the door and wept silently, and
the letter and even the bit of paper that was the same as silver were
but ashes for all her pride. They were worthless for her when she was
alone; there was no meaning in them then.

Nevertheless, the mother’s plot worked well enough and hereafter in
the hamlet there was none who mocked at her or hinted she was a woman
whose man had left her. Rather did she need to harden her heart toward
them now, because since it was known she had the paper money and that
there would come more next year like it, some came to borrow of her
secretly, the old letter writer one, and besides him an idle man or two
who sent his wife to ask for him, and the woman was hard put to it to
refuse since all in the hamlet were some sort of kin and all surnamed
Li, but she said this and that, and that she owed the money for a debt
and that she had spent it already or some such thing. And some cried
out at her when they talked together idly in a dooryard, and the gossip
said before her meaningfully how much a bit of cloth cost these days
and even a needle or two was costly and a few strands of silken thread
to make a flower on a shoe for color, and they all took care to cry if
she were there, “Well is it for such as you, and a very lucky destiny,
that you have no need to think thrice over a penny, while your man is
out earning silver and sending it to you and you have it over and above
what is wrest from the bitter land!” And sometimes a man would call, “I
doubt it is a good thing to have so rich a woman in our hamlet lest
the robbers come. Aye, robbers come where riches are, as flies to any
honey!”

It seemed to her at last that daily this bit of paper grew more
troublesome, not only because of what the gossip said, and because this
one and that one among the men would ask to see it close, but because
she too was not used to money being of paper and she grew to hate the
thing because she was ever afraid the wind might blow it away or the
rats gnaw it or the children find it and think it nothing and tear it
in play, and every day she must look to see if it were safe in the
basket of stored rice where she kept it hid, because she was afraid it
would mold in the earthen wall and rot away there. At last the thing
grew such a burden on her that one day when she saw the cousin start
for the town she ran to him and whispered, “Change me this bit of paper
into hard silver, I pray, so that I can feel it in my hand, because
this bit of paper seems nothing when I hold it.”

So the cousin took it and being a righteous honest man he changed it
into silver, good and sound in every piece, and when he was back at
her door again he struck each piece upon another to show how sound
all were. The mother was grateful to him and she said, although half
unwillingly too, except she did not wish to be thought small in mind,
“Take a piece of it for your trouble, cousin, and for your help in
harvest, for well I know you need it and your wife swelling with
another child.”

But though he stared hard at the silver and sucked his breath in
without knowing he did and blinked his eyes once or twice with longing
he would not take it and he said quickly before his longing grew
too much for him, because indeed he was a good and honest man, “No,
cousin’s wife, for you are a lone woman and I am able to work yet.”

“Well, if you need to borrow then,” she said and quickly took the
silver out of sight, for well she knew no man can look at silver long,
however good he is, and not grow weak with longing.

In that night while the children and the old woman slept the mother
rose and lit the candle and dug a hole with her hoe into the hard earth
of the floor and there she hid the ten pieces of silver, but first she
wrapped them in a bit of rag to keep the earth from them. The buffalo
turned and stared with its great dull eyes, and the fowls woke under
the bed and looked out at her with this eye and then with that and
clucked faintly, astonished at this strange thing in the night. But the
woman filled the hole and walked a while on it to make it beaten smooth
and like the rest. Then she laid herself down again in the darkness.

It was the strangest thing, but as she lay there awake and yet half
dreaming, almost she forgot it was her own silver she had buried and
silver she gained from the harvest she had cut herself, bending her
back in weariness to every handful of the grain. Yes, she forgot this,
and it seemed to her almost that the man had truly sent it to her,
and that it was a something over and beyond her own, and she murmured
to her heart, “It is in place of the silver bits he took and spent for
that blue gown, and better, for it is more,” and she forgave him for
that thing he had done, and so she fell into sleep.

Thereafter when one asked to see the paper bit she answered tranquilly,
“I have changed it for common silver and spent it,” and when the gossip
heard it she cried out, her loose mouth ajar, “But have you spent it
all?” the mother answered easily and she smiled, “Aye, I have spent
it all for this and that, and a new pot or two and cloth and this and
that, and why not when there is more to come?” And she went in the
house and fetched out the new garments she had made for the man to
wear if he came home and she said, “Here is some of the cloth such as
I bought with it,” and they all stared at it and pinched the stuff and
cried out that it was a very good strong cloth and the gossip said
unwillingly, “You are a very good woman, I can swear, to spend the
money, even to a share, upon clothes for him, and not all for yourself,
or for the children.”

Then the mother answered steadfastly, “But we are well content with
each other, my man and I, and I did spend some upon myself, for I gave
some to a silversmith and bade him fashion me some earrings and a ring
for my hand, for my man did ever say he wanted me to have them when we
had something over and to spare.”

The old woman had listened to this all and now she cried out, “I swear
my son is just such a man as she says, and he is to buy me my third
shroud and of the best town stuff. A very good son, neighbors, and I
wish as good a one to each of you, and especially to you, cousin’s
wife, for I see your belly swollen as a ripe melon!”

Then the goodwives laughed and went away again, one by one, for it was
evening time. But when they were gone the mother groaned within herself
at such a great tale as she had told, and she reproached herself and
said in her own heart, “Now why need I have told such a vast tale, and
could not be content with what was told already? Where shall I find
money for those trinkets? Yet must I somehow do it to save myself the
truth.”

And she sighed to think of all the burden she had put upon herself.




VII


Once more the spring came on, and now the mother must set herself hard
to the land and she pressed the boy into the labor, too, and she taught
him how to drive the beast. Push the plough he could not, being so
light and small, but he could run behind the beast and beat its thick
slaty hide, and because its hide was so thick that all his strength
could not pierce it, she fastened a sharp peg into a bamboo length and
bade the boy beat with that to stir the beast out of its vast indolence.

The girl child, too, the mother pressed into small simple tasks, for
the old woman grew more idle as she grew older, and forgetful so that
all she remembered was to know if she were hungry or athirst. Only did
she stir if the younger boy cried and wanted something in his lusty
way, for the grandmother loved this youngest one. So the mother taught
the girl to wash the noon’s rice at the pond, but she let her do it
first before she set forth to the fields, lest the child with her
half-seeing eyes fall into the pool and drown, and she taught her how
to cook the rice, too, against their coming, though she was so small
she scarce could reach the cauldron lid. She taught this little thing
even to light the fire and keep it blazing, and this the little girl
did very well, too, and she was patient when the smoke came out and
flew into her eyes and smarted on the lids, and she did not complain
at anything, for she understood that now the house was without the
father, and the mother must do for them all. Nevertheless when the task
was done she went into the house where it was dark even at noonday and
there she sat and wiped her streaming eyes with a bit of old cloth she
kept for this and she bore the pain as best she could.

The babe could walk, too, now that spring was come, for in the winter
he had not tried, being burdened with his padded clothes so heavily
that even though he fell he could not rise until someone passed by his
way and set him right again. Now he ate what he would and thrived. But
the mother let him suckle still because it gave her some vague comfort,
although her breasts were well-nigh dry by now. Still it was a comfort
to her in some dumb sweet way that the child clung to her breast and
that he ran to meet her when he saw her coming home at night and cried
to drink what little was there for him.

Thus the early spring came into full mild spring, and the mother
labored hard with the boy beside her all day long, and the fields were
ploughed somehow, if not so straight or deep as the man had ploughed
them, for it had been what he had always done in springs past, while
she sowed the seed. But beans were put in and young cabbage and the
radishes to be sold at market, and soon the rape budded again and sent
up its early heads and bloomed yellow and gold. So did she labor that
well-nigh she forgot the man, she was so weary every night, and so dead
in sleep she scarcely could rise again at dawn.

But there came a day when she remembered him.

Now the hour was come when the cousin’s wife was due to give birth and
she sent a child to go and call the mother, who was her friend and
nearest neighbor, and the child came to the field where the mother was
working, the sweet spring wind blowing her loose coat as she worked and
cooling her sweat as soon as it came.

The child was a young girl, and she called out, “Good aunt, my mother’s
hour is come, and she says will you hasten, for you know how quick she
is, and she sits ready and waiting for you to catch the babe!”

The mother straightened her bent back then and answered, “Aye, tell her
I will come,” and she turned to the lad and said, “Take my hoe and weed
these beans as best you can while I am gone. It will not be above an
hour or so, if she is as quick as she always is.”

So saying she went across the fields and followed behind the girl who
ran ahead, and as the woman walked it came over her in some new way how
sweet a day this was. Living in this valley every day and laboring as
she must, she never thought to lift her head to see what the world was
about her, but her whole thought was on the land or in her house and
her eyes bent to them always. But now she lifted her head as she walked
and saw. The willows were full of tender leaves shining green, and the
white blossoms of the pear trees were full blown this day and drifting
in the winds, and here and there a pomegranate tree flamed scarlet in
its early leaves. The wind, too, was very warm, and it came in sudden
gusts and died again, and she did not know which was sweeter, the deep
warm silence when the wind died and the smell of the earth came up from
the ploughed fields, or the windy fragrance of the gusts. But walking
thus in the silences and in the sudden winds, she felt her body strong
and full and young, and a great new longing seized her for the man.

Nearly every spring she had given birth, nearly every spring since she
was wed, but this spring was her body barren. Once it had seemed a
usual common thing to bear a child, and a thing to be done again and
again, but now it seemed a joy she had not seen was joy until now, and
her loneliness came over her like a pain and her breasts ached when
she thought of the thing, and it was this, that she would never bear
a child again in such a spring unless her man came home. Suddenly her
longing streamed out of her like a cry, “Oh--come home--come home!”

Yes, she seemed to hear her own voice cry the words, and she stopped,
frightened lest she had called them out before the young girl. Yet she
had not cried aloud, and when she stopped there was but the voice of
the wind and the loud bright music of a blackbird in a pomegranate tree.

And when she went into the dark room and saw the round plain face of
her cousin’s wife drawn out of its roundness and dark with sweat and
the usual laughter gone from it and the gravity of pain set there
instead, the mother’s own body felt full and heavy as though it were
she who bore the child and not this other one. And when the child came
and she caught him and wrapped him in a bit of cloth and when she was
free to go back to the field, she could not go. No, she went back to
her own house listlessly, and when the old woman cried, “What--is it
time for food? But I do not feel my hunger yet!” and when the girl came
running out of the house shading her eyes with her hand, and crying,
“Is it time already to light the fire, mother?” the mother answered
listlessly, “No, it is too early, but I am strangely weary today and I
will rest a while,” and she went and laid herself upon the bed.

But she could not rest, and soon she rose and took up the little boy
and held him fiercely and she laid her bosom open and would have had
him suckle. But the child was astonished at her fierceness, being
unused to it, and he was not hungry yet and he was full of play, and so
he struggled and straightened himself and pushed her breast away and
would not have it. Then the mother felt a strange sullen anger rise
in her and she cuffed him and set him hard upon the ground and he
screamed and she muttered, “Ever you will suck when I will not, and now
when I will then you are not hungry!”

And she was pleased in the strangest way, half bitterly, because he
lay and wept. But the old woman cried out to hear his roaring and the
little girl ran to pick him up. Then the mother felt her softness come
back in her and she would not let the girl have him, but she lifted him
suddenly herself and smoothed the dust from him, and wiped his tearful
face with her palm, and she blamed herself secretly with a sort of
shame that she had made the child suffer for her own pain.

But the child never loved her breast so well again from that hour, and
so even that small comfort she had had was taken from her.




VIII


Now from her youth up this woman had been ever a creature of deep still
heats. She was not as some women are, quick to look at this young man
and that and appraising any man who passed. No, she was a woman of a
very deep heart, shy to the depths of it, and until she was properly
wed even when she was alone her thoughts had not turned to men for
their own sake, and if strange longings rose from within her deeply she
never looked at them to see what they were or why they came, but she
went on steadfastly to some task she had to do, and bore her longing
patiently and in a waiting silence. Only when she was wed and had known
a man for all he was did some clearness come to her, some distillation
of that deep dumb longing, so that even while she scolded her man
sometimes and was angry with him, she knew she could not live without
him. That thick, impatient longing in her could even heap itself like
thunderous clouds into a causeless anger against the man she loved
until it resolved itself and they clung each to each, and she was
satisfied in the old and simple way and so was made tranquil again.

Yet the man was never enough. In himself he was never enough. She
must conceive by him and feel a child take life and shape within her.
Then was the act complete and while the child moved and grew she went
in a daze of happiness, being fulfilled. Yes, even when she bawled her
little angers at her children when they were under her feet and when
they cried and whimpered for this and that and were wilful as children
must be, yet she never saw the signs of new birth upon herself without
a sweet content of body, as though she were fed and rested and had
slept so that her body wanted nothing more.

So had she ever loved a babe. Even so it had been in the old days when
she was a girl in her father’s house and in a village but a little
larger than this hamlet set in hills. Her father’s house was full of
little children and she was the eldest and like a mother to them; yet
even when she was weary with the day’s toil and the children running
under her feet were a trial to her so that she shouted at them to be
out of her way, yet never even when she shouted was she really out of
love with them. There was always something in their smallness that
weakened her heart, and many a time she would pick up a little child,
whether of their own house or of some neighbor’s, and hold him against
her and smell of him hard and fondle him as long as he would bear it,
because it was some passionate pleasure to her to feel a little child,
although she did not know why.

So everything young and leaning on her drew her heart out. In the
spring she loved the young chicks and ducklings coming from the shell,
and when a mother hen forsook her nest for some cause and left the eggs
half hatched she it was who took the eggs and made a bag and slipped
them against her warm flesh and walked lightly and carefully until the
young chicks hatched. She it was who was most faithful to feed the
small silkworms, and took pleasure in their growing and she watched
them from the time when they were scarcely more than bits of living
thread until they grew great and fat, and when they burst their cocoons
and came forth moths and mated, moth to moth, she felt that seeking and
that satisfaction in her own body.

Once when the children of her father’s house were grown out of babyhood
and she was nearly ready to be wed herself there was a certain thing
that happened to her, and it roused her as no man had ever done yet.
There was one little boy who was too young to walk, a neighbor’s child,
a round fat boy whose elder sister carried him about that whole summer
long, naked and caught in a strip of cloth upon her back. And sometimes
the mother, young then and waiting to be wed, would untie this strip
and take the child from the little girl’s back, and the little girl
would dart off to her play, glad to be released from her burden for a
while.

It came to be so then that every day the young girl, the mother,
grew to look for this little moon-faced boy and out of all the other
children of the village he was the greatest joy to her, her favorite,
and she held him and smelled of his fat palms and took pleasure in his
round cheeks and in his little rosy mouth, and she carried him about
with her, setting him astride her sturdy hip, and when her own mother
cried, “What--had you not enough of children in this house so that when
I am through my bearing you must go and seek another’s child?” she
answered laughing, “I am never weary of babes, I think!”

Soon without her knowing it this child came to rouse in her a longing
she had never known before. Sons she wanted as all women did, and she
had always taken it as her right that she would have sons one day. But
this robust and calm-eyed child roused more than wish of sons in her,
and what had first been play with the child became something more, some
deep and secret passion for what she did not know.

She made excuse then when the child was in her arms to get away with
him alone and all the others were busy here or there in field or
kitchen, and the child’s sister was glad to be away, and the young
girl sat and held the fair sound child strained against herself. She
murmured to him and nursed him in her arms and felt this little,
fat, round body helpless against her. Sometimes, since he was still
nearly toothless, she chewed up rice or a cake for him and thrust the
food into his little lips from hers, and when he sucked it solemnly,
surprised at what he felt in his mouth suddenly, she laughed, but she
did not know why she laughed, for she was not merry, seeing there was
such a fierce, deep, painful longing in her which she did not know how
to ease.

One day soon before her marriage day she had the child thus alone and
it grew late toward noon and the little girl did not come as early
as usual to take the child to his mother to be fed, and the child
fretted and tossed himself and would not be still. Then the young girl,
seeing his hunger, and driven by some dim fierce passion she did not
understand but only felt in her blood urging her on, went into her room
and shut the door fast and with trembling hands she undid her coat and
put the child to her own young slender breast and he laid hold on it
lustily and sucked hard at it. Then she, standing there staring into
his baby face, felt such a tumult in her blood as she had never dreamed
of and the tears came into her eyes and sounds rose to her lips, broken
sounds that were not words, and she held him strained against her and
did not know what it was she felt within herself, full and yearning and
passionate, greater than the child she held, greater than herself.

Then the moment broke. Her little breast was empty and the child wailed
in disappointment and she fastened her coat again and was ashamed
somehow of what she had done and she went quickly out and the little
girl his sister came running in and seized him and ran with him to his
own mother.

But to the young girl the moment was an awakening and more almost than
marriage. Ever after even the man she wed was most to her because he
was a part of motherhood, and not for his own sake only did she love
him.

       *       *       *       *       *

So had it been with her in her raw youth. Now with her body ripe and
knowing all and herself in all her prime of womanhood she was left,
woman alone, and every day the children grew up taller and every day
they grew further from their babyhood they seemed less her own.

The elder boy shot up tall and thin and silent, and he said little
but strained himself at heavy tasks. When the mother would have taken
up the rude wooden plough to carry it back to the house at the end
of the day, he seized it and held it like a yoke across his own thin
shoulders and staggered with it over the clodded earth, and she was so
weary oftentimes she let him do it. He it was now who pulled the pails
of water from the well and fed the buffalo, and he struggled his whole
share and more in the field, as though he were his own father.

Yet in all this he strained away from the woman, his mother, in some
secret way, sharing with her in the labor most dutifully, and yet often
wilful too, and it seemed to her he was parted from her flesh in some
way she could not understand, not liking to be near her and standing
off as though there were some smell about her that he could not bear.
Oftentimes they quarreled over a slight cause, such as if she bade
him hold his hoe better and he would not but would hold it in his own
way, even though it was harder to wield when he held it so. Over such a
small thing they quarreled and over many other like small things. Yet
each knew dimly that this was not the true cause of quarrel either, but
some deeper thing which neither could perceive.

The girl, too, was never any cause of joy to her, with her poor eyes
half blind. Still the child did her patient best and she complained
no more now as she once did, and now that the younger boy could walk
and run and loved best to be in the street brawling and playing with
others like him, the girl would come sometimes to the field where the
mother and the lad worked. But even there she was more care than help,
especially if it were in some field of small weak seedlings, for she
was so blind that when she would have pulled the weeds she did not see
them well and many a time she pulled a seedling, thinking it a weed, so
that the boy called out in anger, “Go home, you girl, for I do swear
you are no use to us here. Go and sit beside the old grandmother!”

And when she rose at this, half smiling but deeply hurt too, he cried
at her again shrilly, “Now see where you tread, you clumsy thing, for
you are walking on the seedlings now!”

So she made haste to get out of the field then, too proud to stay, and
the mother was torn between these two, her son and the poor half blind
girl, and she felt the hearts of both, the lad’s heart weary with
labor too bitter for his age, and the girl’s too patient with her pain,
and she said sighing, as the girl went away, “It is true, poor thing,
you are very little use, nor even can you sew with those eyes as they
are. But go you home and sweep the floor and set the food ready and
light the fire. Such things you do well enough. Watch the little one
and see he does not fall in the pond, for he is the boldest, wilfulest
of you all, and pour a little tea sometimes for the old one. There your
duty is and you are help to me there. And when I have a little time I
will go and seek a balm of some kind for your eyes.”

So she comforted the girl, but the girl was little comfort to her,
sitting silent hour after hour and wiping her wet aching lids, and
smiling in her fixed and patient way. And looking at her sometimes
and hearing her lad’s angers and seeing the younger one’s eagerness
to be away at play, the mother wondered bitterly how it could be that
when they were babes they were so fair and pleasant to her, and now no
comfort.

Yes, oftentimes in the evening this mother looked across the way to her
cousin’s house and envied it most sorely. There was the good and honest
husband, a plain and earth-soiled man, not clean and pretty as her man
had been, but still well enough and going to his daily work and coming
home to be fed and to sleep as men should, and there were his children
he begot regularly and well, and there the mother sat, easy and merry
and well content with her last babe upon her knees, a shallow merry
soul and her mouth always open and her tongue clacking, but kindly
and a good neighbor. Often she ran to share some bit of meat with the
mother, or gave the children a handful of fruit, or a little paper
flower she made for the girl to thrust into her hair. It was a good,
full, contented house, and the mother envied it, and in her the longing
grew, deep and sullen and unsatisfied.




IX


If she could have forgotten the man and so finished with him, if he
were dead and she had seen him buried in the earth and still and gone
forever, if she could have been a widow and known her life with the man
ended, it would have been easier for her. If the hamlet had known her
widowed and if she could have kept before her pure and strong that true
widowhood, and if she could have heard people say, when she passed or
where she knew it said, “A very good true widow is that wife of Li, now
dead. There he lies dead and buried and she goes steadfast and true to
him, such a one as in the old days would have had a marble arch put up
or at least an arch of stone for her honor.” If she could have heard
talk like this it would have been a strength to her and a thing to stay
herself by, and to this shape that people made of her she might have
set her heart and so lived better than she was because men thought her
so.

But widow she was not, and often must she answer those who called to
ask her how her man did and ever must she lie and cheerfully and keep
him in constant mind through her very lies. They would call, “There
you are, goodwife, and have you had a letter of late or message by
some mouth to say how your man is?”

And she, passing by with a load for market across her shoulder or
coming slowly home with empty baskets must answer often out of deathly
weariness, “Yes, by word of mouth I hear he does right well, but he
only writes me once a year.”

But when she was come to her own house she was torn in two with all
her lies. Sometimes she was filled with sadness and loneliness and she
cried to her own heart, “How sorrowful and lone a woman am I whose only
man is one I must make for myself out of words and lies!”

At such times she would sit and stare down the road and she would think
heavily, “That blue robe of his would show a long way off, if he had a
mind to turn to home again, so clear and fine a blue it was!”

And indeed if ever she saw a bit of blue anywhere in the distance her
heart would leap, and if a man passed in the distance wearing a blue
robe she could not but stop what she did and hold her breath to see how
he came, shading her eyes against the sun if she were in the field, her
hoe dropped from her hand, while she watched if he came this way or
that or if he passed or if he went a long way off. And always it was
not he who passed, for blue is a very common color and any man might
wear a blue robe, if he be a poor and common man.

But there were times when her lies made her angry at him and she told
herself the man was not worth it and if he had come home at one such
time as this she would have burst her anger full upon him and cursed
him soundly while she loved him because he made her suffer so. Times
there were when this deep anger lasted over days, so that she was
sullen and short with the children and with the grandmother and pushed
the dog away roughly with her hoe, although she grieved her own heart
the more when she was so.

At one such time as this it came about that it was time for the rice
to be measured after harvest. Once more she had struggled through the
harvest and alone except for such help as the lad could give, and a day
or two from the good cousin, and the day came for the division of the
threshed grain. It seemed to the woman that day as though her longing
and her anger had made her heart like raw flesh, so that everything she
saw fell on it sorely as a blow, and things she did not see of common
times she saw and felt this day.

And while she longed, there upon her threshing-floor beside the heaped
grain the agent stood, the landlord’s agent, and he was a tall man
dressed in a silk robe of gray, and his face square and large and
handsome in its bold way. He had his old manner she remembered, a
manner of seeming courtesy, but his eyes were full and the lids heavy
and half closed over them, and the woman knew from the way he stared at
her from under those heavy drooping lids that he had heard her tale
and how her husband was gone out to other parts and never had come
back. Yes, there was something today in her full heart that caught this
knowledge in him, and the truth was he was such a man as could not look
at any woman left alone and not wonder secretly what she was and how
her heart was made and how her body was shaped. There was a dog’s heart
in him, for all his big, good frame and his square full face and his
voice he made so hearty and frank. But in spite of his forced courtesy
and his free words the tenants hated him, and they feared him because
he had a high hard temper and this big body and two large, swift fists
that he clenched and held hard against his thighs if any argued against
what he said. Yes, and then he lifted the lids he drooped over his
eyes, and his eyes were terrible, shining and black and cruel. Yet
often they laughed at him, too, for if they gave him his fee without
quarrel, he made a joke or two to salve the taking, and they could not
but laugh at what he said, although with rue, for he had a way about
him somehow.

So did he make a little merry on this day when he came to the mother’s
house where she lived alone without her man and he knew she did, and he
called out heartily to the lad, “I see your mother does not need your
father with such a man as you to tend the fields!”

Then the boy swaggered his little lean body and boasted, shy and bold
at once, he was so pleased, “Oh, aye, I do my share,” and he spat as
he had seen men do, and set his arms upon his little bony thighs and
felt himself grown and fully man.

Then the agent laughed and looked at the mother as though to laugh
kindly with her over this lad of hers, and the woman could not but
smile, and she handed him a bowl of tea she had poured out in common
courtesy as to any passing guest. And being so near his laughing eyes
she could not but look into them, and there was that great, greedy,
starving heart of hers showing in her own eyes without her knowledge
that it did. The man stared at her and scented her heat and he turned
hot and grave and when he took the bowl he touched his hand to hers as
though not knowing her hand was there. But the woman felt the touch and
caught its meaning in her blood like flame.

Then she turned herself away shamed and would not hear what her own
heart said. No, she busied herself with the grain and while she did it
she grew suddenly afraid of her own self and she said to the lad in a
low voice, “Run to our cousin and ask him to come hither and help me,”
and to her heart she said, to still its wildness, “If he is here--if
our good cousin is here--”

But the lad was proud and wilful and he argued, “I am here, mother, and
I will help you. What other do you need? See, I am here!”

Then the agent laughed loudly and slapped his thick thigh and he took
secret advantage of the innocent lad and he cried, “So you are, my
lad, and true enough your mother needs no other man!”

Then the lad grew the more bold being so encouraged and when his mother
said again, half faintly, “It would be better if our cousin were here,”
the boy caught the faintness and he cried, “No, I will not call him,
mother! I am man enough!” and he took up the scales and strutted to
fill the measure with the grain and the woman laughed uneasily and let
him be, and the truth was there was something in her, too, that pulled
at her to let him be.

When the grain was measured out and she had made a measure full again
to give the agent for himself, that agent put it from him in a lordly
way and he smoothed his long straight upper lip and looking ardently
into the woman’s face--for who was there save these children and that
old woman nodding in her sleep under the eaves by the door?--he said,
“No, I will not have it! You are a lone woman now and your man gone
from home and all this is your own labor. I will take no more of it
than my landlord must have, or blame me if he does not. I will take no
fee from you, goodwife.”

