I sat brewing awhile, one even’s close,
Life’s Destiny and Purpose. In the grate
A flickering fire shone,
Withered and wan,
Dishevelled as a hectic Autumn rose.
So, as I sate,
With elfish toe leaping the shrinking embers
A spiritous Presence passed, and on my thought
Visions of faded days, paled friendships, dreams
Of rapturous Mays smitten to drear Decembers,
In evanescent postures wrought
From forth the flickering gleams.
So death-still ranged the Night athwart the gloom
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Icy and cavernous, that the embers’ tune
Spake sharp and sudden, chasing the shade and flame
In elfish gambol round the sombre room.
So stepped the Night’s high noon;
While Time, steady of sinew and of brow
Implacable, upwound upon its spool
The fitful hours of innocence and shame.
Nor solitary, Night in its high rule,
Reigned, for from forth the frosty bowers
Deft messengers of airy fashion came
The rude Earth to endow
With heavenly mysteries of flowers.
So sat I, and my mood grew calm and still:
Irk fretted away; care, soilure, and distress,
The smutch of strife, at the gaunt Night’s caress
Unruffled into lofty peace. A will
(5)
Ineffable, previsionary, swelled
My thought to something of a twilit mood.
Earth faded awhile; the frame of sensible things
Obliviously smote my sensitive touch;
The populous warm walls, the grate that held
Ashes and smoulderings,
The frore behoof, and all of fashion such,
Transmuted were unto the larger scope
Of visionary aspect. Thus on wings
Of guideless flight, and thought I fain would cope,
A Vision fared on me whate’er I would.
Then seemed the twilight heavy with filmy glows:
Forth from before my sight two several ways
In opposite invitation rose,
(6)
Oweing no kith, diverse of hue as aim.
Darkling the Right ran, thro’ a drear amaze
Craggy and barren, fulfilled of sloughs and mire;
Most straitly was it limned, and oft each side
Fell sheer to plumbless horror steep, that swept
Spaceless, in ebon vastiness awide.
Surmounted it thus dizzily; o’erleapt
Fell chasms perilously athwart; abysms gaunt,
Remorseless bracken tarns, the desert’s haunt,
Each slippery spiss and slough, it overcame,
Winding and wending ever higher and higher
Tortuous yet steady-sure.
Even so, despite I could not see
Aught goal, withal its callow brow to daunt
The hazardous soul, it bore a subtle lure
Touching the deepest founts of high desire.
(7)
Stretched on my Left, thus did it seem to me,
Broadly a rich demesne lay, liberal
And affluent, in spacious festival
Arrayed. Mirth and the wealth of song
Swelled thro’ its gaily caparisoned cope,
Whose portals swung wide ope—
Falling upon my ears in ribaldry
And merry laughter lewd:
Nowhither led it seemingly; soft and strong
Giddily sprang its mirth and ultimate hope.
Yet scarce could I resolve it, for its air
Quivered and scintillated glamours dense,
A palpable mist of golden vapour, whence,
On my amazing sight, there flitted nude
The flash of forms voluptuous and rare,
Whose ruby lips soft ruddy juices woo’d.
(8)
Pondering I hovered; each the several ways
Touched its responsive motion: this, that wound
Whither I knew not, travail amid and stain,
Awoke the fount of thought; that, the sheer gain
Of liberal ecstasy, of flowing days
And nightless hours forgetful, bound around
Of irkless ease: this spake Olympus found,
Endeavour’s glowing thew, Achievement high;
That struck all blood to fever, till I fain
Had slipped the leash. Perplexedly sat I.
Then from the mirth and ribaldry outstept
Beauty her very self: Of motion free,
In grace voluptuous she swam on me,
Her pursed lips murmurous of a mellow strain.
Soft as the stars at evenfall
Smiled her rare eyes from forth the shimmering air
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Hanging about her yet—her veriest pall,
Save that an all-exuberant tide of hair
Entwound her soft and sensuous flesh. So swept
She, gracious; I her other-heedless thane.
Rare love, mellow voluptuous love,
Shone from her wondrous eyes, fell from her tongue
Melodious, dwelt on the delicate bloom
Of her seductive limbs: munificence
Of love rioted in her wayward hair
Falling heedlessly, and clung
Ecstatic in the tremulous air’s perfume.