Then was the woman suddenly afraid in the midst of the sweet sick heat
that was upon her and she grew confused and pressed the fee upon him.
But he would not have it. He pushed the measure away, his hand on hers
while he did, and at last when he took the measure from her he poured
the grain back into the basket where she kept it stored, and he would
not have it.

Nor had she strength to beg him any more. Under this man’s smooth
face and smiling ways, under that gray costly robe of his, there was
some strange and secret force that poured out of him into the shining
autumn sun and clung to her and licked about her like a tongue of
fire. She fell silent then and hung her head like any maid and when he
poured the grain back and bowed and went his way, laughing and bowing
and smoothing his long lip where there was no hair, she could not say
a word. She stood there in silence, her bare brown feet thrust into
broken shoes, one hand twisting the corner of her patched cotton coat.

When he was gone she lifted her head and looked after him and at that
same instant he turned and caught her look and bowed and laughed again.
Yet, in such a way he went, and afterwards she wished a thousand times
she had not looked after him like that and yet she could not help it
when she did it. Then the boy cried out gladly, “A good man, mother,
not to take his fee! I never heard of such a good agent not to take his
fee!” And when she went into the kitchen silently, half in a dream with
what had passed, he following crying at her, “Is he not a good man,
mother, who wanted nothing for himself?” And when still she answered
nothing he cried peevishly, “Mother--mother!”

Then the mother started suddenly and she answered in strange haste,
“Oh--aye, son--” and the lad prattled on, “So good a man, mother--you
see, he would take nothing from you at all, knowing how you are poor
now that my father is gone.”

But the mother stood still of a sudden, the lid of the cauldron lifted
and still in her hand. She stared at the boy fixedly and her heart
echoed strangely, shamed and yet filled with that sick sweet fever,
“Did he want nothing of me?” Though to the lad she answered nothing.

       *       *       *       *       *

Nor could the man forget the woman’s heat. For this excuse and that he
came back to the hamlet and now it was to make sure of some account
which he thought he had written wrong, and now it was to complain that
such a one had given a measure short and the landlord was angry with
him. Most often of all he went to the cousin’s house, which stood near
the woman’s, and he went to see of this and that, and now he brought
some new seed of a kind of cotton that was held very fine in other
parts or he brought a man with him carrying a load of lime or some such
thing to make the fields more fertile, and the cousin was dazed with
so much coming. At first he was afraid the agent had some evil purpose
toward him and then he grew anxious when nothing came out for him to
see, and he said to his wife, “It must be he has some very deep and
evil purpose if it is so long leaking out of him,” and he watched the
man anxiously and sat and stared at him, yet impatient, too, to be at
his work again that waited for him, and yet afraid to be lacking in
courtesy to one who could do him evil if he would.

But neither cousin nor cousin’s wife saw how the secret eyes of the
agent went sliding under his lids toward the woman across the way,
and how if she were not there upon her threshold, he stayed but a
little while, and how if she were there he sat on and on, facing her,
and often he cried in loud and false good nature, “No, good fellow, I
have no errand other than this. I am but a common man, too, and I like
nothing better than to sit in an honest man’s dooryard and feel the
autumn sun upon me.” But all the while he stared across the way where
the woman sat spinning or sewing.

Now this was the season when the land was sinking into quiescence for
the winter. The wheat was planted in the dry earth and waiting for a
rain to sprout it, and the mother took a little leisure and sat in her
doorway and mended the winter garments and made new shoes, for the
girl’s sight was not enough for this, and never would be. She sat there
in the full sun for warmth, half listening to the old woman’s talk and
what her children had to say to her, and half dreaming, and her lips
were tranquil and her skin warm and golden brown with the sun and her
hair shiny black with health and newly combed now she had the time
to do it every day, and these days she looked younger than she was,
although she was yet not thirty and five years old.

Well she knew that man sat there across the few feet of roadway but she
would not look up and sometimes when she felt his look press her too
hard she rose and went into the house and stayed there until she had
seen him go. But she knew why he came and she knew he looked at her for
a cause, and she could not forget him.

All through that winter she could not forget him somehow. At last it
grew too cold for him to come even for his purpose. When the snow fell
and when the winds came down bitter and dry out of the northwest, she
might have forgotten him. But she did not.

Once more the new year came and she went into the town as she did every
year and sold some grain and changed her silver into paper and she went
and sought a different letter writer, and once more she had the letter
written as though the man sent it, and once more the hamlet heard the
news and knew she had the money from her man.

But this time their fresh envy and all their talk and praise put
nothing in the woman’s empty heart. Not even pride could comfort her
this time. She listened to the letter read, her face quiet and cold,
and she took it home and that night she put it in the oven with the
burning grass. Then she went to the table in the room where there was a
small drawer and after a while she opened it and brought out the three
letters there, for so long had the man been gone now, and she took them
also to the fire and laid them on the flames. The lad saw it, and he
cried out astounded,

“Do you burn my father’s letters then?”

“Aye,” the mother answered, cold as death, her eyes on the quick flames.

“But how will we know where he is, then?” the lad wailed.

“I know as well as ever. Do you think I can forget?” the woman said.

So she emptied her heart clean.

       *       *       *       *       *

But how can any heart live empty? On a day soon after this she went
into the city to change again her bit of paper, for these days she did
not trouble her cousin often, having learned to be alone, and when she
had the ten pieces in her hand she turned to go and there a man stood
by the door upon the street, and he stood smiling and smoothing his
upper lip, and it was the landlord’s agent.

Not since the late autumn had he seen her close as this, and there was
none near who knew them and so he stared at her boldly and smiling and
he said, “What do you here, goodwife?”

“I did but change a bit of money--” she broke off here, for she had
been about to say on, “that my man sent me,” but the words stuck in her
throat somehow and she did not utter them.

“And what then?” he asked her, his lids lifted and his eyes pressing
her.

She drooped her head and strove to speak as commonly she did, and she
said, “I thought to go and buy a silver pin, or one washed with silver,
to hold my hair. The one I had grew thin from long use and broke
yesterday.”

It was true her pin to hold her hair had so broken, and she said the
truth before she knew it, and turned to go away, ashamed even before
people who did not know her to be seen speaking to a man upon a town
street, and he was a man somewhat notable in his looks, and being
taller than most men and his face very square and pale, so that people
were already looking at them curiously as they passed.

But the man followed behind her. She knew he followed behind her as she
went soberly and modestly down the way and she was afraid not to do
what she had said she would, and so she went to a small silver shop she
knew and stood at the silversmith’s counter and asked to see his pins
of brass, washed with silver. And while she waited she toyed a moment
with some silver earrings that were there and suddenly the agent came
up while she toyed and he pretended he did not know her and he said to
the silversmith, “How much are these earrings?”

Then the silversmith said, “I will weigh them to see how much silver
is there, and then will I sell them to you honestly and fairly by what
they weigh.”

And the silversmith let the pin wait a while, seeing this man was clad
in silk and a better purchaser, doubtless, than this countrywoman in
her blue cotton coat. So the woman could only stand and turn her head
away from those bold secret eyes and the man stood indolently waiting
as the silversmith put the rings upon the little scales.

“Two ounces and a half,” the silversmith said in a loud voice. Then
lowering his voice he added coaxingly, “But if you buy the earrings for
your good lady, then why not add a pair of rings? Here are two to match
the earrings, and it will all be a fine gift, suited to any woman’s
heart.”

The man smiled at this and he said carelessly, “Add them, then.” And
then he said laughing, “But they are not for a wife--the wife I had
died a six-month ago.”

The silversmith made haste to add the rings, pleased at so fine a sale,
and he said, “Then let them be for the new wife.” But the man said no
more but stood and stared and smoothed his lip. Not once did this man
show he knew the countrywoman was there. He took the rings when they
were wrapped and went away. But when he had turned his back the mother
sighed and watched him half jealous for the one he had bought the
trinkets for, such things as she would have loved and in her girlhood
had often longed to have. And indeed they were the very things she had
said her husband bade her buy with the silver she spent, and the gossip
often asked these days, “Where are those rings you said you have? Let
me see what their pattern is.” And the mother was often hard put to it
and she said, “The silversmith is making them,” or “I have put them in
a certain place and I have forgot where they are for the moment,” and
many such excuses had she made until this last year when the gossip had
said with how great malice, “And do you never wear those rings yet?”
and then the mother answered, “I have not the heart and I will put them
on the first day he comes home.”

So when she had bought the pin and slipped it through her coil of hair,
she turned home again thinking of the dainty silver things and she
sighed and thought she had not heart to take her hard-earned silver
and buy herself a toy, after all, seeing that doubtless it mattered to
no one how she looked now, and she would let be as she was. Thinking
thus and somewhat drearily, she wound her way out of the city gate and
upon the narrow country road that branched off to the hamlet from the
highway, and she thought of home and of the comfort of her food when
she was there, the only comfort now her body had.

Suddenly out of the twilight of the short winter’s evening there stood
the man. Out of the twilight he stood, sudden and black, and he seized
her wrist in his large soft hand and there was no other soul near by.
No, it was the hour when countrymen are in their houses and it was
cold and the air full of the night’s frost and such a time as no one
lingers out unless he must. Yet here was he, and he had her wrist and
held it and she felt his hand on her and she stood still, smitten into
stillness.

Then the man took the small parcel of silver he had and with his other
hand he forced it into her hand that he held, and he closed her fingers
over it and he said, “I bought these for none other than for you. For
you alone I bought them. They are yours.”

And he was gone into the gathering shade under the city wall, and there
was she left alone, the silver trinkets in her hand.

Then she came to herself and she ran after him crying, “I cannot--but I
cannot--.”

But he was gone. Although she ran into the gate and peered through the
flickering lights that fell from open shops, she could not see him. She
was ashamed to run further into the town and look at this man’s face
and that in the dim light, and so she stood, uncertain and ashamed,
until the soldiers who guarded the city gate called out in impatience,
“Goodwife, if you are going out this gate tonight go you must because
the hour is come when we must close it fast against the communists,
those new robbers we have these days.”

She went her way then once more and crossed the little hill and down
into the valley, and after a while she thrust the trinkets in her
bosom. The moon rose huge and cold and glittering as soon as the sun
was set, and when she came home the children were in their bed, and
the old grandmother asleep. Only the lad lay still awake and he cried
when his mother came, “I was afraid for you, my mother, and I would
have come to find you, only I was afraid to leave the children and my
grandmother.”

But she could not even smile at his so calling the other two children
as though he were a man beside them. She answered, “Aye, here I be, at
last, and very weary somehow,” and she went and fetched a little food
and ate it cold, and all the time the trinkets lay in her bosom.

When she had eaten she glanced toward the bed and by the candlelight
she saw the lad slept too, and so she fastened the curtains and then
she sat down beside the table and took the little packet from her
breast and opened the soft paper which enwrapped it. There the rings
lay, glittering and white, and the earrings were beautiful. Upon each
were fastened three small fine chains, and at the end of each chain
hung a little toy. She took them in her hard fingers and looked closely
and upon one chain hung a tiny fish and upon the second a little bell
and upon the third a little pointed star, all daintily and cleverly
made and pleasing to any woman. She had never held such pretty things
before in her hard brown palm. She sat and looked at them a while and
sighed and wrapped them up again, not knowing what to do with them, or
how to give them back to that man.

But when she had crept under the quilt with the children she could not
sleep. Although her body was cold with the damp chill of the night her
cheeks were burning hot and she could not sleep for a long time and
then at last but lightly. And partly she dreamed of some strange thing
shining, and partly she dreamed of a man’s hot hand upon her.




X


She did not see the man again through the whole spring, although she
remembered him. She did not see him until a day in the early summer,
when the wheat was turning faintly gold, and she had sown her rice in
beds for seedlings, and it was sprouted new and green and set in small
blocks of jade near the house where it could be well watched by the old
grandmother against the greedy birds that loved its tenderness. And all
this time her heart lay in her hot and fallow.

But there came a day in that early summer, a day windless and full of
soft new heat. The cicadas called their sharp loves and when they had
called past the crisis their voices trailed slow and languorous into
silence again. Into the valley the sun poured down its heat like clear
warm wine and the smooth warm stones of the solitary street of the
little hamlet threw back the heat again so that the air shimmered and
danced above them, and through those waves the little naked children
ran and played, their smooth bodies shining with their sweat.

There was no little passing wind of any sort at all. Standing upon her
threshold the mother thought she had never felt such close and sudden
heat as this so soon in summer. The younger boy ran to the edge of the
pool and sat in the water there, laughing and shouting to his playmates
to come and join him, and the elder lad took off his coat and rolled
his trousers high and put on his head a wide old bamboo hat that had
been his father’s once and went out to the field of newly sprouted
corn. The girl sat in the house for darkness and her mother heard her
sighing there. Only the old woman loved this heat and she sat in the
sun and slipped the coat from her old withered frame and let the sun
soak down into her old bones and on her breasts that hung like bits
of dried skin on her bosom, and she piped when she saw her son’s wife
there, “I never fear to die in summer, daughter! The sun is good as new
blood and bones to an old dried thing like me!”

But the mother could not bear the outer heat. Heat there was enough
inside her and her blood seemed this day to thunder through her veins
with too much heat. She left the house then saying, “I must go and
water the rice a while. A very drying sun today, old mother,” and she
took her hoe and on her shoulder slung her empty water buckets and so
walked down the narrow path to where a further pond lay somewhat higher
than the seed beds of the rice, and she walked gratefully, because
the air though hot was not so shut and lifeless as it had been on the
street.

She walked on and met no one at all, because it was the hour after
noon when men take their rest. Here and there if a man had gone early
to his field he sought the shade, for, after all, the heat was too
great for labor, and he lay sleeping under some tree, his hat covering
his face against the flies, and beside him stood his beast, its head
drooping and all its body slack with heat and drowsiness. But the
mother could bear the heat because it came down out of the sky and was
not shut between walls or all in her own veins.

She worked on a while then in her seed beds and with her hoe she cut a
little gate in the higher edge of the bed and she dug a small water way
to the pond, and then she went to the pond’s edge and with her buckets
slung upon the pole she dipped first one and then the other into the
water and then emptied them into the ditch she had dug. Over and over
she dipped the water and watched the earth grow dark and moist and it
seemed to her she fed some thirsting living thing and gave it life.

Now while she was at this task she straightened her back once and set
her buckets down and went and sat upon the green edge of the pond to
rest, and as she sat she looked to the north where the hamlet was and
there she saw a man stop and ask the old woman something and then he
turned and came toward her where she sat by this pond. She looked as he
came and knew him. It was the landlord’s agent, and while he came she
remembered she had his trinkets still and she hung her head not knowing
how to speak of them without giving them back again, and not daring
now to go and find them and give them back to him in this full light of
day when any passing soul might see her do it and the old woman wide
awake, too, in the sun, and she was quick to see a thing she ought not.

So the man came on, and when he was come the mother rose slowly, being
lesser in place than he and woman, too, before a man. But he called
out freely and he said, “Goodwife, I came but to look and see what the
wheat is this year and guess the harvest from the fields!”

But while he spoke his eyes ran up and down her body, clad for the heat
in but a single coat and trousers of patched blue stuff worn thin and
close to her shape and his eyes fixed themselves upon her bare brown
feet and in fear of her own heart she muttered rudely, “The fields lie
yonder--look then, and see!”

So he glanced over them from where he stood and he said in his
pleasant, townsman’s way, “Very fair fields, goodwife, and there have
been worse harvests than there will be this year.” And he took out
a little folded book and wrote something down on it with a sort of
stick she had never seen before, seeing he needed not to dip it in ink
at all, as the letter writer did, for it came out black itself. She
watched him write and half it made her curious and half it touched her
and made her proud to think so learned and goodly a man had looked at
one like her, even when he should not, and she thought she would not
speak of the trinkets this one time.

When he had finished his writing he said to her smiling and smoothing
his lip, “If you have time, show me that other field of yours that
stands in barley, for I ever do forget which is yours and which your
cousin’s.”

“Mine is there around the hill,” she said half unwillingly, and now her
eyes were dropped and she made as if to take the hoe again.

“Around the hill?” the man said and then his voice grew soft and he
smoothed that lip of his with his big soft hand and smiled and said,
“But show me, goodwife!”

He fixed his eyes on her steadily now and openly and his gaze had
power to move her somehow and she put down her hoe and went with him,
following after him as women do when they walk with men.

The sun beat down on them as they went and the earth was warm beneath
their feet and green and soft with grass. Suddenly as she walked the
woman felt her blood grow all sweet and languorous in her with the hot
sun. And without knowing why, it gave her some deep pleasure to look
at the man who walked ahead of her, at his strong pale neck, shining
with sweat, at his body moving in the long smooth robe of summer stuff,
at his feet in white clean hose and black shoes of cloth. And she went
silently on her bare feet and she came near to him and caught some
fragrance from him, too strong for perfume, some compound of man’s
blood and flesh and sweat. When she caught it in her nostrils she was
stirred with longing and it was such a longing she grew frightened of
herself and of what she might do, and she cried out faltering, and
standing still upon the grassy path, “I have forgot something for my
old mother!” and when he turned and looked at her, she faltered out
again thickly, her whole body suddenly hot and weak, “I have forgot a
thing I had to do--” and she turned from him and walked as quickly as
she could and left him there staring after her.

Straight she went to her house and she crept across the threshold and
none noticed her, for everyone lay sleeping. The heat of the day had
grown heavier as the afternoon wore on. Across the way the cousin’s
wife sat sleeping, her mouth ajar, and the last babe sleeping at her
breast. Here the old grandmother slept too, her head drooped and her
nose upon her chin, and her clothes slipped to her waist still as she
had sat in the sun. The girl had come out of the close room and lay
curled against a cool stone for a pillow and she slept, and the younger
lad lay naked and stretched to his full length beneath the willow tree,
asleep.

The very day had changed. It was grown darker and more still and full
of deeper and more burning heat. Great clouds loomed swollen, black and
monstrous, up from the hills. But they shone silver-edged, luminous
from some strange inner light. Even the sound of any insect, the call
of any bird, was stilled in the vast hot silence of that day.

But the mother was far from sleep. She went softly into the darkened,
silent room, and she sat herself upon the bed and the blood thundered
in her ears, the blood of her strong hungry body. Now she knew what was
amiss with her. She pretended nothing to herself now, as a townswoman
might pretend, that there was some illness she had. No, she was too
simple to pretend when well she knew how it was with her, and she was
more frightened than she had ever been in her whole life, for she knew
that such hunger as was in her now grew raving if it were not fed....
She did not even dream she could repulse him, now she knew her own
hunger was the same as his, and she groaned aloud and cried to her
heart, “It would be better if he would not have me--Oh, I wish he would
not have me, and that I might be saved!”

But even while she groaned she rose driven from off that bed and went
from the sleeping hamlet and to the fields along the way that she had
come. She walked along under the great, black, bright-edged clouds and
about her were the hills, livid green and clean against the blackness.
She went under such a sky, along the little winding turn the path took
where it turned past a small and ruined shrine, and there in the door
of the shrine the man stood, waiting.

And she could not pass him. No, when he went inside and waited she
followed to the door and looked and there he stood inside the twilight
of the windowless shrine, waiting, and his eyes gleamed out of that
twilight, shining as a beast’s eyes, waiting, and she went in.

They looked at each other in the dim light, two people in a dream,
desperate, beyond any power now to stay, and they made ready for what
they must do.

Yet did the woman stop once, too. She looked up from her dream and she
saw the three gods in the shrine, the chief a staid old man staring
straight ahead of him, and by his side two small attendants, little,
decent gods of the wayside for those who paused in their journey for
worship or for shelter. She took the garment she had laid aside and
went and threw it on their heads and covered up their staring eyes.




XI


In the night of that same day the wind rose suddenly as a tiger’s roar
out of the distant hills, and it blew the clouds down out of the sky
where they had hung heavy and full of rain, their light long gone. And
the sudden rains poured and washed the heats out of that day. When at
last the mist was gone, the dawn, pure and cool, grew quiet and fell
from a gray and tranquil sky.

Now out of that storm and chill came down from heaven suddenly, at
last, the old woman’s death. She had sat asleep too long, her old body
naked for the wind to blow upon when the sun went down, and when the
mother came home at twilight, silent, and as if she came from the field
and honest labor, she found the old woman in her bed and cold with
sudden chills and aches and she cried out, “Some wicked spirit has
caught me, daughter! Some ill wind fell on me!” And she moaned and put
out her little shriveled hand and the mother took it and it was dry and
burning hot.

Almost was the mother glad to have it so. Almost did she rejoice there
was this thing to take her mind from her own heart and from the sweet
and evil thing that she had done that day. She murmured, “It was an
ill black sky--very nearly I came home to see if you sat under such a
sullen sky, but I thought you would see its hue and come in from under
it.”

“I slept, though,” the old woman wailed, “I slept, and I slept on and
we all slept, and when I woke the sun was gone and I was cold as death.”

Then the mother hastened and made hot water for the old woman and put
some ginger in it and hot herbs and the old woman drank it. Yet in
the night her dry fever grew and she complained she could not breathe
because some imp sat on her chest and drove his knife into her lungs,
and after a while she ceased talking and lay breathing roughly from her
pressed lungs.

And the mother was glad she must not sleep. Through the night she was
glad she must sit beside the old woman’s bed and watch her and give
her water when she moaned for it and put the quilt about her when she
pushed it off and cried that she burned and yet shivered too. Outside
the night had grown black and mighty rains poured down upon the
thatched roof and here and there it broke through and leaked, so that
the mother must drag the old woman’s bed out from its corner where the
rain seeped in, and over the bed where the children slept she laid a
reed mat to hold the leaks off. Yet all these things she was glad to
have to do and glad to be so busy all night long.

When the morning came the old soul was worse. Yes, any eye could see
it, and the mother sent the lad for the cousin and he came and the
cousin’s wife came and this neighbor and that and they all looked at
the old woman who lay now only partly knowing what was about her, and
partly dazed with her fever and the pain she had when she breathed.
Each one cried out what must be done and what remedy could be tried,
and the mother hastened here and there to try them all in turn. Once
the old woman came to herself and seeing the crowd gathered there, she
panted from her laden breast, “There is an imp sits here on me and
holds me down.... My hour--my hour--”

Then the mother hastened to her and she saw there was a thing the old
soul had to say and could not get it out, but she plucked trembling at
the shroud she wore that was full of patches now, and she had laughed
when every patch was set in place and cried she would outlive the
garment yet. But now she plucked at it and the mother bent her head low
and the old woman gasped, “This shroud--all patched--my son--”

The crowd stared to hear these words and looked wondering at each
other, but the elder lad said quickly, “I know what she wants, mother.
She wants her third shroud new to lie in, the one my father said he
would send, and she ever said she would outlive this one she has now.”

The old woman’s face lit faintly then and they all cried out who heard
it, “How stout an old soul is this!” and they said, “Well, here is a
very curious brave old woman, and she will have her third shroud as she
ever said she would!”

And some dim, dying merriment came on the old woman’s owlish sunken
face and she gasped once more, “I will not die till it is made and on--”

In greatest haste then was the stuff bought, and the cousin went to buy
it and the mother told him, “Buy the very best you can of stout red
cotton stuff and tomorrow I will pay you if you have the silver by you
now.” For she had determined that the old woman would have the very
best, and that night when the house was still she dug into the earth
and got the silver out that she had hid there and she took out what was
needful to send the old mother to her death content.

And indeed, it seemed as if the thing she would not think of now, the
memory of an hour she drove into her secret places, busying herself and
glad to be so busy, it seemed as if this waiting memory made her kind
and eager to be spent for these who were hers. Somehow it eased her of
that secret hour to do her scrupulous best now. For these two nights
she slept none at all, wearying herself eagerly, nor was she ever angry
at the children, and she was most gentle to the old and dying woman.
When the cousin fetched the cloth she held it to the old dying eyes and
she said, speaking loudly now, for the old woman grew deaf and blind
more quickly every hour, “Hold hard, old mother, till I have it made!”

And the old soul said, bravely, “Aye--I will not die!” though she had
not breath for any speech now and scarcely any breath at all, so that
every one she drew came screeching through her lungs pitifully, very
hard to draw.

Then the mother made haste with her needle, and she made the garments
of the bright good stuff, red as a bride’s coat, and the old woman lay
watching her, her dim eyes fixed upon the stuff where it glowed in the
mother’s lap. She could not eat now or swallow any food or drink, not
even the warm human milk one kindly woman milked from her own breast
with a bowl, since sometimes this good milk will save an old dying man
or woman. She clung but to this scanty bit of air, waiting.

And the mother sewed and sewed, and the neighbors brought in food so
that she need not stop for anything but could sew on. In one day and
a part of the night it was done, and the cousin and the cousin’s wife
stood by to see it and a neighbor or two, and indeed the whole hamlet
did not sleep, but stayed awake to wonder if the mother would win that
race, or death.

But it was done at last, the scarlet burial robes were done, and the
cousin lifted the old body and the mother and the cousin’s wife drew
on the fine new garments on the old and withered limbs, brown now and
dry as old sticks of some dead tree. But the old soul knew when it was
finished. Speak she could not, but she lay and drew one last rattling
breath or two, and opened wide her eyes and smiled her toothless smile,
knowing she had lived through to her third shroud, which was her whole
desire, and so she died triumphantly.

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Yet when the burial day was over and the need for being busy was past,
still the mother busied herself. She labored as she never had upon the
land and when the lad would do a thing she had begun she cried roughly,
“Let me do it--I miss the old mother sorely and more sorely than I
thought I could, and I blame myself that I did not go home that day and
see if she were warm when the storm came up and covered the sun.”

And she let it be thought through the hamlet that she sorrowed for the
old woman gone, and blamed herself, and many praised her for her sorrow
and said, “How good a daughter-in-law to mourn like this!” And they
comforted her and said, “Do not mourn so, goodwife. She was very old
and her life ended, and when the hour is come that has been set for
each of us before ever we can walk or talk, then what need of mourning?
You have your man alive yet, and you have your two sons. Take heart,
goodwife.”

But it was an ease to her too to have every cause to cover up her fear
and melancholy. For she had cause to be afraid, and she had time now,
even while she worked upon her land, to take out of her heart that fear
which had been hiding there ever since the hour in the rising storm.
Glad she was all these days that she had been in such haste, glad even
for the old woman’s death, and to herself she thought most heavily, “It
is better that the old soul is dead and cannot know what is to come if
it must come.”

One month passed and she was afraid. Two months passed and three and
harvest came, the grain was threshed, and what had been fear beneath
her labor day by day was now a certainty. There was no more to doubt
and she knew the worst had befallen her, mother of sons, goodwife
honored in her hamlet, and she cursed the day of the storm and her own
foolish heats. Well she might have known that with her own body all hot
and open and waiting as it had been, her mind all eaten up with one
hunger, well she might have known it was such a moment as must bear
fruit. And the man’s body, too, so strong and good and full of its own
power--how had she ever dreamed it could be otherwise?

Here was strange motherhood now that must be so secret and watched with
such dismay in the loneliness of the night while the children slept.
And however she might be sickened she dared not show it. Strange it was
that when she bore her proper children she was not sick at all, but now
her food turned on her when she ate a mouthful. It was as though this
seed in her was so strong and lusty that it grew like a foul weed in
her, doing what it would with her body ruthlessly, and she could not
let a sign of it be seen.

Night after night she sat up in her bed, too ill at ease to lie down,
and she groaned within herself, “I wish I were alone again and had not
this thing here in me--I wish I were alone again as I was, and I would
be content--” and it came to her often and wildly that she would hang
herself there upon the bedpost. But yet she could not. There were her
own good children, and she looked upon their sleeping faces and she
could not, and she could not bear to think of the neighbors’ looks on
her dead body when they searched her for her cause of death. There was
nothing then save that she must live on.

Yet in spite of all this pain the woman was not healed of her desire
toward that townsman, though she often hated while she longed for him.
Rather did it seem he held her fast now by this secret hold that grew
within her. She had repented that she ever yielded to him and yet she
yearned for him often day and night. In the midst of her true shame and
all her wishing she had withstood him, she yearned for him still. Yet
she was ashamed to seek him out, and fearful too lest she be seen, and
she could only wait again until he came, because it seemed to her if
she went and sought him then she was lost indeed, and after that stuff
for any man to use.

But here was a strange thing. The man was finished with her. He came no
more throughout that whole summer until the grain was reaped when he
must come, and he came hard and quarrelsome as he used to be and he
took his full measure of his grain so that the lad cried wondering,
“How have we made him angry, mother, who was so kind to us last year?”

And the woman answered sullenly, “How can I know?” But she knew. When
he would not look at her, she knew.

Not even on the day of harvest feasting would he look at her, although
she washed herself freshly and combed her hair and smoothed it down
with oil and put on a clean coat and trousers and her one pair of
stockings and the shoes she had made for the old woman’s burial day.
So garbed and her cheeks red with sick hope and shyness and her eyes
bright with all her desperate secret fears, she hurried here and there
busying herself before his eyes about the feast, and she spoke to this
one and to that, forcing herself to be loud and merry. The women stared
astonished at her flaming cheeks and glittering eyes and at her loud
voice and laughter, she who used to be so quiet where men were.

But for all this the man did not look at her. He drank of the new
wine made of rice and as he tasted it he cried loudly to the farmers,
“I will have a jug or two of that for myself, if you can spare it,
farmers, and set the clay seal on well and sound to keep it sweet.” But
he never looked at her, or if she came before him his eyes passed over
her as they might over any common country wife whose name he did not
know.

Then the woman could not bear it. Yes, although she knew she should be
glad he did not want her any more, she could not bear it. She went home
in the middle of that day of feasting and she searched from out their
secret place those trinkets he had given her once and she was trembling
while she searched. She hung the rings in her ears, taking out the
little wires she had worn there all these years to keep the holes open,
and she pushed the rings over her hard strong fingers, and once more
she made a chance to see him, standing on the edge of the feast where
women stood to serve the men who ate. There the gossip sat among them,
gay for the day in her new shoes, and her feet thrust out to show them
off, and she cried out, “Well, goodwife, there you are and you did buy
your trinkets after all and wear them too, although your man is still
away!”

She cried so loudly that all the women turned to look and laugh and
the men even turned to see and smile a little, too, at the women’s
merriment. Then the agent, hearing the laughter and the witty sayings
that arose against the woman, looked up carelessly and haughtily from
his bowl, his jaws moving as he looked, for his mouth was full of food,
and he said carelessly and loud enough for her to hear, “What woman is
it?” And his eyes fell on her scarlet face and he looked away as if he
had never known her and fell to his bowl again. And the woman, feeling
the scarlet draining from her face too fast, crept out and ran away and
they laughed to see her run for shame at all their merriment.

From that day on the mother kept out of the way of others and she
stayed alone with her children, and hid the growing of the wild thing
within her. Yet she pondered day and night what she could do. Outwardly
she worked as she ever had, storing the grain and setting all in order
for the winter, and when the festival of mid-autumn came and the hamlet
feasted and each house had its own joy and the little street was merry
with the pleasure and rejoicing and the houses full of grain and food,
the mother, though she had no joy, yet made a few small moon cakes for
her own children, too. When the moon rose on the night of the feast,
they ate the cakes upon the threshing-floor and under the willow trees
and saw the full moon shining down as bright as any sun almost.

But they ate gravely and it seemed the children felt their own lack
and the mother’s lack of joy, and at last the eldest said, solemnly,
“Sometimes I think my father must be dead because he never comes.”

The mother started then and said quickly, “Evil son you be to speak of
such a thing as your own father’s death!”

But a thought had come to her.

And the lad said again, “Sometimes I think I will start forth seeking
for him. I might go when the wheat is sown this year, if you will give
me a little silver, and I can tie my winter clothes upon my back, if it
be I am delayed in finding him.”

Then the mother grew afraid and she cried to turn his mind away, “Eat
another little cake, my son, and wait another year or so. What would
I do if you went away and did not come back either? Wait until the
younger son is large enough to fill your place.”

But the younger son cried stoutly, being wilful always when he had a
wish to make, “But if my brother goes, I will go too,” and he set his
little red lips pouting and he stared angrily at his mother. Then the
mother said reproachfully to the eldest, “There--you see what you do
when you say such things and set his mind on wandering!” And she would
not hear any more of it.

But the thought clung in her mind, and afterwards she pondered on it.
Here was she alone now these five years. Five years--and would not a
man have come long since if he were coming? Five years gone--and he
must be dead. It must be she was widow, perhaps a widow years long, and
never knew it. And the landlord’s agent was not wed. She was widow and
he not wed, for she had heard him say that his wife was dead last year
but she had not heeded, for what was it to her then, who was not widow?
Yes, she must be widow. That night she watched the great moon set
high in the heavens and she watched far into the night, the children
sleeping and all the hamlet sleeping save a dog here and there barking
at the enormous moon, and more and more it seemed to her she must be
widow, and if she were--if she were wed as soon as he would say, would
it be soon enough?

And in the strangest way the thing hastened upon her. The lad would
not forget his plan and he worked feverishly to plough the fields and
sow the wheat and when it was done he would have set out that very day
to find his father. Tall the lad was now as his father had been almost,
and lean and hard as bamboo and as supple, and no longer any little
child to bear refusal and he was quiet and stubborn in his nature,
never forgetting a plan he made, and he said, “Let me go now and see
where my father is--give me the name of the city where he lives and the
house where he works!”

Then in despair the mother said to put him off, “But I burned those
letters and now must we wait until the new year comes when he will send
another.”

And he cried, “Yes, but you said you knew!”

And she said hastily, “So I thought I did, but what with this and that
and the old mother’s dying, I have forgot again, and I know I have
forgot, because when she lay dying, I would have sent a letter to
him and I could not because I had forgot.” And when he looked at her
reproachfully, scarcely believing her, she cried out angrily, “And how
did I know you would want to go and leave it all on me now when you are
just old enough to be some worth? I never dreamed that you would leave
your mother, and I know a letter will come at the new year as it always
has.”

So the lad could but put aside his wish then for the time and he waited
in his sullen humor, for he had set his heart to see his father.
Scarcely could he remember him, but he seemed to remember him as a
goodly merry man and the lad longed after him for in these days he did
not love his mother well because she seemed always out of temper with
him and not understanding of any speech, and he longed for his father.

At last the mother did not know what to do, except that something she
must do and quickly, for even if the letter was not written at new year
time, the lad would worry at her and sooner or later she must tell him
all the truth and how would she ever make him see how what had been a
little lie at first to save her pride as woman, had grown great and
firm now with its roots in years, and very hard to change?

And then she tried to comfort herself again, and to say the man must
be dead. Whoever heard of any man who would not come back sometimes to
his land and his sons and his old home, if he yet lived? He was dead.
She was sure he was dead, and so saying many times, sureness came into
her heart and she believed him dead and there was needed but an outward
sign to satisfy the lad and those who were in the hamlet.

Once more she went into the town then on this old task, and she went
and sought a new letter writer this time, whom she had never seen
before, and she sighed and said, “Write to my brother’s wife and say
her husband is dead. And how did he die? He was caught in a burning
house, for the house where he lived caught on fire from a lamp turned
over by some slave, and there he burned up in his sleep and even his
ashes are lost so there is no body to send home.”

And the letter writer wrote her own name for the sister’s name and she
gave a false name as of some stranger who wrote to tell the news and
for a little more he wrote the name of some other town than this, and
he scented something strange here, but he let it pass, too, since it
was none of his affair and he had silver here to pay for silence.

So was the woman saved. But she could not wait to finish her salvation.
No, she must let the landlord’s agent know somehow, and she went here
and there and asked where the landlord’s old home was, where he did not
live now but where the agent doubtless was well known. And she grew
heedless in her anxiety to be saved, and she ran there and it seemed
the gods were with her on that day and aided her, for there he came
alone and she met him at the gate of the house and as he was ready to
turn in to it. Then she cried out and laid her hand upon his arm, and
he looked down at her and at her hand upon his arm and he said, “What
is it, woman?”

And she whispered, “Sir, I am widowed--I have but heard this day I am
widowed!”

And he shook her hand off and he said loudly, “What is that to me!” And
when she looked at him painfully he said roughly, “I paid you--I paid
you very well!” And suddenly someone he knew called out from the street
and laughed and said, “How now, good fellow? And a very pretty, lusty
goodwife, too, to lay hold on a man thus!”

But the man called back, scarcely lifting those heavy lids of his, and
he said coldly, “Aye--if you like them coarse and brown, but I do not!”
And he went on his way.

She stood there then astonished and ashamed and understanding nothing.
But how had she been paid? What had he ever given her? And suddenly she
remembered the trinkets he had given her. That was her pay! Yes, by
those small worthless trinkets he held himself free of all that he had
done.

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What could she do, then, knowing all? She set her feet steadfastly upon
the road to home, her heart deathly still within her, and she said over
and over, “It is not time to weep yet--the hour is not come yet when
I may weep.” And she would not let her weeping come. No, the weeping
gathered in her great and tremulous but she would not weep. She held
her heart hard and silent for a day or two, until the news came, the
letter she had written, and she took it to the reader in the hamlet,
and she said steadily as she gave it to him, “I fear there is ill news
in it, uncle--it is come out of time.”

Then the old man took it and he read it and started and he cried, “It
is bad news, goodwife--be ready!”

“Is he ill?” she said in her same steady way.

And the old man laid the letter down and took the spectacles from his
eyes and he answered solemnly, staring at her, “Dead!”

Then the mother threw her apron over her head and she wept. Yes, she
could weep now and she wept, safely, and she wept on and on as though
she knew him truly dead. She wept for all her lonely years and because
her life had been so warped and lone and she wept because her destiny
had been so ill and the man gone, and she wept because she dared not
bear this child she had in her, and last she wept because she was a
woman scorned. All the weeping she had been afraid to do lest child
hear her or neighbor, now she could weep out and none need know how
many were the sorrows that she wept.

The women of the hamlet came running out to comfort her when they heard
the news and they comforted her and cried out she must not fall ill
with weeping, for there were her children still and the two good sons,
and they went and fetched the sons and led them to her for comfort, and
the two lads stood there, the eldest silent, pale as though in sudden
illness, and the youngest bellowing because his mother wept.

Suddenly in the midst of the confusion a loud howl arose and a noisier
weeping than the mother’s, and it was the gossip’s, who was suddenly
overcome with all the sorrow round about her, and the great oily tears
ran down her cheeks and she sobbed loudly, “Look at me, poor soul--I
am worse off than you, for I have no son at all--not one! I am more
piteous than you, goodwife, and worse than any woman I ever saw for
sorrow!” And her old sorrow came up in her so fresh and new that all
the women were astonished and they turned to comfort her, and in the
midst of the fray the mother went home, her two sons after her, weeping
silently as she went, for she could not stay her weeping. Yes, she sat
herself down and wept at her own door, and the elder lad wept silently
a little too, now, wiping his eyes with the back of his hand, and the
little boy wept on, not understanding what it meant to have his father
dead, since he could not remember what the father was, and the girl
wept and pressed her hands against her eyes and moaned softly and she
said, “I must weep because my father is dead--my tears burn me so--yet
must I weep for my dead father!”

But the mother could not weep to any end, and she knew she could not
until she had done what she must do. So for the time she ceased her
weeping and comforted them somewhat with her own silence while she
thought what she would do.

She would have said there was no path for her to turn, unless to death,
but there was one way, and it was to tear from out her body this greedy
life she felt there growing. But she could not do it all alone. There
must be one to aid her, and there was none to turn to save her cousin’s
wife. Much the mother wished she need not tell a soul what she must do,
and yet she did not know how to do it alone. And the cousin’s wife was
a coarse good creature, too, one who knew the earth and the ways of
men and knew full well the earthy body of a woman that is fertile and
must bear somehow. But how to tell her?

Yet the thing came easily enough, for in a day or so thereafter when
the two women stood alone upon a pathway talking, having met by some
small accident or other, the cousin’s wife said in her loud and kindly
way, “Cousin, eat and let your sorrowing cease, for I do swear your
face is as yellow as though you had worms in you.”

And the thought rose in the mother’s mind and she said it, low and
bitterly, “So I have a worm in me, too, that eats my life out.”

And when the cousin’s wife stared, the mother put her hand to her belly
and she said, halting, “Something does grow in me, cousin, but I do not
know what it can be unless it is an evil wind of some sort.”

Then the cousin’s wife said, “Let me see it,” and the mother opened her
coat and the cousin’s wife felt her where she had begun to swell, and
she said astonished, “Why, cousin, it is like a child there, and if you
had a husband, I would say that it was so with you!”

Then the mother said nothing but she hung her head miserably and could
not lift her eyes, and the cousin saw a stirring in her belly and she
cried out in a terror, “It is a child, I swear, yet how can it be
except it be conceived by spirit, since your man is gone these many
years? But I have heard it said it does happen sometimes to women and
in olden times it happened often, if they were of a saintly sort, that
gods came down and visited them. Yet you be no great saint, cousin, a
very good woman, it is true, and held in good respect, but still angry
and sudden sometimes and of a lusty temper. But have you felt a god
about?”

Then the mother would like to have told another lie and she longed to
say she did feel a god one day when she stood in the wayside shrine to
shelter in a storm, but when she opened her lips to shape the lie she
could not. Partly she was afraid to lie so blackly about the old decent
god there whose face she covered, and partly she was so weary now she
could lie no more. So she lifted her head and looked miserably at the
cousin’s wife and the red flowed into her pale cheeks and spotted them;
she would have given half her life now if she could have told a full
deceiving lie. But she could not and there it was. And the good woman
who looked at her saw how it was and she asked no question nor how it
came about, but she said only, “Cover yourself, sister, lest you be
cold.”

And the two walked on a while and at last the mother said in a very
passion of bitterness, “It does not matter who begot it and none shall
ever know and if you will help me through this, cousin and my sister, I
will care for you as long as my life is in me.”

And the cousin’s wife said in a low voice, “I have not lived so many
years as I have and never seen a woman rid herself of a thing she did
not want.”

And for the first time the mother saw a hope before her and she
whispered, “But how--but how--” and the cousin’s wife said, “There are
simples to be bought if one has the money, strong stuff that kills
woman and child sometimes, and always it is harder than a birth, but if
you take enough, it will do.”

And the mother said, “Then let it kill me, if it will only kill this
thing, and so save my sons and these others the knowledge.”

Then the cousin’s wife looked steadfastly at the mother and she stopped
where she was and looked at her, and she said, “Yes, cousin, but will
it come about again like this, now that your man is dead?”

Then did the mother swear and she cried in agony, “No, and I will throw
myself into the pond and cool myself forever if it comes on me hot
again as it did in the summer.”

That night she dug out from the ground a good half of her store of
silver and when the chance came she gave it to the cousin’s wife to buy
the simples.

On a night when all was bought and the stuff brewed, the cousin’s wife
came in the darkness and she whispered to the waiting woman, “Where
will you drink it? For it cannot be done in any house, being so bloody
a business as it is.”

Then the mother remembered that wayside shrine and how lonely it was
with so few wayfarers passing by, and none in the night, and to that
wayside shrine the two women went, and the mother drank the brew and
she lay down upon the ground, and waited.

Presently in the deep night the stuff seized on her with such gripes as
she never dreamed of and she gave herself up to die. And as the agony
went on she came at last to forget all except the agony, and she grew
dazed with it. Yet in the midst of it she remembered not to scream to
ease herself, nor did they dare to light a torch or any little light,
lest any might by some strange chance pass and see from even a distance
an unaccustomed light in that shrine.

No, the mother must suffer on as best she could. The sweat poured down
her body like rain and she was dead to everything except the fearful
griping, as though some beast laid hold on her to tear the very vitals
from her, and at last it seemed a moment came when they were torn from
her indeed, and she gave one cry.

Then the cousin’s wife came forward with a mat she had, and took what
was to be taken, and she felt and whispered sadly, “It would have been
a boy, too. You are a fortunate mother who have so many sons in you.”

But the mother groaned and said, “There never will be another now.”

Then she lay back and rested on the ground a little and when she could
they went back to the house, she leaning on the kindly cousin’s arm and
holding back her moans. And when they passed a pond, the cousin threw
the roll of matting into it.

       *       *       *       *       *

For many days thereafter the mother lay ill and weak upon her bed,
and the good cousin aided her in what way she could, but she lay ill
and half-sick the winter through that year so that to lift a load and
carry it to market was a torture and yet she must do it now and then.
At last, though, she rose sometimes more easily on a fair day and sat a
while in the sun. So spring came on and she grew somewhat better, but
still not herself, and often when the cousin brought some dainty dish
to coax her she would press her hand to her breast and say, “It seems
I cannot swallow. There is something heavy here. My heart hangs here
between my breasts so heavy and full I cannot swallow. My heart seems
full of pain I cannot weep away. If I could weep once to the end I
would be well again.”

So it seemed to her. But she could not weep. All spring she could not
weep nor could she work as she was used, and the elder son struggled to
do what must be done, and the cousin helped more than he was able. And
the mother could not weep or work.

So it was until a certain day came when the barley was bearded, and
she sat out in the sun listlessly, her hair not combed that morning
she was so weary. Suddenly there was the sound of a step, and when she
looked up that landlord’s agent stood. When the elder son saw him he
came forward and he said, “Sir, my father is dead now and I stand in
his place, for my mother has been ill these many months. I must go with
you now to guess the harvest, if you have come for that, for she is not
able.”

Then the man, this townsman, this smooth-haired, smooth-lipped man,
looked at the mother full and carelessly and well he knew what had
befallen her, and she knew he knew and she hung her head in silence.
But the man said carelessly, “Come then, lad,” and the two went away
and left her there alone.

Now well she knew she had no hope from this man. Nor did she want him
any more, her body had been weak so long. But this last sight of him
was the last touch she needed. She felt the lump she called her heart
melt somehow and the tears rushed to her eyes, and she rose and walked
by a little unused path across the land to a rude lonely grave she
knew, the grave of some unknown man or woman, so old none knew whose it
was now, and she sat there on the grassy mound and waited. And at last
she wept.

First her tears came slow and bitter but freely after a while and then
she laid her head against the grave and wept in the way that women do
when their hearts are too full with sorrow of their life and spilled
and running over and they care no more except they must be eased
somehow because all of life is too heavy for them. And the sound of
her weeping reached the little hamlet even, borne on the winds of
spring, and hearing it the mothers in the houses and the wives looked
at each other and they said softly, “Let her weep, poor soul, and ease
herself. She has not been eased these many months of widowhood. Tell
her children to let her weep.”

And so they let her weep.

       *       *       *       *       *

But after long weeping the mother heard a sound, a soft rustling there
beside her, and looking up in the twilight, for she had wept until the
sun was set, there came her daughter, feeling her way over the rough
ground and she cried as she came, “Oh, mother, my cousin’s wife said
let you weep until you eased yourself, but are you not eased yet with
so much weeping?”

Then was the mother roused. She was roused and she looked at the child
and sighed and she sat up and smoothed back her loosened hair and wiped
her swollen eyes and rose and the child put out her hand and felt for
her mother’s hand, shutting her eyes against the shining evening glow
that was rosy where the sun went down, and she said plaintively, “I
wish I never had to weep, for when I weep, my tears do burn me so!”

At these few words the mother came to herself, suddenly washed clean.
Yes, these few words, spoken at the end of such a day, this small young
hand feeling for her, called her back from some despair where she had
lived these many months. She was mother again and she looked at her
child and coming clear at last from out her daze she cried, “Are your
eyes worse, my child?”

And the girl answered, “I think I am as I ever was, except light seems
to burn me more, and I do not see your faces clear as once I did, and
now my brother grows so tall, I cannot tell if it be you or he who
comes, unless I hear you speak.”

Then the mother, leading this child of hers most tenderly, groaned to
herself, “Where have I been these many days? Child, I will go tomorrow
when dawn comes and buy some balm to make you well as I ever said I
would!”

That night it seemed to all of them as though the mother had returned
from some far place and was herself again. She put their bowls full of
food upon the table and bestirred herself, her face pale and spent but
tranquil and full of some wan peace. She looked at each child as though
she had not seen him for a year or two. Now she looked at the little
boy and she cried, “Son, tomorrow I will wash your coat. I had not seen
how black it is and ragged. You are too pretty a lad to go so black as
that and I your mother.” And to the elder one she said, “You told me
you had a finger cut and sore the other day. Let me see it.” And when
she washed his hand clean and put some oil upon the wound, she said,
“How did you do it, son?”

And he opened his eyes surprised and said, “I told you, mother, that I
cut it when I made the sickle sharp upon the whetting stone and ready
to reap the barley soon.”

And she made haste to answer, “Aye, I remember now, you said so.”

As for the children, they could not say how it was, but suddenly there
seemed warmth about them and this warmth seemed to come from their
mother and good cheer filled them and they began to talk and tell her
this and that and the little lad said, “I have a penny that I gained
today when we were tossing in the street to see who could gain it, and
ever I gain the penny first I am so lucky.”

And the mother looked on him avidly and saw how fair and sound a lad he
was and while she wondered at herself because she had not seen it long
ago, she answered him with hearty, sudden love, “Good lad to save the
penny and not buy sweet stuff and waste it!” But at this the lad grew
grave and said, troubled, “But only for today, mother, for tomorrow I
had thought to buy the stuff and there is no need to save it for I can
gain a penny every day or so,” and he waited for her to refuse him, but
she only answered mildly, “Well, and buy it, son, for the penny is your
own.”

Then the silent elder lad came forth with what he had to say, and he
said, “My mother, I have a curious thing to tell you and it is this.
Today when we were in the field, the landlord’s agent and I, he said it
was the last year he would come to this hamlet, for he is going out
to try destiny in other parts. He said he was aweary of this walking
over country roads and he was aweary of these common farmers and their
wives, and it was the same thing season after season, and he was going
to some city far from here.”

This the mother heard and she paused to hear it, and she sat motionless
and staring at the lad through the dim light of the flickering candle
she had lit that night and set upon the table. Then when he was
finished she waited for an instant and let the words sink in her heart.
And they sank in like rain upon a spent and thirsty soil and she cried
in a low warm voice, “Did he say so, my son?” and then as though it
mattered nothing to her she added quickly, “But we must sleep and rest
ourselves for tomorrow when the dawn comes I go to the city to buy the
balm for your sister’s eyes and make her well again.”

And now her voice was full and peaceful, and when the dog came begging
she fed him well and recklessly, and the beast ate happy and amazed,
gulping all down in haste and sighing in content when he was full and
fed.

That night she slept. They all slept and sleep covered them all, mother
and children, deep and full of rest.




XII


The next day came gray and still with unfinished rain of summer and
the sky pressed low over the valley heavy with its burden of the rain,
and the hills were hidden. But the mother rose early and made ready to
take the girl to the town. She could not wait a day more to do what she
could for this child of hers. She had waited all these many days and
even let them stretch out into years, but now in her new motherhood,
washed clean by tears, she could not be too tender or too quick for her
own heart.

As for the young girl, she trembled with excitement while she combed
her long hair and braided it freshly with a pink cord, and she put on
a clean blue coat flowered with white, for she never in all her life
had been away from this small hamlet, and as she made ready she said
wistfully to them all, “I wish my eyes were clear today so I could see
the strange sights in the town.”

But the younger lad, hearing this, answered sharply and cleverly, “Yes,
but if your eyes were clear you would not need to go.”

So apt an answer was it that the young girl smiled as she ever did at
some quick thing he said, but she answered nothing, for she was not
quick herself but slow and gentle in all she did, and when she had
thought a while she said, “Even so, I had rather have my eyes clear and
never see the town, perhaps. I think I would rather have my eyes clear.”

But she said this so long after that the lad had forgotten what he
said, being impatient in his temper and swift to change from this to
that in play or bits of tasks he did, and indeed, he was more like his
father than was any of the three.

But the mother did not listen to the children’s talk. She made ready
and she clothed herself. Once she stood hesitating by a drawer she
opened and she took a little packet out and looked at it, opening the
soft paper that enwrapped it, and it was the trinkets, and she thought,
“Shall I keep them or shall I turn them into coin again?” And she
doubted a while and now she thought, “True it is I can never wear them
again, being held a widow, nor could I bear to wear them anyhow. But I
could keep them for the girl’s wedding.” So she mused staring down at
them in her hand. But suddenly remembering, her gorge rose against them
and she longed to be free from them and from every memory and she said
suddenly with resolve, “No, keep them I will not. And he might come
home--my man might come home, and if he found me with strange trinkets
he would not believe me if I told him I had bought them myself.” So she
thrust the packet in her bosom and called to the girl they must set
forth.

They went along the country road and through the hamlet before there
was a stir, it was so early. The mother strode freely, strong again as
she had not been for long, her head high and free against the misty
air, and she led her daughter by the hand, and the girl struggled to
move quickly, too. But she had not known how little she could see.
About the well known ways of home her feet went easily and surely
enough and she did not know she went by feel and scent and not by
sight, but here the road was strange to her, now high, now low, for the
stones were sunken sometimes, and often she would have fallen had it
not been for her mother’s hand.