Visionary I gazed; my mutinous blood,
Each drop particularly fraught with so
Complete an ecstasy, coursed thro’ my sense
With populous colloquy, pouring a vast flood
Of dizzy whispers on my ears awhile.
(10)
Invitingly oped she her arms; a smile
Broke her soft lips; then, rapturously and low,
Fluted this murmurous music thro’ the air,
In woven assonances, liquid measures,
Her blissful syllables spelling the pleasures
Her wares that were.
“Sweet, come with me; learn out my rare requite!
Sweet, come to me, so shall I be to thee
A passionate delight!
Let us enwrap us in the robes of Pleasure;
Owe no confining marge, but full and free
Hold Love’s exultant measure.
Claim lordship on these lips; make this embrace
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Of strenuous limbs thine to the tilth of days;
The exquisitry of this face,
If so to thee, scan with thine eager eyes:
Flash linking flash, all in a wondering gaze,
Twin in our ecstasies.
The fragrant largess of this liberal hair
Shall twine us twain about as we shall twine
Hid in Love’s secret lair;
Or mantle down thy shoulder as I lay
This peach-soft bloom of loveliness on thine
And Love’s low message say.
Then come to me; yea, let me be to thee
Love’s veriest scope of all; in these soft eyes
Spell thine Eternity.
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Ah, wherefore hesitant hang? These plenteous halls
Hunger for thee, as I, with full surmise:
Lords be we all, not thralls!”
So ceased she: flashing from her challenging eyes
Arch invitations, boldly coy. The air,
Loth to let slip such bliss,
Clung to its echoing whispers, murmurous-wise,
In passionate ecstasy. And yet, howe’er
Each swollen vein of mine with knotted strain
Stood high, content for one celestial kiss
To cheapen Life and Thought, a distant pain
Fettered me with disturbed uncertainty.
Hesitant I glanced away; held of a doubt;
(13)
Tost ’twixt passion and fear: tentatively
My eye shot roundabout,
Each freighting all my venture on a thought.
Then from the silvery glooms, a wizardry, fraught
With an imperative touch, fell on my soul,
Drawing all my thought thither with harsh control.
So, as I glowered upon its portals, wan,
Gaunt, lofty, lifting up a parlous height
Of shadowy phantasy, before its brink
Palely the air shivered, and its atoms shone
Pregnant with waking light.
Unknowing what its purport, what to think
Scarce dared I hazard—gazing, smote to trance,
Riveted there with every thought and glance.
The pallid atoms, hither-thither mazed,
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Smitten with iridescent rigours, shaped
As to an outline—gaunt and leanly draped
With flowing vesture, bony arms upraised
Talon-befingered. Its Visage all was wan,
Harrowed and sexless, like some skeleton
Draped o’er with lifeless skin. Its Brow, or what
Seemed like to Brow, hungered the heavy skies.
Its glittering eyes
Gleamed coldly in great orbs. ’Twas steely-lipped.
Its Trunk, Its ruinous Midst—oh, tell it not!
Most like ’twas to a livid dream forgot,
And waked to horror at fell Memory’s whims!
A sweaty Terror sat upon my limbs;
My natural Fell awoke to life, and stood
(15)
Erect with palpable horror; and all my blood
Crowded its mart of motion, fear-begot,
Thither to escape. Then from the Phantom chill
Upon the palpitant air these measures dripped
In numbers ill.
“Mortal, be not deceived!
Despise these cloying measures, they are false!
Withhold imagination from the calls
Of sensuous privilege. Straightway be cleaved
Thence, and away! And hearken now to me.
Heed these rare strictures! Prize not thy frail self:
Strive for a larger Weal; Felicity
Foots only thus. Perplex thy brain for Man,
And his complacent peace: eschew the pelf
Of isolate happiness; so shall thy span
(16)
Compound the highest achievement. Manacles
Spell subtler bliss than liberty; in sooth
Are veriest liberty; yet if not so,
Thine the dear joy of conning out the cells
Of worthier constraint. Scan virtuous Truth;
Search out her compeers with a quickening throe
Of ecstasied thought. Love Justice. Knowledge sue
And track, following on tho’ dark disruth
Dog all thy painful way. Think nobly true;
Compassionately soothe the sick of soul,
Life’s troubled children. Learn a high control,
And abdicate thyself, Love’s grace to woo.