Then the mother seeing this was frightened and her heart ran ahead to
meet this fresh evil and she cried out afraid, “I doubt I have brought
you too late, poor child. But you never told me that you could not see
and I thought it was but the water in your eyes that kept you blinded.”

And the girl half sobbing answered, “I thought I saw well enough, too,
my mother, and I think I do, only this road is so up and down, and you
go more quickly than I am used to go.”

Then the mother slowed her steps and said no more and they went on,
more slowly, save that when they came near to that shop of medicine
the mother made haste again without knowing that she did, she was so
eager. It was still early in the day and they were the first buyers and
the medicine seller was but taking down the boards from his shop doors,
and he did it slowly, stopping often to yawn and thrust his fingers
into his long and uncombed hair and scratch his head. When he looked
up and saw this countrywoman and the girl standing there before his
counter he was amazed and he cried out, “What is it you want at such an
early hour?”

Then the mother pointed to her child and she said, “Is there any balm
that you have for such eyes as these?”

The man stared at the girl then and at her seared and red-rimmed eyes
that she could scarcely open at all so red and seared they were, and he
said, “How has she come by such eyes?”

The mother answered, “At first we thought it was the smoke made them
so. My man is dead and I have a man’s work to do on the land, and often
has she fed the fire if I came home late. But these last years it seems
more than this, for I have saved her the smoke, and there seems some
heat that comes up in her of its own accord and burns her eyes. What
fire it can be I do not know, being as she is the mildest maid, and
never even out of temper.”

Then the man shook his head, yawning widely again, and he said
carelessly, “There are many who have eyes like these from some fire in
them, various fires they be, and there is no balm to heal such fever.
It will come up and up. Aye, and there is no healing.”

Now these words fell like iron upon the two hearts that heard them and
the mother said in a low swift voice, “But there may be--there must be
some physician somewhere. Do you know of any good physician not too
costly, since we be poor?”

But the man shook his tousled head languidly and went to fetch some
drug he kept in a little box of wood, and he said as he went, “There is
no skill to make her see, and this I know for I have seen a many such
sore eyes, and every day people come here with such eyes and cry of
inner fever. Aye, and even those foreign doctors have no true good way
I hear, for though they cut the eyes open again and rub the inner part
with magic stones and mutter runes and prayers, still the inner fires
come up and burn the eyes again, and none can cut away that fire for it
burns inside the seat of life. Yet here is a cooling powder that will
cool a little while, though heal it cannot.”

And he fetched a powder rolled in little grains like wheat and the
color of a dark wheat, and he put them into a goose quill and sealed
the other end with tallow and he said again, “Aye, she is blind,
goodwife.” And when he saw how the young girl’s face looked at this
news and how she was bewildered like a child is who has received a
heavy unseen blow, he added, half kindly, too, “And what use to grieve?
It is her destiny. In some other life she must have done an evil
thing, looked on some forbidden sight, and so received this curse. Or
else her father may have sinned, or even you, goodwife--who knows the
heart? But however that may be the curse is here upon her and none can
change what heaven wills.” And again he yawned, his brief kindness
done, and he took the pence the woman gave him and shuffled into some
inner room.

As for the mother, she spoke back with brave anger and she said, “She
is not blind! Whoever heard of sore eyes making people blind? My man’s
mother’s eyes were sore from childhood, but she did not die blind!” And
she went quickly before the man could make an answer, and she held the
girl’s hand hard to stay its trembling, and she went to a silversmith,
not to that same one, and she took from her bosom that packet and she
gave it to the bearded man who kept the shop and said, in a low voice,
“Change me these into coin, for my man is dead and I cannot wear them
more.”

Then while the old man weighed out the trinkets to see what their worth
was in coin, she waited and the young girl began to sob a little softly
in her sleeve and then she said out from her sobs, “I do not believe
I am truly blind, mother, for it seems to me I see something shining
there on the scales, and if I were blind I could not see it, could I?
What is that shining?”

Then the mother knew the girl was blind indeed, or good as blind, for
the trinkets lay bright and plain not two feet from the girl’s face,
and she groaned in herself and she said, “You are right, too, child,
and it is a bit of silver I had in a ring and I cannot wear now, and so
I change it into coin we can use.”

And in this new sorrow come upon her the woman gave no single thought
to the trinkets when they were gone or thought of what they meant. No,
she only thought of this, that with all their silvery shining her child
could not see them, and the old man took them and hung them in his
little case where he kept bracelets and rings and chains for children’s
necks and such pretty things, and she forgot all they had meant to her
except, now, a shining thing her blind child could not see.

       *       *       *       *       *

Yet was there one thing more to do, and she knew that she must do, if
so be the child was to be truly blind. Holding the girl’s hand she went
along, shielding her from those who passed, for by now the streets
were thronged and many came to buy and sell, farmers and gardeners
setting their baskets of green and fresh vegetables along the sides of
the streets, and fishermen setting out their tubs of fish there too.
But the mother went until she came to a certain shop and she left the
girl beside the door and went in alone, and when a clerk came forward
to know what she would have, she pointed at a thing and said, “That,”
and it was the small brass gong and the little wooden hammer tied to
it that the blind use when they walk to warn others they are blind.
The clerk struck it once or twice to show its worth before he wrapped
it, and hearing that sound the young girl lifted her head quickly and
called, “Mother, there is a blind man here, for I hear a sound clear as
a bell.”

The clerk laughed loudly then, for well he saw the maid was blind, and
he burst out, “There be none but--”

But the mother scowled at him so sourly that he left his words hanging
as they were and gave the thing to her quickly and stood and stared
like any fool at her while she went away, not knowing what to make of
it.

They went home then and the young girl was contented to go home, for
as the morning wore on the town grew full of noise and bustle and
frightening sounds she was not used to hear and loud voices bawling in
a bargain and rude thrusts against her from those she could not see,
and she put her little foot here and there, feeling in her delicate way
as she went, smiling unconsciously in her pain. But the mother grieved
most bitterly in secret and she held hard in her other hand the thing
she had bought, which is the sign of those who are blind.

       *       *       *       *       *

Yet though she had this little gong, she could not give it to the girl.
She could not take it that the girl’s eyes were wholly sightless. She
waited through the summer and they reaped the grain again, and it was
measured to the new agent that the landlord sent, an old man this time,
some poor cousin or distant kin, and autumn came, but still the mother
could not give the girl the sign. No, there was a thing yet she must
do, a prayer to make. For seeing daily her blind child, the mother
remembered what the apothecary had said that day, “Some sin her parents
did, perhaps--who knows the heart?”

She told herself that she would set forth to a temple that she
knew--not to that wayside shrine nor ever to those gods whose faces
she had covered--but to a temple far away, a whole ten miles and more,
where she had heard there was a kind and potent goddess who heard women
when they prayed bitterly. The mother told her two sons why she went
and they were grave and awed to think what had befallen their sister.
The elder said in his old man’s way, “I have been long afraid there was
a thing wrong with her.” But the younger lad cried out astonished, “As
for me, I never dreamed there was aught wrong with her eyes I am so
used to her as she is!”

And the mother told the maid too and she said, “Daughter, I go to the
temple to the south where there is that living goddess, and it is the
selfsame one who gave the son to Li the Sixth’s wife when she had gone
barren all her life long and she was nearing the end of her time to
bear, and her man grew impatient and would have taken a concubine he
was so angry with her barrenness, and she went and prayed and there
came that fine good son she has.”

And the maid answered, “Well I remember it, mother, and she made two
silken shoes for the goddess and gave them when the boy was born. Aye,
mother, go quickly, for she is a true good goddess.”

So the mother set forth alone, and all day she struggled against
the wind which blew unceasing through this month, blowing down the
cold with it as it came out of the desert north, so that the leaves
shriveled on the trees and the wayside grass turned crisp and sere and
all things came to blight and death. But heavier than the wind, more
bitter, was the fear of the mother now and she feared that her own sin
had come upon the child. When at last she came into the temple she did
not see at all how great and fine it was, its walls painted rosy red
and the gods gilded and many people coming to and fro for worship. No,
she went quickly in, searching out that one goddess that she knew, and
she bought a bit of incense at the door where it was sold, and she said
to the first gray priest she saw, “Where is the living goddess?”

Then he, supposing her from her common looks to be but one of those
many women who came each day to ask for sons, pointed with his pursed
mouth to a dark corner where a small old dingy goddess sat between two
lesser figures who attended her. There the mother went and stood and
waited while an old bent woman muttered her prayers for a son who could
not move and had lain these many years, she told the goddess, on his
bed, so stricken he could not even beget a son again, and the old woman
prayed and said, “If there be a sin in our house for which we have not
atoned, then tell me, lady goddess, if this is why he lies there, and
I will atone--I will atone!”

Then the old woman rose and coughing and sighing she went her way and
the mother knelt and said her wish, too. But she could not forget what
the old woman had said, and to the mother it seemed the goddess looked
down harshly, and that the smooth golden face stared down fixed and
unmoved by the sinful soul who prayed, whose sin was not atoned.

So the mother rose at last and sighed most heavily, not knowing what
her prayer was worth, and she lit her incense and went away again. When
she had walked the ten miles and come to her own door once more, cold
and weary, she sank upon the stool and she said sadly when the children
asked her how the goddess heard her prayer, “How do I know what heaven
wills? I could but say my prayer and it must be as heaven wills and we
can only wait and see how it will be.”

But with all her secret heart she wished she had not sinned her sin.
The more she wished the more she wondered how she could have done it,
and all her gorge rose against that smooth-faced man and she loathed
him for her sin’s sake and because she could not now in any way undo
what had been done. At that hour of deep loathing she was healed of all
her heat and youth, and she was young no more. For her there was no man
left in the world for man’s own sake, and there were only these three
her children, and one blind.




XIII


Now the mother was no longer young. She was in her forty and third
year, and when she counted on her fingers sometimes in the night how
many years her children’s father had been gone, she used the fingers
of her two hands and two more over again, and even the years that she
had let the hamlet think him dead were more than all the fingers on one
hand.

Yet she walked straight and slight as ever, and no flesh grew on her
frame. Others might begin to shrivel or grow fat as the cousin’s wife
did each year, and the old gossip, too, yet this woman stayed lean and
strong as she had been when she was young. But her breasts grew small
and dry, and in the strong sunlight where one saw her face full, there
were lines about the eyes from working in the bright hard sunshine, and
the skin was dark with the burning of the many years in the fields.
She moved somewhat more slowly than she did, too, without the old
lightness, for she had never been as she was before she tore that wild
life out of her. When she was called for childbirth in the hamlet as
she often was now, seeing she was widowed and counted as among the
ones not young, she found it hard to move so quickly as she must
sometimes, and once or twice a young mother caught the child herself,
and once she even let a newborn babe fall to the brick floor and bruise
its head, and it was a boy, too, but still no harm was done in the end
most luckily, for the lad grew up sturdy and with all his senses in him.

As her children grew, to them their mother seemed old. The eldest was
forever urging her to rest herself and not to heave so at the hard
great clods when the land was ploughed but let him do it, for he did it
easily now in the strength of his young manhood, and he strove to have
her do the lesser lighter things, and nothing pleased him better than
to see her sit quietly upon her stool in the shade on a summer’s day
sewing, and let him go to the land alone.

Yet the truth was she was not after all as old as her son would have
her. She ever loved the field work better than any and she loved to
work there on the land and then come home, her body wet with her clean
sweat and the wind blowing cool on that wetness, and her flesh weary
but sweetly so. Her eyes were used to fields and hills and great
things, and they did not narrow easily to small fine things like
needles.

Indeed, in that house they sorely missed a woman young and with sound
eyes, for they all knew now the girl’s eyes were blind. She knew,
too, poor maid; ever since that day when she had gone to town with
her mother she knew it secretly, even as her mother did, and neither
had any great faith in the goddess, somehow, the mother from what she
feared of that old sin of hers, and the maid because her blindness
seemed to her a destiny.

One day the mother cried, “Have you used that stuff all gone from the
goose quill?” and the girl answered quietly from the doorstep where she
sat, for there was this one good she had, the light hurt her no more
because she could not see it, and she said, “I have used it to the end
long since.”

And the mother said again, “I must buy you more--why did you not say it
sooner?”

But the young girl shook her head, and the mother’s heart stopped to
see her look, and then these words came wildly from those gentle lips,
“Oh, mother, I am blind--well I know I am blind! I cannot see your
face at all now, and if I went out from our own dooryard across the
threshing-floor, I could not see the way to go. Do you not see I never
go away from the house now, not even to the field?” And she fell to
weeping, wincing and biting her lips, for it was still painful to her
to weep, and she would not unless she could not help herself.

The mother answered nothing. What was there to answer to her blind
child?... But after a while she rose and went into the room and from
the drawer where once the trinkets lay she fetched out the little gong
she bought and she said to the girl, going to her, “Child, I bought
this thing against the day--” She could not finish but she pressed
the thing into the girl’s hand and the girl took it, feeling quickly
what it was, and she held it fast and said in her plaintive way, quiet
again, “Yes, I need it, mother.”

When the elder son came home that evening his mother bade him cut a
staff from some hard tree and smooth it to his sister’s hand, so that
with her little sounding signal in one hand and in the other the staff
she might move about more freely and with something less of fear, as
the blind do, and so if any harm came to her, or one pushed against her
carelessly or knocked her so she fell, the mother would not be blamed
because she had set the sign of blindness plain upon the maid for all
to see.

Thereafter the young girl carried with her when she went outside the
door at all these two things, her staff and her small gong, and she
learned to tinkle the gong softly and clearly and she moved in a quiet
sure way, a pretty maid enough, her face small and plaintive and on it
that still look that blindness sets upon a face.

Yet this blind maid was wonderfully clever, too, in her own way about
the house. There she needed no sign or staff, and she could wash the
rice and cook it, save that her mother would not let her light the fire
any more, but she could sweep the room and the threshing-floor, and
she could draw water from the pool, and search for eggs if the fowls
laid them in some usual place, and she knew by scent and sound where
the beasts were and how to set their food before them, and almost
everything she could do, except to sew and work in the fields, and for
labor in the fields she was not strong enough, for her suffering from
babyhood had seemed to stunt her and hold back her growth.

Seeing the young girl move thus about the house the mother’s heart
would melt within her and she suffered for what fate might befall
this young thing when she must wed her somewhere. For wed she must be
somehow, lest after the mother died there be not one to care for the
maid nor one to whom she truly could belong, since a woman belongs
first to the husband’s house and not to that house where she was born.
Often and often the mother thought of this and she wondered who would
have a maid who was blind, and if none would have her then what would
happen to her in the end. If ever she spoke this matter out the elder
lad would answer, “I will care for her, mother, as long as she will
do her share,” and this would comfort the mother somewhat and yet she
knew a man cannot be fully known until it is seen what his wife is, and
she would think to herself, “I must find him such a wife as will take
good heed of my blind maid and be kind to her. When I go looking for
his wife I must find one who will take heed of two, her husband and his
sister.”

       *       *       *       *       *

It was time, too, the mother found a wife for this elder son of hers.
Nineteen years old he had got to be and almost without her knowing it.
Yet he had never asked her for a wife nor shown her his need of one.
Ever he had been the best and mildest son a mother could have, working
hard and never asking anything and if he went to the teashop sometimes
or rarely on a holiday in town, although that he never did unless he
had some business to put with it, he never took share in any ribaldry,
nor even in a game of chance except to watch it from afar, and he was
always silent where his elders were.

A very perfect son he was and with but one fault left now that he had
passed the little faults of childhood and it was that he would not
spare his younger brother. No, it was the strangest thing, but this
elder son of hers, who was so even and gentle with all the world and
even with the beasts, so silent he would scarcely say what color he
would have the next new coat his mother bought him, when he was brother
he was hard upon the younger lad and railed against the boy if he grew
slack and played, and he held the boy bitterly to every sort of labor
on the land. The house was full of quarreling, the younger lad noisy
and full of angry words, and the elder brother holding himself silent
until he could bear no more and then he fell upon his brother with
whatever he had by him or with his bare hands and he beat the boy until
he ran blubbering and dodging in and out among the trees and seeking
refuge in his cousin’s house. And truly it came to such a pass as this,
that the whole hamlet blamed the elder brother for his hardness and
ran to save the younger lad, and so encouraged, the lad grew bold and
ran away from work and lived mostly at his cousin’s house, lost there
among the many lads and maids who grew there as they would, and he came
home freely only when he saw his brother gone to work.

But sometimes the elder brother grew so bitter in his heart he came
home out of time and found his younger brother and then he caught the
lad’s head beneath his arm and cuffed him until the mother would come
running and she cried, “Now let be--let be--shame on you, son, to
strike your little brother so, and frighten your sister!”

But the young man answered bitterly, “Shall I not chastise him, being
older brother to him and his father gone? He is an idle lazy lout,
gaming already every time he can, and well you know it, mother, but you
have ever loved him best!”

It was true the mother did love this youngest son the best, and he
moved her heart as neither of the others did. The eldest son grew man
so soon, it seemed to her, and silent and with naught to say to anyone,
and she did not know this was because he was so often weary and that
she thought him surly when he was only very weary. As for the girl, the
mother loved her well but always with pain, for there the blind eyes
were always for a reproach and she never could forget that the goddess
had not heard her prayer nor had the mother ever heart to pray again,
fearing now that it was her own sin come down in some way worse than
she could bear because it fell upon her child. So it was that while her
heart was ever soft with pity still the maid was never any joy to her.
Even when the maid came loving and near and smiling and sat to listen
to her mother’s voice, the mother rose with some excuse and busied
herself somehow, because she could not bear to see those closed and
empty eyes.

Only this youngest son was sound and whole and merry and oftentimes he
seemed his father over again, and more and more the mother loved him,
and all the love she ever had for the man now turned itself upon this
son. She loved him and often stood between him and the elder brother
so that when the young man seized the boy she rushed between them and
caught the blows and forced her son to cease for shame because he might
strike his mother, and then the lad would slip away.

It came to be that after a while the lad slipped often thus away and
from his hiding in his cousin’s house he went to wandering here and
there and even to the town and he would be gone perhaps a day or two,
and then he would run back to his cousin’s house and come out as if he
had been there all the time, his eyes upon his elder brother’s mood
that day. And if he did not come, the mother would wait until the elder
son was gone and she went to the cousin’s house and coaxed him home
with some dainty she had made. But she half feared her elder son too
these days and sometimes she would start with him to the field or
leave soon and come and give the lad his meal first before his brother
came, and he picked the best from every dish and she let him, for she
loved him so well. She loved him for his merry words and ways and for
his smooth round face and for the same supple, lissome body that his
father had. The elder lad went bent already with his labor, his hand
hard and slow, but this lad was quick and brown and smooth-skinned
everywhere and light upon his feet as a young male cat, and the mother
loved him.

And the slow elder son felt this warm love his mother had for his
brother, and he brooded on it. Every day of labor he had done, and all
the labor that he spared her he remembered now and it seemed to him
his mother was the crudest soul that ever lived and she never recked
it anything that he had striven from childhood for her sake. So the
bitterness gathered slow and deep within his heart, and he hated his
brother.




XIV


Now all this hatred gathered in the elder son and even the mother did
not know how deep it was until a certain day when out it came, bursting
forth like a river dammed behind a dyke and swollen with waters from
small secret sources that men do not know, so that when it breaks they
are astonished because none knew how it had been with that river all
the days when it had seemed the same.

It was at the time of the rice harvest at the end of a summer when all
must labor hard and heavily upon the land from dawn to dark, and so
everyone must labor who is not rich enough to hire it done for him. Now
the young lad had labored that day, too, although he usually thought of
some distant thing he had to do elsewhere. But this time the mother had
coaxed him to it and she had said to him secretly, smoothing his bony
lad’s hand while she talked, “Work well for these few days, my son,
while the harvest lasts, and show your brother how well you can do,
and if you will work well and please him then I will buy you something
pretty when the work is done, something that you want most.”

So the lad promised he would, pouting his red lips and feeling himself
hard used, and he worked well enough, although not too well, yet well
enough to save his skin when his brother’s eye fell on him.

But that day when a rain threatened before the sheaves were in, they
all worked beyond the usual hour and the mother worked until she was
spent, for she had never been so tireless as she was before she ate the
bitter herbs to save her honor that dark night. Then she sighed and
straightened her aching back and said, “My son, I will go home and see
the food is heated for you when you come, for I am spent and sore.”

“Go home, then,” said the elder son a little roughly, yet not meaning
to be so, for he never urged his mother to do more than she would. So
she went then, and left the brothers alone, for the hour grew too late
even for the gleaners who had followed them by day.

Scarcely had she set the food to boiling when the maid cried out from
where she sat upon the threshold that she heard her little brother
weeping, and when the mother ran out of the kitchen it was so and she
ran to the harvest field and there upon the reaped grain the elder son
was beating the younger one most mercilessly with the handle of his
scythe, and the younger one was howling and striking back with his two
fists and struggling to loose himself from his brother’s hard grasp
about his neck. But the elder brother held him fast and beat him with
the dull end of the handle. Then the mother ran with all her strength
and clung to the angry elder son and begged of him, “Oh, my son, a
little lad he is yet--Oh, son. Oh, son!”

And as she clung like this the younger slipped out from the elder’s
hand and ran swift as a young hare across the field and disappeared
into the dusk. There were these two left, the mother and her bitter
elder son. Then she faltered, “He is such a child yet, son, only
fourteen and with his mind still on play.”

But the young man replied, “Was I child at fourteen? Did I play at
harvest time when I was fourteen and needed I to have you bribe me with
a ring and a new robe and this and that I had not earned?”

Then she knew the silly younger lad had boasted of what he would have
and she stood speechless, caught in her fault, staring at her son and
silent, and he went on and cried, his bitterness bursting from him,
“Yes, you keep the money, and I give you all we earn. I never take a
penny for my own, not even to smoke a little pipe of any kind or take
a bowl of wine or buy myself anything a young man might have and count
it but his due. Yet you must promise him all I never had! And for what?
To do the labor that he ought to do for nothing and to pay for what he
eats and wears!”

“I did not promise rings and robes,” she said in a low and troubled
voice, half afraid of this angry son of hers who was so grave and quiet
on other days that she did not know him now.

“You did!” he said most passionately. “Or if not that, then worse, for
he said he was to have what he wanted when the harvest money was in and
taxes paid. He said you promised!”

“I meant some small toy or other, costing but a penny or so,” she
answered, shamed before this good son of hers. And then plucking up
her courage--for was he not her son still?--she added, “And if I did
promise a little toy it was but to save him from your angers on him
always, whatever he may do, so that you keep him down with all your
cruel looks and words--and now blows!”

But he would say no more. He fell to the sheaves again and worked as
though some demon had him, he worked so hard and fast. The mother stood
looking at him, not knowing what to do, feeling he was hard, too, with
her little son, and yet knowing somehow she was wrong. Then as she
looked she saw the young man was very near to tears, so that he set his
jaws hard to keep back a sob, and when she saw this sign of feeling
in him, such as she had never seen in him who always seemed so usual
and content and without any desire, her heart grew soft as ever it did
when she had harmed a child of hers, although he did not know it, and
she softened to him more than she had ever done before and she cried
quickly, “Son, I am wrong, I know. I have not done well enough for you
of late. I have not seen how you have grown into a man. But man you
are, and now I see it, and you shall take the man’s place in our house
and you shall have the money and the chief place in name as well as
in the labor you have always done. Yes, I see you are a man now, and I
will do straightway what I have put off too long. I will find a wife
for you and it will be your turn now and hers. I have not seen it, but
now I see it well.”

So she made amends. He muttered something then that she could not hear
and turned his back and said no more but worked on. But she felt eased
by her amends and went back crying briskly, “Well, and all the rice
will be burned, I swear--” and this she said to cover up the feeling of
the moment and make it usual.

But when she was home again she busied herself here and there
forgetting all her weariness, and when the maid asked, “Mother, what
was wrong?” she answered quickly, “Nothing much amiss, child, except
your younger brother would not do his share, or so his brother said.
But brothers always quarrel, I think,” and she ran and made an extra
dish from some radishes she pulled, and sliced them and poured vinegar
upon them and sesame oil and soy sauce, such as she knew her son loved.
And as she worked she pondered her amends and it seemed true to her her
son should wed and she blamed herself because she had leaned on him as
on a man, and yet he had not man’s reward, and she set her mind to do
all that she had said she would.

Her elder son came in at last and later than usual so that it was
wholly dark and she could not see his face until he came within the
light of the candle she had lit and set ready on the table. She looked
at him closely then, without his seeing her, and she saw he was himself
again and pleased with what she had said and all his anger gone. And
seeing this peace upon her elder son she called to the younger one who
hung about the door, not daring to come in until he knew his brother’s
temper, and yet driven by hunger, too, and she called out, “Come in,
little son!”

And he came in, his eyes upon his brother. But the elder paid no heed
to him, his anger gone for this time, and the mother was well content
and knew she had decided well and so she moved to carry out her promise
to the end.

       *       *       *       *       *

And as she ever did in any little trouble, she went to the cousin and
to the cousin’s wife, for she herself knew no maid, since none in that
hamlet could be chosen, seeing all were kin by blood and marriage and
had the same surname, nor did she know any maid in town, for there she
had dealings only with such small shops as bought the little she had
to sell. She went at an hour in evening, for the year was yet warm
although early autumn was near, and they sat and talked while the
cousin’s wife suckled her last child. The mother made known her want at
last and said, “Then do you know any maid, my sister, in that village
where you lived before you were wed? A maid like yourself I would like
very well, easy tempered and quick to bear and good enough at labor.
The house I can tend myself yet for many a year, and if she be not so
good in the house I can endure it.”

The good cousin’s wife laughed at this loudly and looked at her man and
cried, “I do not know if he would say your son would count it curse or
blessing to have one like me.”

Then the man looked up in his slow way, a bit of rice stalk in his
mouth which he had sat chewing as he listened, and he answered
thoughtfully, “Oh, aye--good enough--” and his wife laughed again to
hear his luke-warmness and then she said, “Well, and I can go there and
see, sister, and there are two hundred families or so in that village,
a market-town it is, and doubtless one maid among so many ready to be
wed.”

So they talked on of it and the mother said plainly there must not be
too great a cost, and she said, “I know very well I cannot hope for one
of the very best in every way, since I am poor and my son has no great
lot of land and we must rent more than we own.”

But the man spoke up and said to this, “Well, but you do own some land,
and it is something nowadays when many have nothing at all, and I had
liefer wed a maid of mine to a man who has some land and little silver
than to one who has much silver and no firm land to stand on. A good
man and good land--that would be sound promise for any maid if she were
mine.” And when his wife said, “Well, then, children’s father, if you
will let me go, I can go to that town a day or two, and look about,”
then he said in his spare way, “Oh, aye, I will--the maids are old
enough to free you now and then.”

So soon thereafter the cousin’s wife dressed herself clean and took
the babe and a child or two among the little ones to show her father’s
family and she took an elder two or so to help her with the little
ones, and hired a wheelbarrow to put them all upon and she rode her
husband’s gray ass he did not need these days now that the harvest
was over and he could use his ox to tread the grain. They set forth
thus and were gone three days and more. And when she was come back she
was right full of all the maids that she had seen and she said to the
mother, who ran to hear her when the news came she had returned,

“Maids there be a plenty in that village for we never kill them there
as they do in some towns when babes are girls, and they are allowed to
grow however many a mother has, and so the village is full of them.
I saw a dozen that I knew myself, sister, all well grown and full of
flesh and color, and any would have done for any son I have. But still
only one was needed and I narrowed my two eyes and looked at this
one and that one, and chose out three, and out of the three I looked
again and saw one had a cough and a bubbly nose, and one was with some
soreness of the eyes, and the third was best. She is a sharp and clever
maid, I swear, very careful in all she says and does, and they say she
is the quickest seamstress in the town. She makes her own clothes and
clothes for all her father’s house and some for others and turns a bit
of silver in. A little old she is, perhaps, for your lad, because once
she was betrothed, and the man died out of time, or she would be wed by
now. But this is not ill, either, for the father is eager to wed her
somehow and will not ask much for her. She is not so pretty perhaps as
the others--her face a little yellow from sewing overmuch, but she is
clean-eyed.”

Then the mother answered quickly, “We have sore eyes enough in our
house, I swear, and my eyes are not what they were either, and we need
someone who sews and likes it. Settle it then, my sister, with this
one, and if she is not above five years older than my son, it is well
enough.”

So was it done, and the days of the month and the years in which
the two were born and the hours of their birth were compared upon a
geomancer’s table in the town, and they were all favorable. The young
man was born under the sign of horse, and the maid under the sign of
cat, which do not devour each other, and thus was harmony foretold in
the marriage. All things being right by destiny, therefore, the gifts
that must be given were given.

Now out of her little hidden store the mother brought forth bits of
silver and odd copper coins and she bought good cotton stuffs and made
two garments for the maid, herself. And as the custom was in those
parts she wished a lucky woman to cut the garments, some woman whose
life was whole with man and sons. What woman then was more lucky in the
hamlet than the cousin’s wife? The mother took the good stuff to her
and said, “Set your hand here, my sister, so that your luck may fall
upon my son’s wife.”

And so the cousin’s wife did, and she cut the garments wide and full
across the belly so that when the maid conceived they could be worn
with ease and not laid aside to waste.

And the mother put forth more silver and hired the red marriage chair
and the bead crown and the earrings of false pearls and all that was
needful for the day, and especially the trousers of red which every
bride must wear in those parts. So was the marriage day set and it drew
on, and dawned at last, a clear cold day in the winter of that year.

Now was it a strange day for this mother when she must welcome to her
house a new and younger woman, so long had she been master there as
well as mistress. When she was dressed in her best and stood waiting at
her door, when she saw the red bridal chair come near with its burden
of the bride within, it seemed suddenly but a little while ago when
she herself had come in that same chair, and the old woman dead stood
where she stood today and her own man where her son stood. Rarely did
she think these days of that man of hers, and truly did he seem dead
to her, but the strangest longing fell on her for him while she stood
waiting. It was not the longing of the flesh; no, that was dead and
gone now. It was some other longing, the longing for some completeness
of her own age, for she felt alone.

She looked at her son newly, no longer only son to her, but husband to
another now, and there he stood, very still, his head hung down, stiff
in the new black robe she had made for him, and shoes upon his feet
most often bare. He seemed unmoved, or so she thought until she saw his
hanging hands trembling against the black of his robe. She sighed again
then, and again she thought of her own man and how she had peeped out
at him from behind the curtains of her chair and how her heart leaped
to see how fair he was and how good a man to look on in every way.
Yes, he had been prettier far than this son of hers was today, and she
thought to herself now that he was the prettiest man she had ever seen.

But before she had time to grieve more than in this dim way the first
of the procession came, the small wedding fruits, the cock she had sent
to the bride’s house and that according to custom they sent back and
with it a hen they mated to it, and after these few things, the chair
was fetched and set down there before the door and the cousin’s wife
and the gossip and the other elder women of the hamlet took the bride’s
hand and tried to pull her forth. And she was proper and reluctant and
came at last but most unwillingly, and when she did come she made her
eyes downcast and did not look up once. Then the mother withdrew into
her cousin’s house, as was the custom too in those parts where it was
said a son’s wife must not see too easily her husband’s mother, lest
she do not fear her thereafter, and all that day the mother stayed in
the cousin’s house.

But still she stayed near the door to hear what people said of this new
wife, and she heard some cry, “A very good and earnest-looking maid,”
and some said, “They say she sews well, and if it is true she made
those shoes she wears, she has ten good fingers, I swear!” And some
among the women went up and fingered the red wedding robes and lifted
the coat to see the inner ones, and all were well and neatly made, and
the buttons hard and nicely turned of twisted cloth, and they ran and
told the mother all, “A decent, able maid, goodwife, and with a proper
look.” But some among the men spoke coarsely and one said, “Too thin
and yellow for my taste, I swear!” and another called out, “Aye, but a
few months will mend the thinness, brother--naught like a man to make a
maid swell!”

And in all this merry, ribald talk the maid moved demurely to her new
home and so was wed.

       *       *       *       *       *

Now must the mother leave the bed where she had slept these many years,
and when the daughter-in-law came to make the bed for the mother that
night, for so it was done in those parts, she made the pallet where
the old dead woman once had slept behind the curtains, and later the
elder son; and the blind girl had a pallet of her own beside it, and
the younger lad slept in the kitchen if he slept at home. Yes, upon the
true bed the elder son slept now with his new wife.

It was not easy either for the mother to give up to this new pair that
place which had been hers and her man’s, and it made her seem old to
herself at night to lie on the old woman’s pallet. Through the day she
could be usual, busy everywhere, commanding all, her tongue quick to
correct and command, but at night she was old. Oftentimes she woke and
it seemed to her it could not be she who lay there and the other pair
upon the bed, and she thought to herself amazed, “Now I suppose that
old soul who was mother when I came to this house felt as I do now,
when I came a bride and pushed her from her bed and lay there with her
son in my turn. And now another lies with my son.”

It seemed so strange, so endless, this turning of some hidden wheel,
this passing on of link caught onto link in some never ending chain
that she was dazed with thinking of it even dimly, since she was not
one to think into the meanings of what passed before her, but only
taking all that came for what it was. But she was lessened in her own
eyes from that day on. Even though she was in name the oldest and the
first and mistress over all, she was not first in her own eyes.

And she watched this son’s wife. She was dutiful and day after day
she made her bow before her husband’s mother, until the mother grew
weary and shouted at her, “Enough!” But the mother could not find any
fault in her. Then was this very faultlessness a fault and the mother
muttered, “Well, and doubtless she has some secret inner fault I do not
see at once.”

For the son’s wife did not, as some maids do, set forth all that she
was at once. She was diligent and she was smooth and quick at work and
when the work was done she sat and sewed on something for her husband
but all she did was done in her own careful way.

Now there are not two women in this world who do the same task alike,
and this the mother had not known, thinking all did as she did. But no,
this son’s wife had her own way of doing all. When she cooked the rice
she put too much water in, or so the mother thought, and the rice came
out softer than the mother was used or liked to have it. And she told
the son’s wife so, but that one shut her pale lips smoothly and said,
“But so I ever do it.” And she would not change.

Thus it was with everything. This and that about the house she changed
to her own liking, not quickly nor in any temper, but in a small,
careful, gradual way, so that it gave the mother no handle to lay her
anger on. There was another thing. The young wife did not like the
smell of beasts at night, and made complaint, but not to the older
woman, only to the man, until he set to work that same winter to add a
room to the house where they could move the bed in and sleep alone.
And the older woman looked on astonished at such new ways.

At first she said to the blind maid that she would not be angry with
the son’s wife. And indeed it was not easy to be angry quickly, for the
young wife did well and worked carefully, so that it was hard to say
“this is wrong” or “you did not do that well.” But there were things
the mother hated somehow, though most she loathed the softened rice and
of it she grumbled often and at last aloud, “I never do feel full and
fed with such soft stuff. There is naught to set my teeth down on--this
watery stuff, it passes my belly like a wind and does not lie like firm
good food.” And when she saw her son’s wife pay no heed to this she
went secretly to her son one day where he worked in the field and there
she said, “Son, why do you not bid her cook the rice more dry and hard?
I thought you used to like it so.”

The son stopped his labor then and stayed himself a moment on his hoe
and said in his calm way, “I like it as she does it very well.”

Then the mother felt her anger rise and she said, “You did not use to
like it so and it means you have joined yourself to her instead of me.
It is shameful that you like her so and go against your mother.”

Then the red came flooding into the young man’s face and he said
simply, “Aye, I like her well enough,” and fell to his hoe again.

From that day on the mother knew the two were masters in the house.
The eldest son was not less kind than usual and he did his work well
and took the money into his own hand. It was true he did not spend it,
nor did his wife, for the two were a saving pair, but they were man and
wife and this their house and land, and to them the mother was but the
old woman in the house. It was true that if she spoke of field or seed
and of all the labor that she knew so well because it had been hers,
they let her speak, but yet when she had finished it was as though she
had not spoken, and they made their plans and carried all on as they
liked. It seemed to her she was nothing any more, her wisdom less than
nothing in the house that had been hers.

Very bitter was it for anyone to bear and when the new room was made
and the pair moved into it, the mother muttered to the blind girl who
slept beside her, “I never saw such finicking as this, as though the
honest smell of beasts was poison! I do swear they made that room so
they could be away from us and talk their plans we cannot hear. They
never tell me anything. It is not the beasts--it is that your brother
loves her shamefully. Yes, they care nothing for you or for your little
brother, nor even for me, I know.” And when the girl did not answer she
said, “Do you not think so, too, my maid? Am I not right?”

Then the maid hesitated and she said after a while out of the darkness,
“Mother, it is true I have something to say I would say and yet I
would not, lest it grieve you.”

Then the mother cried out, “Say on, child. I am used to grief, I think.”

And then the maid asked in a small sad voice, “Mother, what will you do
with me, blind as I am?”

Now all this time the mother had not thought otherwise than that this
maid would live on here with her a while at least and she said in
surprise, “What do you mean, my maid?”

And the maid said, “I do not mean my brother’s wife is not kind--she is
not cruel, mother. But I think she does not dream you will not wed me
soon. I heard her ask my little brother but the other day where I was
betrothed, and when he said I was not she said surprised, ‘A great maid
to be without a mother-in-law still.’”

“But you are blind, child,” said the mother, “and it is not so easy to
wed a blind maid.”

“I know it,” said the maid gently. And after a while she spoke again,
and this time as though her mouth were very dry and as though her
breath came hot. “But you know there are many things I can do, mother,
and there may be some very poor man, a widower, perhaps, or some such
poor man who would be glad of the little I could do if he need pay
nothing for me, and then would I be in my own house and there would be
someone if you were gone whom I could care for. Mother, I do not think
my sister wants me.”

But the mother answered violently, “Child, I will not have you go to
mend some man’s house like that! We are poor, I know, but you can be
fed. Widowers are often the hardest and lustiest husbands, child. So go
to sleep and think no more of this. Hearty I am yet and likely to live
a long full time yet, and your brother was never cruel to you, even as
a child.”

“He was not wed then, mother,” said the girl, sighing. But she stayed
silent then and seemed to sleep.

But the mother could not sleep a while, although on usual nights she
slept deep and sound. She lay there thinking hard, and taking up the
days past, one by one, to see if what the girl had said was true, and
though she could not think of any single thing, it seemed to her the
son’s wife was not warm. No, she was not very warm to the younger lad
either, and at least not warm to this blind sister in her husband’s
house, and here was new bitterness for the mother to bear.




XV


Every day the mother watched to see if what the girl had said was true,
and it was true. The young wife was not rude, and her words came from
her smoothly and with seeming careful courtesy always. But she put upon
the maid a hundred little pricks. She gave the blind maid less than her
full bowl of food, or so it seemed in the mother’s eyes, and if there
were some dainty on the table she did not give her any, and the blind
maid, not seeing, did not know it was there. And indeed they would all
have let it pass, not heeding in their own hunger, had not the mother’s
eyes been sharpened, and she cried out, “Daughter, do you not like this
dish of pig’s lungs we have cooked in soup today?”

And when the maid answered gently in surprise, “I did not know we had
it, mother, and I like it very well,” then the mother would reach over
and with her own spoon dip the meat and soup into the maid’s bowl,
and be sure the son’s wife saw the mother do it, and she answered
smoothly and courteously, scarcely moving her pale lips that with all
their paleness were too thick, too, and she said, “I beg your pardon,
sister--I did not see you had none.” But the mother knew she lied.

And sometimes when the son’s wife sewed shoes for the maid, and it was
her duty to make shoes for them all, she put no time on the maid’s
shoes beyond what she must, and she made the soles thin and spared
herself the labor of a flower upon the front, and when the mother saw
it she cried, “What--shall my maid not have a little flower such as you
have on all your shoes?”

Then the son’s wife opened her little, dark, unshining eyes and said,
“I will make them if you say, mother, only I thought since she was
blind and could not see a color anyhow--and I have so many to make
shoes for, and the younger lad wearing out a pair each month or two
with all his running into town to play--”

As for the blind maid who sat there on the threshold in the sun, when
she heard this and heard the complaint her sister made against the
younger brother, she cried out in mild haste, “Mother, indeed I do not
care for the flower, and my sister is right. What are flowers to the
blind?”

So it seemed no quarrel and all the many small things seemed no
quarrel. Yet one day the eldest son came to his mother, when she went
around the house alone to pour some waste into the pig’s hole, and he
said, “Mother, I have a thing to say to you, and it is not that I would
urge my sister out of the house or grudge her anything. But a man must
think of his own, and she is young, mother, and all her life is ahead
of her, and shall I feed her all her life? I have not heard it so in
any other house, that a man must feed his sister, unless it were some
rich house where food is never missed. A man’s duty it is to feed his
parents, his wife and his children. But there she is, young and like to
live as long as I do, and it will be an ill thing for her, too, if she
is not wed. Better for all women to be wed.”

Then the mother looked at her son, her face set in anger against him,
and she said, accusing him, “That wife of yours has put this thought
into you, my son. You lie there with her alone in that room and there
you talk, the two of you, and she poisons you against your own blood
with all she says to you in the night. And you--you are like all
men--soft as mud in a ditch when you lie in bed with a woman.”

She turned away most bitterly, and she poured the stuff out for the pig
and stood and watched it put its snout in and gobble, but she did not
really see it, although commonly it was a thing to give her pleasure to
see a beast feed heartily. No, she said on in sadness, “And what sort
of man will have your sister? Who can we hope will have her save some
man too poor for kindness, or a man whose wife is gone and he left and
too poor to wed a sound woman again?”

Then the son said hastily, “I think of her, too. I do think of her and
I think it is better for her to have a man of her own, even though she
cannot have so good a one as though she were whole.”

“This is your wife who speaks, my son,” the mother said more sadly
still.

But the man made answer in his stubborn way, “We are of one heart on
this,” and when his mother said, “On everything, I fear,” he said no
more but went to his fields, silent but unchanged.

Nevertheless the mother wilfully would not for long do anything to wed
the maid. She told herself and told the maid and told her younger son
and her cousin’s wife and any who would listen to her that she was not
so old yet she could not have her own way and not so old she had no
place in the house and not so old she could be bid like any child to do
this or that or what she did not wish to do. She set herself against
her son and son’s wife in this and herself she guarded the maid well
and saw that nothing was done amiss to her nor that she was deprived of
anything the others had.

But as the son’s wife grew more accustomed she grew more plain in
speech and more complaining and courtesy dropped from her. She often
said now where others heard her or when the women sat together about
some door in the sun and sewed in company or had some gathering such
as women love, then she said, “What I shall do when children come I do
not know, seeing how I have to sew for all these in the house now. My
mother grows old and I know it is my duty to do for her and be her eyes
and hands and feet and all she needs. I have been taught so, and so I
do and I hope I am always careful of my duty. But here this hungry
second lad is and he does nothing, and here worse than he, for some day
he must wed and his wife will work to feed and clothe him, here is this
blind maid not wed and I do wonder if she is to be my care her whole
life long, for her mother will not wed her.”

Such words as these she said and others like them and those who heard
stared at the blind maid if she were by so that she even felt their
gaze and hung her head ashamed to live as such a burden. And sometimes
this one spoke or that one and said, “Well and there are many blind and
some families teach their blind to tell fortunes or some such thing and
earn a penny now and then. Yes, the blind often have an inward seeing
eye and they can see things we cannot and their blindness is even a
power to them so that other people fear them for it. This maid might be
taught to soothsay or some such thing.”

And others said, “But there are poor houses, too, where they have a son
and no money to wed him with and they will take a fool or a blind maid
or one halt or dumb and count her better than none if they can get her
for nothing for their son.”

Then the son’s wife said discontentedly, “I wish I knew some such one,
and if you hear of any, neighbors, I would take it for a kindness if
you would tell me so.” And being kind they promised the young wife, and
they agreed that truly it was hard when money was so scarce and times
so poor that she must feed this extra mouth that properly belonged
elsewhere.

One day the gossip who was a widow came to the mother and she said,
“Goodwife, if you would like to wed that blind maid of yours, I know
a family in the hills to the north and they have a son seventeen or
so now. They came in famine times from a northern province and they
settled on some wild public land not in our village at the mountain’s
foot, but up a little higher, and after a while a brother came, and
there they live. The land is poor and they are poor, but so be you
poor, too, goodwife, and your maid blind, and if you will only pay my
going I will go and see to it for you. The truth is I have been minded
for this long time to go home and see my own father’s house, but I am
loath to ask my husband’s brother for the bit to do it with. A very
hard thing is it to be widow in another’s house.”

At first the mother would not listen and she said loudly, “I can tend
my own blind maid, goodwife!”

This afterwards she told her cousin’s wife and the cousin too, but the
cousin looked grave a while and he said at last, “So could you tend her
if you lived forever, sister, but when you are dead, and we dead too,
perhaps, or very old and not masters any more before our children save
in name, then who will tend her? And what if bad years come and parents
must think first of their own children, and you gone?”

Then the mother was silent.

But soon she saw the truth that she could not live forever, at any time
her life might end, the sooner, too, perhaps, because she had never had
her own old vigor since that secret night.

In the summer of that year a flux came out of the air and laid its hold
upon her. Ever she had loved to eat and eat heartily and all she wanted
of what there was. But that summer came more than usually hot and there
was a mighty pest of flies, so many everywhere that the winds blew them
in the food and flies were mingled whether one would have it so or not,
and the mother cried out at last to let them be, for there was no use
in killing them and it was but a waste of time so many more came after.
It was a summer, too, of great watermelons that when they were split
showed darkly red or clear and yellow as their sort was, and never had
there been a better year for melons than was that.

Now well the mother loved this fruit, and she ate heartily of all such
as could not be sold or such as grew too ripe suddenly beneath the sun,
and she ate on and on and when she was filled, she ate yet more to keep
the things from being wasted. Whether it was the many melons or whether
some wicked wind caught her or whether someone laid a curse upon her,
although she did not know of one who really hated her unless it were
that little goddess who had guessed her sin, or what it was she did not
know. But the flux came on her and it dragged her very inwards out and
she lay ill for days, purged and retching up so much as a mouthful of
tea she swallowed to stay herself if she could.

In these days when she was so racked and weak the son’s wife did all
well and everything she knew to do for her husband’s mother’s sake, nor
was she lacking in any small duty. The blind maid strove to do her poor
best too for her mother, but she was slow and could not see a need in
time, and often the son’s wife pushed the maid aside and said, “Do you
sit down somewhere, good sister, and out of my way, for I swear you are
the most help so!”

Even against her will then did the mother come to lean, in all her
weakness, on this quick and careful younger woman, and she was too
weak to defend her blind maid, and the younger son these days came but
sometimes to see how she did and went away again somewhere because his
mother was too weak to say a word for him against his brother. In such
weakness it was a strength to the mother to feel the young wife deft
and careful about her bed. When at last the flux passed out of her and
to some other person destined for it, and the mother rose at last, she
leaned hard upon her son’s wife, though she did not love her either,
but only needed her.

It took the mother very long to come somewhat to herself again, and
she was never wholly sound again. She could not eat the rough cabbages
she loved, nor any sort of melon nor the peanuts she had liked to chew
raw from the ground when they were dug, and ever after this she had to
think what she ate, to see how it suited itself to her inwards, and if
she grew impatient with such finicking and cried out that she would eat
what she would and liked and her belly must bear it, why, then the flux
came back again. Or even if she worked too hard or sat in any small
cold wind that evil illness waited for her and made her helpless for a
while again.

Then in her helplessness she saw the blind maid must be wed into some
house of her own, for it was true she was not welcome here. When the
mother was too weak to cry against it, she saw the maid was ill at ease
there and felt herself unwanted, and one day the maid came herself at a
moment when her mother was alone and she said, “Mother, I cannot stay
here in my brother’s house. Oh, mother, I think I would sooner be wed
anywhere so that I could be somewhere I was wanted!”

Then the mother said no more against it. She comforted her daughter
with a word or two and one day in the winter of that year when she felt
stronger than she had, forever after she was better in the cold than in
the heat, she went and sought the gossip out. There the old gossip sat
in her doorway, stitching flowers still upon a bit of cloth, although
her thread was very coarse these days and the edge of the flowers
she made a thing to laugh at for she could not see as once she had,
although she would not say she could not, and when the mother found
her she said wearily, “What you said was true. I see my maid would be
better wed and let it be to that one you know, for I am too weary to
look here and there, and always weary somehow nowadays since that flux
took me a year or two agone.”

Then the old gossip was glad to have something new to do that cost her
nothing and she hired a barrow and on it rode the ten miles or so to
the valley where her father’s house had been and to the village, and
there she stayed a day or two and more. On the night when she returned
she went to the mother’s house and called her out alone to the corner
of the house and whispered, “The thing went very well, goodwife, and in
a month it can be finished. Well, and I am very weary, too, but still I
remember I did it all for you, goodwife, and we are old friends now.”

Then the woman took from her bosom a piece of silver she had kept there
for this hour and she pressed it on the gossip. But the gossip pushed
her hand away and swore she would not have it and it was not needful
between two friends and she said this and that but had it in the end.

When all was done and the woman thought it well, or tried to, she told
the son’s wife, and the son’s wife was pleased and showed it, although
she took care to say, “You need not have hastened so, mother, for I
bear the maid no ill will and she may stay here a year or two for all
of me, and I would not mind if it were even all her life, if it were
not we are so poor we must count the mouths we feed.”

But she was more kindly for the while and she offered of her own will
to sew new garments for the maid, three in all, a new coat and trousers
of dark blue and some red trousers for her wedding day, as even the
poorest maid must have, and besides these a pair of shoes or two, and
on the shoes she made a little flower and leaf in red. But they made
no great wedding day of it nor any great ado, since the maid was given
free and there were no gifts given because she was not good bargain for
the man she was to wed.

As for the maid, she said nothing of the day. She listened when her
mother told her what was done and she said nothing save once in the
night she put out her hand to feel her mother’s face near her, and
she whispered to her mother suddenly, “Mother, but is it too far for
you to come and see me sometimes and how I do there? I am so blind I
cannot come to you so far along a road I do not know and over hills and
valleys.”

Then the mother put out her hand too and she felt the maid trembling
and she wept secretly and wiped her tears in the darkness on the quilt
and she said over and over, “I will come, my maid, be sure and I will
come, and when I come you shall tell me all and if they do not treat
you well I will see to it heartily. You shall not be treated ill.”
And then she said most gently, “But you have lain sleepless all this
night.”

And the maid answered, “Yes, and every night a while.”

“But you need not be afraid, child,” the mother answered warmly. “You
are the best and quickest blind maid I ever saw, and they know you
blind and they cannot blame you for it nor say we hid it from them.”

But long after the maid had fallen into light sleep at last the mother
lay and blamed herself most heavily, for somehow she felt some wrong
within herself that laid its punishment upon the maid, though how she
did not know, only she wished she had been better. And she blamed
herself lest if by any chance she should have found a nearer place to
wed her maid, a village where she could go each month or so, or even
found a poor man willing to move to the hamlet for a little price that
she could promise. Yet even when she thought of this she groaned within
her heart and doubted that her son and son’s wife would have spared
even this small price, for they kept the money now. So she thought most
heavily, “Yet I cannot hope she will never be beaten. Few houses be
there like ours where neither man nor his mother will beat a maid new
come. And it would tear my heart so, and so grieve me if I saw my blind
maid beaten or even if it was done near enough so I could hear of it,
or so the maid could run home and tell me, and I helpless once she is
wed, that I think I could not bear it. Better far to have her where
I cannot see her and where I cannot know and so be saved the pain
because I cannot see and so can hope.”

And after she had lain a while more and felt how heavy life lay on her
she thought of one thing she could do, and it was that she could give
the maid some silver coins for her own, as her own mother had done
when she left home. So in the darkness before dawn she rose and moving
carefully not to stir the beasts and fowls and frighten them she went
to her hole and smoothed away the earth and took out the bit of rag she
kept the little store in and opened it and chose out five pieces of
silver and thrust them in her bosom and covered the hole again. Then
with the silver in her bosom a little comfort came and she thought to
herself, “At least it is not every maid who comes from a poor house
with a little store of silver. At least my maid has this!”

And holding fast on this small comfort she slept at last.

       *       *       *       *       *

Thus the days passed and none joyfully. No, the woman took no joy even
in her youngest son and cared little whether he came and went except
she saw that he was well and smiling with some business of his own she
did not know. So the day came at last when the maid must go and the
woman waited with the heaviest heart to see what was the one who came
to fetch her. Yes, she strained her heart to understand what sort of
man it was who came and fetched her maid away.