Let Equity thine equal fingers turn
On low and lofty, sleek and lean alike,
Achievement’s sons and whoso hungering yearn:
(17)
Discriminate not ’twixt, for all are one
And indivisible. Base passions shun
And flee: strike not at all; yet if thou strike,
Strike for the high and meritorious claim,
As thou may’st judge: let not thy wrath
Abide the twilight fall; nor let thy shame
Of liverous passions issue forth
On days that step not yet, sullying thy thought
And others’ peace—weightier these than thine!
Be kind, be true, be sweet, to all and aught.
Ponder these principles; deep at thy soul
Will commendation leap in greeting; lo,
Even now bestirs thy thought. Arise, divine
Life as a loftier scroll
To trace thy character on, come weal or woe.
Passion is soon be-charred; but elevate thought
Strews an increasing largess. Turn aside
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Yon ruddy Whore mellisonant; malign
She and her subtle craft are, howsoe’er
Deceit encompasses her feverous lair.
This thy true lot of life, withal ’tis fraught
With hardihood and hazard so: abide
Its mandate to thee, tread it dauntlessly.
’Tis its abundant recompense; and a court
All-continent. As is my tongue allied
With thy quick thought, so hearken thou to me,
Fearful of nought!”
Joint with its utterance so,
Twisting, It thrust Its talon fingers thro’
The misty portals, spare and gaunt. Below
Fearfully sat I then, tho’ less of fear
Shook o’er my limbs; for thought had spurned the soil,
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Touched by the words, and broken on my ear
A callow incongruity betwixt
The lips that uttered what the words did woo.
The pale air drank the silence, as the coil
Of tortuous precepts ceased. Then, intermixt,
Dizzy, as was each thought and riotous sense,
There unwound thence
Vivid upon my soul this nucleus clear:
So forth I uttered:—
“Tell, tell me thy Name!
Who art thou that so bidd’st me? Whence thy claim:
Wherefrom derives it? Whither its purport high?
Art thou thine own? If so, declare me now
What rare enfranchisement shall bondage ply
At thy behest? Else, forth produce thy script;
(20)
Unwind thy high commission, whereto bow
Perforce I need, heedless of pleasures clipt,
Or purple rapture, on yon path awry
To attempt a hazardous snare!”
Toward me then turned It; and with baneful stare
Struck chill my mood defiant. Irked with thought,
Fear, and the lees of passion, sat I thus;
While the dim Spectre touched Its answer, wrought
Icily dolorous.
“I am Duty: I
Sway all the lot of man. His tentative life
Steps subtly to my measures; in fine deed
Is my attenuate speech:—at very strife
(21)
His tongue invokes mine arm. I ratify
His hesitant counsels, troublous thoughts, with thrall
And edict; or annul his querulous creed.
Evanishment were very loss of all:
It would evacuate the World of what
Coheres its several elements; social peace,
Concord and Amity, the common lot
Of neighbourly calm, would rot and palter. Cease
Rebellious queries; heed my formulate call:
Strip to it, and proceed!”
Then borne upon a breath
Melodious, swept a wonder-wealth of song
Vivifying all the air. Again my blood
It wrought to populous utterance, hot as strong
In riotous desire. Were it to Death,
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My passion mouthed no bit, but in a flood
Tumultuous had swept me on its wide
Revelry high, out to the perilous Main
Lawless as limnless, save that the Spectral Bane
Fettered me helpless. So once more
My tongue uprose: “Show me thy script!” I cried,
Poised ’twixt the blushing ecstasy, and the frore
Spectre of ruinous side.
“What is’t to me, this social affluence,
The agglomerate frame of peace, when ecstasy
Raps loudly at my soul? What gain hast thou?
Yon dismal gloom, barren and dim and chill,
Say, what felicity
Commensurate with this Lady’s exquisite sense
Bestows it? Utter thy delightful fill
Alternate for my choice; hereafter, now,
(23)
Or how thou wilt! Yet if not so, declare
Thy dread commission, bounden upon my soul!