It was a day in early spring he came, before the year had opened fully
so that spring was only seen in a few hardy weeds the children in the
village digged to eat and in a greenish tinge along the willow twigs
and the brown buds on the peach trees scarcely swollen yet. All the
lands lay barren still with winter, the wheat not growing yet and but
small spears among the clods, and the winds cold.

On this day one came, an old man riding on a gray ass without a saddle
and sitting on an old and filthy ragged coat folded under him upon the
beast’s back. He came to the house where the mother was and gave his
name. Her heart stopped then in her bosom, for she did not like the
way this old man looked. He grinned at her and shaped his lips to be
kind, but there was no kindness in the sharp old fox’s face, sharp eyes
set in deep wrinkles, a few white hairs about a narrow lipless mouth
curved down too long to smile with any truth this day. He wore garments
well-nigh rags, too, not patched or clean, and when he came down from
his ass there was no common courtesy in his manner, such as any man
may have whether he be learned or not. He came limping across the
threshing-floor, one leg too short to match the other, his old garments
tied about him at the waist, and he said roughly, “I am come to fetch a
blind maid. Where is she?”

Then the mother said, for suddenly she hated this old man, “But what
pledge have you that you are the one to have her?”

The old man grinned again and said, “I know that fat goodwife who came
to tell us we might have the maid for nothing for my brother’s son.”

Then the woman said, “Wait until I call her.” And she sent her younger
lad who lounged about the house that day, and the old gossip came as
quickly as her old legs would bear her and she stared at the man and
laughed and shouted, “Aye, it is the uncle of the lad she is to wed.
How are you, goodman, and have you eaten yet this day?”

“Aye,” said the old man grinning and showing all his toothless gums,
“but not too well I swear.”

All this time the mother looked at him most steadfastly and then she
cried out bluntly to the gossip, “I do not like the looks of this! I
thought better than this for my maid!”

And the gossip answered loudly laughing, “Goodwife, he is not the
bridegroom--his nephew is as soft and mild a lad as ever you did see.”

By now the cousin’s wife was come too and the son and son’s wife and
the cousin came and others from the hamlet and they all stood and
stared at this old man and it was true that to all he was no good one
for looks and ways of any kindness. Yet was the promise given, and
there were those who said, “Well, goodwife, you must bear in mind the
maid is blind.”

And the son’s wife said, “The thing is set and promised now, mother,
and it is hard now to refuse, for it will bring trouble on us all
if you refuse.” And when he heard her say this her husband kept his
silence.

The woman looked piteously at her cousin then, and he caught her look
and turned his eyes away and scratched his head a while, for he did not
know what to say. He was a simple good man himself and he did not trust
too much this old man’s looks either; still it is hard to say sometimes
if poverty and evil are the same thing, and it might be his ragged
garments made him look so ill, and it was hard to say nay when all the
thing was set and done, and so not knowing what to say he said nothing
and turned his head away and picked up a small straw and chewed on it.

But the gossip saw her honor was in danger and she said again and
again, “But this is not the bridegroom, goodwife,” and at last she
called, for it would shame her much if the thing were not done now,
“Old man, your brother’s son is soft as any babe, is he not?”

And the old man grinned and nodded and laughed a meager laugh and said,
wheezing as he spoke with laughter, “Aye, soft as any babe he is,
goodwife!” And at last he said impatiently, “I must be gone if I am to
fetch her home by night!”

So not knowing what else to do, the mother set her maid upon the ass’s
back at last, the maid garbed in her new garments, and the mother
pressed into her hand the little packet of silver and whispered
quickly, “This is for your own, my maid, and do not let them have it
from you.” And as the old man kicked the ass’s legs to set it going the
mother cried aloud in sudden agony, “I will come, my maid, before many
months are past and see how they do treat you there, and keep all in
your heart and tell me then. I shall not fear to bring you home again,
my maid, if aught is wrong.”

Then the blind maid answered through her dry and trembling lips, “Yes,
mother, and that cheers me.”

But the mother could not let her child go yet and she cast here and
there desperately in her mind to think of some last thing to say
and hold her yet a little longer, and she cried out to the old man,
clinging to her maid, “My maid is not to feed the fire, old man,--she
shall not feed the fire, for it hurts her eyes--the smoke--”

The old man turned and stared and when he understood he grinned and
said, “Oh, aye, well, let it be so--I’ll tell them--” and kicked the
beast again and walked beside it as it went.

So the maid went away, and she held her sign of blindness in her hand,
and had her little roll of garments tied behind her on the ass’s back.
The mother stood and watched her go, her heart aching past belief,
tears welling from her eyes, and this although she did not know what
else she could have done. So she stood still until the hill rose
between and cut the child from her sight and she saw her no more.




XVI


Now must the mother somehow make her days full to ease the fears she
had and to forget the emptiness where once the blind maid had sat.
Silent the house seemed and silent the street where she could not
hear the clear plaintive sound of the small bell her daughter struck
whenever she went out. And the mother could not bear it. She went to
the land again, against her elder son’s will, and when he saw her take
her hoe he said, “Mother, you need not work, it shames me to have you
work in the field and others see you there when you are aged.”

But she said with her old anger, “I am not so aged--let me work to ease
myself. Do you not see how I must ease myself?”

Then the man answered in his stubborn way, “To me you seem to grieve
for what is not so, my mother, and there is no need to let your heart
run ahead into evils that may never come.”

But the mother answered with a sort of heavy listlessness that did not
leave her nowadays, “You do not understand. You who are young--you
understand nothing at all.”

The young man looked dazed at his mother then, not knowing what she
meant, but she would say no more, but went and took a hoe and plodded
out across the fields in silence.

But it was true she could not work hard any more, for when she did her
sweat poured out, and when the wind blew on her, even a warm wind, it
sent a chill upon her and she was soon ill again with her flux. So must
she bear her idleness and she worked no more when she was well again,
but sat in the doorway idle. There was no need for her to lift her hand
about the house, since the son’s wife did all and did all well and
carefully.

She did all well, the mother thought unwillingly, except she bore no
child. The mother sitting empty there looked restlessly about that
threshold where once she had been wont to see her little children
tumbling in their play, and all day long she sat and remembered the
days gone, and how once she had sat so young and filled with life and
work, her man there, her babes, she the young wife and another the old
mother. Then her man was gone and never heard from--and she winced and
turned her mind from that, and then she thought how empty it seemed
now, the elder son in the field all day or bickering at harvest with
the landlord’s agent, some new fellow, a little weazened cousin of the
landlord’s, people said--she never looked at him--and her blind maid
gone, and her younger son gone always in the town and seldom home.

Well, but there was her younger son, and as she sat she thought of him
more often, for she loved him still the best of all her children. Into
her emptiness he came now and then, and with his coming brought her
only brightness. When he came she rose and came out of her bleakness
and smiled to see his good looks. He was the fairest child she had, as
like his father as a cockerel is like a cock who fathered him, and he
came in at ease nowadays, and not fearing his elder brother as once he
did, for he had some sort of work in town that brought him in a wage.

Now what this work was he never clearly said, except that it brought
him in so well that sometimes he had a heap of money, and sometimes he
had none, although he never showed this money to his brother, except
in the good clothes he wore. But there were times when he was free and
filled with some excitement and then he pressed a bit of silver into
his mother’s hand secretly and said, “Take it, mother, and use it for
yourself.”

Then the mother took the silver and praised the lad and loved him, for
the elder son never thought to put a bit of money in her hand; since he
had been master he kept all his silver for his own. Well fed she always
was and she ate heartily as she was able for she loved her food, and
better than she had ever been she was with this son’s wife to clothe
her and make all she needed, and even her burial garments were made and
ready for her, though she did not think to die yet for a long time.
Anything she asked for they let her have, a pipe to comfort her, and
good shredded tobacco and a sup of yellow wine made hot. But they did
not think to put a bit of silver in her hand and say, “Use it for any
little thing you wish,” and she knew, if she had asked for it the son
and his wife would look at each other and say, one or the other of
them, “But what would you buy--do we not give you everything?” So when
the younger son brought her the bit of silver she loved him for it more
than all else the other two did for her, and she kept it in her bosom
and when the night came she rose and hid it in the hole.

But still he was not often where she could see him and there upon the
empty threshing-floor the two women sat, mother and son’s wife, and
to the mother it seemed all the house was full of emptiness. She sat
and sighed and smoked her pipe and all she had to do these days was
to think of her life, or nearly all, for there was that one thing she
would not think of willingly, and when she did it brought her blind
maid to her mind and she never could be sure the two were not linked
somehow in the hands of the gods. Sometimes she would have gone to
some temple to seek a comfort of some sort, though what she did not
know, but there was the old sin and it seemed late now to seek for
forgiveness and she let it be and sighed and spoke of her blind maid
sadly sometimes.

But if she did the son’s wife answered always sharply, “She does well,
doubtless--a very lucky thing for all that you found one who would have
her for his son.”

“Now she is a clever maid, too, daughter-in-law,” the mother said
hotly. “You never would believe how much she could do, I know, but
before you came she did much that when you came you would not let her
do and so you never knew how well she did.”

“Aye, it may be so,” said the son’s wife, holding nearer to her eyes
the cloth she sewed on to see if it were right. “But I am used to
working on and finishing with what I do and a blind maid potters so.”

The mother sighed again and said, looking over the empty threshold,
“I wish you would bear a babe, daughter. A house should have a child
or two or three in it. I am not used to such an empty house as this.
I wish my little son could wed if you are not to have a child, but he
will not, somehow, for some reason.”

Now here was the young wife’s grief, that though she had been wed near
upon five years she had no child yet and not a sign of one, and she had
gone secretly to a temple to pray and had done all she knew and still
her body stayed as barren as it had been. But she was too proud to show
how grieved she was and now she said, calmly, “I will have sons in
time, doubtless.”

“Aye, but it is time,” the mother said pettishly. “I never heard of
any women in our hamlet who had not babes if they had husbands. Our
men are fathers as soon as they mate themselves and the women always
fertile--good seed, good soil. It must be you have some hidden illness
in you somewhere to make you barren and unnatural. I made you those
clothes full and big, and what use has it been!”

And to the cousin’s wife the mother complained, and she said, leaning
to put her mouth against the other’s ear, “I know very well what is
wrong--there are no heats in that son’s wife of mine. She is a pale
and yellow thing and one day is like the next and there is never any
good flush in her from within, and all your luck in cutting her wedding
garments cannot prevail against her coldness.”

And the cousin’s wife nodded and laughed and said, “It is true enough
that such pale and bloodless women are very slow to bear.” Then her
little laughing eyes grew meaningful and she laughed again and said,
“But not every woman can be so full of heats as you were in your time,
good sister, and well you know it is not always a good thing in a
woman!”

Then the mother answered hastily, “Oh, aye, I know that--” and fell
silent for a time and then after a while she said unwillingly, “It is
true she is a careful woman, clean and almost too clean and scraping
out the pot so often I swear she wastes the food with so much washing
of the oil jar and the like. And she washes herself every little time
or so, and it may be this is why she goes barren. Too much washing is
not always well.”

But she spoke no more of heats, for she feared to have the cousin’s
wife bring up again that old ill done, although the cousin’s wife was
the kindest soul and never all these years had made a difference of it,
and if she had even told her man then the mother never knew she did. If
it had not been for these two sorrows that she had, the blind maid and
that her son had no sons, she might have forgotten it herself, so far
away the days of her flesh seemed now. Yes, she might have forgotten
it if she had not feared it had been sin and these two sorrows the
punishment for it.

But there her life was, and the maid was blind and gone now and there
was no child, and only the beasts about and the dog and even these she
dared not feed.

There was only this good thing nowadays, she thought, and it was that
her two sons did not quarrel so much. The elder was satisfied and
master in the house, and the younger had his own place somewhere, and
when he came home and went away again, the most the elder son did was
to say with feeble scorn, “I wonder where my brother gets those good
clothes he wears and what the work is that he does. I cannot wear
clothes like his and I work bitterly. He seems to have money somehow. I
hope he is not in some band of town thieves or something that will drag
us into trouble if he is caught.”

Then the mother flew up bravely as she always did for her little son
and she said, “A very good younger brother, my son, and you should
praise him and be glad he has gone and found a thing to do for himself
and not stayed here to share the land with you!”

And the elder son said sneeringly, “Oh, aye, he would do anything I
swear to keep from labor on the land.”

But the son’s wife said nothing. She was pleased these days because the
house was all her own and it was naught to her what the young man did,
and she did not complain because he bought his clothes elsewhere now
and she needed not to make them for him.

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So the time went on and spring came and passed and early summer came
and still the mother never could forget her maid. One day she sat
counting on her fingers the days since that one when she saw the hill
cut the maid off from her sight, and it was more than twelve times
all the fingers on her hands and then she lost the count, and so she
thought sadly, “I must go to her. I have let this old heaviness weigh
on me and I ought to have gone before. If she had been a sound maid
she would have come by now to pay the visit that wives do to their old
homes, and I could have asked her how she did and felt her hands and
arms and cheeks and seen the color of her face.”

And the mother sat and looked at those hills around and saw how the
summer came on to its full height and every hillside was green and all
the grain high in the fields, and she forced her body that was weary
always now even though she was idle all the livelong day, and she
thought, “I must go and see my maid and I will go at once, seeing I am
not needed on the land and here I sit idle. I will go and before the
great heat comes, lest my flux drop on me again unaware. Yes--I will
go this very tomorrow since there is no sign of cloud in this fair
sky--this blue sky--” she looked up at the sky and saw how blue it was
and remembered suddenly as she did nowadays some bit of her life long
gone, and she remembered the blue robe her man had bought once and that
he wore away and she sighed and thought with some dim old pang, “On
such a day as this he bought the robe and we quarreled--on just such a
fair day, for I remember the robe was the color of the sky that day.”
She sighed and rose to drive the thought away and when her elder son
came she said restlessly, “I think to go and see your sister tomorrow,
and how she does in the house where she was wed, seeing she cannot come
to me.”

Then the son said, anxiously, “Mother, I cannot go with you now, for
there is work to do tomorrow. Wait until the harvest is over and the
grain threshed and measured, and I have a little free time.”

But suddenly the mother could not wait. There was strength in her a
plenty yet when she had something she set her mind to do, and she
was weary of her idleness and sitting and she said, “No, I will go
tomorrow!”

And the son said, worried still and he was always easily worried if
aught came that was sudden and out of the common and he could not
think what to do quickly, “But how will you go, mother?”

She said, “Why, I will ride my cousin’s ass if he will lend it, and do
you bid a lad of his to go and call your brother to walk beside and
lead the ass, and we will go safe enough, the two of us, for there are
no robbers near these days that I have heard tell of, except that new
kind in the town they call the communists, who do not harm the poor,
they say--”

At last the son was willing, though not too easily and not until his
wife said quietly, “It is true I cannot see any great danger if the
younger one goes with her.”

So they let the mother have her way at last, and the cousin’s lad was
sent to town to search until he found the younger son and so he did
and came back wide-eyed and said, “My cousin and your second son will
come, aunt.” And then he thought a while and twisted the button on his
coat and said again, “I swear it is a strange and secret place where he
lives and a hard place to find. He lives in a long room full of beds,
some twenty beds or so above a shop, and the room is filled with books
and papers. But he does not work in the shop for I asked him. I did not
know my cousin could read, aunt. If he reads those books he must be
very learned.”

“He cannot read,” the mother said astonished. “He never told me that he
lived by books, a very strange odd thing, I swear! I must ask him of
it.”

The next day when she was on the ass and they went winding through the
valleys she took the chance of being alone with him and she did ask her
son, “What are those books and papers that my cousin’s son says you
have in that room where you all live? You never told me you could read
or that you live by books. I never saw you read a word, my son.”

Then the young man stopped the little song he had been singing as they
went for he had a good voice to sing and loved to sing, and he said,
“Aye, I have learned a little.” And when she pressed him further he
said, evading her, “Mother, do not ask me now, for some day you will
know everything and when the hour comes. A great day, mother, and I was
singing of it just now, a song we sing together where I work, and on
that day we shall all be eased, and there shall be no more rich and no
more poor and all of us shall have the same.”

Now this was the wildest talk the mother had ever heard, for well she
knew heaven wills who shall be rich and who shall be poor, and men have
naught to say but take their destiny and bear it, and she cried out
afraid, “I hope you are not in some wicked company, my son, not with
thieves or some such company! It sounds the way robbers talk, my son!
There is no other way for poor to be rich than that, and it is ill to
be rich and lose your life if you be caught at it!”

But the young man grew angry at this and said, “Mother, you do not
understand at all! I am sworn to silence now, but some day you shall
know. Yes, I shall not forget you on that day. But only you. I will
not share with any who have not shared with me.” This last he said so
loudly that she knew he felt against his brother and so she was silent
for a while, fearing to rouse his wrath.

But she could not let him be. She sat as bid upon the ass and clung
to the beast’s hairy skin and thought about this son and looked at
him secretly. There he walked ahead of her, the beast’s halter in his
hand, and now he was singing again, some song she had never heard, some
beating fiery song whose words she could not catch, and she thought to
herself that she must know more of his life. Yes, and she must bind
him somehow more closely to his home and to them all. She would wed
him and have his wife there in the house. Then would he often come and
even live there, perhaps, for the wife’s sake. She would seek and find
a pretty, touching maid whom he could love, for the elder son’s wife
could do the work, and she would find another sort for this son. And as
she thought of this her heart was eased because it seemed a good way
and she could not keep it back and so she said, “Son, you are more than
twenty now, and near to twenty-one, and I think to wed you soon. How is
that for a merry thing?”

But who can tell what a young man’s heart will be? Instead of smiling
silence, half pleased and half ashamed, he stopped and turned and
said to her most wilfully, “I have been waiting for you to say
some such thing--it is all that mothers’ heads run upon, I do
believe! My comrades tell me it is the chiefest thing their parents
say--wed--wed--wed! Well then, mother, I will not wed! And if you wed
me against my will, then shall you never see my face again! I never
will come home again!”

He turned and went on more quickly and she dared not say a word, but
only sat amazed and frightened at his anger and that he did not sing
again.

Yet she forgot all this now in what was to come. The path along which
they had come since early dawn grew narrower and more narrow toward
noon, and those hills which around their own valleys were so gently
shaped, so mild in their round curves against the sky and so green
with grass and bamboo, rose now as they went among them into sharper,
bolder lines. At last when noon was full and the sun poured its heat
down straight the gentle hills were gone, and in their place rose a
range of mountains bare and rocky and cruelly pointed against the sky.
They seemed the sharper too because the sky that day was so cloudless,
bright and hard and blue, above the sand color of the bare mountains.

Beneath great pale cliffs the path wound, the stones not black and
dark, but pale as light in hue and very strange, and nothing grew
there, for there was no water anywhere. So the path wound up and yet
more up and when noon was passed an hour or two, they came suddenly
into a round deep valley in the mountain tops, and there some water
was, for there was a small square village enclosed about with a rocky
wall, and about it the green of a few fields. But when the mother and
her son stopped at the gate to that village and asked of the place
they sought, one who stood there pointed yet higher to a ridge and
said, “There where the green ends on that lower edge there are the two
houses. It is the last edge of green, and above it there are only rocks
and sky.”

Now all this time the mother had stared astonished at these mountains
and at their strange wild shapes and paleness, and at the scanty green.
She had spent her life in the midst of valleys, and now as the path
wound up from the enclosed village she stared about aghast to see how
mortally poor the land was here and how shallow on the pale rocks the
soil was and how scanty all the crops, even now when harvest drew on,
and she cried out to the youth, “I do not like the looks of this place,
son! I doubt it is too hard a place for your sister. Well, we will take
her home, then. Yes, if it is too hard for her here I can walk and we
will put her on the ass, and let them say what they will. They paid
nothing for her, and I will ask nothing but her back again.”

But the young man did not answer. He was weary and hungry, for they had
eaten but a bit of cold food they had brought with them, and he longed
to reach his sister’s house, for there they thought to spend the night.
He pulled at the ass’s bridle until the mother could not bear it and
was about to brave his anger and reprove him.

Suddenly they came upon that house. Yes, there the two houses were,
caught upon the side of the ridge and stuck there somehow to the
rocks, and the mother knew this was where her maid was, for there the
ill-looking old man stood at the door of one of the two houses, and
when he saw her he stared as if he could not believe it was she, and
then he ran in and out came more people, another man, dark and lean and
wild in looks, and two women and a slack-hung youth, but not her blind
maid.

The mother came down from her ass then and went near, and all these
stared at her in silence, and she looked back and was afraid. Never
had she seen such looks as these, the women’s hair uncombed and full
of burrs and their faces withered and blackened with the sun, their
garments never washed, and so were they all. They gathered there and
out of the other house came a sickly child or two, yellowed with some
fever, their lips parched and broken, and their bodies foul with filth,
and they all stared silently, and gave no greeting, their eyes as wild
and reasonless as beasts’ eyes are.

Then did the mother’s heart break suddenly with fear and she ran
forward crying, “Where is my maid? Where have you hid my maid?” And she
ran into their midst, but the young man stood doubting and holding to
the ass.

Then a woman spoke sullenly, and her speech was not easily understood,
some rude northern speech it was, and the sounds caught between her
broken teeth and nothing came out clear and she said, “You have come
well, goodwife. She has just died today.”

“Died!” the mother whispered and said no more. Her heart stopped, her
breath was gone, she had no voice. But she pushed into the nearest hut
and there upon a bed of reeds thrown on the ground her blind maid lay.
Aye, there the maid was lying quietly and dead, dressed in the same
clothes she had when she left her home, but not clean now nor mended.
Of those new things there was no trace, for the room was empty save for
the heap of rushes and a rude stool or two.

Then the mother ran and knelt beside her maid and stared down at the
still face and sunken eyes and at the patient little mouth and all the
face she knew so well. And suddenly she burst out crying and she fell
upon the maid and seized her hands and pushed the ragged sleeves back
and looked at her little arms and drew the trousers up her legs and
looked to see if they were bruised or beaten or harmed in any way.

But there was nothing. No, the maid’s soft skin was all unbroken, the
slender bones whole, and there was nothing to be seen. She was pale and
piteously thin, but she was thin always and death is pale. Then did
the mother stoop and smell at the child’s lips to see if there was any
smell of poison, but there was no smell, nothing now except the faint
sad scent of death.

Yet somehow the mother could not believe that this was any good and
usual death. She turned on those who stood about the door watching her
in silence, and she looked at them and saw their wild rude faces, not
one of which she knew, and she shouted at them through sudden great
weeping, “You have killed her--well I know you have--if you did not,
then tell me how did my maid die so soon, and she left me sound and
well!”

Then the evil old man whom she had hated from the first time she saw
him grinned and said, “Be careful how you speak, goodwife! It is not a
small thing to say we killed her and--”

But the sullen, rough-haired woman broke in screaming, “How did she
die? She died of a cold she caught, being so puny, and that is how
she died!” And she spat upon the ground and said again, screeching as
she said, “A useless maid she was, too, if there was one, and knowing
nothing--no, she could not even learn to fetch the water from the
spring and not stumble and fall or lose her way!”

Then the mother looked and saw a narrow stony path leading down the
mountain to a small pool and she groaned and cried, “Is that the way
you mean?” But no one answered her and she cried out in further agony,
“You beat her--doubtless every day my maid was beaten!”

But the woman answered quickly, “Search and see if there be bruises on
her! Once my son did beat her for she came to him too slowly, but that
is all!”

The mother looked up then and said faintly, “Where is your son?” And
they pushed him forward, that son they had, and there he stood, a
gangling, staring lad, and the mother saw he was nearly witless.

Then did the mother lay her head down upon her dead maid and weep and
weep most wildly, and more wildly still she wept when she thought of
what the maid had suffered, must have suffered, at such hands as these.
And while she wept the anger grew about her in those who watched her.
At last she felt a touch upon her and looking up she saw it was her
son, and he bent and whispered to her urgently, “Mother, we are in
danger here--I am afraid--we must not stay. Mother, she is dead now and
what more can you do? But they look so evil I do not know what they
will do to us. Come and let us hasten to the village and buy a little
food and then press on home tonight!”

The mother rose then unwillingly, but as she looked she saw it was true
those people stood together close, and there was that about them to
make her fear, too, and she did not like their muttering nor the looks
they cast at her and at the youth. Yes, she must think of him. Let them
kill her if they would, but there was her son.

She turned and looked down once more at her dead maid and put her
garments neat and laid her hands to her side. She went out into the
late afternoon. When they saw her calmer and that she made ready to
mount the ass again, the man, who had not spoken yet, and who was
father to the witless son, said, “Look you, goodwife, if you do not
think us honest folk, look at the coffin we have bought your child. Ten
pieces of silver did it cost us, and all we had, and do you think we
would have bought a coffin if we had not valued her?”

The mother looked then, and there beside the door a coffin truly was,
but well she knew there were not ten pieces of silver in it, for it was
but the rudest box of unpainted board, and thin well-nigh as paper and
such a box as any pauper has. She opened her lips to make angry answer
and to say, “That box? But my maid’s own silver that I gave her would
have paid for that!”

But she did not say the words. It came upon her like a chill cloud
across the day that she had need to fear these people. Yes, these two
evil men, these wild women--but there her son was tugging at her sleeve
to hasten her and so she answered steadily, “I will say nothing now.
The maid is dead and not all the angers in the world nor any words can
bring her back again.” She paused and looked at this one and at that
and then she said again, “Before heaven do you stand and all the gods,
and let them judge you, whatever you have done!”

She looked at this one and that, but no one answered, and she turned
then and climbed upon the ass and the son made haste and led the ass
down the rocky path and turned shivering to see if they were followed
and he said, “I shall not rest until we are near that village once
again and where many people are, I am so fearful.”

But the mother answered nothing. What need to answer anything? Her maid
was dead.




XVII


Crazed with her weariness was the mother when she came down from the
halting gray ass that night before her own door. She had wept all the
way home, now aloud and now softly, and the young man had been beside
himself again and again with his mother’s weeping. He cried out in an
agony at last, “Cease your wailing, mother, or I shall not be able to
bear it!”

But when she calmed herself a little for his sake she broke forth again
and at last the young man ground his teeth together and he muttered
wildly, “If the day were come, if we were not so miserably poor, if the
poor were given their share and could defend themselves, then might we
sue for my sister’s life! But what use when we are so poor and there is
no justice in the land?”

And the mother sobbed out, “It is true there is no use in going to law
since we have no money to pay our way in to justice,” and then she wept
afresh and cried, “But all the money and the justice under heaven would
not bring my blind maid back again.”

At last the young man wept too, not so much for his sister nor even
for his mother, but because he was so footsore and so worn and his
world awry.

Thus they came at last to their own door and when she was down from the
ass the mother called her elder son piercingly and so sharply that he
came running out and she cried, “Son, your sister is dead!” And while
he stared at her scarcely comprehending, she poured out the tale, and
at the sound of her voice others came quickly to hear the tale until
there in the dusk of night nearly all the hamlet stood to hear it. The
younger son stood there half fainting, leaning on the ass, and when
his mother talked on he went and threw himself upon the ground and lay
there dazed with what had come about this day, and he lay silent while
his mother wept and cried aloud and in her weeping said, looking with
her streaming eyes to this face and to that, “There my little maid was,
dead and gone, and I hate myself I ever let her go, and I would not
have let her go if it had not been for this cold-hearted son’s wife of
mine who begrudged the little maid a bit of meat and a little flower on
her shoe and so I was fearful if I died and the maid was afraid, too--a
little tender child who never would have left me of her own will!
What cared she for man or marriage and a child’s heart in her always,
clinging to her home and me? Oh, son, it is your wife who has brought
this on me--I curse the day she came and no wonder she is childless
with so hard a heart!”

So on and on the mother cried and at first they all listened in
silence or exclaiming something when they had pieced the tale from what
she said between her weeping, and then they tried to comfort her, but
she would not let herself be comforted. The eldest son said nothing but
stood with downcast head until she cursed his wife and spoke against
her child-bearing, and then he said in a reasonable and quiet voice,
“No, mother, she did not bid you send my sister to that place. You
sent her so quickly and did not say a word to anyone but fixed it so
and we wondered even that you did not go and see how it was there for
yourself,” and he turned to his father’s cousin and he said, “Did you
not think so, cousin? Do you remember how I said we were surprised my
mother was so quick in the matter?”

And the cousin turned his eyes away and muttered unwillingly, chewing a
bit of straw, “Oh, aye, a little quick,” and his wife who stood holding
a grandchild in her arms said mournfully to the mother, “Yes, it is
true, sister, you be a very quick woman always, and never asking anyone
if this or that is well to be done. No, before any of us know it or
guess what it is you are about you have done all and it is finished,
and you only want us to say you have done well. It is your nature all
your life to be like this.”

But the mother could not bear blame this night and she cried out in
anger, and so turned her working angry face upon her cousin’s wife,
“You--you are used to that slow man of yours, and if we must be all
judged too quick by such as he--”

And it looked for a time as though these two women who had been friends
all their lives would fall to bitter words now, except that the cousin
was so good and peaceable a man that when he saw his wife’s great
face grow red and that she was gathering up her wits to make a very
biting answer he called out, “Let be, mother of my sons! She is sore
with sorrow tonight and well beside herself.” And after he had chewed
a while upon his straw, he added mildly, “It is true that I am a very
slow man and I have heard it many times since I was born, and you have
told me so, too, mother of my sons.... Aye, I be slow.” And he looked
around upon his neighbors and one called out earnestly, “Aye, goodman,
you are a very slow-moving man for sure, and slow in wits and slow to
speak!”

“Aye,” said the cousin sighing a little and spitting out the shattered
straw he chewed and plucking out a fresh one from the stack of rice
straw near which he stood.

So was the quarrel averted. But the mother was not eased and suddenly
her eye fell on the old gossip standing in the crowd, her mouth ajar
and eyes staring and all her old hanging face listening to what went
on. Seeing her the mother’s anger and pain broke out afresh and it all
came out mingled with her agony and she rushed at the gossip and fell
on her and tore at her large fat face and snatched at her hair and
screamed at her and said, “Yes, and you knew what those folk were and
you knew the son was witless, and you never said a word of it but told
a tale of how they were plain country folk like us, and you never said
my maid must go up and down that rocky path to fetch water for them
all--it is all on you and I swear I shall not rest myself until I have
made you pay for it somehow--”

And she belabored the gossip who was no match for the distraught mother
even at the best of times and there is no knowing how it might have
come about at the end if the son had not flown to part them and if the
younger son had not risen too and with his elder brother held their
mother so that the old gossip could make haste away, although she must
needs stand, too, for honor’s sake when she had gone a distance and far
enough so there were those who stood between them, and then she stopped
and cried, “Yes, but your maid was blind and what proper man would have
her? I did you a very good turn, goodwife, and here be all the thanks I
get for it.” And she beat her own breast and pointed to the scratches
on her face and fell to weeping and working herself up for a better
quarrel.

But the crowd hastened her away, and the sons urged the mother into
the house and they forced her gently in and led her there, she weeping
still. But she was spent at last and let them lead her to her room, and
when she was come and they had sat her down, the son’s wife fetched
her a bowl of water very hot and soothing and she had been heating it
while the quarrel went on. Now she dipped a towel in it and wiped the
mother’s face and hands and poured hot tea out and set food ready.

Then little by little the mother let herself be calmed and she wept
more silently and sighed a while and drank a little tea and supped her
food and at last she looked about and said, “Where is my little son?”

The young man came forward then and she saw how deathly pale he was and
weary and all his merry looks gone for the time, and she pressed him
down beside her on the bench and held his hand and urged him to eat and
rest himself and she said, “Sleep here beside me tonight, my little
son, and on the pallet where your sister used to lie. I cannot have it
empty this night, my son.” And so the lad did and he slept heavily the
moment that he laid himself down.

But even when the house was quiet the mother could not sleep for long.
She was spent to her core, her body spent with the long ride and all
her heart’s weariness, and the only thing that comforted her was to
hear the lad’s deep breathing as he lay there. And she thought of him
then with new love and thought, “I must do more for him. He is the last
I have. I must wed him and we will build a new room on the house. He
shall have a room for himself and his woman, and then when children
come--yes, I must find a good, lusty wife for him so that somehow we
shall have children in the house.”

And this thought of little children yet to come was the only comfort
she could see in her whole life ahead of her.

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But doubtless even this comfort might not have lasted except that her
old flux laid hold on her again and made her weak as death, too weak to
mourn. She lay there on her bed for many days, purged body and heart,
and all her sorrow and her comfort too in abeyance because she was not
strong enough to mourn or hope. Many there were who came to exhort her,
her neighbors and her cousin’s wife and they said, “Goodwife, after all
the child was blind,” and they said, “Goodwife, what heaven has made
for us we cannot change and it is useless to mourn for anything in this
life.” And they said, “Remember your good sons,” and one day when the
cousin’s wife said this the mother answered faintly, “Yes, but my elder
son’s wife she does not bear, and my younger son he will not wed.” And
the cousin’s wife answered heartily, “Give the elder son’s wife a year
or two, cousin, for sometimes when seven years are passed barren, a
woman will come to her true nature and bear a harvest of good children,
for I have seen it so, and as for the lad’s saying he will not wed,
why then he has a love somewhere, and we must find out who she is, and
if she is fit for him to wed or not. Yes, truly has he found a love,
as young folks will these days, for never was there a man in all the
world, I swear, who would not wed!”

But the mother whispered, “Bend down your ear, sister, and put it
against my lips,” and when the cousin’s wife had done this the mother
whispered, “Since sorrow follows me and everything goes wrong with
me, I fear sometimes it is that old sin of mine that the gods know
about--perhaps heaven will not give me grandsons!” And when she thought
of this she closed her eyes and two great tears came out from under her
closed lids. She thought of all her sins, not only the one the cousin’s
wife knew of, but all the many times she had said she was widow and the
letters that she wrote and all the lies. Not that she held the lies
pure sin, since all must lie a little now and then for honor’s sake,
but here the sin was, that she had lied and said her man was dead.
Almost was it now when she thought of it as if she had put her hand
forth and brought his death on him, and she had used this lie of death
to hope another man would have her. So all these sins of hers, so old
she could forget them many days together when she was well, came back
fresh and now when she was weak and sorrowful, the heavier because she
could not tell them all but must carry them in herself, and heaviest
because she was a woman held in good repute among her fellows.

She grew so low in mind that nothing cheered her much except to have
her younger son about her. Yes, although the elder son’s wife tended
her most carefully and brought her food ready and hot when she would
have it and even walked a mile or two to another village to fetch a
certain sort of dried curd they made there from beans, and although
the mother leaned on her in every sort of way and called to her if she
would so much as turn herself in her bed, yet the son’s wife was no
comfort to her, and often when she did her most careful best the mother
would scold her that her hands were cold or her face so yellow and
stare at her in some half hostile, childish way. But still the older
woman never blamed the son’s wife any more that she was childless. No,
she said no more of that, believing somehow dimly that her own sins
might be the cause.

But she rose from her bed at last, and when the autumn was well gone
the sharpness of her pain had ebbed with it and she was dreary all day
long but not frantic, and she could think of her maid, but the edge of
pain was gone. At last she even said to her own heart, “Aye, perhaps
even what they say is true, perhaps it is better that my maid is dead.
There are so many things worse than death.”

And she held fast to this one thought.

And all the hamlet helped her. No one ever spoke of the maid again
before her, nor doubtless anywhere, since there is nothing to be
remembered in a blind maid and there are many like her everywhere.
First they did not speak of her where the mother was, to spare the
mother pain, and then they did not speak because there was naught new
to tell of it, and because other news came of other things and people,
and the maid’s little life was ended.

For a while the gossip went carefully where the mother was and took
thought not to be alone with her, but when she saw how feeble the
mother was when she rose up from her bed, she grew cheerful then and
called out greeting as she ever had.

And the mother let the past be silent, except sometimes in her own
heart.




XVIII


Then did it seem as though the mother’s heart might have some comfort,
for in the springtime of that year the younger son came home and he
said, “I am come home to stay a while, mother, how long I do not know,
but at least until I am bid to go again.”

But when she rejoiced he made little answer and scarcely seemed
himself. He was so quiet, never singing or playing his capers or
talking in any reckless way as he was used to do, that the mother’s
heart wondered if he might be ill or troubled with some secret thing.
But when she spoke this fear to the cousin’s wife that one said,
mildly, “Well, it may be he is passing out of his childhood. How many
are his years, now? The same I think as my fifth child, and she is
twenty now and nearly twenty-one and wed four years. Yes, twenty-one
is out of childhood, and men should not caper then as once they did,
although I remember that man of yours could caper even to that last day
I saw him.”

“Aye,” said the mother, sighing. Very dim in her now was the memory
of the man, and mingled somehow with this younger son of hers, and
sometimes when she remembered she could not think how her man had
looked alone, because the son’s face rose there in his stead.

But at the end of nine days the younger son went as quickly as he came
and almost secretly, though how he had his message he must go none
knew. But go he did, putting his few garments in a little leathern box
he had. His mother grieved to see him go and cried, “I thought you were
come to stay, my son,” but the son replied, “Oh, I shall be back again,
my mother,” and he seemed secretly gay again somehow, and eager to be
gone.

Thereafter was he always gay. He came and went without warning. He
would come in perhaps one day, his roll of clothing under his arm and
there he was. And for a day or two he would idle about the little
hamlet and sit in the teashop and make great talk of how ill the times
were and how uneven justice was and how some great day all this would
be made better, and men listened staring at each other, not knowing
what to make of it, and the innkeeper scratched his greasy head and
cried, “I do swear it sounds like robbers’ talk to me, neighbors!” But
for the mother’s sake and for the good elder son’s sake they let him
be, thinking him but childish still and to be wiser when he was wed and
had a man’s life.

Yet when he came home this younger son still sat idle, or else he made
as if to help his brother at some light task, although when he did this
the brother said scornfully always, “I thank you, brother, but I am
used to doing work without you.”

Then the youth looked at him in his impudent way, for he grew a very
impudent eye these last days, and he would not quarrel but he laughed
coolly and he said, and spat in the dust while he said it, “As you
will, my elder brother,” and he was so cool his elder brother well-nigh
burst with hatred of him and gladly would have told him to stay away
forever except that a man may not tell his brother this and still be
righteous in his neighbors’ eyes.

But the mother saw no fault in him at all. Even when he talked his big
talk with her and said against his elder brother, “I swear these little
landowners that must even rent before they can live, these little men,
they are so small and proud that they deserve what shall befall them
one day when all the land is made common and no one may have it for his
own.”

The mother understood no word of this except the first and she said
plaintively, “Aye, I do think, too, your brother is over proud
sometimes, and his wife barren, too.”

For everything this younger son said seemed wise to the mother, now she
clung to him so fast. To her when he came home it made a festival, and
she would have made each day that he was there a holiday if she could
have done it and would have killed a fowl for him and made better food
than usual. But this she could not do. The fowls were her elder son’s
now, and she could not do better than to steal an egg or two from some
nest she found and keep them for her younger son, and when he came pour
them into boiling water secretly for him to sup and add to the dish a
little sugar that she had saved somehow.

It came to be that whenever any little dainty fell to her or if she
went into a house in the hamlet for a visit with a neighbor, since she
was so idle now in her age and nothing she must do, and if someone gave
her a peach or a dried persimmon or a little cake or some such thing
for kindness, she saved it for her younger son. Much time she spent
in watching these small bits to see they did not mold, and she kept
them as long as she could, and when he put off coming home and she was
forced to eat them lest they spoil she felt it no pleasure and scarcely
could she enjoy the dainty, although she loved food, too. Often would
she open the drawer she kept them in and turn the little store over
with her fingers and think to herself, “He does not come. He is not
here. If I had a little grandson I could give them to him when my son
does not come. I have no one, if my son does not come.”

And many hours of each day she sat and looked down the road to catch a
glimpse of him as he came and when she saw the glint of a man’s robe
she would run forward as best she could and when she saw it was her
son come home she took his warm smooth hand in her old dry one and
she pulled him into her own room and poured out for him the tea the
careful son’s wife kept there for her and then with pleasure would
she bring out the little store she had for him. And she sat down and
watched him lovingly while he picked about among the bits and chose the
best. Sometimes he turned his dainty nose aside and said, “That cake is
mildewed, mother,” or he said, “I never liked a rice flour cake so dry.”

Then she would answer sorrowfully, “Is it too dry, my son? Well, and I
thought you would still like it maybe,” and when he would not have it
she ate it up herself to keep from wasting it, grieving that it was not
good enough for him.

Then when he had eaten what he wished she sat to hear what he would
say. Never would he answer all her questions freely as she wished he
would and when she pressed him closely he seemed to be in haste to go
away, and when she saw this was so, she learned to ask him nothing and
he learned, too, to put her off. For as she grew older she forgot more
easily and was put off more easily too, and to put her off he would
tell her of some wonder he had seen, a juggler who would let a snake
crawl down his throat and pull it up again by the tail, or a woman who
had borne a two-headed child that she showed for a penny to those who
wished to see it, or some such strange sight as may be seen in any town.

And the old mother was diverted by his talk and cried when he was gone,
and she could not keep from telling of these wonders to the son and
his wife. Once when she did so the elder son was bent over an earthen
bowl of water, washing off his face after labor in the fields, and he
looked up, his face wet, and said most bitterly, “Aye, he does not feed
you nor do aught else for you but throw a bit of a coin to you as to a
beggar. He comes here and eats and never puts his hand to hoe or plough
and tells these tales and he is more to you than--” and he bent his
face again and made a noise about his washing and would not listen to
what his mother had to say in answer.

But this was all she knew of her younger son. She knew his lithe and
pretty body, and she knew the pale gold of his skin, the hue a city man
is and different from the dark and ruddy brown of country folk, and she
knew how the nails grew long upon his two little fingers, and she knew
his teeth were white and his black hair oiled and shining, and she knew
how he let his hair grow long about his ears and how he tossed his head
to keep his eyes clear of the glossy hair.

Yes, and she knew and loved his ready smile and his bold eyes and she
loved his carelessness with silver and how he would reach into his
girdle and give her what he had or if he had none ask of her what she
had, and more than to have him give to her she loved to take what she
had and press it on him. All he gave her she saved to give it back
again when he might want it. It was the best use she knew for her small
store.




XIX


But one day he did not come when he said he would. And how did she
know he would surely come? Because but three days before he had come
secretly and by night, walking across the field paths and not through
the village, and he scratched lightly on her door, so she was half
afraid to open it, thinking it might be robbers. Even as she was about
to call out she heard his voice low and quick and luckily the fowls
stirred by her bed where they roosted and hid it from the hearing of
the elder son and his wife.

She rose then as fast as she could, fumbling her clothes and feeling
for the candle, and when she opened the door softly, for she knew
it must be for a secret thing he came at such an hour and in such a
way, there he was with two other young men, all dressed in the same
way he went dressed these days, in black. They had a great bundle of
something tied up in paper and rope and when she opened the door with
the light in her hand, her son blew the light out for there was a faint
moon, enough to see by, and when she cried out but still softly in her
pleasure to see him, he said in a whisper, “Mother, there is something
of my own I must put under your bed among the winter garments there.
Say nothing of it, for I do not want anyone to know it is there. I will
come and fetch it again.”

Her heart misgave her somehow when she heard this and she opened her
eyes and said soberly, holding her voice low as his, “Son, it is not
an ill thing, I hope--I hope you have not taken something that is not
yours.”

But he answered hastily, “No, no, mother, nothing robbed, I swear. It
is some sheepskins I had the chance to buy cheap, but my brother will
blame me for them for he blames me for everything, and I have nowhere
to put them. I bought them very cheap and you shall have one next
winter, mother, for a coat--we will all wear good clothes next winter!”

She was mightily pleased then and trusted him when he said they were
not robbed and it was a joy to her to share a little secret with this
son of hers and she said hastily, “Oh, aye, trust me, son! There be
many things in this room that my son and son’s wife do not know.”

Then the two men brought the bundle in and they pushed it silently
under the bed, and the fowls cackled and stared and the buffalo woke
and began to chew its cud.

But the son would not stay at all, and when the mother saw his haste
she wondered but she said, “Be sure I will keep them safe, my son, but
ought they not to be aired and sunned against the moth?”

To this he answered carelessly, “It is but for a day or two, for we
are moving to a larger place and then I shall have a room of my own and
plenty.”

When she heard this talk of much room, there was that thought in her
mind she had always of his marriage, and she drew him aside somewhat
from the other two and looked at him beseechingly. It was the one thing
about him that did not please her, that he was not willing for her to
wed him, because she well knew what hot blood was and there was sign in
this son of her own heat when she was young, and she knew he must sate
it somehow and she grudged the waste. Better if he were wed to some
clean maid and she could have her grandsons. Now even in the haste of
the moment when he was eager to be gone, and the other two waiting in
the shadows by the door, even now she laid her hand on his hand and she
said coaxingly, her voice still whispering, “But, son, if you have so
much room, then why not let me find a maid? I will find the best pretty
maid I can--or if you know one, then tell me and let me ask my cousin’s
wife to be the one to make the match. I would not force you, son, if it
be the one you like is one that I would like too.”

But the young man shook his long locks from his eyes and looked toward
the door, and tried to shift her hand away. But she held him fast and
coaxed again, “Why should your good heats be spent on wild weeds here
and there, my son, and give me no good grandsons? Your brother’s wife
is so cold I think there will never be children on my knees unless
you put them there. Aye, you are like your own father, and well I know
what he was. Plant your seeds in your own land, my son, and reap the
harvests for your own house!”

But the young man laughed silently and tossed his hair back again from
those glittering eyes of his and said half wondering, “Old women like
you, mother, think of nothing but weddings and births of children, and
we--we young ones nowadays have cast away all that.... In three days,
mother!”

He pulled himself away then and was gone, walking with the other two
across the dimly lighted fields.

But three days passed and he did not come. And three more came and went
and yet three more, and the mother grew afraid and wondered if some
ill had come upon her son. But now in this last year she had not gone
easily to the town and so she waited, peevish with all who came near
her, not daring to tell what her fears were, and not daring either
to leave her room far lest her son’s careful wife chance to draw the
curtains aside and see the bundle under her bed.

One night as she lay sleepless with her wondering she rose and lit
the candle and stooped and peered under the bed, holding the parted
curtains with one hand. There the thing was, wrapped in thick paper,
shaped large and square and tied fast with hempen rope. She pressed
it and felt of it and there was something hard within, not sheepskin
surely.

“It should be taken out to sun, if it is sheepskin,” she muttered,
sore at the thought of waste if the moth should creep in and gnaw good
skins. But she did not dare to open it and so she let it be. And still
her son did not come.

So passed the days until a month was gone and she was near beside
herself and would have been completely so, except that something came
to wean her mind somewhat from her fears. It was the last thing she
dreamed of nowadays and it was that her son’s wife conceived.

Yes, after all these cool years the woman came to herself and did her
duty. The elder son went to his mother importantly one day as she sat
in the doorway and said, his lean face all wrinkled with his smiles,
“Mother, you shall have a grandson.”

She came out of the heavy muse in which she spent her days now and
stared at him out of eyes grown a little filmy and said peevishly,
“You speak like a fool. Your wife is cold as any stone and as barren
and where my little son is I do not know and he scatters his good seed
anywhere and will not wed and save it.”

Then the elder son coughed and said plainly, “Your son’s wife has
conceived.”

At first the mother would not believe it. She looked at this elder son
of hers and then she shouted, pulling at her staff to raise herself
upon her feet, “She has not--I never will believe it!”

But she saw by his face that it was true and she rose and went as
fast as she could and found her son’s wife who was chopping leeks in
the kitchen and she peered at the young woman and she cried, “Have you
something in you then at last?”

The wife nodded and went on with her work, her pale face spotted with
dull red, and then the mother knew it to be true. She said, “How long
have you known?”

“Two moons and more,” the young wife answered.

Then the old mother fell into a rage to think she was not told and she
cried, striking her staff against the earthen floor, “Why have you said
no word to me, who have sat all these years panting and pining and
thirsting for such news? Two moons--was ever so cold a soul as you and
would not any other woman have told the thing the first day that she
knew it!”

Then the young woman stayed her knife and she said in her careful way,
“I did not lest I might be wrong and grieve you worse than if I never
gave you hope.”

But this the mother would not grant and she spat and said, “Well and
with all the children I have had could not I have told you whether you
were right or wrong? No, you think I am a child and foolish with my
age. I know what you think--yes, you show it with every step you make.”

But the young woman answered nothing. She pressed her lips together,
those full pale lips, and poured a bowl of tea from an earthen pot that
stood there on the table and she led the mother to her usual place
against the wall.

But the mother could not sit and hold such news as this. No, she must
go and tell her cousin and her cousin’s wife and there they sat at
home, for nowadays the sons did the work, the three who stayed upon
the land, the others having gone elsewhere to earn their food, and the
cousin still did what he could and he was always busy at some small
task or other. But even he could not work as he once had, and as for
his wife, she slept peacefully all day long except when she woke to
heed some grandchild’s cry.

And now the mother went across the way and woke her ruthlessly and
shouted at her as she slept, “You shall not be the only grandmother, I
swear! A few months and I am to have a grandson too!”

The cousin’s wife came to herself then slowly, smiling and licking
her lips that were grown dry with sleeping, and she opened her little
placid eyes and said, “Is it so, cousin, and is your little son to be
wed?”

The mother’s heart sank a little, and she said, “No, not that,” and
then the cousin looked up from where he sat, a little weazened man
upon a low bamboo stool, and he sat there twisting ropes of straw for
silkworms to spin cocoons upon, since it was the season when they spin,
and he said in his spare dry way, “Your son’s wife, then, cousin?”

“Aye,” the mother said heartily, her pleasure back again, and she sat
down to pour it out, but she would not seem too pleased either, and
she hid her pleasure with complaints and said, “Time, too, and I have
waited these eight years and if I had been rich I would have fetched
another woman for him, but I thought my younger son should have his
chance before I gave his brother two, and marriage costs so much these
days even for a second woman, if she be decent and not from some evil
place. A very slow woman always that son’s wife of mine, and full of
some temper not like mine--cold as any serpent’s temper it is.”

“But not evil, goodwife,” said the cousin justly. “She has done well
and carefully always. You have the ducks and drakes now that you did
not used to have upon the pond, and she mated that old buffalo you had
and got this young one, and your fowls are twice as many as you had
and you must have ten or twelve by now, besides all the many ones sold
every year.”

“No, not evil,” said the mother grudgingly, “but I wish she could have
used heats other than the heats of beasts and fowls.”

Then the cousin’s wife spoke kindly but always full of sleep these
days, and she said, yawning as she spoke, “Aye, she is different from
you, cousin, to be sure--a full hot woman have you always been and one
to do so much, and still hearty. Why, when you walk about, if you have
not your flux, I do wonder how you walk so quick. I do marvel, for if
I must walk from bench to table and from table to bed, it is as much as
I can do these days.”

And the cousin said admiringly, “Aye, and I cannot eat half what I used
to do, but I see you sitting there and shouting for your bowl to be
filled again and then again.”

And the mother said modestly but pleased at all this praise, “Oh, aye,
I eat as well as ever. Three bowls and often four I eat, and I can eat
anything not too hard since my front teeth fell away, and I am very
sound at such times as I have not got my flux.”

“A very sound old soul,” murmured the cousin’s wife, and then she slept
a little and woke again and saw the mother there and smiled her wide
sleepy smile and said, “A grandson, did you say? Aye, we have seven now
of grandsons alone--and none too many--” and slept again peacefully.

       *       *       *       *       *

So did the great news fill the days that had been empty because the
younger son did not come, and this new joy took the edge from the
mother’s waiting and she thought he must come some time or other and
let it rest at that.

But it was not all joy either, and like every joy she ever had, the
mother thought, there was always something wrong in it to make it go
amiss if so it could. Here the thing was. She feared lest the child be
born a girl and when she thought of this she muttered, “Yes, and it
would be like my ever evil destiny if it were born a girl.”

And in her anxiety she would have liked to go and ask that potent
little goddess that she knew and make a bribe to her of a new robe of
red or new shoes or some such thing if she would make the child a boy.
But she did not dare to go lest she recall to the goddess’ mind that
old sin of hers, and she feared the goddess lest her old sin was not
yet atoned for, even with the sorrow that she had, and that if the
goddess saw her and heard her speak of grandsons, she might remember
and reach out and smite the little one in the womb. She thought to
herself, most miserably, “Better if I do not go and show myself at all.
If I stay away and do not tell her that the child is coming, she may
forget me this long time I have not been to any gods, and it will be
but the birth of another mortal and not my grandson, and I must chance
it is a boy.”