Expound me aught for iridescent goal
Whereto this region stretches! Do I fall,
Pale Ogre, how shall large omnipotence
Brace thy lean thew? Oh, speak! I conjure thee, speak!
If on a bleak
Perilous pivot swung; if in the abyss
Of Failure clutched, while subtle whispers hiss
Sinuous about me—say, what benison fair
Awakes to comfort from thy callow thrall?
If Ill and Sorrow rear
Spectral athwart my eyes, and this hued cheek
Fall ashen like thine own, what then thy cheer,
Grim Apparition? what thy comfort then,
(24)
Dim Spectre? Hold tho’; have enough of this!
Fearless I ask again,
Art uttered of another; or art weak,
Continent in thyself? Comest thou with bliss
For largess? Else, declare thy peerless script,
Disclose thy high commission, Ogre blear,
Thou talon-fingered Horror, steely-lipped!”
Doubtfully ceased I: wound amid my frame
Raged complicated elements. Aerial thought
On metaphysic pinion soared aloft;
While tremulous passion struck my blood, and wrought
Sensual within me, fell and subtly soft.
Fear, anger, scorn and doubt, in complex claim
Tost all disorderly. Yet most to cleave
(25)
Decision knew I then, whate’er might be,
Out from the tangled elements. So I turned
Whither the Shape let fall Its jaw to weave
Its chill articulation passionlessly.
Ill-eeriely fell Its speech, as tho’ It spurned
Life’s various intonation, to answer me
What in high mien I sought.
“Mortal, not mine
Scripts to declare; neither attorneys high
To sate thy heart wherewith. My voice proceeds
Swift to thy nobler self. Didst thou apply
Reason thereto, or thought deliberative,
What hesitancy were there? Loftier than creeds
Is my transcendent Word; that yet doth twine
Rooted amid thy need. They that supine
(26)
Wallow in fell lasciviousness, are brutes
Trivial, corporeal; their weary bliss,
Blinding their very selves, I say, despise:
Esteem not that they misesteem. Rare fruits,
Self-generative, of elevate thought, and mind
Delicately poised, I proffer thee. Be wise;
Set up on high thy pleasure: so to live
Were to be quit of chance.—That thou amiss
Shouldst cast thy fluttering days were piteous-blind,
Seeing they are all, and veriest all: fulfil
Thy days, then, with a high felicity.
Too soon shall Death sweep up thy militant will;
And bind thee in the dark. Yet heed thou this:
Tho’ thou snuff out; a thing that was; yet still,
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The texture of thy thought, the workmanship
Of hand or utterant lip,
Thy heart’s aroma, personality
In sooth, shall flourish yet, for good or ill,
Upon the broad Earth’s face. So take my voice,
And, knowing it true, utterly cast thy choice!
I am thine Ultimate Good, Supreme, and Free,
Nothing above me in the wide Universe.”
Then from my lips broke there a bitter curse.
Glib the words struck with subtle irony
Traverse athwart my hope. Vivid and strong
My thought had stood dilate, passionately
Grappling amid the eternal verities,
Touched to it by the conflict; and seemed now
Clutching the air. A whelming sense of wrong
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Flushed all my mood. As one who sees
All things, and nothing clearly, fearless of brow
I shook my answer free.
“My nobler Self!
Mine ultimate Good! Trickster with subtle speech!
What nobler self have I, what high, what low,
Contradistinguished, save what thou wouldst teach
Arbitrary of choice? What ultimate good,
But as my heart dictates, throbbing to know
The exquisite peak of pleasure, if the deep
Swallow me utterly up? But what I would
That should I, if thou art the ultimate All,
And I no more than this! Thou Thing unkempt,
(29)
Pallid of tongue and hue, so wouldst thou tempt
My feet from blushful sweets aside? So charm
My hazardous soul to climb
Yon dizzy pinnacle, that hath no prime
Nor cause of being, with this riotous balm,—
To sweat, to stint, to travail, and to fall
Sheer out of time in night. Begone, thou Gloom!
Away, thou Shape of ill! Come when the tomb,
’Twixt this and that omnipotent time
Each tottering moment shall be packed with twice
Its fraught of pleasures; or come surfeit, to illume
The shadow of joy, shall every rare device
(30)
Rivet the transient hour. Tread yon dread way?
Nay, that I will not! Unto thee I turn,
Vision ecstatic, tangible withal,
From thee to learn
All the soft wonders of thy disarray.”
So, fearless, turned I: yet ere thought to deed
Quickened my members, swift upon the air
Luxuriously this song sped, deft and rare,
Beckoning me to speed.
“Come, my love, to love me; come!
Life is but the tangled sum
Of thy being’s bitter hum.
Tarry not, the days flit by;
Soon thy bloom shall wither: I
Proffer fruits that never fly.
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Never; for thy brief decree
Folds in all eternity:
Nought survives thee; so to me
Come, to taste the liberal treasure
I bestrew whose name is Pleasure;
Share mine overflowing measure.
Ah! come to me; then will I show
All that thine utmost heart would know:
Laughter loud, and whispers low,
Ruddy joy, soft lips and kisses,
Opening out Life’s raptest blisses.
This thy Heaven; yea, whoso misses
This, shall slip the rarest worth
Possible to his strenuous girth,
In the delicious garden of Earth.
So come to me, dear love, my sweet,
Time and the Hours are all too fleet;
(32)
Quaff my goblet, rarely meet
For superb humanity.
Confines spurn; be large, be free;
’Tis thy true Felicity!
What is Duty’s blatant call?
I am Duty, I am All;
I am Beauty: none may fall
On aught supremer arm than mine;
I am God, I am divine;
Life’s uttermost largess is my shrine.
Wouldst thou live to wander wan?
Dearest, never! freedom con,
And share my fearless halcyon.
Life is all thy tangled sum,
Then hold not so, fearful and numb,
But come to me, dear husband, come,
Come!”
(33)
Wildered I hearkened; held my tremulous limbs
Awhile, and heard, impassioned. From her eyes
Soft messages flashed o’er their lidded brims
Coyly upon me. Throwing forth her arms
She yearned on me, her hair’s luxuriant guise
Falling carelessly and free, while she her charms
Spun, threading in her woof of thought. The air,
Murmuring her music yet, hung over me
As heaving breast to breast we stood, surmise
Holding me feeble and faint, ecstatically.
Then did I burst away
Restraint; tossing off wrinkled Care
I strode toward the dear Angel of my Dream.
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Nigh had I touched her palm; when, swift and clear,
Loud with the trumpet’s tongue, imperative,
Dulcent to hear,
A Voice of awful import thundered—
“Stay!”
Sudden I reared. As doth revulsion give
Thought interwound with thought, so did it seem
I hung halting. Furtively, distractedly,
I cast my gaze about, so to divine
Whence the high edict sprang. The Ogre blear
Was gone: fled with its eye malign
As it had never been. Far up the course
Precipitous and steep I seemed to see,
Anew upon my eyes, a burning dome
(35)
Scintillating, radiating from its source
A hesitant gleam adown the path. Entranced
I hung upon the sight.
Then fear fell on me; for from thence did come,
Stately, magnificent, tenfold more bright
Than the sun’s vivid noontide, crystal-clear,
A Shape surpassing loveliness. On my thought
Paled all things else save that transcendent Fear.
Steadily it advanced:
From small to great, from great unreckonable,
Stately, deliberative, supreme, of port
Serene and lofty, steadily so it came
Sweeping the callow path. Struck with its spell
I burned with aching eyes. Subtly a Flame
Encircled it, of silver and of gold,
Sardine and jasper iridescent, blue,
(36)
Purple and exquisite scarlet, all inwrought
To one pure hue too vivid to behold.
So as it nearer swept I threw
My face upon the dust, and thrust my eyes
Upon my veiling palms, dizzy to death,
Sick with amaze; when a most mellow breath
Softly outspake,
“Frail child of Man, arise!
For I would speak with thee!”