And then she grew uneasy and full of gloom and thought to herself that
if the child were joy yet was it a new gate for sorrow to enter by,
too, and so is every child, and when she thought of this and how the
child might be born dead or shapen wrong or dull or blind or a girl or
any of these things, she hated gods and goddesses who have such powers
to mar a mortal, and she muttered, “Have I not been more than punished
for any little sin I did? Who could have thought the gods would know
what I did that day? But doubtless that old god in the shrine smelled
the sin about him and told the goddess somehow even though I covered up
his eyes. Well, I will stay away from gods, so sinful an old soul as I
be, for even if I would I do not know how to atone more for what I did
than I have atoned. I swear if they measured up the joy and sorrow I
have had in my whole life the sorrow would sink the scales like stone,
and the joy be nothing more than thistledown, such poor joys as I have
had. I did not bear the child and I have seen my blind maid die, still
blind. Does not sorrow atone? Aye, I have been very full of sorrows all
my life long, always poor too, with all my sorrows. But gods know no
justice.”

So, she thought gloomily, she had two sorrows to bear now: fear lest
her grandson be not whole and sound or else a girl, and waiting for
this younger son who would not come. Sometimes she thought her whole
life was only made of waiting now. So had she waited for her man to
come who never came, and now her son and grandsons. Such was her life
and poor stuff it was, she thought.

Yet she must hope and whenever anyone went into town she always asked
him when he came back again, “Saw you my little son today anywhere?”
And she would go about the hamlet and to this house and that and say,
“Who went to town today?” And when one said he had, she asked again,
“Saw you my little son today, goodman?”

All through the hamlet in those days of waiting the men and women grew
used to this question and when they looked up and saw her leaning on
the staff her son had cut for her from a branch of their own trees and
heard her old quavering voice ask, “Neighbor, saw you my little son
today?” they would answer kindly enough, “No, no, good mother, and how
could we see him in the common market-place where we go and he such as
he is, and one you say who lives by books?”

Then she would turn away dashed of her hope again and she let her voice
sink and mutter, “I do not know--well and I think it is he has to do
with books somewhere,” and they would laugh and say to humor her, “If
some day we pass a place where books are sold we will look in and see
if he is there behind the counter.”

So she must go home to wait and wonder if the moths had eaten up the
sheepskins.

       *       *       *       *       *

But one day after many moons there came news. The mother sat by the
door as ever she did now, her long pipe in her fingers, for she had
only just eaten her morning meal. She sat and marked how sharply the
morning sun rose over the rounded hills and waited for it hoping for
its heat, for these autumn mornings were chill. Then came suddenly
across the threshold a son of her cousin’s, the eldest son, and he went
to her own elder son who stood binding the thong of his sandal that had
broken as he put it on, and he said something in a low voice.

She wondered even then for she had seen this man start for the town
that morning when she rose at dawn, since she could not lie abed
easily if she were well, being used to dawn rising all her life, and
she saw him start to town with loads of new-cut grass. Here he was back
so soon, and she was about to call out and ask him if he had sold his
grass so quick when she saw her elder son look up from the thong and
cry aghast, “My brother?”

Yes, the old mother’s sharp ears heard it, for she was not deaf at all
and she called out quickly, “What of my little son?”

But the two men talked on earnestly and very gravely and with anxious
looks into each other’s faces and at last the mother could not bear
it and she rose and hobbled to them and she struck her staff upon the
beaten earth and cried out, “Tell me of my son!”

But the cousin’s son went away without a word and the elder son said,
halting, “Mother, there is something wrong. I do not know--but, mother,
I must go to town and see and tell you then--”

But the mother would not let him go. She laid hold on him and cried out
the more, “You shall not go until you tell me!”

And at the sound of such a voice the son’s wife came and stood and
listened and said, “Tell her, else she will be ill with anger.”

So the son said slowly, “My cousin said--he said he saw my brother this
morning among many others, and his hands were tied behind him with
hempen ropes and his clothes were rags and he was marching past the
market-place where my cousin had taken the grass to sell, and there
was a long line of some twenty or thirty, and when my brother saw him
he turned his eyes away--but my cousin asked and the guards who walked
along said they were communists sent to gaol to be killed tomorrow.”

Then did the three stare at each other, and as they stared the old
mother’s jaw began to tremble and she looked from this face to the
other and said, “I have heard that word, but I do not know what it is.”

And the son said slowly, “So I asked my cousin and he asked the guard
and the guard laughed and he said it was a new sort of robber they had
nowadays.”

Then the mother thought of that bundle hid so long beneath her bed and
she began to wail aloud and threw her coat over her head and sobbed and
said, “I might have known that night--oh, that bundle underneath my bed
is what he robbed!”

But the son and son’s wife laid hold on her at this and looked about
and hurried her between them into the house and said, “What do you
mean, our mother?”

And the son’s wife lifted up the curtain and looked at the man and he
came and the old mother pointed to the bundle there and sobbed, “I do
not know what is in it--but he brought it here one night--and bade me
be secret for a day or two--and still he is not come--and never came--”

Then the man rose and went and shut the door softly and barred it and
the woman hung a garment over the window and together they drew that
bundle forth and untied the ropes.

“Sheepskins, he said it was,” the mother murmured, staring at it.

But the two said nothing and believed nothing that she said. It might
be anything and half they expected it was gold when they felt how heavy
and how hard it was.

But when they opened it, it was only books. Many, many books were
there, all small and blackly printed, and many sheets of paper, some
pictured with the strangest sights of blood and death and giants
beating little men or hewing them with knives. And when they saw these
books, the three gaped at each other, all at a loss to know what this
could mean and why any man should steal and hide mere paper marked with
ink.

But however much they stared they could not know the meaning. None
could read a word, nor scarcely know the meaning of the pictures except
that they were of bloody things, men stabbed and dying, and men severed
in pieces and all such bloody hateful things as happen only where
robbers are.

Then were the three in terror, the mother for her son and the other
two for themselves lest any should know that these were there. The man
said, “Tie them up again and let them be till night and then we will
take them to the kitchen and burn them all.”

But the woman was more careful and she said, “No, we cannot burn them
all at once or else others will see the mighty smoke and wonder what we
do. I must burn them bit by bit and day by day as though I burned the
grass to cook our food.”

But the old mother did not heed this. She only knew now that her son
had fallen in evil hands and she said to her elder son, “Oh, son, what
will you do for your little brother--how will you find him?”

“I know where he is,” the man said slowly and unwillingly. “My cousin
said they took them to a certain gaol near the south gate where the
beheading ground is.”

And then he cried out at his mother’s sudden ghastly look and he called
to his wife and they lifted the old woman and laid her on the bed and
there she lay and gasped, her face the hue of clay with terror for
her son, and she whispered gasping, “Oh, son, will you not go--your
brother--”

And the elder son laid aside his fears for himself then slowly and he
said, in pity for his mother, “Oh, aye, mother, I go--I go--”

He changed his clothes then and put shoes on his feet and to the mother
the time went so slow she could not bear it. When at last he was ready
she called him to her and pulled his head down and whispered in his
ear, “Son, do not spare money. If he be truly in the gaol, there must
be money spent to get him out. But money can do it, son. Whoever heard
of any gaol that would not let a man free for money? Son, I have a
little--in a hole here--I only kept it for him--use it all--use all we
have--”

The man’s face did not change and he looked at his wife and she looked
at him and he said, “I will spare all I can, my mother, for your sake.”

But she cried, “What does it matter for me?--I am old and ready to die.
It is for his sake.”

But the man was gone, and he went to fetch his cousin who had seen the
sight and the two went toward the town.

What could the mother do then except to wait again? Yet this was the
bitterest waiting of her life. She could not lie upon her bed and yet
she was faint if she rose. At last the son’s wife grew frightened
to see how the old woman looked and how she stared and muttered and
clapped her hands against her lean thighs and so she went and fetched
the old cousin and the cousin’s wife, and the pair came over soberly
and the three old people sat together.

It was true it did comfort the mother somewhat to have the others
there, for these were the two she could speak most to and she wept and
said again and again, “If I have sinned have I not had sorrow enough?”
And she said, “If I have sinned why do I not die myself and let it
be an end of it? Why should this one and that be taken from me, and
doubtless my grandson, too? No, I shall never see my grandson. I know
I never shall, and it will not be I who must die.” And then she grew
angry at such sorrow and cried out in her anger, weeping as she cried,
“But where is any perfect woman and who is without any sin, and why
should I have all the sorrow?”

Then the cousin’s wife said hastily, for she feared that this old
mother might cry out too much in her pain, “Be sure we all have sins
and if we must be judged by sins then none of us would have children.
Look at my sons and grandsons, and yet I am a wicked old soul, too, and
I never go near a temple and I never have and when a nun used to come
and cry out that I should learn the way to heaven, why then I was too
busy with the babes, and now when I am old and they come and tell me I
must learn the way before it is too late, why then I say I am too old
to learn anything now and must do without a heaven if they will not
have me as I am.”

So she comforted the distraught mother, and the cousin said in his
turn, “Wait, good cousin, until we hear what the news is. It may be you
need not grieve after all, for he may be set free with the money they
have to free him with, or it may be my son saw wrong and it was not
your son who went past bound.”

But the cousin’s wife took this care. She bade the young wife go and
see to something or other in her own house, for she would have this
son’s wife out of earshot, lest this poor old woman tell more than she
meant to tell in this hour, and a great pity after keeping silence so
many years.

So they waited for the two men to return and it was easier waiting
three than one.

But night drew on before the mother saw them coming. She had dragged
herself from her bed and as the afternoon wore on she went and sat
under the willow tree, her cousin and her cousin’s wife beside her, and
there the old three sat staring down the hamlet street, except when the
cousin’s wife slept her little sleeps that not even sorrow could keep
from her.

At last when the sun was nearly set the mother saw them coming. She
rose and leaned upon her staff and shaded her eyes against the golden
evening sun and she cried, “It is they!” and hobbled down the street.
So loud had been her cry, so fast her footsteps, that everyone came
out of his house, for in the hamlet they all knew the tale but did not
dare to come openly to the mother’s house, for fear there might be some
judgment come on it because of this younger son and they all be caught
in it. All day then they had gone about their business, eaten through
with curiosity, but fearful too, as country people are when gaols and
governors are talked of. Now they came forth and hung about, but at a
distance, and watched what might befall. The cousin rose too and went
behind the mother, and even the cousin’s wife would fain have come
except now she did not walk unless she must and she thought to herself
that she would hear it but a little later and she was one who believed
the best must happen after all and so she spared herself and sat upon
her bench and waited.

But the mother ran and laid hold on her son’s arm and cried out, “What
of my little son?”

But even as she asked the question, even as her old eyes searched the
faces of the two men, she knew that ill was written there. The two men
looked at each other and at last the son said soberly, “He is in gaol,
mother.” The two men looked at each other again and the cousin’s son
scratched his head for a while and looked away and seemed foolish and
as though he did not know what to say, and so the son spoke again,
“Mother, I doubt he can be saved. He and twenty more are set for death
and in the morning.”

“Death?” the mother shrieked, and again she shrieked, “Death!”

And she would have fallen if they had not caught her.

Then the two men led her in to the nearest house and put a seat beneath
her and eased her down and she began to weep and cry as a child does,
her old mouth quivering and her tears running down and she beat her
dried breasts with her clenched hands and cried out, accusing her son,
“Then you did not offer them enough money--I told you I had that little
store--not so little either, forty pieces of silver and the two little
pieces he gave me last--and there they are waiting!” And when she saw
her son stand with hanging head and the sweat bursting out on his lip
and brow she spat at him in her anger and she said, “You shall not
have a penny of it either! If he dies it will not be for you. No, I
will go and throw it in the river first.”

Then the cousin’s son spoke up in defense and for the sake of peace
and he said, his face wrinkling in such a distressful hour and cause,
“No, aunt, do not blame him. He offered more than twice your store. He
offered a hundred pieces for his brother, and to high and low in that
gaol, as high as he could get he offered bribes. To this one and to
that he showed silver, but they would not even let him see your little
son.”

“Then he did not offer enough,” the mother shouted. “Whoever heard of
guards in a gaol who are not to be bribed? But I will go and fetch that
money this moment. Yes, I will dig it up and take it, old as I am, and
find my little son and bring him home and he shall never leave me more,
whatever they may say.”

Again the two men looked at each other and the son’s face begged his
cousin to speak again for him and so the cousin’s son said again, “Good
aunt, they will not even let you see him. They would not let us in
at all, I say; no, although we showed silver, because they said the
governor was hot now against such crime as his. It is some new crime
nowadays, and very heinous.”

“My son has never done a crime,” the mother cried proudly, and she
lifted up her staff and shook it at the man. “There is an enemy
somewhere here who pays more than we have to keep him in the gaol.”
And she looked around about the crowd that stood there gaping now and
drinking down the news they heard, their eyes staring and their jaws
agape, and she cried at them, “Saw any of you any crime my little son
ever did?”

This one looked at that and each looked everywhere and said no word
and the mother saw their dubious looks and somehow her heart broke.
She fell into her weeping again and cried at them, “Oh, you hated him
because he was so fair to look upon--better than your black sons, who
are only hinds--aye, you hate anyone who is better than yourselves--”
and she rose and staggered forth and went home weeping most bitterly.

But when she was come home again and they were alone and none near
except the cousin and the cousin’s wife and their children, the mother
wiped her eyes and said to her elder son more quietly yet in a fever,
too, “But this is letting good time pass. Tell me all, for we may save
him yet. We have the night. What was his true crime? We will take all
we have and save him yet.”

There passed between the son and son’s wife a look at this, not evil,
but as though forbearance were very near its end in them, and then the
son began, “I do not know what the crime is rightly, but they call him
what I told you, a communist. A new word--I have heard it often, and
when I asked what it was it seemed to be a sort of robber band. I asked
the guard there at the gaol, who stands with a gun across his arm, and
he answered, ‘What is he? Why, one who would even take your land from
you, goodman, for himself, and one who contrives against the state and
so must die with all his fellows.’ Aye, that is his crime.”

The mother listened hard to this, the candle’s light falling on her
face that glistened with dried tears, and she said astounded, her voice
trembling while she strove to make it firm, “But I do not think it can
be so. I never heard him say a word like this. I never heard of such a
crime. To kill a man, to rob a house, to let a parent starve, these be
crimes. But how can land be robbed? Can he roll it up like cloth and
take it away with him and hide it somewhere?”

“I do not know, mother,” said the son, his head hanging, his hands
hanging loose between his knees as he sat upon a little stool. He wore
his one robe still, but he had tucked the edge into his girdle, for he
was not used to robes, and now he put it in more firmly and then he
said slowly, “I do not know what else was said, a great deal here and
there in the town we heard, because so many are to be killed tomorrow
and they make a holiday. What else was said, my cousin?”

Then the cousin’s son scratched his chin and swallowed hard and stared
at the faces round about him in the room and he said, “There was a
great deal said by those town folk, but I dared not ask much for when
I asked more closely what the pother was about the guards at the gaol
turned on me and said, ‘Are you one of them, too? What is it then to
you if they are killed?’ And I dared not say I was the cousin of one
to be killed. But we did find a chief gaoler and we gave him some money
and begged for a private place to speak in and he led us to a corner of
the gaol behind his own house and we told him we were honest country
folk and had a little poor land and rented more, and that there was one
among the doomed to die who was a distant relative, and if we could
save him then we would for honor’s sake, since none of our name had
died under a headsman’s blade before. But only if it did not cost too
much since we were poor. The gaoler took the silver then and asked how
the lad looked and we told him and he said, ‘I think I know the lad you
mean, for he has been very ill at ease in gaol, and I think he would
say all he knows, except there is a maid beside him bold as any I have
ever seen who keeps him brave. Yes, some are hard and bold and do not
care however they may die or when they die. But that lad is afraid. I
doubt he knows what he has done or why he dies, for he looks a simple
country lad they have used for their bidding and made great promises to
him. I believe his crime is that he was found with certain books upon
him that he gave among the people freely, and in the books are evil
things said of overturning all the state and sharing all the money and
the land alike.’”

Then the mother looked at her elder son and broke out in fresh weeping
and she moaned, “I knew we ought to let him have some land. We might
have rented a little more and given him a share--but no, this elder
son of mine and his wife must hold it all and grudge him everything--”

Then the elder son opened his mouth to speak, but the old cousin said
quietly, “Do not speak, my son. Let your mother blame you and ease
herself. We all know what you are and what your brother was and how ill
he hated any labor on the land or any labor anywhere.”

So the son held his peace. At last the cousin’s son said on, “We asked
the gaoler then how much silver it would take to set the lad free, and
the gaoler shook his head and said that if the lad were high of place
and son of some great rich and mighty man then doubtless silver used
could set him free. But being a country lad and poor no man would put
his life in danger for all that we could give, and so doubtless he must
die.”

At this the mother shrieked, “And shall he die because he is my son and
I am poor? We have that land we own and we will sell it to free him.
Yes, we will sell it this very night,--there are those in this hamlet--”

But the elder son spoke up at this talk of his land and he said, “And
how then will we live? We can scarcely live even as it is and if we
rent more and at these new and ruinous rates we have now we shall be
beggars. All we own is this small parcel of land and I will not sell
it, mother. No, the land is mine--I will not sell it.”

And when he said this his wife spoke up, to say the only thing she had
said all the time, for she had sat there quietly listening, her pale
face grave and showing nothing and she said, “There is the son I have
in me to think of now.”

And the man said heavily, “Aye, it is he I think of.”

Then was the old mother silent. Yes, she was silent and she wept a
while and thereafter all that night whenever fresh words broke forth
there was but this one answer to them all.

       *       *       *       *       *

When the dim dawn came near, for they had sat the night through, the
mother gathered some strange strength she had and said, “I will go
myself. Once more I will go into the town and wait to see my little son
if he must go out to die.” And they laid their hands upon her arm and
begged her not to go, and the son said earnestly, “Mother, I will go
and fetch him--afterwards--for if you see the sight you yourself will
die.” But she said, “What if I die?”

She washed her face and combed the bit of gray hair left on her head
and put a clean coat on herself as ever she was used to do when she
went townwards, and she said simply, “Go and fetch my cousin’s ass. You
will let me have it, cousin?”

“Oh, aye,” the cousin said helplessly and sadly.

So the son and cousin’s son went and fetched the ass and set the old
mother on its back and they walked to the town beside it, a lantern in
the son’s hand, for dawn was still too faint to walk by.

Now was the mother weak and quiet and washed by her tears, and she went
almost not knowing what she did, but clinging to the ass’s back. Her
head hung down and she did not look once to see the dawn. She stared
down into the pale dusty road that scarcely showed yet through the
darkness. The men were silent, too, at that grave hour, and so they
went winding with the road to the south and entered in toward the
southern gate that was not opened yet as they came because the day was
still so early.

But there were many waiting there, for it had been noised about the
countryside that there would be this great beheading and many came to
see it for a show and brought their children. As soon as the gates were
opened they all pressed in, the mother on her ass, and the two men,
and they all turned to that piece of ground near the city wall within
a certain open space. There in the early morning light a great crowd
stood already, thick and pressed and silent with the thought of this
vast spectacle of death. Little children clung hard to their parents in
nameless fear of what they did not know, and babes cried out and were
hushed and the crowd was silent, waiting hungrily, relishing in some
strange way and hating, too, the horror that they craved to see.

But the mother and the two men did not stay in the crowd. No, the
mother whispered, “Let us go to the door of the gaol and stand there,”
for in her poor heart she still held the hope that somehow when she saw
her son some miracle must happen, some way must come whereby she could
save him.

So the man turned the ass’s head toward the gaol and there it was,
and beside its gate set in the high wall spiked with glass along the
top they waited. There a guard stretched himself and by him a lantern
burned low, the candle spilling out a heap of melted tallow red as
blood, until a chill wind blew up suddenly with the dawn and blew the
guttering light out. There the three waited in the dusty street, and
the mother came down from the ass and waited, and soon they heard the
sound of footsteps stirring, and then the sound of many footsteps made
on stone and marching and then there was a shout, “Open the gates!”

The guards sprang up then and stood beside the gates erect, their
weapons stiff and hard across their shoulders, and so the gates swung
open.

Then did the mother strain her eyes to see her son. There came forth
many persons, youth tied to youth and two by two, their hands bound
with hempen thongs, and each two tied to the two ahead. At first they
seemed all young men, and yet here and there were maids, but hard to
tell as maids, because their long hair was shorn and they wore the
garments that the men did, and there was nothing to show what they were
until one looked close and saw their little breasts and narrow waists,
for their faces were as wild and bold as any young man’s.

The mother looked at every face, at this one and at that, and suddenly
she saw her own lad. Yes, there he walked, his head down, and he was
tied to a maid, and his hands fast to hers.

Then the mother rushed forward and fell at his feet and clasped them
and gave one loud cry, “My son!”

She looked up into his face, the palest face, his lips white and
earthen and the eyes dull. When he saw his mother he turned paler still
and would have fallen had he not been bound to the maid. For this maid
pulled at him and would not let him fall, nor would she let him stay,
and when she saw the old white-haired woman at his feet she laughed
aloud, the boldest, mirthless laugh and she cried out high and shrill,
“Comrade, remember now you have no mother and no father, nor any dear
to you except our common cause!” And she pulled him on his way.

Then a guard ran out and picked the mother up and threw her to one side
upon the road and there she lay in the dust. Then the crowd marched on
and out of sight and to that southern gate, and suddenly a wild song
burst from them and they went singing to their death.

At last the two men came and would have lifted up the mother, but she
would not let them. She lay there in the dust a while, moaning and
listening in a daze to that strange song, yet knowing nothing, only
moaning on.

And yet she could not moan long either, for a guard came from the gaol
gate and prodded her most rudely with his gun and roared at her, “Off
with you, old hag--” and the two men grew afraid and forced the mother
to her feet and set her on the ass again and turned homeward slowly.
But before they reached the southern gate they paused a while beside a
wall and waited.

They waited until they heard a great roar go up, and then the two men
looked at each other and at the old mother. But if she heard it or
knew what it was, she made no sign. She sat drooping on the beast, and
staring into the dust beneath its feet.

Then they went on, having heard the cry, and they met the crowd
scattering and shouting this and that. The men said nothing nor did the
old mother seem to hear, but some cried out, “A very merry death they
died, too, and full of courage! Did you see that young bold maid and
how she was singing to the end and when her head rolled off I swear she
sang on a second, did she not?”

And some said, “Saw you that lad whose red blood spurted out so far it
poured upon the headsman’s foot and made him curse?”

And some were laughing and their faces red and some were pale, and as
the two men and the mother passed into the city gate, there was a young
man there whose face was white as clay and he turned aside and leaned
against the wall and vomited.

But if she saw or heard these things the mother said no word. No, she
knew the lad was dead now; dead, and no use silver or anything; no use
reproach, even if she could reprove. She longed but for one place and
it was to get to her home and search out that old grave and weep there.
It came across her heart most bitterly that not even had she any grave
of her own dead to weep upon as other women had, and she must go and
weep on some old unknown grave to ease her heart. But even this pang
passed and she only longed to weep and ease herself.

       *       *       *       *       *

When she was before their door again she came down from the ass and she
said pleading to her elder son, “Take me out behind the hamlet--I must
weep a while.”

The cousin’s wife was there and heard it and she said kindly, shaking
her old head and wiping her eyes on her sleeves, “Aye, let the poor
soul weep a while--it is the kindest thing--”

And so in silence the son led his mother to the grave and made a smooth
place in the grass for her to sit upon and pulled some other grass and
made it soft for her. She sat down then and leaned her head upon the
grave and looked at him haggardly and said, “Go away and leave me for
a while and let me weep.” And when he hesitated she said again most
passionately, “Leave me, for if I do not weep then I must die!”

So he went away saying, “I will come soon to fetch you, mother,” for he
was loath to leave her there alone.

Then did the mother sit and watch the idle day grow bright. She watched
the sun come fresh and golden over all the land as though no one had
died that day. The fields were ripe with late harvest and the grain
was full and yellow in the leaf and the yellow sun poured over all
the fields. And all the time the mother sat and waited for her sorrow
to rise to tears in her and ease her broken heart. She thought of all
her life and all her dead and how little there had been of any good to
lay hold on in her years, and so her sorrow rose. She let it rise, not
angry any more, nor struggling, but letting sorrow come now as it would
and she took her measure full of it. She let herself be crushed to the
very earth and felt her sorrow fill her, accepting it. And turning her
face to the sky she cried in agony, “Is this atonement now? Am I not
punished well?”

And then her tears came gushing and she laid her old head upon the
grave and bent her face into the weeds and so she wept.

On and on she wept through that bright morning. She remembered every
little sorrow and every great one and how her man had quarreled and
gone and how there was no little maid to come and call her home from
weeping now and how her lad looked tied to that wild maid and so she
wept for all her life that day.

       *       *       *       *       *

But even as she wept her son came running. Yes, he came running over
the sun-strewn land and as he ran he beckoned with his arm and shouted
something to her but she could not hear it quickly out of all her maze
of sorrow. She lifted up her face to hear and then she heard him say,
“Mother--mother--” and then she heard him cry, “My son is come--your
grandson, mother!”

Yes, she heard that cry of his as clear as any call she ever heard her
whole life long. Her tears ceased without her knowing it. She rose and
staggered and then went to meet him, crying, “When--when--”

“But now,” he shouted laughing. “This very moment born--a son--I never
saw a bigger babe and roaring like a lad born a year or two, I swear!”

She laid her hand upon his arm and began to laugh a little, half
weeping, too. And leaning on him she hurried her old feet and forgot
herself.

Thus the two went to the house and into that room where the new mother
lay upon her bed. The room was full of women from the hamlet who had
come to hear the news and even that old gossip, the oldest woman of
them all now, and very deaf and bent nigh double with her years, she
must come too and when she saw the old mother she cackled out, “A lucky
woman you are, goodwife--I thought the end of your luck was come, but
here it is born again, son’s son, I swear, and here be I with nothing
but my old carcass for my pains--”

But the old mother said not one word and she saw no one. She went into
the room and to the bed and looked down. There the child lay, a boy,
and roaring as his father said he did, his mouth wide open, as fair
and stout a babe as any she had ever seen. She bent and seized him in
her arms and held him and felt him hot and strong against her with new
life.

She looked at him from head to foot and laughed and looked again, and
at last she searched about the room for the cousin’s wife and there the
woman was, a little grandchild or two clinging to her, who had come to
see the sight. Then when she found the face she sought the old mother
held the child for the other one to see and forgetting all the roomful
she cried aloud, laughing as she cried, her eyes all swelled with her
past weeping, “See, cousin! I doubt I was so full of sin as once I
thought I was, cousin--you see my grandson!”




  THE
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