No choice had I
Save to obey that voice imperative;
However it seemed to me to look and live
Crost opposite elements. Dazedly I cast
Upward a timorous glance, encountered by
So mellow a gaze; wherein which very beam
I touched sustaining succour. Towering vast
He stood dilate with wonder; and did seem
(37)
To crowd the heavens with majesty, tho’ within
My wandering vision. Neath his snowy hair,
Lit with intrinsic brilliance, shone his eyes,
Where loomed long mysteries of eternity.
His misty brow domed firmamental-wise,
Swelling beneath its locks. ’Twas wondrous fair:
Fair unto tottering thought! His very robes,
Like the unblemished snow, thrice-purged, wherein
Flowed his proportions spacious, moved and shone
Instinct with sinuous life. Hesitantly
I stammered—
“Stranger fair, thy Name! Forgive
My curious temper! Yield me strength to live!”
(38)
He bent on me twin eyes: and spake.
Then did the whirling stars and heavenly globes,
The ravenous winds, awake,
And hang in poise ecstatic. Sweet upon
My aching ears, incontinent of such bliss
Celestial, there awoke a halcyon
Of various, high, mellifluous harmony:
In measures like to this:
“Wouldst thou my Name,
Mortal immortal; wouldst acquaint thy thought
With my Renown? How shall I tell it thee?
Speech may not utter it, for words are wrought
Empirical, in the stout smithy of life.
Couldst thou envisage its supremacy
Then were toil done; and the pure spirit’s strife,
Tempering the thew withal, wrought purposeless
(39)
And cheap. Considerest thou not Man’s Aim,
The Ages down, to utter Loveliness,
Or to plumb Truth, to measure Equity,
Or Justice poise; affixing phrases so
Unto what trailing robes he sees. These all
Am I, one and complete. When he shall know
Freedom, deck on a larger life, each thrall
Corporeal shudder off, standing superb,
Munificent, then shall he see me face
To spiritous face: till then must I disturb
His manifold sense, to win him worthy of me.
Before his soul awoke was I: nay, more,
I touched his thought to life. From forth of nought
I bad him issue, setting my seal thereon:—
So doth the veriest hind of all his race
Grope tentative after me. Then when he bore
(40)
Manhood erect, unparagoned, upon
Earth’s lucent air I woke the soul of song
Choired by the sons of morning. All the court
Of glittering Heaven, in the dread womb of Night;
The stately march celestial; throng on throng
Wheeling from gloom to gloom, in perilous flight
Over the unsearched deeps; the air; the seas;
The bountiful Earth;—my handiwork were these
In the wide crucibles of steady Time.
Withal, tho’ such I seem to be,
Yet am I not at all: the voiceless clod
Owns substance more than I. Spaceless, sublime,
I am the Breath Divine; the Voice of God;
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His concentrate Radiation: thence wend I,
Thither to trend again, dependently;
Aerial, effulgent, winging the formless deeps.
Ecstatic Wisdom called they me awhile
Who touched my billowy robes. Yet, tho’ I ply
Authoritative edict, bidding thee
Heed, as my fount is high, my voice o’erleaps
Articular creed, swift to thy resonant soul
Brooding deliberative. Well knowest thou
That evanescent languors do beguile
The soul’s high bent. Wherefore,—save that thine eye
Hath glimpsed a billowy Vision, subtly spun,
Floating upon thy thought, of high control
Fashioning a peerless state, noble and pure,
Whose stately essence not the clammy brow
Of Death shall dissipate? Thou dreamest this:
(42)
And this I utter now. That thou wouldst not
Forego the Tempter’s vivid lure,
Most truly tell I, Pleasure is not one
But twain, nor think licentious libertine bliss
Befits the splendour of thy soul, begot
Divine, bred for eternal pride. Above
Each fell delight, debased upon the soil,
Soars a pure counterpart, winging the air:
Thou canst but lust upon the one; but Love
Impassioned doth the other wake. ’Tis toil;
I cloak it not; yet ’tis a joy that bides,
Swelling the more the hoarier, till Day dawn
And shadows flit away. Decide thee then!
Cast thy free choice! These portals lead thee where,
Soul-plumed, new realms upon thy flight are borne.
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Brace up thy thew! Tread out this path, that guides
Whither pure bliss shall rock thy dizzy ken,
And end thy weary coil!”
Wondering the Angel bound me; scarce a glance
Turned I away upon yon Harlot nude,
Chasteless and brazen, touching my coarser sense
Distastefully; not wholly impotent.
In visionary mood
Hung I, swoll’n on the flow of eloquence
To thought on thought. Nor less did ravishment,
Exhaling music on its wing, uplift my soul,
Gazing upon that beauteous Eminence.
(44)
Enthralled so was I held. Then as my trance
Bated awhile, I searched my tongue’s control.
“Ecstatic Flame!” I broke, “yet would I know
Further one thing. Truly I bow before thee!
I yield my due of homage; I adore thee,
Eternal Radiance from on high! Thou bright
Image immortal! Yet, do I tempt the throe
Of yon steep way, what strength shall flush my thew
Sinking amid its steeps? Yea, as I woo
Its delicate largess, if my feeble might
Fail of its scintillant goal, what then? What deed,
What earnest, decks my quest, so to exchange
For problematical bliss the vivid range
Of present sweets. Fool I to chance the meed
(45)
Of dusk futurity for the portion sprung
Flashing upon my sight! Forgive this tongue
Imperious, recalcitrant; yet sure,
I utter freely, speaking as I read
Diverse each several lure.”
Tranquil, immovable, in a mien that won
Me wholly out, respondent it begun:—
“The choice thine own; cast as thou wilt: ’tis mine
But to declare the Truth. Who shall assign
Aright his lot, him shall I flush with strength,
Leaping from might to might. Each vision true
Opens to wider bliss: each vanquished thrall
Touches to larger freedom; lea on lea
Bounding to vision to Life’s uttermost length.
(46)
I woo not, but am woo’d; and yet withal
Woo I; imperative my lineaments woo
For sheer vitality. Thus shall I thee.
Think’st thou the end shall fail? Who perseveres
Assuredly shall clasp the ultimate goal;
If ultimate goal there be, for bliss shall roll
Boundless before thy view. I say not fears
Shall cease, that strife shall vanish, or that all
Conjured rhapsodical, dispassionately
Shall swim in peace. Nay, all thy passionate days
Shall reach from peak to peak, trial amid,
Gainsayers athwart, waking Life’s deepest zest.
Yet shall the goal gleam rare before thy gaze;
And if upon thy quest,
Sinking dispirited, the goal be hid
(47)
Wrapt in a gloomy mist, ’twill pass awhile,
And thou be all thy strenuous self again. Ally
Thyself to me, nor seek thee to beguile
Idly the transient hours, and all that I
Have shown before thy sight fulfilled shall be.
I say ’t; and am its earnest eternally.”
And then methought I stood on quaking limb,
Forth to proceed upon that wizard way.
Heaven-high the portals towered above me; dim
Stretched the precipitous path, tortuous and grey,
Leaping from crag to crag. Then all the gloom
Seized fast about me, as with hesitant stride
I took its edge initiative. Yet on
Went I, holding a dauntless pride
(48)
Steady within me; on and on, upon
The slippery crags, amid the dunes and meres,
Poised oft o’er bottomless pits, turning beside
Pitiless tarns, brackish with mortal tears.
As forth I strode, fairer and yet more fair
Shone the horizon; rarer did illume
Its scintillant goal my passage lofty and strait.
And my high Mentor, steady before my eye,
Shone so exceeding beauteous, more and more,
Increasing so in clarity, scope, and air,
That a wild ecstasy possessed my thought,
Riotous and fervid in me. Steadily
So followed I, with resolute thew where’er
It led me forth, casting no glance away:
Thus on, yet on; waning and waxing on.
Yet, as I sped, methought a dizzy shore
Beguiled my feet aside, so to descry
(49)
What depths the abysm held. Pallid and wan
Shrank my Instructor on my curious eye.
Treading its perilous edge I did essay
To plumb the gulf, with darkness doubly fraught;
When, gazing with profound intent, a wind
Broke with an awful triumph up its steep
Embankments jagged forth on me.
All terror-strick’n upstarted I, to find
’Twas but the embers crumbling in the grate,
Loud on the icy Night. Awakened so
Musing I stood to recollect, and lo!
My lips had formed to prayer.—
Then thro’ the gloom I gat me to my sleep.